When the Light of the World Was Subdued, Our Songs Came Through

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by Joy Harjo

“Sometimes I drink;

  other times I think I’m just crazy.”

  “Hey, here comes Jim. God, he’s ugly.”

  “That’s okay, brother, sit down.

  Chippewas are always like that.”

  “Yeah, Chippewas were made to be like that.”

  The words jerk through me;

  they vibrate and wobble for a long time.

  “If them Pueblos ever learn to work,

  they’ll be okay.”

  “It’s a cultural trait with them,

  climb cliffs and throw rocks,

  too tired to work.”

  “I heard three Indian guys got stabbed

  downtown outside the Winstins.

  Someone was watching them from the Federal Building

  from the sixth floor where the BIA is.”

  Silence is sometimes the still wind;

  sometimes it is the emptiness.

  “I went to see my parole officer;

  he said to behave or we’ll send you back to the res.”

  “Man, when I was about to get out,

  I heard the guard yell, ’0367 Griego,

  get your red ass in gear, you’re going home,’

  I couldn’t believe it; I just stood there and cried.”

  “I know. I know. Here, have another drink

  of culture.”

  I don’t know if my feet can make it;

  my soul is where it has always been;

  my heart is staggering somewhere in between.

  selection from From Sand Creek

  Don’t fret now.

  Songs are useless

  to exculpate sorrow.

  That’s not their intent anyway.

  Strive

  for significance.

  Cull seeds from grass.

  Develop another strain of corn.

  Whisper for rain.

  Don’t fret.

  Warriors will keep alive in the blood.

  Somehow

  it was impossible

  for them

  to understand true safety.

  Knowledge for them

  was impossible

  to understand as pain.

  That was untrustworthy,

  lost to memory.

  Death was sin.

  Their children

  hunkered down, frightened

  into quilts, listening

  to wind

  speaking Arapahoe words

  for pain and beauty and generations.

  But they refused to understand.

  Instead, they protested

  the northwind,

  kept adding rooms.

  Built fences.

  Their children learned to plan.

  Their parents required submission.

  Warriors could have passed

  into their young blood.

  EMERSON BLACKHORSE MITCHELL (1945–), Diné, was born near Shiprock, New Mexico, where he still lives. He began writing poetry while he was in boarding school in the 1960s, using both Navajo and English. His autobiography, Miracle Hill: The Story of a Navajo Boy, was first published in 1967 and was reprinted in 2004 by the University of Arizona Press. He teaches at Red Mesa High School in Teec Nos Pos, Arizona, and at the Shiprock campus of Diné College.

  Miracle Hill

  I stand upon my miracle hill,

  Wondering of the yonder distance,

  Thinking, When will I reach there?

  I stand upon my miracle hill.

  The wind whispers in my ear.

  I hear the songs of old ones.

  I stand upon my miracle hill;

  My loneliness I wrap around me.

  It is my striped blanket.

  I stand upon my miracle hill

  And send out touching wishes

  To the world beyond hand’s reach.

  I stand upon my miracle hill.

  The bluebird that flies above

  Leads me to my friend, the white man.

  I come again to my miracle hill.

  At last I know the all of me—

  Out there, beyond, and here upon my hill.

  ADRIAN C. LOUIS (1946–2018), Lovelock Paiute, the oldest of twelve children, moved from Nevada to Rhode Island, earning his BFA and MFA in creative writing from Brown University. Louis published extensively in both poetry and prose, winning the Pushcart Prize and the Cohen Award as well as fellowships from the Bush Foundation, the South Dakota Arts Council, and the National Endowment for the Arts. His time teaching and living in the Pine Ridge Reservation community in South Dakota heavily influenced his poetry. Electric Snakes was his last poetry collection.

  Skinology

  Yellow roses, wild roses,

  their decades of growth,

  a fierce fence between

  the drunkenness

  of my neighbors

  & me.

  I have known

  some badass Skins.

  Clichéd bad-to-the-bone

  Indians who were maybe

  not bad but just broke,

  & broken for sure.

  Late winter, late night,

  a gentle rapping, a tapping

  on my chamber door . . .

  some guy selling a block

  of commodity cheese

  for five bucks.

  You climbed a tree,

  sat there for hours

  until some kind of voice

  called you back home.

  You unfolded your wings,

  took to the air & smashed

  into earth. They hauled

  you to ER, then Detox

  where they laughed

  at your broken wings.

