Chosen By Darkness: Reverse Harem (Ravana Clan Vampires Book 1)

by E. M. Moore

  “That’s the problem,” he said, his hands clenching to fists at his sides. “There really isn’t anything to do. The decision’s been made. My brothers and I aren’t anybody right now. Sure, we’re princes, but we don’t have any real power. We have to wait to take our Council seats before we can make any change. Do you have any idea how frustrating that is?”

  “Hey,” I said, inching closer to him and grabbing his hand. “I don’t have any idea. Not really. I’ve never been in a position like yours.”

  He shook his head. “Listen to me. I sound like a child.” His eyes shimmered silver as he gazed down at me. I tried to tell him that was the last thing I thought he was, but he cut me off. “I admire your strength, Ariana. I wish I could be as strong as you.”

  Me? I thought. Was he going crazy? The Council’s decision had really messed with him.

  Squeezing my fingers, he asked, “So, you really weren’t going to make a run for it?”

  I tried to mimic his usual demeanor, managing all the seriousness I had into one determined look. “No, and I never will.”

  His eyes searched my own for a couple of silent moments before he pulled at my hands and we started back toward the buildings. A weight lifted from me and an easiness settled in. Walking and talking with Christian was as easy as breathing. He bumped into me with his shoulder. “Your running form has improved.”

  “You were watching me?” I asked, trying to dampen the alarm in my voice at the same time. I hoped I didn’t do anything embarrassing like pick a wedgie or rearrange my bra while he watched.

  “Don’t be mad.”

  “I’m not,” I quickly assured him. “I’d just rather you be with me instead of watching me from afar. You could’ve run with me if you wanted. I mean, if you promise not to use your awesome vampire abilities to make me feel bad about myself. What’s it feel like to walk? Does it seem like we’re crawling right now?”

  He chuckled. “No, it seems perfectly normal, actually. When we kick our vampire abilities in, it actually feels like we’re going that fast.”

  Well, that made me feel a little better. I peered to my right, watching Christian’s silhouette. He still had a half smile on his face. That was good. At least I’d accomplished making him smile today. Maybe he’d stop beating himself up about The Council’s decision considering there was nothing he could do about it anyway. “I got thinking earlier,” I said, trying to feel his mood out. After reading the news article and having the princes explain to me how vampires’ ages were calculated, I couldn’t help but wonder how old they really were. The Ravanas looked young, but were they really? He looked at me with nothing but curiosity so I went for it. “How old are you?”

  “Twenty.”

  “Plus twenty?” I asked, barely hiding the squeaky panic in my voice. It didn’t really matter to me, but I also didn’t want to feel like I was a newborn compared to them.

  “No,” he said. “Plain old twenty. None of us have reached our peak yet. Nicolai is twenty-one and Connor and Stephan are nineteen.”

  “And when you hit thirty-five, you just…stop?”

  I couldn’t keep the anxious curiosity out of my voice and he must’ve picked up on that. “It doesn’t sound as weird as I think you’re making it out to be. When a vampire hits thirty-five, that’s our highest maturity. From that point on, our bodies will never age or deteriorate in any way.”

  “So, you will look older than you look like right now? You’re not fully grown?”

  “Right. I’ve aged just as I would have were I human and I’ll continue to age until I hit the magic number.”

  I pulled him to a stop close to the obstacle course. My mind was full of questions and they were getting the best of me. “Were you turned? Or were your born a vampire?”

  “So inquisitive,” he murmured, tugging a stray hair around my ear.

  “I can’t help it,” I said. “It’s all new to me.”

  “I don’t blame you. I’d be the same way.” He turned toward the obstacle course and nodded. “How about this? If you beat me, I’ll tell you my story.”

  “Beat you?” I gasped. That was never going to happen. “Can’t we bet on something else? Something more fair?”

  He shook his head.

