I lowered it. God, Reese had made cutting off all my hair and cross-dressing sound like a dissertation.
“So what happened?” I asked hoarsely. “What’d she say?”
“Well, I guess they passed it,” Dad said, one finger tracing the crossword absentmindedly. It occurred to me how contented he looked. “Six votes to five,” he said, “starting this semester. They credited us for your flight back already.”
The paper was crumpling in my hand. “And can I get on that flight?” I asked, and I knew the answer, had known it from the second my mother admitted she might have been wrong. I was going back. I could already imagine myself there. I found myself submerged in the future, again, as always. Everything flowed smoothly forward from this frozen instant: first, the rumble of hitting the runway in the Watertown airport. Then, the slow drive up to Arthur’s Arch and through, that distinct sensation of slipping into a new world, as if through the wardrobe, while the Kensington winter closes me in. No longer barricaded in my room, no longer torn in two, I’m myself this time around. This time I track the Sharps down across campus just to see their faces. I am not afraid. Night falls and I walk up stone steps to a red door, laughter glowing behind it like treasure, with my hand in the grip of someone who respects me. I am honest; I am honest again. A new semester’s classes break in, and I scan the collection of students arranged around the table, familiar and unfamiliar, old stirred in with new, and I feel eager and spoiled, and I think I am never going to do arm’s-length again, I want everyone close. The gas-jet fire flickers in the Burgess Lounge as we scribble in silence, extracting all the scrambling thoughts from our heads, learning to line them up in order. We walk into the next audition heads up and fearless, because no matter how many times we’ve heard no, we still imagine the answer will be yes, yes, yes.
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ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS
Because I am a Chinese girl who until very recently spent 90 percent of her time singing a cappella music, it’s worth reiterating that all the characters in this book are entirely fictional and none of them are based on real human beings. Except two. And they’re the loosest of loose adaptations. Thanks, Clara, for letting me steal approximately three of your mannerisms, and Annie, for providing my inspiration for Anabel, who actually turned out nothing like you in the end, but there we go, I guess.
I owe this novel to the people who make it possible for me to do what I love: my beyond-supportive family; my champion agent, Caryn Wiseman; my brilliant editor, Anne Heltzel; and the rest of Amulet’s amazing team, especially Caitlin Miller. Thank you guys for dealing with my neuroses. Hugs and kisses also to my early readers, Mary Frame and Suzanne Payne, and the rest of my beloved Goat Posse.
A big thanks to Iori Kusano, Jackie Rayson, and Justin Martin for their invaluable insights on matters of disability, class, and trans visibility within the novel. Thanks also to the folks at Writing in the Margins for helping to promote and facilitate authors’ critical engagement with the representation within their work.
To the Kenyon College Chamber Singers, the Owl Creeks, and the ladies of Colla Voce: I love you; thank you for the mem’ries that dwell dear past supposing. Love also to my friends in Take Five, the Ransom Notes, the Stairwells, the Chasers, the Cornerstones, Mannerchör, and the Kokosingers.
Next, one of those weird, distant notes to people I don’t know: thanks to the NU Nor’easters and UChicago’s Voices in Your Head for making gorgeous and innovative a cappella music that I listened to nonstop while writing this novel. If you care at all about a cappella, you must listen to VIYH’s cover of “We Found Love” and the Nor’easters’ album RISE posthaste. While I’m at it, check out The Sons of Pitches, who sound the way I imagine the Sharpshooters sounding.
Lastly: the artists in this book do not exist, but the songs do. You can listen to them on my website, http://rileyredgate.com, if you’re so inclined.
Hope you enjoyed Noteworthy by Riley Redgate. Keep reading for a preview of her debut novel Seven Ways We Lie!
“All right,” I say, “either the furnace is on overdrive, or we’ve descended into the actual, literal fiery pits of hell.”
“I feel like ‘both’ is the answer here,” Juniper says. “Assemblies, eternal damnation . . . same basic concept.”