  Once, I thought

  I saw eagles soar,

  loop & do the crow hop

  in the blue air while

  the sun beat the earth

  like a drum, but I was

  disheveled & drinking

  those years.

  Indians & the Internet.

  Somewhere, sometime.

  Whenever a Messiah

  Chief is born, jealous

  relatives will drag him

  down like the old days

  only instantly now.

  In a brutal land

  within a brutal land

  with corrupt leaders

  & children killing themselves

  we know who is to blame.

  But, we are on a train,

  a runaway train & we

  don’t know what to do.

  The good earth,

  the sun blazing down,

  us in our chones, butts

  stuck in inner tubes,

  floating down a mossy

  green river, speechless,

  stunned silent with joy

  & sobriety & youth,

  oh youth.

  She smiled at me

  & got off her horse.

  She smelled of leather

  & sweat & her kiss has

  lasted me fifty years.

  Bad Indians do

  not go to hell.

  They are marched

  to the molten core

  of the sun & then

  beamed back to

  their families,

  purified, whole

  & Holy as hell.

  This Is the Time of Grasshoppers

  and All That I See Is Dying

  Colleen,

  this is the time of grasshoppers

  and all that I see is dying except

  for my virulent love for you.

  The Cowturdville Star-Times,

  which usually has a typo

  in every damn column,

  says the grasshoppers this year

  “are as big as Buicks” and

  that’s not bad, but then we

  get two eight-point pages

  of who had dinner with whom

  at the bowling alley café and

  who went shopping at Target

  in Rapid City and thus the high

>   church of Adrian the Obscure is sacked.

  Even my old Dylan tapes are fading,

  becoming near-comic antiques.

  The grasshoppers are destroying

  our yard and they’re as big as

  my middle finger saluting God.

  The grass is yellow. The trees

  look like Agent Orange has hit

  but it’s only the jaw-work of those

  drab armored insects who dance

  in profusion and pure destruction.

  Sweet woman, dear love of my life,

  when you’re not angry and sputtering

  at everything and everyone, you

  become so childlike, so pure.

  Your voice seems to have grown

  higher recently, almost a little-girl pitch.

  Today, like most days, I have you

  home for your two-hour reprieve

  from the nursing home prison.

  We’re sitting at the picnic table in

  the backyard staring at the defoliation

  of lilacs, brain matter, and honeysuckle.

  You’re eating a Hershey Bar and

  a crystal glob of snot is hanging

  from your nose.

  I reach over, pinch it off,

  and wipe it on my jeans.

  You thrust the last bite

  of chocolate into my mouth

  as a demented grasshopper

  jumps onto your ear.

  You scream. I howl

  with laughter until you do too.

  Happiness comes with a price.

  This is the time of grasshoppers

  and all that I see is dying except

  for my swarming love for you.

  Last night on PBS some

  lesioned guy being screwed to death

  by legions of viral invisibility

  blurted the great cliché of regret:

  I wish I could be twenty

  again and know what

  I know now . . .

  My own regrets are equally foolish.

  And, I wonder, how the hell

  is it I’ve reached a place

  where I’d give what’s left

  of my allotment of sunsets

  and frozen dinners

  for some unholy replay

  of just one hour in some nearly

  forgotten time and place?

  Darling,

  in the baked soil of the far west,

  I first saw the ant lions, those

  hairy little bugs who dug funnel

  traps for ants in the dry earth.

  At twelve, looking over the edge

  of one such funnel surrounded by

  a circle of tiny stones in the sand,

  I aimed a beam of white light

  from my magnifying glass

  and found I could re-create

  a hell of my own accord.

  Poverty and boredom

  made me cruel early on.

  The next summer while digging

  postholes I found a cache of

  those grotesque yellow bugs

  we called Children of the Earth

  so I piled matches atop them

  and barbecued their ugliness.

  I was at war with insects.

  In my fifteenth summer I got

  covered with ticks in the sagebrush

  and that fall I nervously lost my cherry

  in a cathouse called the Green Front

  and got cursed with crabs but that’s

  not what I want to sing about

  at all . . . come on now.

  This is no bug progression.

  This ain’t no insect sonata.

  This is only misdirection,

  a sleight of hand upon the keys

  and the unholy replay of just

  one hour in some nearly

  forgotten time and place

  that I’d like to return to

  will remain myth or maybe

  a holy, tumescent mystery.

  And let’s not call

  these bloodwords

  POETRY or a winter count

  of desperate dreams

  when reality is much simpler.