  Fine. If he was going to be that way, I’d give myself any help I could. I reached out and pushed him. I waited until he was stumbling backward before I said, “Go.”

  He laughed into the night air, the sound melodic, almost intoxicating. “That’s cheating,” he shouted after me.

  I didn’t answer as I threw myself at the monkey bars and then up and over the hay bails. I wasn’t even thinking when I launched myself up the rope climb and rung the bell. I slid down and turned right into Christian. He was like a stiff wall in front of me and I fell back a couple of steps before he reached out and grabbed me, saving me from falling. His eyes lit up. “You climbed the rope.”

  I nodded.

  “All the way to the top.”

  I breathed in deep, letting a smile overtake my face. “I was going to tell you guys when you got back, but then there were a lot of things going on.”

  He pulled me into a hug, his strong arms encapsulating me. My head pressed into his shoulder. His chest moved as he laughed into my hair. “They’re going to go nuts. We’re so proud of you.”

  I wound my arms around his waist and squeezed back. Easy excitement filled me. I’d done it. I didn’t know if I was happier about making Christian proud or making myself. It was definitely a toss up.

  He pulled me away at arm’s length. “You have to do it again. I’ll take a picture of you at the top. The guys have to see this.”

  “Okay.” I turned and made my way up the rope once again. When I hit the top, I turned around with a huge grin. Christian’s phone camera flashed, succeeding in blinding me for a couple seconds. I called down. “Did it come out?”

  “It’s perfect,” he said, giving me a thumbs up.

  I loosened my grip and slid down until my feet hit the bottom knot. I looked over his shoulder at the text he was sending his brothers. He captioned the picture with “Look what our girl can do”.

  “Do they know you’re here?” I asked.

  He shook his head. “They’re about to find out.”

  “So…” I started as Christian put away his phone. “Does that earn me your vampire story?”

  He side-eyed me. “That’s not fair.”

  “Isn’t it? Technically, you stopped running. That means you forfeit.”

  “What if I was already done and came back just to see how you were doing?”

  My jaw dropped, instantly super impressed, my mind trying to calculate how fast he was probably going if he did lap me. “You did?”

  He shook his head, a small smile curving his lips. “No. Not at all.”

  This was a different Christian than I’d seen yet. He seemed relaxed, easy going. If I was ever going to get his story out of him, it would probably be tonight. “Yeah,” I said, deciding once and for all. “You owe me the story.”

  He nodded. Resignation darkened his features as he gestured back toward the guardian building.

  He was so quiet, so lost in his own thought that I was sorry I’d even brought it up. When we were halfway back to the building, I said, “You don’t have to, Christian. I can live with not knowing.”

  He put his arm around me and tugged me closer into his side. “It’s not that. I want to tell you. I just don’t want anything you hear to change your mind about this world.”

  My stomach twisted into knots, suddenly nervous about the story he would share. We walked into the stone building and through the empty hallway. The fluorescent lighting seemed too harsh after coming in from outside. Christian’s hair went back to being dirty-blond and his eyes that steel blue color that was closer to polished metal. He waited patiently as I unlocked the door and he shut it behind us. It barely made a sound as he clicked it into place and then locked it. The single lamp was on by my bed. I moved to turn
on the main light, but his hand covered mine on the switch. “Leave it off. Why don’t you get dressed for bed and I’ll gather my thoughts?”

  I nodded, letting out the breath I held in my chest from his touch. I grabbed my ugly pajamas off the floor and hurried into the small bathroom. I changed quickly and then brushed out my hair, leaving it to hang long around my shoulders. I pulled the door open and peeked out the small crack. Christian sat in the middle of the bed, his back against the wall and his feet hanging off the side. As soon as he saw me, he pat the bed.

  I walked out, unsure of where to sit. He nodded toward my pillow. “Get in bed, beautiful.”

  Walking over, I sat on the edge gingerly. He grabbed my ankles and forced them over his lap, my knees resting on his. I turned toward him, my ankles curving around by his thighs and my thighs coming to rest on his stomach.