“Correcto.” I wipe sweat off my face, feeling as if I’m melting. “God, this is horrible.”
Other kids stream past to our right, flooding the overheated auditorium’s aisles, filling the seats ahead of us. Juniper ties back her hair, looking clean and sweat-free, like those airbrushed girls in deodorant ads who are always prancing through blank white voids. I’m used to it. Juniper is the kind of beautiful that we regular human folk can’t quite connect to. With guarded gray eyes, blond hair swept back, and the barest touch of blush, she’s a cautiously assembled girl. Always has been.
A noise from across the aisle catches my attention, a noise that could be either a violent throat-clearing or a cat being strangled. Looking over, I catch a glare from Andrea Silverstein that could level a building.
“Oh, good Lord, not this again,” I mumble, sinking down in my seat.
“Ignore her.”
“Trying, Juni.”
Seriously, though, can someone explain why they call it a “personal life” when it’s the one part of my life everyone knows? Today alone, I got three death stares in the hall, two whispers accompanied by averted eyes, and one So that’s Olivia Scott! face of recognition. Why do I even have a branded face of recognition?
Okay, granted: Andrea maybe has license to get defensive, since it was her brother I hooked up with. But the rest of the world can shove it up their collective ass.
Andrea’s eyes burn into the side of my skull for a straight minute. Finally, Juniper leans forward and gives her a cool, uninterested look. Andrea stops glaring at once.
I’ve been friends with Juniper since third grade, and I’m still waiting for her to pull out the magic wand she obviously owns. Something in her composure makes people stare; when she talks, she holds attention like a magnet. Juni chews on her words before saying them, as if she’s parsing the sentences in her head, ensuring they’ll come out perfect.
“Shit. Do you see Claire?” I say, looking around the auditorium. “I said I’d find her.” With the fluorescent lights bathing us all in sickly green, Claire’s red hair doesn’t pop out of the crowd as usual.
“Maybe she’s skipping,” Juniper suggests with a wry smile.
I snort hard enough to kill off a few brain cells. Claire skipping anything school-related would be the first sign of the apocalypse.
With one last scan of the auditorium, I give up my search, and preoccupation sneaks into my head. God knows what percentage of the student body skips assemblies, but I see a hell of a lot of empty seats—and I can’t help thinking that my sister’s supposed to be in one of them.
We keep getting calls at home about my sister skipping class. It’s the most bored-sounding voice mail of all time: “This is a recorded message from the Republic County School System. We are calling to inform you that Katrina Scott missed one or more classes today. Please send an excuse note within three days.”
The messages baffle me. What is Kat doing when she skips? She doesn’t have a car or as far as I know friends she could skip with. Not that I know much about Kat these days—she seems determined to delete me from her life by whatever means necessary. If it keeps going this way, I should watch out for snipers.
The lights dim, and the auditorium doors clank shut at the back. Teachers close in, standing guard on either side of the exit, as if they’re trying to discourage a revolutionary uprising. The stage lights glow as Principal Turner approaches the podium.
It’s a nice gesture, the podium and the microphone and all, but Ana Turner doesn’t need any of it. Our principal is a pearl-laden Air Force veteran in her mid-thirties, with the glare of a guard dog and the bark to match. Every time she opens her mouth, everyone under age twenty within a mile has a minor pan
ic attack.
She clears her throat once. Silence drops like a bomb.
“Good afternoon,” she says, wearing a weirdly upset expression. I say “weirdly upset” because Turner has always done a stellar job of convincing the school that she does not, in fact, feel feelings.
She folds her hands on the podium. “Faculty and students, I’ve called this assembly to address a serious issue that has been brought to the administration.”
“This ought to be good,” I whisper to Juniper, rubbing my hands together. “You think they caught the guy who’s been pooping in the third-floor old wing?”
Juniper grins, until Turner says, “We’ve received word that a teacher at Paloma High is having romantic relations with a member of the student body.”
I blink a few times before it registers.
