by Susan Rohrer
Tara opened the cupboard door. “Yeah. Too bad Dad’s so into that Catherine person,” she sighed, finding only empty shelves in front of her. “So, where are all the plates?”
“Try the dishwasher, dear,” Joan answered.
Suddenly, Ollie’s triumphant voice rang out from the backyard. “Smithereens!”
Joan recognized the distinct crash of breaking china that followed. In a flash, Joan was out the back door, just in time to see Ollie raise an ornate china platter high above his head, as if to acknowledge the cheers of an imaginary throng. He whirled it around like a discus thrower. “Ho, ho—”
Recognizing the platter, Joan shouted in horror. “No! Ollie, don’t!”
“—ho!” Ollie cried as he released the platter and sent it soaring into the brick fireplace, dashing it to pieces.
Tara emerged, agape at the sight. “You are so getting coal for Christmas.”
Joan hurried down the stairs. “Ollie, what are you doing?! That’s the good family china!”
Ollie turned, grinning to beat the band. “It’s okay, Gramma. Merry said so,” he exuded. “I’m making memories. For Christmas!”
five
Tara and Hayden cleared the Bell’s dinner table as Merry sat guiltily with Ollie on the living room sofa. Tara lingered, a look of concern on her face, as her father silently paced in front of the culprits.
Merry kicked herself. The thrill ride of her first day had come to a screeching halt. Her mind whirled. Why hadn’t she been clearer with Ollie? Though she feared it would get her fired, Merry knew what she had to say. Her heart pounding, she prodded herself to open her mouth and speak. Finally, the fearsome words that she knew could end it all came out. “It was all my fault. Really, Mr. Bell.”
Daniel studied Merry, and then turned to his young son. “Ollie, did you not know that was the good family china?”
“She said it was okay!” Ollie protested.
“I did, Sir. In a way,” Merry admitted.
“Please, do not call me Sir,” Daniel blustered. “And I assume you have an explanation why you’re encouraging my son to engage in vandalism?”
“It was a mix up,” Merry explained. “I’d bought these thrift store dishes. I got them to break and make ornaments from the pieces. Then, I went up to talk to the girls and—”
Daniel cut her off. “Yes. So they tell me,” he said. He turned to his son. “Ollie, would you go do your homework?”
Ollie glanced at Merry, his brow knit with worry. “But what’s going to happen to—”
Daniel quickly gestured to the stairway. “Now, Oliver. I’ll be up in a bit.” Ollie obediently headed up the steps. Next, Daniel pivoted to address his eavesdropping daughters. “Girls, I believe your grandmother could use your help in the kitchen.”
As the twins reluctantly disappeared, Merry stood, imploring, “Please. Take the price of the china out of my pay.”
“And just how do I dock you for the sentimental value of it?” Daniel countered. “That platter was an heirloom. From their mother’s side. Let alone worth a small fortune.”
“And can I tell you how completely awful I feel about that?” Merry rued.
Daniel kept pacing, then abruptly he stopped. He turned back to Merry, weary and forlorned. “You promised me the perfect Christmas.”
“I did,” Merry replied. “But Mr. Bell...perfect doesn’t mean everything goes exactly right. That kind of perfect, it’s pretty much forgettable, I think. But when something goes wrong—well, that really is the kind of thing you hang your memories on.”
The tiniest flicker of a change on Daniel’s face told Merry that somehow, she was starting to get through to him. She knew that she was still a long way from out of the woods, but it encouraged her to continue. “Years from now, think of it,” she said. “Ollie will be putting those ornaments on his own tree. Can’t you just hear him laughing, telling your grandkids the story?”
Daniel crinkled his lips, softening ever so slightly. “I suppose you could spin it that way. But what’s this with these lists? The girls don’t want to do it. At least, Hayden doesn’t.”
“You said you wanted a family Christmas,” Merry reminded.
“Which I expected you to handle.”
