"What are you doing in New Mexico?"
Trying to track a dead killer without any evidence or witnesses? "I'm looking for some information. We'll only be here for a couple of days."
"We?"
Crap. I wasn't going to be able to talk my way out of this. "Yeah. I'm with a friend."
"Oh. Anyone I know?" She spoke brightly. Trying to draw me out.
I thought of the white lies and half-truths I could tell her. Then I remembered the phone call to Ariel last night. Be straight. Tell the truth. "By reputation. It's Ben O'Farrell. I'm helping him with a case." This was going to worry her. This was going to make her pry further. No information was better than too little information. I shouldn't have told her anything.
"Well, be careful, okay?" She just let it go. Like she actually trusted me to take care of myself.
"I will."
The rest of the conversation went pretty much as usual. Except for the part where Ben was sitting there smirking at me.
"I hope you're not planning on taking me home to meet the family."
I smiled sweetly at him. "Do you want to meet the family?"
He didn't answer. Just shook his head, with an expression like he was close to laughter. "That just sounds so damn normal."
Yeah, it did. And we weren't. Muddied everything up.
The honeymoon was over. That night, Ben and I lay in bed, holding each other, but it was as two people shored up together against the fears of the dark. He twitched in his sleep, like he was fighting something in his dreams. I whispered to him, stroked his hair, trying to calm him. We were near the new moon, on the downhill slide toward the full moon, when the pressure built, when the Wolf started rattling the bars of the cage. I'd forgotten how hard it was to resist when it was all new. I'd had over four years of practice keeping it under control. This was new to him. He was looking to me for guidance, which was perfectly reasonable. But I felt out of my depth most of the time.
Take this place for example. This magic. A family that decided it was okay to hire a bounty hunter to kill their son and pretend like their daughter didn't exist. A family so steeped in magic that all its members were terrified of each other. I didn't understand it.
* * *
We thought out loud during the drive back to Shiprock the next day.
"What's the series of events?" I said. "John comes back from Phoenix and he's different. A werewolf. We know how that can mess with someone. Then their oldest daughter, Joan, dies. Then Miriam disappears. They hire Cormac to hunt John."
"It sounds like John coming back from Phoenix as a werewolf was the trigger. Everything else happened after that," he said.
"What was it Tony said? A witch has to make a sacrifice to become a skinwalker. So Miriam cursed Joan, killed her, became a skinwalker."
"But why? Why did she want to do that? And why at that moment?"
"She wanted John to have a pack," I said softly. She didn't want her brother to be alone. It actually made sense, from a twisted point of view. I knew how hard it was to be alone.
"Why didn't she just let him bite her?" Ben said.
I thought about it a moment. Some people wanted to become lycanthropes. They sought it out, got themselves bitten. Why wouldn't Miriam have been one of those?
"Control," I said. "She wanted to be able to control it. She probably saw how it affected John. He wasn't able to control it. She wanted the power without that weakness."
He winced thoughtfully, his face lined with thought. "Thus begins their reign of terror. God, it almost makes sense. But we still can't prove she was dangerous. We need proof that she killed her sister. No one's willing to pursue the connection. Maybe they're afraid she'd takerevenge on them. curse them, kill them—"
"But she's dead. She can't do anything now."
"I'm not sure that changes anything in some people's minds."
Spirits lingered. Evil spirits continued to spread evil. If they—Louise, her family, Tony, others—believed that, I couldn't argue.
Miriam's immediate family may not have lived on a beautiful estate, but at least they had a house, a bit of land, an aura of normality.
Lawrence, on the other hand, lived in an honest-to-God shack, with weathered planks tied together for walls and a corrugated tin roof that seemed to just sit on top, without anything holding it down. It looked like he'd been living this way for years, because the place was actually several shacks attached to each other, as if he'd been adding rooms over the years whenever the mood struck him. The desert scrub around his place was covered with junked equipment, including several cars, or objects that had once been cars. The place was isolated, out on a dirt road, behind a hill, invisible from the town.
