“Giovanni, we found out Kristy was given a date rape drug.” Sebastian spits that out.
“You think that is nothing!” He yells so loud at me seriously pissed off. I start to cry again. I feel like all I do is cry!
“I don’t need this shit.” I am saying as my tears keep falling.
Giovanni holds me closer, “calm down, my love. We only want to help!” He tells me as he looks over at Sebastian.
I shake my head burying it into Giovanni’s chest. Giovanni starts to rub my hair. He is trying to soothe me.
“She is blaming herself. She knows who did it though! She does not want to admit to it. She feels ashamed.” Sebastian is telling Giovanni.
Giovanni places a finger under my chin lifting my face up. Making me look at him, “Kristy, tell me what happened. Start from the very beginning. Don’t leave anything out.”
I stand drinking the last of my drink. I go to the kitchen making another one. When I come back, I sit in the chair. I look to both of them.
“You know that massage Candice gave me? Well, she gave me a happy ending.”
Giovanni looks over at me surprised, “you really need to explain in detail. Happy ending?” Giovanni asks me.
I look down to the ground feeling very uncomfortable.
“She fisted me then made me cum. She told me you wanted her to give me the full treatment.”
Giovanni stands up pacing the room, “that is not what I meant. She knows I would never say anything like that.”
“What went on the night you were with her at the bar?” Sebastian ask me.
“I went to a bar for a beer. When I got there I ran into, Candice. She was with two friends. We drank having a good time. We went back to my place. Zoe and Candice started to argue so, Zoe and Sophie left. Candice made her and me another drink. I wanted her to leave so I downed it.”
I am rambling. I do that when I get nervous. I look at the floor crying, “I didn’t know she was going to do that. When she gave me my massage, she told me one day she would taste me. I am sure she fucked me. When Sebastian was helping me get into bed, we smelled sex on the sheets. When I got in the shower my stomach was sticky with cum.”
Giovanni stands up screaming, “This is so fucked up!” He is yelling loudly, scaring the shit out of us.
I sit with my hands buried in my face. I am so humiliated. I take a big drink not looking at either one of them.
“I am going to have a talk with, Candice about this.” Giovanni is saying.
Sebastian then has to put his two cents in, “no Giovanni, I am going to fuck her up. No one is going to do this to, Kristy.”
I look up at the both of them scheming. I am not very happy with either one of them.
“Hey guys, you know I can hear you. I do not want anyone to do anything. I will take care of this myself.”
Sebastian comes over to where I am sitting at. He gets down on his knees in front of me. He places one hand on my knee, “Kristy, I am here for you! I will do whatever I can to help you. If you do not take care of this then I will. I am going to get my things and leave. You guys need to talk.”
He gets up going to the room to get his things. When he is done, he wanders over kissing me on the head then he leaves.
Giovanni comes to me, telling me to sit on the couch with him. I turn to him and plant a big kiss on his mouth. He kisses me back hard.
“If I wasn’t being an ass, you would have never ended up at that bar.”
I look up to him kissing him repeatedly. I have missed kissing him. I have missed him.
“Giovanni, since we are being honest, I want to know what is going on. I seriously need some answers.”
Giovanni softly strokes the side my face then kisses me once more. He takes our glasses for a refill. He hands mine to me.
“My love, what is going on with you and Sebastian?” He is smiling although I did not see anything to smile about at all.
“Giovanni, we are not talking about him and me. We are talking about what is going on with you.”
“Kristy, I will talk about what is going on. First you need to answer my question.”
I sit quietly drinking my drink, thinking. There is a lot I can say about us. He wants honesty; I am going to give it to him.
“There is nothing going on with us. Sebastian has been a great friend to me. He is here for me when I need someone. He is here for me when you aren’t.”
I am getting pretty pissed off. I did not realize the truth to that until I say the words aloud. That is the truth. Sebastian has been here for me so much!
