Her whimpers and cries guide me through her pleasure like a map. I love having my woman’s taste on my tongue. I start to lick my way down to her center, stopping to swirl around her belly button before settling between her legs.
“Felix, don’t. I don’t think I can take it,” she pleads.
I give a dark chuckle. She’ll learn to take it and a lot more before I’m done. I haven’t even started. I place a kiss to the top of her mound and wink at her.
“Just breathe.”
“Felix,” she cries out, her hips lifting from the pillow.
I pull her legs around my neck, encouraging her to ride my face. This feast was made for me to enjoy and I plan to do just that. Kaye never should’ve let me have a taste.
I’m hooked now.
Chapter 15
This is Real
Kaye
Sitting on the side of the tub rubbing oil into my skin, I let out a silent squeal. I can’t believe what I’ve been doing all day. I also can’t believe how sore and relaxed I feel at the same time.
Today reached well beyond my expectations. I love that he took his time with me. Teaching me along the way. I felt so powerful watching his pleasure as I took control of my own.
Somehow, I know it wouldn’t be the same with anyone else. All of the feelings I had swirling around in me made every touch worth gold to me.
My face hurts from smiling so hard and my throat is raw from screaming. I caught on after a while that all the screaming turns him on. I’ll admit his moans and groans are pretty sexy as well.
“He’s eating a burger and fries with Brooklyn, Jamie, and Dylan. No time to talk to Lix. He’s with his boys,” Felix says as he enters the bathroom chuckling and shaking his head.
He stands over me, cupping the back of my neck to bend and kiss my lips. The kiss is much too quick. After all of the sex we’ve had, my belly and girly parts are still clenching in anticipation. I shouldn’t be thinking about him touching me again.
My legs wouldn’t even work after we were done. He had to draw my bath and carry me into the bathroom to set me into it. Seriously, I stood and my legs gave out from under me.
“Are we going to go pick him up?” I ask.
“Nope, the little dude is going to have a sleepover with Jamie. He’ll bring him back in the morning,” he replies.
“He didn’t want to talk to me?” I pout.
“He said to tell you not to worry about him. ‘See Mama later,’ were his words before hanging up.”
“I think he’s growing up too fast,” I mumble.
“Just moving out of the way for brothers and sisters,” Felix says with a smile on his lips.
My mouth falls open. I blink at him to see if he’s teasing. I’m still not entirely sure that he is.
“You do know that I’m on the pill, right?” I say.
“That’s fine for now. Once my family is back home with me, I’ll let you know when I think it’s time you stop,” he says so matter-of-factly.
“When you think?” I lift a brow.
He scoops me off the edge of the tub and starts back into the bedroom. He climbs on the bed, settling me between his legs as he puts his back to the headboard. He kisses the back of my head, while linking our fingers together. He lifts our hands before us, playing with my fingertips.
“You do know this can’t go on like this forever?” he murmurs. “I get there are questions that are going to be tough to answer and you have every right to be angry with your parents. Two years is a long time to ignore having a daughter and grandchild.
“But how long do you plan to hide here. Push comes to shove, I’ll figure out a way to be here, but our lives are back home. We need to have a plan,” he says.
“I don’t know. I’ve been focused on Dae-Dae being safe and happy. I’m still so pissed off at them…my dad. Now, I’m writing again and that will only add fuel to the fire.
“I think I have a chance to do something with my writing. It will be a chance to show my father that God is in everything. To me, it all will be worth it if I make this happen. Raising Dae-Dae right and making a go of publishing.
“I feel like I need to do this before I go back. You know my dad. If I show up with nothing, he’ll get on his soapbox and preach about it,” I huff.
He’s quiet for a moment still playing with my fingers. When he stops, he wraps our locked together limbs around me. His face buries into my neck and he inhales deeply. I giggle when his tosses his legs over mine caging me in.
“I think I did this all wrong. I know you better than to cage you in. I’ve been taking care of everything and never thought about how it would look if you went back home to your family with no career or anything,” he pauses and huffs before he continues.
“Fuck, you gave up everything for Danny and Dashawn. You never finished your last year in college. Shit, baby,” he groans.
“Actually, I did finish. I just never made a big deal about it and I’ve been saving to pay off my balance to get the degree I finished,” I say quietly and shrug my shoulders.
“You were so excited to walk for graduation. Danny was so happy for you,” his voice is laced with pain.
“Things change. The one person that would have meant the most to have there wouldn’t have been anyway.”
“You and your mom were so close,” he replies.
“Yeah, but you weren’t there that night. She sat there and listened to him hurl all those hurtful words at me. You know she was the one to take me to get on the pill,” I scoff.
“Not because I was sexually active, but because I used to be in such pain during that time of the month. I mean, sure, the pill isn’t one hundred percent or anything. But she knew and she never stopped Daddy to question me or what happened.”
“Your dad is a hard man to rein in. I’m sure she wanted to. Maybe if she had time to. You guys took off—”
I shake my head cutting his words off. I’ve thought all of this over so many times. I’ve played that day over and over.
