by Diana Orgain
Theyre swollen all the time and none of my shoes fit.
He nodded. Thats very common following a pregnancy. Do you have pain?
I didnt. Not really, but not fitting into your shoes didnt seem like a reason to visit a podiatrist, so I said,
Yes.
He dropped my left foot and picked up my right one. He palpated the foot then rotated the ankle. Your feet arent swollen now. Would you say you had a lot of swelling during pregnancy?
Yes, I said.
He seemed so sincere. So caring. So gentle.
For a murderer.
With Helene gone, Margarets probably at a loss. It could put a strain on a marriage, I said.
He dropped my foot as if it had just given him a shock. Typically after pregnancy, pain can be caused by the edema, which put pressure on the structures of the feet and nerves. Even after the edema leaves, there may be pain. He pointed to the print on the wall and started to outline some ligaments. I think you could benefit from a pair of orthotics.
Orthotics?
There was nothing sexy about that. I only wanted to be able to fit into my cute open-toed shoes again.
Umm, they dont really hurt all that much . . .
He looked upset.
Doctor, what do you think happened to Helene the other night? It was all so sudden.
He paled. I dont know.
Its strange, though, isnt it? You were with her when she died, werent you? I tested.
He took a step back and swallowed. Unfortunate set of circumstances. He turned his back on me and steadied himself by putting his hands on the small set of drawers. Shall we schedule you for the prescription orthotics?
He waited for my reply with his back to me.
He was as uncomfortable speaking to me as I had been with Inspector McNearny.
What do you think was the cause of death?
He whipped around, his face set in stone. Im not the medical examiner. Look, are you here about your feet or something else?
I let my feet dangle and furrowed my brows. What else would I be here about?
What are all these questions about? Are you investigating me?
Why would I?
He self-consciously smoothed down his shirt and shifted his eyes around the room. He took a breath. Right. Have Joan schedule you for a follow-up.
CHAPTER TWELVE
Keeping Up
To Do:
1. Talk to Miss No-Nonsense.
2. Get manicure.
3. Order turkey.
4. Whens Paula coming home?
5. Build up milk supplypump, pump, pump!!!
The following day, I decided to pop in on Sara. She hadnt returned my phone calls and I was starting to get antsy about her.
Was she avoiding me?
I packed Laurie into the car and headed to Jordan Park, which was down the street from California Pacific Hospital, where Laurie was born. This same hospital had also been the initial meeting place for Roo amp; You members, since they had all given birth to their first children and taken classes there, too. Well, all of them except Helene.
And what about these home births?
I had a hard enough time keeping my place clean; now I imagined the mess of a home birth. Blood, placenta, and goo on the baby. Good Lord. Why on earth would anyone want to do that?
Well, now, no reason to be critical. Im sure people had their reasonsit just simply wasnt for me.
Jordan Park is a beautiful neighborhood but lacks parking like most of San Francisco. I circled around and was surprised to see Margaret in front of her house watering the lawn. I double-parked, rolled down my window, and called to her.
She looked up, startled, then waved at me to wait a moment. She put down the hose, rushed to her garage to turn off the water, then came over to my car.
She was wearing a slip dress that accentuated her slimness, making her look as if the wind could blow her over. In contrast to the whimsical look of the dress, she had on clunky green mules that seemed to ground her. To combat the weather she had on a wool scarf and hat, although I can never understand how people dont freeze with bare arms and legs.
She rested her hands on my car and leaned in. Have you found anything out?
Not much, Margaret. I followed Alan the other day. He came directly home. Didnt stop anywhere. Do you think hes still having the affair?
Its strange. I know. Hes been coming home on time lately and is seemingly more interested in me and the kids. Im not buying it, though. Hes only doing that because I confronted him. I think hes trying to get me off my guard. I cant trust him, Kate.
Are you going to stay with your mom for a while?
Her face conveyed a sudden sadness. Yes, Im leaving with the kids tomorrow. I havent told Alan, though.
Another car rolled down the street and had to maneuver around me.
Is it okay if I park in your driveway? Id like to ask Sara a few things.
Margaret looked annoyed. She crossed her bare arms in front of herself and rubbed them. Sara? What do you need to see her about?
Well, Im trying to get to the bottom of what happened to Helene.
What did she think I wanted to see her about?
Well, Sara doesnt know anything.
Another car came down the street. I waved at the driver to go around.
Okay. Sure, park here. Margaret motioned for me to pull into her driveway.
