by Bridle, Dee
Ava
As Will and Janey kissed on the side of the dance floor, I moved away and headed back upstairs. Zac was no longer standing where we had left them and I searched around for him. I soon found him further back in the lounge area where he was sitting with Noah and his friend with the two girls. The only problem was that one of the girls was now sitting on his lap.
I didn’t take another step. I felt confused with the scene that was playing in front of my eyes. We had been kissing the hell out of each other half an hour ago, and now he had someone else sitting on him.
The girl laughed and leaned back on him, putting her arm around his neck. With frustration coursing through me, I turned back around and quickly left that level.
As I hit the ground level, I was weaving my way through everyone when my phone vibrated. Janey.
Janey: Where are you?
Ava: Going to head home
Janey: What happened?
Ava: Nothing, just time for me to go
Janey: Wait! I’ll come with you!
Ava: Stay with Will. I’m fine.
Janey: Girls night remember??? Wait there. I can see you
She appeared in front of me and I forced a smile.
“Don’t leave because of some skank,” she said instantly.
I couldn’t lie to her or pretend that it didn’t bother me.
“It’s probably best if I go home.”
“Why? You were having fun, weren’t you? Ignore her. It happens wherever he goes,” she said, taking my hand and squeezing it.
“Doesn’t mean I have to like it,” I answered. “Go back and have fun. It’s a school night anyway, remember?” I said with a wink, trying to lighten the mood.
She looked into my eyes for a moment.
“Let’s go then. We came out together, and we’ll go home together,” she said pulling me towards the entrance.
We stepped out into the cooler night air and looked for a taxi.
“So, who’s his friend?”
“That’s Max,” she said rolling her eyes. “Total scumbag. They bonded during their time in Juvie together five years ago.”
I kept an eye out for a taxi. Five years ago, Zac was in Juvenile Detention, while my mother disappeared from my life.
“Do you think he’ll take her home with him once he realizes I’m no longer there?” I asked suddenly.
Janey shrugged.
“Who can tell? If it was anyone else, I’d say probably, but he’s different with you, so who knows.”
I sighed in frustration and put my hand out for a taxi. I couldn’t take much more of this.
Zac
A few hours later in the taxi on the way home, I looked at the Facebook photo Janey had put up of them both licking ice creams.
She had tagged Ava and had called it: Nothing like finishing a night with dessert! A girls got to have some sweetness in her life
I looked at Ava, laughing and licking at the same time. I had known the moment Ava had left the club earlier that night, because Janey had texted me a furious, short message. I didn’t doubt that the title of the photo was a shot at me as well. I let out a frustrated sigh, knowing I was damned regardless of which way I went with this.
As we walked into Noah’s, my eyes settled on Ava curled up on the couch, asleep next to Janey. I suddenly wanted her. I could have sworn I felt something in my chest as I looked her over. Fuck.
Janey was awake and went straight into Will’s arms, giving me a death stare on the way, making sure I was aware of her feelings on the matter. Tonight had been to get Ava away from Max. Nothing else.
I knew I would lose myself if I stayed around her long enough, and the thought scared me. Her eyes opened slowly and landed on me. I suddenly wanted her hot and panting body beneath me, begging for me. I didn’t want to think how much she unsettled me. I didn’t want to think about how I could never give her what she wanted or deserved.
Chapter Nine: I’m Worth More Than a One-Night Stand
Ava
I watched him come over to me and crouch down. The fact that there was no girl with him made me feel better. He didn’t say anything as he lifted me in his arms and carried me into his room.
He kicked the door shut behind him and put me down slowly so I was facing him.
“Did you kiss her?” I asked, still hurt and angry about tonight.
“No,” he glowered putting his hands on my waist. “I just didn’t want you anywhere near Max.”
I saw the fire in his eyes and glared back at him in defiance.
“So, having a big boobed hot girl in your lap fixed that?”
His eyes danced with amusement.
“It was a means to an end, Ava.”
“Don’t laugh at me,” I whispered, wanting to tell him how much he hurt me.
A sane person would leave, but his eyes seemed to dare me to try. He twirled me around until I was against the wall and he was up against me.
“She wasn’t hot,” he said, his mouth inches from mine.
“She was big boobed,” I whispered, wanting his lips on mine regardless of the consequences.
“Didn’t notice,” he whispered back, looking down at my mouth. “Stay with me tonight.”
I swallowed hard, knowing deep down that there was no way I would let myself leave tonight. He put both hands on the wall, on either side of me. He glared at me with intensity, waiting for my answer. I felt nervous but alive at the same time. I saw the desire in his eyes and it made my heart race.
I wanted nothing more than to throw caution to the wind and sleep with him. But I knew deep down that I didn’t want to do it yet. Not like this. If I was going to give something up like that, it would have to be when I was the only one in his life.
“I wasn’t waiting for you to come home. I was going to leave an hour ago,” I whispered defiantly.
