by Jessica Sims
Josh stilled, watching me.
“Just been putting in some long hours,” I told him with a faint smile. “I’ll catch up on my sleep this weekend.”
“Don’t let them work you too hard. Those overnights are rough on the body.” He turned to look at Josh. “I’m counting on you to keep an eye on her. She has a one-track mind.”
“Oh, I know,” Josh said, taking a sprinkle-covered donut from the box.
My dad chuckled.
• • •
I watched as Josh charmed Posey and my dad. He told them funny anecdotes about his security job, never mentioning that he bodyguarded vampires, of course. He told them about his big family, all brothers, and how Beau had raised him as a teenage boy when their father had passed away. How we’d met while I’d been at work, and how he’d talked me into going out with him.
My dad loved him, of course. It was impossible not to when Josh was on full-charm offensive. He made Posey blush with his obvious compliments, but she didn’t mind those in the slightest. And they laughed and chatted as Josh devoured almost a dozen donuts on his own. They didn’t seem to find that unusual.
After my dad and Posey left, Josh turned and grinned at me. “They’re really nice. I like them.”
I said nothing.
“I think they like me, too.” He sounded almost smug about it.
“Of course they do,” I said crankily. “You charmed their socks off.”
He ignored my bad mood and cleared the plates off the table. “You should really tell your dad, you know. It’s not right to keep a secret like that from someone.”
I gritted my teeth. “It’s for the best.”
“No, it’s not,” he said, coming to my side. He put his hands around my waist, tugging me in close. “It’s not okay. You’re sick and you’re hiding it from him.”
“That’s right,” I snapped, jerking out of his grip. “And it’s none of your business.”
He looked at me in surprise. “What’s wrong with you?”
“All of this,” I told him, gesturing at my dirty apartment, the empty plates. His dirty shirts tossed over the couch. It bothered me, just as much as his ease sliding into my personal life did. “Just because you met my father doesn’t mean you have the right to . . . to . . . ” I struggled to find the right word for exactly who Josh was to me.
“To act like we’re a couple?”
“Yes,” I exploded. “We’re not! We can’t be!”
His eyes glinted, hard. “So what was last night about?”
I stared at him, surprised. “You, of all people, should know that it wasn’t anything serious.”
“ ‘You, of all people’?” He raised an eyebrow, and I got the distinct feeling that I’d hurt him. “Is that some sort of jab at me?”
It was, and it wasn’t nice of me. I deflected. “You know this thing between us can’t be. Set up shop in Greenland permanently? Destroy the Alliance? Ruin your brother’s life and Bathsheba’s? Force the agency to close? No, thank you.”
“How about you try trusting me?” Josh said with a growl.
“How about you trust me to decide what’s best for me?” I fired back. “What’s best for my father? You don’t know us. You only think you know me. Just because we slept together once doesn’t give you the right to decide my life now. I told you that this couldn’t be anything. I never lied about that.”
He glared at me. “You’re making a mistake.”
“Why? Because it doesn’t fit your plans?”
“My plans—”
“—can change now that you’ve nailed me. Congratulations.”
Josh’s gaze darkened. “You think that’s all I was after?” he said in a harsh voice. “That I just wanted to get a little tail?”
“You said yourself that you’re a predator and you like to chase the prey. What else could it be?”
His mouth curved in a sneer. “What else when it comes to me, right? Is that what you wanted to say?”
I didn’t reply. It was.
The realization dawned on his face, and I watched his expression harden. “You know what your problem is, Marie? You say that you don’t want to hurt others, but I think that’s not it. You don’t trust anyone not to hurt you, so you just cut everyone out of your life.”
“You have me all figured out.” I gave a slow, mocking clap of my hands. “Way to go.”
He shook his head and picked his cap off the counter. “You want me to go? Fine. I’m gone.”
“Fine! Then go.”
Josh gave me one last hard glare before slamming out my front door. I watched him go, arms crossed over my chest, feeling righteous in my indignation.