The question remained, did he live like this because he had to, or by choice?
"I have a bad feeling about this," Ben said, staring at the desolate house.
"Let's get it over with." I left the car, and Ben slowly followed.
I was afraid to knock on the front door. It looked like a deep sigh would knock it in. I tried it, rapping gently. The walls around it shuddered, but nothing broke.
No one answered, which wasn't entirely surprising. This didn't seem like the kind of place where people threw open the door and welcomed you with hugs. In fact, I kind of expected to hear rattlesnakes or yipping coyotes in the distance.
I knocked again, and waited for another minute of silence. "Well?"
"Nobody's home?" Ben shrugged. "Maybe we can come back later."
We didn't have a whole lot of time to wait. We also didn't have a whole lot of choice. What could we do, drive all over town asking random people where to find Lawrence?
"What do you want?" A man spoke with an accent, as if English wasn't his first language.
We had turned to leave, when the man leaning against the farthest corner of the building spoke. He was shorter than me, thick without being heavyset. He was old, weathered like stone, rough and windblown. His hair hung in a long gray braid.
"What do you want?" he said again, the words clipped and careful.
Ben said, "Are you Lawrence Wilson? Miriam Wilson's grandfather?"
He didn't answer, but Ben stayed calm, and seemed ready to wait him out.
"Yes," the old man said finally. For some reason the word was earth-shattering.
"I don't know if the police have told you—Miriam's been killed."
He nodded, his expression unchanging. "I know."
"We're trying to find out what she did before then."
Did Lawrence smile, just a little? "What is it you think she did?"
"I think she killed her oldest sister."
He slipped past us and opened the front door. It wasn't latched, locked, or anything. It just opened.
"You have proof?" he said.
"Still looking for it."
"And you came here to find it?"
"You filed the missing person report. The rest of her family seems happy enough forgetting about her. But not you. Why?"
Lawrence stood in the doorway, gripping the edge of it. I thought maybe he'd slam the door shut, after a good hard scowl. But he stayed still, watching us with hard, dark eyes.
"If I'd found her first, I could have helped her. I could have stopped her. That's why I filed the report."
"But she never turned up. You didn't find her."
"She didn't want to be found."
He went inside, but he left the door open. Like an invitation.
Ben and I glanced at each other. He gave a little shrug. I followed Lawrence inside, into the cave of the house. I sensed Ben come through the door behind me.
I'd never seen anything like it. The floor was dirt. The place wasn't sturdy. The planks had weathered and warped so that sun showed through the cracks between them, and dust motes floated in the bars of light that came in. In this weird, faded haze, I could make out the room's decorations: bundles of dried plants hung by the stems. Sage, maybe, fronds of yucca, others I couldn't identify. Along the opposite w
all hung furs. Animal skins. Eyeless heads and snarling, empty mouths looked at me: the pale hide of a coyote; a large, hulking hide that covered most of the wall—a bear; a sleek, tawny, feline hide of a mountain lion. And a large canine, covered with thick, black fur. Wolf. One of each. His own catalog.
I couldn't smell it. At least, I couldn't smell what I expected. I should have scented the fur, dried skin, herbs, the stuffy air. But all I smelled was death. The stench of it masked everything. And it didn't come from the skins, from the room. It came from Lawrence. I wanted to run screaming.
"You're one, too," I said. "A skinwalker. You taught her."
He stood at the far side of the room, which looked somewhat functional: a table held a camp stove and cooking implements. Lawrence lit a pair of candles, which did nothing to brighten the place.
"No," he said. "She learned. She watched. I was careless. I let her learn."
"You couldn't stop her?" Ben said.
"Couldn't you? You aren't the only one who's been hunting her."
"If you knew what she was, if you taught her—then you had the power to stop her, and you didn't." His voice rose, along with his anger.