  Colleen,

  I swear to Christ

  this is the time of grasshoppers

  and all that I see is dying except

  for my sparkling love for you.

  LINDA NOEL (1947–), Koyongk’awi Maidu, is a former poet laureate of Ukiah, California. Her debut collection, Where You First Saw the Eyes of Coyote, was published in 1983; since then, her work has been featured in exhibits across California such as “Sing Me Your Story, Dance Me Home: Art and Poetry from Native California” and in anthologies such as Reinventing the Enemy’s Language: Contemporary Native Women’s Writings of North America.

  Lesson in Fire

  My father built a good fire

  He taught me to tend the fire

  How to make it stand

  So it could breathe

  And how the flames create

  Coals that turn into faces

  Or eyes

  Of fish swimming

  Out of flames

  Into gray

  Rivers of ash

  And how the eyes

  And faces look out

  At us

  Burn up for us

  To heat the air

  That we breathe

  And so into us

  We swallow

  All the shapes

  Created in a well-tended fire

  LESLIE MARMON SILKO (1948–), Laguna, was born in Albuquerque, New Mexico, and raised at Laguna Pueblo, and she graduated from the University of New Mexico. A multidimensional artist, she works in poetry, essays, fiction, painting, and film. Her literary works include Storyteller, Ceremony, Almanac of the Dead, Gardens in the Dunes, and The Turquoise Ledge: A Memoir. The recipient of a MacArthur Foundation Grant and a National Endowment for the Arts fellowship, Silko lives in Tucson, Arizona.

  Where Mountain Lion Lay Down with Deer

  I climb the black rock mountain

  stepping from day to day

  silently.

  I smell the wind for my ancestors

  pale blue leaves

  crushed wild mountain smell.

  Returning

  up the gray stone cliff

  where I descended

  a thousand years ago.

  Returning to faded black stone

  where mountain lion lay down with deer.

  It is better to stay up here

  watching wind’s reflection

  in tall yellow flowers.

  The old ones who remember me are gone

  the old songs are all forgotten

  and the story of my birth.

  How I danced in snow-frost moonlight

  distant stars to the end of the Earth,

  How I swam away

  in freezing mountain water

  narrow mossy canyon tumbling down

  out of the mountain

  out of deep canyon stone

  down

  the memory

  spilling out

  into the world.

  Long Time Ago

  Long time ago

  in the beginning

  there were no white people in this world

  there was nothing European.

  And this world might have gone on like that

  except for one thing:

  witchery.

  This world was already complete

  even without white people.

  There was everything

  including witchery.

  Then it happened.

  These witch people got together.

  Some came from far far away

  across oceans

  across mountains.

  Some had slanty eyes

  others had black skin.

  They all got together for a contest

  the way people have baseball tournaments nowadays

/>   except this was a contest

  in dark things.

  So anyway

  they all go together

  witch people from all directions

  witches from all the Pueblos

  and all the tribes.

  They had Navajo witches there,

  some from Hopi, and a few from Zuni.

  They were having a witches’ conference,

  that’s what it was.

  Way up in the lava rock hills

  north of Cañoncito

  they got together

  to fool around in caves

  with their animal skins.

  Fox, badger, bobcat, and wolf

  they circled the fire

  and on the fourth time

  they jumped into that animal’s skin.

  But this time it wasn’t enough

  and one of them

  maybe Sioux or some Eskimos

  started showing off.

  “That wasn’t anything,

  watch this.”

  The contest started like that.

  Then some of them lifted the lids

  on their big cooking pots,

  calling the rest of them over

  to take a look:

  dead babies simmering in blood

  circles of skull cut away

  all the brains sucked out.

  Witch medicine

  to dry and grind into powder

  for new victims.

  Others untied skin bundles of disgusting objects:

  dark flints, cinders from burning hogans where the

  dead lay

  Whorls of skin

  cut from finger tips

  sliced from the penis end and clitoris tip.

  Finally there was only one

  who hadn’t shown off charms or powers.

  The witch stood in the shadows beyond the fire

  and no one ever knew where this witch came from

  which tribe

  or if it was a woman or a man.

  But the important thing was

  this witch didn’t show off any dark thunder charcoals

  or red ant-hill beads.

  This one just told them to listen:

  “What I have is a story.”

  At first they all laughed

  but this witch said

  Okay

  go ahead

  laugh if you want to

  but as I tell the story

 

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