“Kristy, I am sorry I can’t be with you now. I told you I have things going on.” He goes silent, just looking at me.
“Giovanni, I know we haven’t been seeing each other that long. I am not even sure what we have going on. If you are seeing someone else, I do not blame you. You know I am not sure about having a relationship. I think you want one! So if you are seeing someone else tell me.”
He stands up walking to the window. I pick up my drink taking a small sip. I wait for him to say something, anything, yet he just looks out the window. I get tired of waiting so I walk over to him. I wrap my arms around his waist, “please, Giovanni talk to me!”
He turns to me. I am still holding onto him. He kisses my lips then smiles, “Kristy, I am not sure if you know this however, we are in a relationship. You and I. No one else is involved! I love you. Yes, I want you to have fun! I do not want to let you go of me. Does that make sense?”
I shake my head up and down. As always, I am wondering where this conversion is going.
“I just want to know the truth. Answer me and I will tell you anything you want to know.”
I look at him so confused. He has been doing that a lot lately. Confusion is becoming my middle name.
“G, what do you want to know?”
He holds me so I am staring him in the eye, “do you love me? I know you have told me so, but do you really? On the other hand, are you just saying that because I tell you? Do you want to stay with me? In a relationship?”
I take a big breath not sure how to answer that. I try to walk away from him yet he will not let me. He is holding on tight.
I look deep into his eyes, “yes, I really do love you. Yes, I want to stay with you. I am so afraid though! I do not want to get hurt again. I do not want to hurt you. Most of my life I spent in pain. Physically and mentally, I cannot do that again. You are secretive and I do not like it. I need to have a truthful relationship.”
He has tears in his eyes. He let go of me going back to the couch. He picks up his drink downing it. I sit next to him.
“Kristy, I will be completely honest with you! Please don’t be afraid and run.”
After hearing that I pick up my drink taking a sip. I turn my entire body to him. Yes, he has my complete attention.
“The reason why I haven’t been around lately or have called you is because of my ex-wife, Maria. Her and my daughter Sophie are here.”
I knew I heard that name before. Heather has told me that. Sophie, it could not be. I look at Giovanni’s face. Yes, there is a resemblance. What the hell!
“My ex, is very manipulating, rude, angry, and selfish, she is an absolute bitch! Yes, that was my daughter, Sophie. I will address her. You do not have to worry about that. Unfortunately, Sophie is just like her mother. Somehow Maria found out I am seeing you. She came here to cause problems.”
My head starts to hurt. This is bad news although I honestly thought it was going to sound worse.
“You told me before you guys have been apart for years. Why is she doing this now?”
I was actually surprised someone could do this after such a long time of being apart. Jeez, get over it already.
“She is the type of person who believes if she is not happy then no one else will be.”
“So G, how do you think she found out about us? Italy is a long ways away.”
“You know, Sophie and Candice are best friends. I am assuming she found out that way.�
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What a messed up family. There are more messed up families than just his. Hugh and I were messed up a lot, how sad!
“I think Candice did that to you to hurt me. She would do anything Maria asked her. She always has.” Giovanni continues.
I sit in disbelief. How old are these people? Why did they feel like they had to play such childish games?
“Kristy, baby, I am not quite sure what to do. Maria made threats against you. I know how she is and I don’t put it past her to try something.”
I stand up and start to pace the room. He should have told me sooner. Maybe I could have stopped them. Maybe control the situation. Who knew? At least he is being honest now.
“Do you think she will try anything?”
“I doubt it. We talked, getting it figured out. She said they are leaving on Sunday. They are going back to Italy.”
I smile thinking good riddance, bitches.
“Did she say what she wanted, G?”
“She wants to get me back. She brought my daughter with her for reinforcement. She told me she tried to kill herself before they left Italy. Now she says if I don’t go back with her she is going to kill herself in front of me.”
I am in deep thought now. Trying to figure out how much truth is there. Giovanni broke my train of thought when he spoke up again, “Kristy, what do you think of all of this?”