"I don't owe you any answers." He went to a box on the floor, a wooden crate that might have held fruits or vegetables for shipping, and pulled out a can. He started cutting it open with an old-fashioned, clawlike can opener.
The wolf skin on the wall had dark, curved claws intact.
"Yes, you do," Ben said. "A man may go to jail unless I bring the court evidence of what she was and what she did."
Lawrence looked at us coldly. "The man who killed my grandson? The man who killed Miriam?"
The strangeness of this place smothered my own anger. I felt strangely calm. "He saved my life when he killed her."
Lawrence was busy lighting the stove and pouring the can of soup into a pot. "You're lucky to have a friend who will kill for you."
So. I once had a friend who died for me, and now one who killed for me. Why didn't I feel lucky?
Ben turned his back on Lawrence and hissed at me. "We're not getting anywhere. He's not going to tell us anything."
"What do you want me to tell?" Lawrence said, and Ben flinched—he thought he'd been whispering. "That she was evil? That I am evil? Do you expect me to tell everything I know as some kind of atonement? What's done is done. Nothing will change it. Nothing will make it better. The dead don't come back."
"Wouldn't bet on that," I muttered.
"I don't have any proof for you. I can tell you that Miriam killed Joan, but the police have no record of it. The doctors say it was natural, not witchcraft. Three of my grandchildren are dead, but you won't find anyone here who will admit that they were ever alive. That's what it is to be a witch here."
"Then why do it? If it makes you disappear." If it made you live in a place like this, isolated, other.
"It never starts out that way. But the line between medicine man and witch, Curandero and bruja, is very thin. The magic comes from the same place. The danger comes with the spells that pull you one way or another. Miriam saw what her brother became, and she wanted it. Donning the coat of a wolf, tasting blood—it pulls you toward the darkness. You understand this. Both of you. You live in the dark because it's what you are."
I did understand, and hated that I did. Wolf seemed to prick her ears up at the very mention of the word blood. Beside me, Ben stood frozen, staring. His eyes weren't his own, not entirely. Something wolfish swam in them. I had to get him out of here. But I wanted more answers.
"Why did she kill Joan?"
"She had a sister to spare? I don't know. Didn't anyone warn you about asking too many questions around here?"
"Who did you kill in trade for your powers?"
He hid a smile with a bowed head. "It's a good thing for a witch to have a large family."
My stomach lurched into my throat; I wanted badly to throw up. I took hold of Ben's arm and squeezed too hard.
Lawrence continued. "Bodies disappear out here. You go out to the desert, a body gets dried up and covered with sand in a day. In a month it's nothing but bones. You tell anyone you were coming out here?"
"Let's go." I wrenched Ben's arm and steered him out of there. The door to Lawrence's shack slipped closed behind us.
Back in the open air, I felt light-headed, giddy—free. I almost ran to the car.
Ben was stewing. Fuming. His shoulders hunched, his fists closed. He kicked the dirt on our path.
"He knows, but we'll never get him into court. He knows Cormac did the world a favor putting a bullet in her. Hell—that guy probably needs a bullet put in him."
"Calm down. We'll figure something out. We still have leads." But we were running out of them. I tried to stay positive.
I stopped a few paces from the car. Something wasn't right. A sound tickled my throat—the start of a growl.
"Kitty." Ben's voice was tight. He moved toward me, so our shoulders touched. Side by side, protected—but from what?
A mountain lion leapt onto the roof of my car.
It had dodged around us in a couple of strides and made the jump without effort, so quickly I hadn't sensed it coming. Or maybe it had simply been able to slip by without us noticing. The thing was huge, solid, with thick limbs and a wedge-shaped face. It sat tall, its tail wrapped around its paws, looking for all the world like a house cat surveying its domain. Its tan fur was flat and slick, and dark smudges marked its eyes. Red eyes, bright as garnets.
Like somebody in a slapstick comedy, I looked back to the shack, then back at the mountain lion. And yes, the shack's door stood open.
"Kitty…" Ben murmured, taking my hand.