His face became unreadable as my tongue darted out to moisten my lip and he watched the action closely.
“I’m not going to have sex with you,” I whispered next, avoiding his eyes. “I’m worth more than a one-night stand.”
“I know,” he replied huskily.
I looked back up at him then, trying not to get lost in his eyes. He moved one of his hands from the wall and caressed my waist. He stepped closer and his body touched mine. His hand stroked the skin on my back, and I instinctively curved my body intimately into his.
He gently squeezed my bottom over the top of my skirt, and then his hand was underneath my skirt, squeezing one of my cheeks firmly. My heart skipped a beat.
His hand kept moving and exploring my skin, going down my thigh and then pulling my thigh up against him so I was flush against his arousal.
I let out a whimper and saw the hunger in his eyes just before his mouth met mine. He groaned low in his throat as my lips parted and our kiss deepened.
My arms went around his neck as we kissed hungrily, sucking and biting each other’s lips. He ground his body against mine and I gasped in awareness, suddenly needing more.
My nerve endings were going into overdrive, shooting sparks through me. His kisses went deeper than before, and I let him devour me, knowing we were totally alone. Nothing could stop us now.
His hand went under my tank top, and he caressed my stomach. Then he moved up further over my ribs, making me kiss him frantically.
I wanted him to touch me, desperately. His hand went over my bra and then he squeezed my breast gently like he was committing the feel to memory, over and over again. It felt so good that I needed more.
I let him take my tank top off completely. Then he stopped for a moment and took in the sight of me against the wall in my bra. The way he gazed at me made me feel hot and desirable. I wanted him to stare at me longer. I wanted to rub my bare skin against his hands, his chest, his face, and…
“So fucking perfect,” he whispered, almost to himself.
I was softly panting as he returned both hands to my breasts, and he kissed me again. His mouth soon moved down my th
roat as he kissed and licked at me.
My hips rubbed against him, needing more. His fingers pulled my bra cups down, exposing me to him. My breath caught in my throat as he took my nipple into his mouth. I heard a deep groan and realized it was coming from me.
My head went back, hitting the wall. I had never known such intense, warm pleasure and I ached. Ached for him, for more. I burned for more.
His mouth returned to mine, his tongue clashing with mine as his hands lifted me and I held onto his neck as he moved us over to the bed. He didn’t break the kiss as he moved over the top of me and I hung onto him for dear life.
Nothing and everything made sense. I closed my eyes, no longer thinking, only wanting and needing him. He travelled down to my breasts again, sucking on a nipple as his hand moved down to between my thighs. My legs opened for him, everything on instinct and unplanned as my body tingled.
I whimpered softly as his hand went over my underwear, slowly stroking me and taking his time. It was like he wanted to see if I would tell him to stop.
I arched my back and knew I would beg him if I had to. He kissed me all over before his hand went past the barrier of my underwear, and I cried out softly in pleasure.
He returned to kissing my mouth, and his tongue played with mine while his fingers moved within me, a place where no one had ever touched. I was spiraling out of control. I started to pant at the exquisite pleasure. I needed release and I grabbed onto him tightly as my climax hit me.
I gasped and then cried out silently. The wave of intense pleasure rolled through me. I felt like my body had just been split apart into tiny fragments.
His kisses became softer as I panted, slowly travelling over me and back up to my neck. My back touched the bed again and I felt completely boneless as he looked down into my eyes. He seemed to have a somewhat satisfied look on his face.
My heart still raced and my cheeks flushed as he put my underwear back into place. He lay down beside me with an amused smile and I suddenly giggled as I looked at him in a daze.
I wondered if he knew that it was my first ever time. I hoped to god that I hadn’t made a noise and that the others had heard me. I didn’t know what it meant for us or what was next, but as I trembled, all I could think about was when we were going to do it again.
I looked down at his pants, knowing I wanted to satisfy him, but I had no experience or confidence in that area to just do it. He had agreed to my request for no sex, but maybe he was expecting something else. What if I tried and I was a complete disappointment?
“Stop thinking,” he whispered, touching my cheek softly.
My cheeks turned warm as I glanced at him, amazed at how he knew me so well.
“Just go to sleep.”
His fingers moved over me and he gently pulled my bra cups back into place.
I sat up without another thought and climbed over him, kissing his mouth. He returned my kisses and as I moved my hips over him, his hands went to my waist and stopped me.
“I only have so much self-control,” he whispered against my lips.
“Let me pleasure you,” I whispered.
He swore under his breath and kissed me. His tongue swept my mouth as my hand grabbed at his chest. I wanted his T-shirt off.
He sat up and yanked it off, throwing it across the room somewhere, hardly breaking our kiss.
I ran my hand over him and then down to his zipper. I felt his hardness through his jeans. He clenched as I touched him, and I squeezed more. I liked knowing that I could make him feel good with my touch.