I went to sit back down on the couch with him. I take his hand in mine, “I honestly think you are living too much in your past. If she wants to kill herself, she already would have. She is only doing this for attention she is looking for sympathy. Now that I know what is going on, you are going to quit running. I am a big girl; I can take care of myself. If you want me to stay with you then it doesn’t matter what she thinks.”
He holds me so close to him. He brings my lips to his kissing them. I kiss him back. I feel so much better now that I know what is going on.
“Kristy, I love you so much! Please do not let this come between us. Give me a chance to fix this. I promise it will be better.”
I caress the side of his face feeling sorry for him. I lean my body up to him for another kiss. “Giovanni, I am not going anywhere. I mean that.”
CHAPTER 28
I cannot help but to think these two women are crazy. I decided to take care of this on my own. I am not afraid of them. I have lived with this shit before! They obviously do not know I have gone through it before. I am finally ready to protect Giovanni and myself. Hugh has done a lot to me and I am ready to fight!
Giovanni leans over to me with a grin on his face, “A penny for your thoughts.”
“I am not really thinking about anything.” I lie to him once more. I hate to lie but sometimes I need to.
He grabs me kissing me. I wrap my legs around his waist grinding my pussy into his leg. I am letting him know I am horny. He smiles picking me up taking me to the bedroom.
Giovanni goes into the bathroom while I pull the sheets back. When he comes out, I go in the bathroom. Returning I find him lying on his back naked. I smile at the sight of him. Man, what a sight he is!
I roam over to the bed straddling him so my back was toward him. I lower myself on him extending my legs toward his shoulders. I relax my torso. With both of our legs forming an X, I slid up and down holding his feet to give me advantage.
I have such control this way. I can get as deep as I want, and deep I want. I slide up, down, driving us both insane. I keep sliding harder than faster. Oh, this is so awesome. I continue to go at him. He grabs my hip screaming. He cums, I continue to slide then I cum. Oh, fuck what an amazing feeling that was. He holds me in my position trying to regroup.
“That was so intense!” He says breathing hard.
“I know, right?” I am breathing just as hard as he is. Umm, I love this man.
After we come back to earth, I roll over so I am lying on him. He holds me tight, “I love you, Kristy.”
“I love you too, Giovanni.”
I did not sleep very well that night. I have so much on my mind. G, slept like a baby. Instead, of running in the morning I watch him sleep. He is so peaceful. He is so exhausted I hear him snoring. I smile to myself trying not to laugh.
How can I be with such a beautiful, caring man I wonder? I feel sorry for him being in a marriage with someone so mean. He is such a good man I had to wonder why Maria did not see that, why she did not appreciate that? Some women never know what they have until it is gone. Oh well, I thought. Her loss, my gain.
As I look at him, I realize he is just as hurt and afraid as I am! My heart breaks for both of us. I know I will do whatever I need, to make this man happy. I will be strong! I have to help him along the way. I am determined not to let this woman come between us! I wonder if his son is like this. Was he crazy and mean? Nah, he could not be. He would have to seem more like his dad. I would hope so anyway.
To me, it sounds like Maria was like Hugh. Maybe not physically abusive but definitely mentally abusive. I wonder what he and I would have to do to put this behind us. I was getting better at it although, I still had a hard time trusting people. I also fear that we will get very close and he will leave me. I should go to counseling try to figure out why I feel so messed up in my head.
I snap out of my thoughts when I hear my phone ringing in the kitchen. I put on a robe sneaking out of the bedroom. I close the door to go and answer it.
“Hey, Sebastian. How are you?”
“Good. The real question is how you are?” I smile at how sweet he is. He is such a caring person.
“I am doing well. I feel a lot better. Thanks for all your help with me! I seriously know I couldn’t have gotten through it without you.”
He sounds sad and that bothers me.
“Sebastian, what’s wrong?”