I parked and got out of the car, then unhitched Lauries car seat from the back. She was sound asleep. I tucked a knit blanket securely around her to protect her from the wind that threatened to bluster at any moment.
The exchange between us now felt halted and awkward. Im going to run across the street and meet Sara.
Of course. Margaret reached out and patted my arm. Do you need help with the diaper bag and gear and all?
I smiled, reassuring her all was fine between us. No. I got it. Thanks!
I was a little nervous about meeting with Sara since the last time Id seen her, at Helenes funeral, shed given me such an unwelcoming vibe and now wasnt even returning my calls.
She answered the bell on the first ring. She had on a red wool sweater and fitted jeans.
Oh, hi, Kate. She looked beyond me then back. Are you here alone?
I held up Lauries bucket. Just me and my monkey.
She smiled. Right. Yes. I got your messages. Im sorry I havent called you back. Busy, busy, busy.
After an awkward moment, she ushered Laurie and me into her enormous living room. A baby play station, complete with swing, rocking chair, colorful balls, and mirrors, dominated the room. In the center of it all sat a beautiful rosy-cheeked little girl, who graced us with a toothless smile as we entered the room.
This is Amanda. You can put Laurie on the playmat with her when she wakes up. Amanda loves company.
At that moment Amanda squeezed a cow on the play station. A high-pitched rendition of Old MacDonald started playing.
I nodded, nestling Lauries car seat next to my chair as I took a seat by the window. Great. Im sure shell love all the colors and sounds.
If they dont wake her immediately.
Probably too little for it still. Amanda just started playing in it a few weeks ago. Shes six months now, Sara said.
Is she your first?
Sara nodded.
So you joined Roo amp; You a few months ago after Amanda was born?
Sara looked up toward the ceiling as if trying to recall the actual date. Lets see. I joined, more or less, unofficially before she was born. Because I knew Margaret from across the street, the others were always hanging out at her place. So when I was about six months pregnant and full of baby questions, I started attending the playdates. She indicated my car through the front window. I see tha
t you spoke with Margaret already.
I turned to look out the window and could plainly see my Chevy parked in Margarets driveway. Yeah. I didnt know you two were neighbors until Evelyn mentioned it the other day.
At the mention of Evelyns name, anger flashed across Saras eyes and she glanced toward Amanda.
After a moment, she said, Ive lived here about four years. Were a tight group of neighbors. Watch each others dogs when we vacation and pick up mail. That sort of thing.
I looked around for signs of a dog but didnt see any. Maybe Sara was only a dog watcher.
Margaret befriended me immediately when I moved in. Which was great, because coming from the East Coast, I didnt know a lot of people and Howard works a lot. Hes a general contractor. It was nice to have a friend right away.
Shes very nice. I imagine shes been a good friend to have.
Sara tilted her head and looked across the street thoughtfully. Margaret is a good friend. Very trusting. She only sees the best in people. When shes talking to you, its as if youre the only other person in the world. She has a gift for making you feel special. The problem is she can be taken advantage of it and not know it. Its hard for me to stand by and watch.
Taken advantage of how?
Sara rolled up the sleeves of her wool sweater. People use her. Helene was definitely what I would classify a taker. And Margaret is a giver. You can imagine what kind of relationship it was.
Margaret said Helene was her best friend.
Sara sighed and shook her head in disapproval.
I waited in silence for her to continue, resisting the urge to check on Laurie and focusing only on Miss No-Nonsense. She seemed to like attention and I hoped it would urge her to open up to me.
Amanda played with some knobs on the playmat and squealed. Both Sara and I turned to her.
She is so cute. I cant wait until Laurie can sit up and play like that, I said.
Sara smiled. It wont be long. Time flies. Amandas only been sitting since we started water acclamation class. I had no idea it would help with motor skill development.
It did?
Water acclamation? Werent infants just getting used to being out of water?
I hated to ask, but I had to know.
Where do you take classes?
She looked down her nose at me. La Petite Grenouille, of course. Arent you enrolled?
Uh. No. Not yet.
I wasnt born with a day timer in my hand, like you, Miss No-Nonsense. Im sure you arent ever late for anything!
They have a free trial class. You should really try and make it. Your daughter will enjoy it, she said.
Eager to switch subjects, I said, Sara, what can you tell me about that night on the cruise?
She shrugged. Whats to tell? You were there, too.