I sat back on him and started to undo his jeans as he lay back, breathing heavy. His eyes didn’t move from me. He lifted his hips slightly and helped me pull his jeans down and then his jocks as he sprang free. Wow. I had seen them before, not in real life of course, but I had seen movies. This one was huge.
I tentatively touched it, all bravado gone now that it was here, hot and ready in front of me. He panted as I touched him. His stomach muscles clenched and I ignored my inexperience. I just went with it. It felt hot and hard, but the skin was so soft. The more I relaxed and moved my hand, the heavier his breathing became.
He sat up with me straddling his thighs and kissed me hard.
“This is going to get messy,” he panted.
I licked at his lips.
“I don’t care,” I said going faster.
“Fuck,” he groaned, kissing me harder.
I kept going, hearing his breathing change, hearing his groans before he gripped my neck.
“I’m coming” he gasped against my mouth.
He shuddered his warm release between us and I panted with him, excitement flooding through me as I heard his groans.
With him still shuddering slightly, I slowly came to a stop and looked down between us. He was breathing heavy and clenching the hair at the back of my neck, like he was trying to right himself. I grinned to myself, liking the idea that I had the power to make him lose control.
“Jesus,” he whispered, kissing my cheek and then my neck.
I smiled and started to kiss his neck in return. I felt wanton, wild and amazed all at the same time. As my tongue darted out to lick at his neck I knew I was addicted to him and would forever want more.
“Let’s get cleaned up,” he said moving off the bed with me still in his lap.
I giggled as he stood up with my legs going around his waist. He kicked his jeans off and then carried me over to the bathroom. He flicked the shower on, and an amused and satisfied smile illuminated his face.
Zac
I awoke the next morning and found myself alone in bed, realizing she had disappeared on me to go to school. I got up and saw that Noah was already awake and tapping on his laptop as I walked past him to the kitchen.
“All good?” he asked, not taking his eyes off the screen.
I put the coffee machine on, thinking of last night and how I had come like a horny sixteen-year-old.
“All very good.”
One touch and I was hers. I remembered her coming apart, like it was the first time for her, and I got hard thinking about it. I wanted more.
I made her come two more times, once in the shower and then another before she fell into an exhausted sleep. Her responses to me made me a little wild, and I knew sex with her would be fucking amazing.
Ava
The next morning I was late to my first class, and I took the empty seat in the front, knowing there would be no seat saved for me by Sophie. Halfway through the class, I looked back to see her staring at me and I turned back around showing her I no longer cared. Thinking of what I had shared with Zac last night got me through the morning, and I couldn’t wait to see him again.
My only concern was that if I gave in to him and we had sex, he would still continue seeing other girls. I didn’t want to devalue something that I had considered so important before he had come along. My virginity was intact, because I had been waiting for the right person and for the right time. I wanted it to be Zac, but not by being just another one of his conquests. I wanted something more. I wanted something that I already knew he wasn’t prepared to give me.
He had warned me all along and I was annoyed at myself for even contemplating that I might be different to him. I was confused, because part of me wanted to just do it and have a wild time, and the other part of me wanted respect and to keep my pride.
I didn’t want to be used. I wanted to be cherished.
I longed to have my mother here so I could share my thoughts and get some sort of female perspective. At the moment, I was a little lost, running on lust-filled adrenalin and two hours’ sleep.
After lunch I received a text from him.
Zac: Hey
Ava: Hey yourself
Zac: Did you disappear on me to get an education today?
Ava: I did…some education has to be taught in schools
Zac: As opposed to?
I grinned.
Ava: The education that can be toe tingling…and a little mind bl
owing
Zac: Education is VERY important. A ‘little’ mind blowing????
I laughed.
Ava: Nothing little about it actually – but I don’t need to blow your already over inflated ego about that
Zac: I love it when you talk dirty to me
I laughed again.
Ava: Can I talk serious for a sec?
Zac: Okay, but I’m in the mood for more dirty talk
I took a deep breath. Here goes nothing.
Ava: I want you and only you. I want to give myself to you but I won’t when there is the possibility of you still messing around
Zac: I told you the situation, Ava
Ava: I know, but I want you Zac, like no one ever before. But I’m worth more than to be just one of your one-night stands. I don’t want to share
Zac: I don’t do commitment
I took a deep breath.
Ava: Then you don’t get me
My lips trembled with the ultimatum I had just given him and I felt empowered but sick at the same time. If he decided against me, I would lose him. I was now asking for the one thing that he wasn’t prepared to give.
He didn’t respond.
Ava: I’m not talking forever. I just want to be the only one in your bed when I’m in it
He still didn’t respond.
I let out a deep breath and looked over at a lunchtime basketball game and realized my answer was in his silence. I had delivered an ultimatum and deep down I hadn’t been prepared for the fall out. Who was I? I was just a high school virgin. There were a ton of girls around him better looking and sexier than me. He was probably laughing at me right now.