It was only after he’d gone that I wondered if he was right.
In pushing everyone away, was I protecting me . . . or them?
Chapter Twelve
Minnie. It is good to see you again,” Andre said, standing up as I approached the table. “You look beautiful, as always.”
Such a thoughtful lie. I looked like hell and knew I did. No amount of makeup could cover up the hollows under my eyes, and I looked weak because I was too tired and sick to even contemplate eating. I just wanted a long damn nap. Maybe a good cry. Unfortunately, I had to sit here and romance a vampire. I gave him a smile, hoping it looked more enthusiastic than I felt.
It wasn’t Andre’s fault that he wasn’t Josh, after all.
I’d taken care to look as good as I could. I’d worn a black cocktail dress that tied behind my neck and left a lot of shoulder and cleavage bare. I’d paired it with tall, open-toed heels and worn my hair twisted up, a few tendrils curling at my neck. When his glance went there, I knew that it didn’t matter how big the circles under my eyes were. I might as well have waved a red flag in front of a bull.
He took my hand, and I felt that disconcerting oddness of his cool flesh against my warm skin. He leaned in to kiss me and I panicked, averting my face so he kissed my cheek. “It’s good to see you, too,” I said, air-kissing his cheek in response.
He pulled away and gave me a scrutinizing look, but he didn’t comment on my reluctance to kiss him on the lips.
It was stupid, I knew. But the thought of kissing him again made me uneasy. Josh wasn’t here tonight to stop him if he drugged me again. I glanced around the crowded restaurant. “No bodyguards tonight?”
“Oh, I have one,” Andre said easily, moving to pull my chair out for me. As I sat, he leaned in and whispered in my ear. “But I didn’t think you liked the last one, so I changed things up a bit. I want you to feel easy in my presence, Minnie.”
I smiled, not sure if I was relieved or saddened that Josh wasn’t here. I hadn’t seen him and he hadn’t called, but why should he have called? I’d been horrible to him. “That was sweet of you to think of me, Andre. But he didn’t make me nervous.”
“Didn’t he? You watched him all night.”
My cheeks felt hot. Well, now. How to answer that? “Just wary, I suppose. Most men don’t need a bodyguard for their dates.”
“I am not most men,” he said and gave me a disarming smile.
“No, you’re not,” I said boldly and gave him my most direct, intense smile. Time to kick things up a notch. “That’s what I like about you.”
“Is it?” he chuckled, as if amused by my response. “You’ll be pleased with tonight’s bodyguard, I think.”
“Oh?” I scanned the wine menu. I’d need something strong soon. My stomach was churning and my head ached, a sure sign that I was going to start hallucinating. It made me anxious, and alcohol would help that.
“Yes,” Andre said, distracting me. “I’m surprised you didn’t notice him right away.”
I glanced up. “Why?”
“Because he’s one of the otter clan. Should be a cousin of yours.” His dark eyes watched me intently.
Oh, shit. I scanned the restaurant again. It was small and elegant, but the tables were only half full. There was no one seated by himself, and no one that seemed like a b
odyguard. Unease fluttered in my stomach.
“Is there a problem, Minnie?” Andre asked coolly.
I looked back at him and realized he was no longer giving me that charming smile. Damn it. The gig was up. He’d figured me out. Or he knew something was wrong. Either way, I was fucked.
Utter panic shot through me, and I felt the urge to burst into tears.
Instead, I took a deep, calming breath and laid it all out on the table. “I lied,” I told him quietly. “I’m human and I’m looking for someone to turn me. That’s why I looked you up.”
“I see,” he said mildly. “And your real name?”
“It’s Marie.”
He studied me, leaning back in his chair as if he’d been the king of the world, deciding what to do with one of his subjects. After a long, long pause, he said, “Marie is a better name than Minnie.”
That . . . didn’t sound like rejection. “I like to think so.”
“Are you the Marie that works at the agency?”
“I am. That’s how I found you. I am a member of the Alliance, if you want to see my ID.”