“My dad may seem like he runs things, but mom is no wall flower. I’ve seen her step up for Danny over the years without hesitation. Sometimes, I wonder if she knew I was taking the bullet for Danny,” I clamp my mouth shut.
After the day we had, this is the last thing I want to talk about. I snuggle back against his chest, taking comfort in his embrace. His silence tells me two things. He is thinking of a way to make this all right again and as always he knows me well enough to know I need a change in topic.
“You’re not going to let me do this for you, are you?” he grumbles.
“No,” I reply.
“One phone call and I can get your book in the right hands. It would be nothing,” he breathes into my neck.
“And nothing is what I would feel like. I wouldn’t have done it on my own. I want to know I did this. Think about it, Felix. You just said it yourself.
“I gave up everything. I’ve been doing for everyone else. I want to do this for me. I need to know I did this. Something to call all mine,” I say pleadingly.
“I totally understand. It’s been a long time coming. I know you’ll do it.”
“Thank you.”
“Kaye.”
“Yeah.”
“The goal is to be together. To get you back home. You’re amazing. Write the book and shut shit down like I know you can. Show your dad what we know,” he replies kissing my neck. “I’ll be waiting.”
My stomach flips. I suddenly feel like I have so much on the line, but I’m hungry for it. I have a reward awaiting me at the finish line.
“I need you to know one more thing,” he says next to my ear, sending warmth and tingles shooting through my body. “You can call me all yours.”
Chapter 16
Ready or Not
Felix
I know I’m not right. I just couldn’t help myself. I have to fly out tonight and there’s no telling when I’ll get to see Kaye again.
So yeah. I woke her up screaming and coming
all over my face. Just so I could put her back to sleep all over again. It’s the way it should be every morning. Snatch a soul, save a life.
With a woman like Kaye to call my own, I’ll be more relaxed throughout my workday. Absolutely less likely to kick someone’s ass at work. Sometimes those bounties can push you to the edge.
Then there are the other special assignments that make me question the sanity of my family and our government. They know what they send us to do and don’t bat a single lash about it. Knowing I have Kaye in my life as mine has already started to make me think more cautiously about everything.
I have an assignment I need to get back to. I’m thinking of approaching things differently. Less risk, less fall-out, that’s the goal for this one.
“What’s on ya mind?” Brooklyn asks from his seat on the couch.
“Work stuff,” I reply.
“Aye, heard yer getting into some muddy waters. Tread lightly. I will not hesitate to go to war if backlash results from this one,” he warns.
“Dad already informed me of the thin lines here. I’ll get what I need without tipping the scales,” I respond.
“My grandfather is a right bastard. Ya just keep an eye out for trouble.”
“I will. I’m thinking I may be able to do this one from the comfort of my own home if I play this right,” I think aloud.
“Good. Yer the best. Wish ya were working for me,” he says.
“Maybe someday. I still owe you guys a favor,” I acknowledge.
“No favor owed. Kaye be family just as well as ya. Dae-Dae will always have a set of uncles in New York.”
“Thanks.”
“Uncle Cole, fix please,” Dae-Dae interrupts holding up the remote to the Xbox. The batteries must have died again.
Brooklyn gets up to change them out for him. Meanwhile, Dae-Dae comes to sit on my lap and wait. I’ve noticed him clinging to me a bit this visit.
I brush his hair back off his forehead and kiss it. He looks up at me with a beaming smile. I love this kid. My heart aches that I’m leaving again.
“I’ll bring you a new game next time,” I promise.
“Racecars?” he asks with that infectious smile.
“Racecars it is,” I say and give him a sage nod.
“Yes!” he cheers.
Turning in my lap he wraps his arms around my neck for a tight hug. I hug him back absorbing all the good he shares. It’s impossible to be angry around this kid.
“Here ya go,” Brooklyn says as he returns with the control ready for Dae-Dae.
“Thank you,” he sings and rushes back over to his spot in front of the TV.
I watch him with a smile on my face. Kaye is going to get me for letting him play for so long. Although, I don’t think we’ll be seeing her for quite a while.
That thought brings a larger smile to my face. She made this sexy purring noise this morning that had me ready to explode. I can’t wait until the next time I can make that happen.
“I do want to ask you a favor,” Brooklyn says, breaking into my musing.
He has my attention right away, as I notice that he pushes aside his Irish accent. His eyes have a seriousness in them I’m used to seeing for business only. I know what’s said next is important to him.
“It has to do with the old bastard. There was a family back home. Two brothers, both married American women. African American women. They each had daughters. I need to find those girls, but my grandfather can’t get wind of it,” Brooklyn says.
“Do you have names?”
“Deja Walsh and Ciara Walsh. Use the name surname Murphy as well. It was their father’s maternal grandmother’s name,” he replies. “I believe it’s the name that kept them alive.”
“Anything else you have for me to go on?”
“I believe Deja is still in Ireland. Ciara may be somewhere here in the States. Her father was a boxer.
“What you need to know most importantly is not a hair should be harmed on either of their heads. I want to keep it that way. If that bastard finds out I’m asking after them he’ll try to make it otherwise.