  He reached out and ran a hand down the length of my hair. “So pretty,” he murmured.

  My face swamped with heat. He studied me before he even started talking. I told myself I wouldn’t urge him again. Honestly, right now, I was just content to feel his fingers slide through my hair. Maybe I shouldn’t have said anything to him in the first place. I didn’t mean to force it out of him.

  “Some of us,” he finally said, “don’t like talking about how we were turned. It’s different for everyone. It’s worse for those who had a life before this though.”

  “And you did?” I guessed.

  He nodded. “I was turned when I was seven. I don’t remember much from my previous life. That’s different for everyone, too.” He turned away at that, his face filling with an inexplicable sadness. I reached out and touched his elbow. “The turning process is supposed to be a complete redo,” he continued. “If it works the way it should, the vampire shouldn’t remember anything about his or her other life. They just wake up being the age they were turned. Their personalities, mannerisms, special quirks, they all remain the same. They’re inherent in us. It’s only the memories of our previous lives that are wiped, especially important when it’s a vampire couple changing a child to become one of their own. They don’t want us to remember our birth parents or siblings or anything like that. They want to become everything to us.”

  It made sense, but I understood the sorrow in Christian’s gaze now. Did he miss his real parents?

  “My parents have always been very open about how we were all brought to them.”

  “Were they all turned like you?” My head started spinning with images of Nic, Stephan, and Connor. What were their previous lives like? Were they happy? Did they—?

  Christian bent down, his elbow propping his head up and his hand coming to rest on my thigh. “I’m not going to tell you my brothers’ stories, Ariana. They can tell you when they’re ready.”

  “Of course,” I said. “I’m sorry, I’m just—”

  “It’s okay,” he said quickly. “I just know they’ll want to tell you themselves.” He squeezed my thigh and then continued. “As I was saying, my parents aren’t like some of the other vampires. They’re very open with our stories. If we remembered something or even if we didn’t and we just asked, they would tell us. Mine started with a memory and then my parents filled in the blanks from there.”

  I sat very still. The deeper Christian got into his own story, the more he looked as if he were far away from me at the moment. I didn’t dare move or talk for fear of breaking the spell.

  “I kept dreaming about a blue balloon and at first, I didn’t really understand it. The more I dreamt about it, the more I knew it must’ve meant something so I asked my mom about it. That’s when she told me my story. They saw me at a zoo with my real parents when they were visiting the vampire clans in California. That’s where I was born a human. My mom immediately fell in love with me. They’d been looking for another child. My parents always wanted a large family. They kept seeing me throughout the day. My mom says I was the most grown up seven year old she’d ever met and she just had to have me. I asked intelligent questions, was well-spoken, and—” He smiled to himself. “—always looked as if I was in deep thought.”

  I chuckled with him. That sounded exactly like Christian.

  “So, when we were leaving the zoo that day, my parents followed us home. Once they knew where I lived, they petitioned The Council to have me turned. When they approved, my official acclimation into the vampire world began. Mine and my birth parents’ minds were wiped. Theirs specifically of me. Any other family members and friends were also persuaded into believing I was never there. It’s a lot to explain, but it’s impossible for anyone to remember me. For instance, even if my parents went to a grocery store they always frequented with me, no one would ask them about where their young son went. It was as if I never existed at all. Afterward, I was taken to my parents home, bitten by my father, and the feeding process began. I don’t even remember what my old life was like. I don’t even really care.”

  “But your parents,” I said, my voice coming out much harsher than I wanted.

  “The Ravanas are my parents.”

  “You don’t wonder…?”

  He shook his head. “No. Not at all. My parents brought me up, they made me who I am. That’s all I care about.”

  “But they took you.”