He flicked a hand, as if brushing away a ridiculous thought. “So, tell me, Marie, what am I going to do with you?”
“I still want to date you,” I told him quickly.
“Correction. You want to be turned.”
I swallowed. Now I felt like a supplicant instead of the one in control of the date. And I felt like a whole lotta prey at the moment. But I needed to be turned. “Yes.”
“I am four hundred years old, my dear girl,” he said, and gone was the soft, laughing notes in his voice. In its place was utter boredom. Sheer jadedness. It struck me how well he’d been masking it all this time. “And in all that time, I have never turned someone to be my companion.”
My heart seized painfully. No! I refused to give up. “You hadn’t met me, though,” I said boldly, taking a page from Josh’s book. “I’d be honored to be your first.”
“Would you?” he said, and I thought I saw a hint of amusement on his face.
Before I could say more, the waiter dropped by, all pleasantries and smooth rolling voice as he began to recite the evening’s specials. Andre, who was all lazy smiles now, ordered an expensive bottle of wine for us and sent the waiter on his way.
“For someone who wishes for me to turn her, you were quick to avoid my kiss, darling Marie.”
“You didn’t tell me before that it was an aphrodisiac,” I pointed out.
“No, I did not,” he admitted, still amused.
“Then you’ll understand why I avoided it tonight. I need my wits about me.”
He inclined his head. “This I understand.”
The waiter returned, opened the wine, and poured. When our glasses were set in front of us and the wine bottle left on the table, Andre picked up his glass and swirled it, admiring the dark red contents. “I’m not entirely sure of where we move next, Marie. I feel as if my trust has been betrayed, yet I enjoy your company. You are clearly not repulsed by mine, and I feel like we have more to offer each other. Yet . . . I do need trust. It is critical for a vampire.”
This didn’t sound like an immediate brush-off. Hope shot through me like adrenaline, and I leaned forward, wanting to grab the table and shake it in my giddiness. “You can absolutely trust me. I’m a very private person.”
“That is good, but I need more than words.”
And he swirled his wineglass again, looking at it thoughtfully, then back to my neck.
I sat back, all the excitement deflating from my body. Oh. That movement was rather obvious. “You want to . . . drink from me?”
“You do wish to be my companion, do you not?”
“I do. More than anything.” It sounded desperate, but hell, I was desperate.
“Then prove it.” His eyes were cunning as he stared across the table at me.
I didn’t even hesitate. “All right. Let’s do it.”
He placed his wineglass on the table and got up from his chair. When I stood, he crooked his arm for me to place my hand through.
It was a gentlemanly gesture, at odds with this power play we were going through. I linked my arm through his, letting him lead me out a side door.
We went into the night, walked around to the side of the small building. I could still hear the music playing from the speakers attached to the door of the restaurant.
“This is acceptable,” he said, maneuvering so we stood in the shadows of the building.
Here? It seemed too open. I supposed anyone that passed by would see a couple making out, however, not a vampire sucking someone’s blood. “All right,” I began—
Andre pushed me roughly against the brick wall, scraping my skin. But more alarming was the hand that went to the base of my throat, tilting my head back and exposing my neck. I struggled against his grip, and he arched an eyebrow.
“I thought you wanted this, Marie?”
“I did. I do.” So why did being pinned against a wall fill me with so much panic? I forced myself to calm, stare him in the eyes. “I can handle this.”
He grinned, and as I watched, his fangs elongated. I stared in appalled horror as they stretched out of his mouth, easily two or three inches long. That was . . . awful. A car passed by, the glare of the headlights moving over his face and making those awful teeth gleam. “This is what you want?”
I swallowed hard. If I said no, he’d never turn me. “It is.”
“But not my kiss?” Despite the long length of his fangs, he seemed to have no trouble speaking, though he was slow and deliberate in the pronunciation of his words. “You refused that?”
“I don’t want to be drugged,” I told him. “I want to be fully aware . . . of everything.”
He grinned at me. “As you wish.”