I look over at Juniper. Her mouth has fallen open. Noise swells back to life around us, and Principal Turner clears her throat again, but this time, the chatter doesn’t subside. Appearing to resign herself to the chaos, she talks over it. “The message we received was anonymous, submitted via our website. While it didn’t include names, we take such accusations seriously. If you have any information whatsoever about the matter, please come forward to myself or a guidance counselor. In the meantime, we’ve mailed a letter to your parents. It should arrive within two to three days.” The talk buzzes higher. Her voice booms out to compensate: “These measures are for the purpose of complete transparency. We can and will resolve this matter soon.”
I fold my arms, glancing around. The expressions in the sea of faces vary: shock, nervousness, and excitement. Normally I might wonder why anyone would get excited about a teacher-student sex scandal, but hey, even rumors of regular sex get our delightful peer group stirred up.
Turner brushes sweat off her forehead—apparently, even she isn’t impervious to the heat—and glances back down at her notes. “Unsubstantiated allegations like these are worrisome, but they serve as an important reminder that the student body’s safety is our first priority. We’ve called this assembly to reiterate our code of conduct and ensure a safe learning environment. I’ve asked Mr. García to prepare a brief presentation on how to handle unwanted sexual advances.”
Turner nods toward the wings. Our English teacher, Mr. García, wheels out an overhead projector and slides a transparency sheet onto it, a nice little throwback to the mid-1990s. García’s whole vintage obsession turns from quirky to exasperating whenever technology’s involved. Seriously, who gets nostalgic for overhead projectors?
As Turner exits the stage, García launches into a lecture. The longer he talks, the less sense any of it makes. I’ve seen shit like this on the news, but it always seems to be a crazy gym teacher and a pregnant fifteen-year-old. The idea of our gym teachers impregnating anyone makes me want to throw up—they’re both, like, sixty-five. It makes even less sense to look at it from the kid’s perspective. What person my age would get themselves into this? Wouldn’t they realize how life-ruining it would be if their name got out?
There are a few teachers young enough for a hookup not to be that gross. I always catch guys drooling over the econ teacher, Dr. Meyers, who’s short and curvy and in her mid-twenties. The calculus teacher, Mr. Andrews, is handsome in a super pale, vampire sort of way. And Mr. García’s definitely hot. Not my type, though. With the way he gets all swoony when he talks about Mercutio, I’m ninety percent sure he’s gay.
God, though, I can’t imagine any of them hitting on a student. Sometimes girls make eyes at Andrews or García, but if the teachers notice, they don’t let on. As for Dr. Meyers, she sent some kid to the office last year for saying she looked “real sexy today, Doc.” Points for her.
Half an hour later, the Powers That Be release us from the brick oven of the auditorium into the November afternoon. The chill air tastes crisp. As the sun’s harsh glare assaults my eyes, part of me feels as if the assembly weren’t real. A heat hallucination, maybe. Juniper and I head down the hill toward the junior lot. She seems just as dazed.
A voice jolts us out of our stupor. “Hey, guys!”
We stop at the edge of the parking lot, a few paces from Juniper’s Mercedes. Claire jogs up to us, her frizzy red hair pulled back into a thick ponytail for tennis practice. She elbows me. “Missed you at the assembly, lady.”
“I looked for you—promise,” I say. “Couldn’t see you. There were, like, you know, a thousand people in there.”
“True.” She clears her throat. “Where are you guys going?”
Shit. That expectant tone means I’ve forgotten something. “Um,” I say, shooting Juniper a frantic look. “To, uh . . .”
“Nowhere,” Juniper says. “Dropping off our stuff before the meeting.”
Right—student government. Juniper and I both promised Claire we’d run for junior class president, so she had at least two people guaranteed to be on the ballot.
I have a million problems with this, none of which I’ve voiced, since Claire’s so rabid about the whole thing. But Juniper and me running against each other is a hilarious farce of an idea. Juni could ask the whole school to jump off a bridge, and they’d be like, “Brilliant! Why didn’t we think of it sooner?”