"Me or it?"
"Not funny."
We backed away.
The lion jumped off the car and stalked toward us, head low, tail flicking like a whip. Red eyes flashed.
Had to think of a plan. Had to do something. Couldn't just let this thing hypnotize me with its terrible gaze. All I wanted to do was scream. But I recognized the freezing terror that was numbing my limbs. I'd felt this when Miriam attacked me. Had to break out of the witch's spell somehow.
I whispered, "Ben, I'm going to break left. Try to draw him off while you get to the car and call for help."
"I was going to say the same thing, but with me drawing him off and you calling for help."
"No, I can fight him if I have to. I can take him."
"Just like you took Miriam?"
Details…
Both of us spoke quickly, breathily, on the verge of panic. I wondered how he was doing with his wolf. I still held his hand, which strained with tension. But no claws had started growing.
The mountain lion took another set of steps and opened its mouth to show thick, yellowed teeth, sharp as nails. It made a sound that was half growl, half purr, grating and skull rattling. Ben and I kept backing, until I slipped on the gravel. His grip on me kept me upright.
The monster crouched, its muscles bunching, gathering itself to jump at us.
"It jumps, we break," I murmured. Ben nodded.
But instead of jumping, it paused, stared at us, blinking those red eyes. It bowed its head. Then, its whole body seemed to collapse. Like the air went out of it. The face crumpled, and the eyes went dead.
A human hand reached out from under the lion's body and pulled off the tawny skin, revealing a naked man crouching in the dirt. A long gray braid draped over his shoulder.
Lawrence Wilson looked up at us and smiled.
"Louise got to you first. Lucky. Very lucky."
I touched my chest, feeling the hard shape of the arrowhead under my shirt. It worked. The damn thing worked.
"Let's get the hell out of here," I muttered to Ben.
Carefully, cautiously, we circled around the old man. Watching us, he stood, but didn't make another move toward us. Quickly we slipped into the car.
The tires kicked up a rain of gravel in my hurry to drive us out of there. Law
rence watched us go, standing at the side of the dirt road. He seemed to hold my gaze in the rearview mirror until we were out of sight. The mountain lion's skin hung limp in his hand.
Around the hill and out of sight, I snuck a glance at Ben. He sat straight against the back of the seat, staring ahead, expressionless.
"You okay?"
After a pause he nodded. "Yeah. I think I am."
We made it off the dirt road and onto pavement. "Good."
Another dusk had fallen by the time we returned to the motel. The sky had turned deep blue, and a cold wind blew across the parking lot. It smelled dry, desiccated, and wild. Wrong. Like something out there was looking for us, and meant us harm. It might have been paranoia. Or not.
We had police reports, death certificates, coroner's reports. We had a couple of statements, a couple of newspaper articles. Tales of crimes that might have happened, of the bad reputation of a certain family, and people who wanted nothing more than the rumors and fear to go away. We didn't have hard evidence that Miriam was anything other than a highly disturbed young woman, or that Cormac had had no choice but to kill her.
We got out of the car. Ben slammed shut the door, lingered, then leaned on the hood and kicked the tire. And kicked it again.
"Would you stop kicking my car?" I said.
Hands on the hood, he leaned over, breathing hard. His anger was getting the better of him, which meant his wolf was getting the better of him.
"Are you okay?"
If he started shifting, I didn't know what I'd do. He didn't have experience keeping it together, when everything around you poked the creature awake. When all you wanted to do was run.
"Ben?"
He turned his head, glancing at me over his arm. He was sweating, despite the cool air. He was so tense he was shivering. I was afraid if I touched him, he'd jump out of his skin. "This place is getting to me. I hate it. I completely fucking hate it."
Sort of like I hated a certain hiking trail where I'd gotten stranded one full moon night, some four and a half years ago.
"Ben, keep it together."
"Will you stop telling me that? It's not helping."
Anything I said now would just be patronizing. "I know it's hard. It'll get easier. It gets easier."
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