  He grabbed my hand, his fingers covering mine. “I don’t see it that way. I see it as this was how I was always supposed to end up. This was supposed to be my life all along. It is my life. I’m Christian Ravana. I’m a prince in a royal family. I have three ‘brothers’,” he said, actually pulling his hand from mine for a moment to make air quotes. “One day, I’ll be a member of The Council and can actually bring change to this world.”

  I stared, trying to wrap my head around what he said. “You don’t feel like something is missing?”

  He cupped my cheek in his hand. “How in the world could I think anything is missing right now?”

  I closed my eyes, reveling in his touch. I knew from his words, his look, Christian didn’t regret anything. He was proud to be who he was. Happy where he was.

  I got that, actually. Understood it totally. I’d been through something some would call traumatic, but that didn’t mean I wasn’t right where I was supposed to be, scars and all.

  Chapter Nineteen

  I woke in the same position I’d fallen asleep in last night, my legs tucked against Christian, my hand outstretched toward his. He sat there, his back against the wall though his head dipped to the side, still sound asleep. He looked even younger in the peacefulness of dreams. Could vampires dream? I imagined they could. Part of my brain wanted to feel sorry for him after what he’d told me yesterday, but how could I feel sorry for someone who seemed so utterly at peace where he was now. It was as if he was always meant to be the one sitting next to me. It didn’t matter he wasn’t born with vampire blood in his veins, he was one so completely now.

  The bed started to vibrate. I glanced around looking for the culprit. My phone was on the dresser so it must have been Christian’s. I searched his body as he still lay fast asleep and remembered he’d put it in his front pocket. Carefully, I reached out and slipped it from his pocket and quickly refused the call without even looking down. Then, I powered it down. It was Sunday. I didn’t have to get up and go train, and Christian must’ve been exhausted because not even the vibration of the cell phone woke him.

  I put it down on the bed between us and continued to stare at him. I’d almost told him my story last night. About the accident, and my mom, and even our friends. He already knew I freaked out about cars so he’d understand, but something still held me back. He’d said I was strong last night. I wanted him to think that about me. If I told him my story, I didn’t want that pride to turn to pity.

  A sharp knock came on the door and I jumped. “Ariana,” a voice barked.

  Christian sprung from his position on the bed and jumped to the floor. He was in a fighting stance, hands outstretched and eyes searching for the threat. He looked lost for a moment be
fore he looked around the room and found me. Then, his eyes widened, startled, fear blanketing his features.

  When the knock came again, he lifted his finger to his lips and then crept toward the closet door. Without making a sound, he slipped inside and closed the door behind him.

  “Ariana,” the voice growled. I recognized it as Samuel’s instantly. My heart leapt into my throat.

  I knew I didn’t have training today. What was his problem? “Coming,” I said, throwing the blankets off and padding toward the door. I pulled it open and stared up at a red-faced vampire.

  He looked past me into my room, his gaze sweeping over the corners. “Are you alone?”

  “Y-yes,” I said, taking a step back. “Why?”

  “Gregor and Isabelle Ravana are here for the party tonight and their son Christian is missing. They thought maybe he’d be stupid enough,” he made sure to raise his voice as he glanced toward the closet, “to be in your room.”

  “I don’t know where he is,” I said, keeping up the ruse, angling my body to hide as much of the closet as I could. My heart thumped inside my chest. We’d been stupid last night, that was for sure.

  Samuel returned his gaze to me. He bent over, whispering. “People are starting to talk. Don’t give them ammunition. The only person who gets hurt in this is you.”

  With that, he pulled the knob closed, safely leaving Christian and I in my room alone. I reached out and locked the door as my mind repeated what he said. The only person who gets hurt in this is you.

  I blew out a breath and ran my hand through my hair. I turned to find Christian just outside the closet, his face etched in concern. “I’m so sorry, Ariana. I fell asleep.” He scrubbed his hands up and down his face and then wrapped them around his neck as he looked up at the ceiling with a groan. “What the hell was I thinking?”

  “You were tired.”