Juni unlocks her car, and we sling our bags into the backseat. The three of us head across the green. Ahead, at the end of the long stretch of grass, Paloma High School’s main building looms above us like an architectural Frankenstein. They renovated the east wing two years ago. It’s three stories of glimmering plate glass and steel beams now. The west wing—brick, weathered, sixty years old—hangs off the new section like an unfortunate growth.
We cross the entire green before anyone speaks. “So, that assembly,” I say, opening the door to the east wing.
“Yeah,” Claire says. “Girl, dat shit be cray.”
I wince. “Yeesh, please don’t—you are whiter than Moby-Dick.”
Juniper laughs, and Claire flushes, flicking a curl out of her eyes. We head down a long hallway filled with afternoon sun. Light glances off the lockers, making them more of an eyesore than usual: red on top, green on the bottom. Our school colors. Also Christmas colors. Every year around the Christmas season, someone tags a red Rudolph graffiti nose onto the Lions logo out front.
“Seriously,” Claire says, pushing open the door to the stairwell, “when they figure out who’s sleeping with a teacher . . .”
“I know.” I jog up the steps after her. “We won’t hear the end of it for, like, twelve years.”
Claire aims a smirk at me over her shoulder. “It’s not you, is it?”
That stings—I bet half the school thinks it’s me—but I manage a laugh. “Go to hell.”
“Fine, fine,” she says, raising her hands. “It’s actually me. Me . . . and Principal Turner.”
Juniper mock-retches behind us. “Why, Claire?” I moan. “Why do you give us these mental scars?”
We come out on the third floor, dodging the after-school-club traffic. We pass the computer-science room, filled with Programming Club kids on their laptops, and the English room, where Poetry Society meets in a solemn-looking, somewhat cultish circle. We head into the Politics and Government room.
“Good crowd,” I say. The room’s empty.
“Three’s a crowd,” Claire says, checking her watch. “It’s just juniors today. And the girl who’s running for secretary emailed me—she can’t come. But there’s also a boy running for president, so . . .”
My heart sinks. If there’s only one other candidate, the odds of me wriggling out of this contest without hurting Claire’s feelings are way lower; and what with her hyperactive sense of responsibility, she won’t let it go for a while.
“Who’s the boy?” Juniper asks, perching in the empty teacher’s chair. Mr. Gunnar must be helping with the assembly cleanup. I bet they need a dozen people to mop up the sweat.
Claire unzips her backpack and thumbs through a folder. She draws out a sign-up sheet with one lonely name sitting at the top
. “His handwriting’s terrible, but I think it says Matt something? Jackson, maybe?”
“I know him.” Juniper raises one thin eyebrow. “We did a group project together in bio, by which I mean I did the entire thing. The guy isn’t exactly a paragon of self-discipline.”
“Oh, wait,” I say, recalling the kid who slouches in late to English every day, reeking of weed. “Tall? Never talks? Kind of a pointy face?”
“That’s the one,” Juniper says.
“Well,” I say. “This’ll be, uh. Great.”
Claire scrutinizes my expression. “Something wrong, Liv?”
“What? No, everything’s fine.” I shrug. “It’s just . . . not that I don’t want to be Paloma, Kansas’s new political wunderkind, but I sort of want to drop out.”
Claire makes a dismissive tsk sound between her teeth, setting her backpack down. “Oh, come on. Don’t pull that.”
“Dude, I’m being honest. I don’t know about this Matt kid, but everyone knows there’s no contest if it’s me and Juniper.”
We both look at Juniper. She stays diplomatically silent, spinning in Mr. Gunnar’s chair.
“Well, I guess you do have a lot on your plate,” Claire says knowingly.
“What do you mean?”
“Oh, I don’t know. Maybe your latest conquest?” Claire wiggles her eyebrows. “Dan Silverstein, huh? Ees vairy eenteresting choice.”
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