When he leaned in, I felt a flare of alarm. I didn’t want this.
I wanted Josh.
I didn’t want to be a vampire. I didn’t want this vampire. Underneath his polite exterior, there was something cold about Andre, and it had come out tonight.
Teeth sank into my neck. There was a hard pinch of pain, and then a rip of agony flashed through me. I yelped and stiffened, and Andre’s hand covered my mouth.
It felt like I’d been skewered with two hot pokers, but even worse was the sucking that followed. I felt blood dribbling down my throat, against the fabric of my dress. He slurped at my neck, and drank. And drank. It seemed to go on forever, painful and messy.
Finally, his fangs pulled free from my neck with a nasty sucking sound. He stepped away and grinned as blood gushed down my neck.
“You’ll want to apply pressure there,” he said, wiping at the corners of his mouth. As I watched, his fangs receded. He pulled out a white handkerchief and handed it to me.
I pressed it against my neck. Blood was everywhere, down my neck, dribbling into my cleavage. I felt weak . . . and revolted.
I’d just let a vampire drink from me. It was the most violating thing I’d ever felt. Far worse than the kiss. With the drug of his saliva, the kiss had been tolerable. This was just . . . beyond revolting. I swallowed hard. “I . . . I think I’m still bleeding.”
He adjusted his cuff links, then smoothed a hand over his hair, seemingly bored now that he’d fed. “Was it everything you expected?”
“No.” Honesty had served me well thus far.
Andre grinned, and I was repulsed by the red tinge of his teeth. “Have I scared you away?”
“No. I still want you to turn me.”
“We’ll see,” he said lightly. “I do have need of a blood partner.”
My heart sped up with hope.
“I’m just not sure that you’re the right woman for the job. It’ll require a little more . . . time.”
My stomach gave a sickening clench. I knew what he meant. Time and a few more feedings to decide if he wanted to cut me loose or keep me on. I swallowed hard. “Just call me, then. I’m available.”
So much for letting the predator ch
ase his prey.
But he gave me a thin smile. “Oh, I will.” He leaned in and brushed a finger along the curve of my breast, wiping off a bead of blood. He lifted it to his mouth and grinned. “Delicious. Thank you for dinner, dear one. You look a mess, though. Perhaps we should call our date off early?”
I felt a little dizzy and used, standing there with the handkerchief pressed to my neck. “That sounds fine to me.”
He leaned in and gave me a dry kiss on the cheek. Then he winked and walked away, whistling.
I picked up my purse from where I’d dropped it on the ground, and I nearly staggered, black spots dancing in front of my eyes. Andre had taken quite a bit of blood. I didn’t know how much, and my neck was still bleeding. I kept the handkerchief pressed there and staggered back to the agency.
It was still bleeding a few minutes later, when I heavily sat down at my desk and stared at the dancing screen saver on my computer.
“Marie, are you okay?” Ryder scrambled up from her desk. “You’re covered in blood!”
“I’m fine,” I said. But there was a stupid wobble in my throat. I felt weak as hell, and there was blood everywhere. I wanted to go home and take a hot shower. And cry. Crying sounded good.
“Do you want to talk about it?”
I shook my head and raised my pinky.
She sighed and raised her pinky in response. “Can I get you anything?”
A shoulder to cry on, perhaps? I gave her a wan smile. “Do we have any Band-Aids?”
“I’m pretty sure we do,” she said, hustling to the office bathroom. “Be right back.”
I pressed the handkerchief against my neck harder, and I wasn’t surprised when my desk wavered in front of my eyes and the walls of the office seethed, as if covered by spiders.
Great. Another hallucination. I closed my eyes and prayed tonight would be over soon.
• • •
By the time the day shift came in to work, I wore a pink sweater over my stained dress (the sweater borrowed from Ryder) and had my hair down over the Cookie Monster Band-Aids on my neck. I’d had a few glasses of water to help with the loss of blood, but I was still feeling incredibly weak. I didn’t have the energy to type, much less answer the phone.