He is quiet not saying anything. I thought I knew what was wrong with him though. I wait for him to talk. However, he does not so, I do.
“Sebastian, I know what is going on with you. I am sorry I cannot feel the same way about you that you feel about me. I do not even want to talk about this now. Giovanni and I are talking. We are making headway.”
“Kristy, I know. I am not giving up on us.”
I shake my head back and forth wondering why everything seems so complicated.
“Sebastian, you are such a big part of my life. I do not want to mess anything up. Be here for me but please don’t push me away.”
“I know, Kristy. I will see you at work.”
I had seriously hoped this would not be the last time I talked to him. I went to the coffee pot turning it on. I then head to the bedroom.
Giovanni is awake. He is just lying there. He holds out his hand to me. I go over to him. He pulls me back in bed. He starts to kiss me. I grab him between the legs, he is hard as steel. I climb on top of him. I start to ride him. I love this position with him. I look into his eyes as he stares into mine. I am quickly moving in circles.
“Baby, I absolutely love the way you ride me. You have great rhythm!”
I move myself up and down. I am full with pleasure. I let out a scream and cum all over him. He does the same right behind me. We hold each other as we regroup.
He kisses the top of my head, “Kristy, do I have to worry about you and Sebastian?”
I honestly did not know how to answer that. I sit there thinking. I did not say anything for a while. Giovanni is giving me a very disappointing look.
“Kristy, I will be completely honest with you about everything in my life. From Maria to work, money, I will tell you whatever you want to know. I need you to do the same for me.”
“Sebastian, well he really wants more with me. Sometimes I think I might want more too. I want to sleep with him although I am afraid of what will happen. I am afraid if I do, he will have more feelings for me than he does now. I am also afraid I might get more feelings for him. He helped me so much when I was sick. It did bring us closer.”
Giovanni has tightened his grip on my leg he is holding. Not
enough to hurt me just enough to let me know he is not happy.
“Kristy, I try to do what I think is right and sometimes it isn’t. Like when I thought, it would be better if you spread your wings. I think I was wrong about that. I want to commit to you now. I want only us in this relationship. Since you do have a feeling for Sebastian, maybe you should sleep with him to see if you feel the same way. If you feel the same way about him after then maybe you should consider being together.”
Giovanni just contradicted himself. Only us yet he goes and tells me to sleep with Sebastian. Jeez, make up your mind. He is so confusing.
“What the fuck do you want me to do, Giovanni?” I am now very frustrated.
“Kristy, if you want to sleep with him please do it . . . if not, then don’t. Believe me I do not want you to! It is just that you need to do what you think is right. I am not going to tell you what that is.”
I wonder if the reason why he is almost mental is what Maria had done throughout their marriage. We are both seriously fucked up people I feel. Our marriages did a number on us!
“Are you in love with, Sebastian?” I look at Giovanni his eyes are so sad.
“Giovanni, I like him, I love you.”
I kiss him hoping it will make him feel better. The only thing I keep asking myself is why is everything so messed up?
I get up going into the bathroom. When I come out Giovanni is gone. Going into the living room, I see him on the patio. I sit in a chair across from him so I can see his face.
“Giovanni, I know you said Maria is a bitch yet it seems like so much more.”
“When we got married she was pregnant. I was young, scared. I thought I was doing the right thing. I knew deep down in my heart it was not right. What else was I supposed to do though? On my wedding night, I laid in bed crying.”
He sits quietly for a while remembering. I patiently wait for him to continue.
“The more time went on, the worse it got. We fought all the time. She would throw dishes at me. On occasion, she would hit me. She called me names, telling me I was worthless. She quit having sex with me. I found out she had many boyfriends. She had my kids hating me! They blamed me for everything that happened. The older my son got he started to see the truth. My daughter still blames me. I could not take any more so I went to counseling. Through medicine and counseling, I found out that if I didn’t leave her I would have killed myself.”
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