“I don’t need another reason to want to kill my own flesh and blood. He’s already collecting a debt he can’t handle,” his last words come out in a hiss.
“Bro, consider them found.”
“Aye, I know.”
* * *
Kaye
I wake with a smile on my face as I stretch my sore and satiated body. A gasp flies from my lips when I get a peek at the clock on the nightstand. It’s darn near three in the afternoon.
I can hear rumbling voices and Dae-Dae’s high-pitched giggles coming from the front of the apartment. I can’t believe Felix allowed me to sleep in this late. I can’t believe I actually slept in.
I’m normally the first one to get up so that I can make breakfast and sometimes, have a minute to myself to write. Breakfast and lunch have both past and I’m still here in bed. My mind goes to the wakeup call from this morning.
I thought I was dreaming at first. Felix’s fingers were biting into my thighs, while his face was buried between my legs. I remember coming so hard, I thought my chest would explode.
Crap!
Then he put it on me until I passed out. Oh my God. I’ve been asleep since.
I scramble from the bed. My legs are shaky, but I can stand and make it to the bathroom on my own two feet. I take a quick shower and freshen up before throwing on leggings and a t-shirt.
When I make it into the living room, my apartment seems so tiny. It’s full of O’Briens. All of the brothers and their two sisters are here. It’s like they’re having a party and I’m the last guest to arrive.
Drinks are in hand, Connie is passing plates around. Dae-Dae looks like he’s on cloud nine as he sits between Felix and Dylan. The three of them are transfixed by a Manga film on the TV. “Bleach,” if I’m not mistaken.
Felix and Dae-Dae have watched a few of the movies before. I think it’s a bit beyond his age, but Dae-Dae seems to love watching it with Felix. Kate and Brooklyn are chatting with Logan, while Jamie remains on his cell phone.
Looking around it dawns on me that I’ve had a family right here in New York. I was kind of homesick after my talk with Felix. I toyed with the idea of calling my mother, but the old familiar hurt rose and I thought better of it.
I have people who care right here in New York. Sure, I would love to be closer to Felix on a regular basis, but for now, I have things I need to do for me. I need to make something happen for me.
“There she is,” Connie sings.
I watch Felix’s head turn in my direction. He doesn’t hesitate to get up and make his way to me. His arms go around my waist and his head dips to place a quick kiss on my lips.
“How are you feeling?” he leans into my ear to ask.
I feel my face burn as I think about what he’s truly asking. I look up into his eyes. They’re twinkling with mischief and mirth.
“I’m great,” I reply with what I hope is a seductive smile.
His lips are at my ear again. He nips it, then licks it soothingly. My fingers coil in his shirt.
“You’re lucky I need to get back. I can still taste you on my tongue,” he whispers.
He has a sexy grin on his lips when he pulls away from my ear. I can see he enjoys stunning me with his words. I’m feeling bold so I offer my own dose of shock.
“Maybe next time I can find out what you taste like,” I whisper back, looking up at him through my lashes.
I see the instant fire that enters his eyes. He licks his lips moving in closer. Just when he goes to say something else, Dae-Dae runs over to wrap himself around Felix’s leg.
We’re pulled back into the room and the reality of our guests that are watching us with amused looks on their faces. I groan internally. Felix gets to go back to Cali.
I’ll be here for all the teasing and questions. I can see it in Connie’s eyes, I’m in for it. Maybe I should leave with Felix.
“Mama
, tell Lix stay,” Dae-Dae says as he holds onto Felix.
I know how the little guys feels. I’m getting sad too. I know he has to head out soon. I’m a little annoyed with myself for sleeping so long.
“He can’t, baby. He’ll be back,” I reply.
Dae-Dae gives the biggest pout. Felix bends to pick him up, kissing his cheek. From the look on Felix’s face this isn’t easy for him either.
“I’ll come back as soon as I can. I promise,” he says to Dae-Dae.
“Come with you?” he replies hopefully.
“I wish,” Felix answers, burying his face in Dae-Dae’s curls, looking over his head into my eyes. “I’m giving your mama time to do her thing, but when the time is right, ready or not, I’m coming to get you both.”
My mouth pops open. I hear the promise in his words and I sure as heck see it in his eyes. Felix has a clock in his head and it’s ticking. I’d sure like to know when it’s set for.
Chapter 17
Who’s Ye Fool?
Felix
I smile down at my phone. Kaye just sent me pictures of her and Dashawn. They’re making duck faces in one. Dae-Dae is showing off his muscles in another.
I miss the fuck out of them both. Kaye is glowing. She looks so happy. According to her, she’s writing up a storm. However, she won’t send me any of her new work.
My phone vibrates again. It’s a picture of just Kaye blowing me a kiss. I bite my lip and grin like a fool.
“I always find it funny that ye fuckers believe ye can hide things from me. Who’s ye fool,, Felix? It sure as fuck ain’t me.” My mother says across the kitchen island, drawing my attention from my phone.
I focus on her face and see her hazel eyes locked in on me. She looks pissed. I groan internally. I don’t know how much she knows, but I’m positive my mother is onto me.
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