Do you recall being at the bar with Margaret, Helene, and their husbands?
She frowned. Well, sure. We were all at the bar.
Do you remember anything about a drink mix-up?
What do you mean? Like the bartender gave us the wrong drinks or something? I dont really remember anything like that, she said.
No. I mean . . .
Might as well come right out and ask it.
Did you notice that maybe Helene and Margaret got their drinks switched? Like perhaps Helene drank Margarets drink?
She shook her head. No. I dont remember anything like that.
Okay, so no smoking gun.
I tried a different tack. What can you tell me about your final exchange with Helene?
Sara squinted. Theres not much to tell. We were chatting on the deck then this lady bumped into me and spilled her drink. I left Helene on the deck and went to the restroom.
The timing seemed off.
Did you stop anywhere on the way? I asked.
Sara titled her head, her brow furrowing. I dont remember.
How could she not remember?
When you got to the ladies room, you told me that the captain had called an all hands on deck.
She chewed her thumbnail. Thats right.
But if you came directly to the restroom after leaving Helene on deck, I dont see how there was time for her to fall down the stairs and be found and for the captain
She stopped chewing her nail. Oh. I see what you mean. I think I probably stopped to talk to Howard first. Yeah. Thats right. I went to talk to Howard, but he was smoking a cigar with Evelyns husband. She rolled her eyes, the disdain apparent in her voice. And I didnt want to be there.
You really dont care for her.
Sara laughed. To put it mildly. Shes a nightmare. High maintenance. All about her. The husband is boring and her kids a fiend. Not that its his fault. Shes just so into herself, she lets him run wild. And whenever he gets into trouble, she acts all bothered about having to do something about it.
I understand she was asked to leave Roo amp; You.
Sara shrugged. She wasnt a fit with us.
Who was? It sounded like she hadnt liked anyone in the group, except Margaret.
Was there anyone else in the group??
Sara shook her head. No. Just the four of us. It seemed to really work for a while, but . . .
I waited again for her to continue. Laurie stirred in the car seat. Amanda tipped over on the playmat and began to cry, unable to sit herself back up.
Sara rose and crossed the room to Amanda. She picked her up and cuddled her. Its attention time. She needs a change and some food. Are we done?
I rose. Actually, I have a couple more questions.
Sara fidgeted and patted her baby on the back. Okay. Is it all right then if we move this conversation to the kitchen?
Of course. I picked up Lauries car seat and her eyes flew open. Oops. I think its attention time for Laurie, too.
Ill show you Amandas room. You can use her changing station, Sara said, turning to leave the room.
I unstrapped Laurie and scooped her out of the car seat. I glanced through the front window and spotted a woman pushing a double stroller down the street. A collie was leashed to the stroller. The woman stopped in front of Margarets house and fished for something in her parka. She pulled out a set of keys.
Must be the nanny coming back from the park.
I picked up the diaper bag and headed in the direction Sara had gone. There was a long hallway connecting to a formal dining room followed by an enormous marble kitchen. Bedrooms were in the back of the house, overlooking a huge fenced-in garden.
Sara was changing Amanda on a white wooden changing table.
A few months ago, my life had been so different. Before having Laurie, the only person I knew with a baby was Paula. Now it seemed that I was surrounded by pregnancies, new moms, infants, diapers, bottles, and nursery rhymes.
Sara picked up her baby from the station and placed a disposable changing pad on the table for me. I laid Laurie down and went through the same routine Sara had just completed.
We can feed them in the kitchen. Do you need formula or want me to heat water or something?
No. Im nursing.
Sara nodded. I couldnt do it for very long. I found it so taxing.
Im getting the hang of it.
I followed her from the bedroom into the enormous kitchen. She placed Amanda in her highchair and proceeded to heat orange-colored mashed food on the stove.
She smiled. Homemade baby food.
She was making the baby food? How do you do that? Was I supposed to make Lauries baby food? Thank God solids werent for a few more months.
I placed Laurie on my lap and pulled my nursing wrap out of the diaper bag.
I understand from Margaret that she thinks her husband is cheating on her. Do you know anything about that?
Sara
looked surprised. I didnt know Margaret knew. She never said anything about it to me.
But you knew?
She shrugged. What can I say? I live across the street. I noticed Alan coming home later and later. Margaret told me some mumbo jumbo about his having to work late. But good Lord, the man is a podiatrist, not a surgeon. He works clinic hours, not the emergency room. But who am I to say anything?