Merry braved stepping closer to Daniel. She kept her voice calm and quiet enough so as not to be overheard by the twins she presumed might be listening in, just past the kitchen door. “That’s why I’m trying to get them to be part of it. If I just think it up, buy it up, put it up, and wrap it up myself, how special would that be?”
Daniel sat tiredly, his tone changing. He scratched the back of his head. “You sound like Amanda. Next thing, you’ll tell me I work too much.”
Merry sat back down beside him. “Do you?”
“Maybe,” Daniel replied. “It’s not like it’s been easy. Raising them alone. Trying to get them past what I—maybe not get them past it. That’s not the right word. It’s not like I want them to forget, but... Why am I telling you this?”
Merry smiled softly, understanding. “Maybe you sense that I care to hear it. Because I do. Care.”
Daniel studied Merry. “You do. Really?”
“Yeah,” she answered. A moment of silence passed between them, before Merry finally broke it. “Can I...ask you something?”
“Sure,” Daniel agreed.
Merry looked Daniel straight in the eyes. It was a gaze that said she wasn’t going to let this go. “What do you want this Christmas?”
Daniel didn’t answer at first. It was a loaded question for him, Merry realized. I’m his employee, she thought. He was under no obligation to answer her, she knew, yet something in the moment had seemed to disarm him completely.
“I want...” Daniel started. “It’s not much really, but then again, it’s...” Daniel paused again. “I want to see my family happy again. I’d like to go back to church together. We haven’t been much since Amanda’s memorial—my fault really—and I don’t know. Maybe Christmas morning would be a good start. I do want to make some new memories...not to replace the old ones, but to somehow...”
“...take the broken pieces and make something beautiful with them?”
Daniel took awhile to consider Merry’s response. He looked at her, what almost seemed to be through her, for the longest of times. Finally, he spoke. “You’re easily underestimated, aren’t you?”
Merry nodded self-deprecatingly. “I’ve been told I make a better second impression. That is, if I get a chance to make a second impression?”
Time stood still. At least it seemed to as Daniel studied Merry. Clearly, she thought, he had fully intended to fire her on the spot, but thank heaven, something was making him hesitate.
“Let’s see what the week brings,” he concluded.
♥ ♥ ♥
When Daniel ambled in to check on him, Ollie was sprawled on his stomach on his bedroom floor, doing his math homework. “There’s always that desk I got you.”
Ollie hardly looked up at his dad. “I can work stuff out better here.”
It wasn’t often that Daniel Bell sat cross-legged on the floor, but on this particular night, that’s exactly what he decided to do. As soon as he got down to his son’s level, he was glad he’d gone to the trouble. He noticed Ollie’s quivering lip, but decided not to make anything of it. “So... What do you have going there?”
“Long division,” Ollie muttered gloomily. “Mrs. Finkelston says it’s useful in every day life.”
Daniel leaned back quizzically. “You have Mrs. Finkelston? I had her. What, is she ninety?”
Ollie pushed his math aside and sat up. Crocodile tears rolled down his cheeks, streaking through the dirt of his ill-fated, heirloom-breaking deed.
Daniel opened his arms and drew his son close for a very welcomed embrace. “I’m sorry I broke your family china,” Ollie blubbered.
“It’s okay,” Daniel assured. “And it’s not really my family china. It was ours. Just something your mom’s family has passe
d down for the past few hundred years.” Daniel broke the embrace. He checked around, then signaled Ollie closer and whispered conspiratorially. “Want to know a secret?”
Ollie wiped his nose on his sleeve, clearly intrigued.
Daniel leaned toward him. “I always kind of hated that platter.”
Ollie’s eyes widened. “You did?”
Daniel sat back. “Yeah. I always thought it was kind of snooty and girlie. Not a guy’s kind of plate, you know? Guys like us, we don’t go for that stuff. Your mom wasn’t so crazy about it, either. But we were stuck with it—it being in the family that long—so actually, you kind of did me a favor.”
A crooked little smirk returned to Ollie’s lips. “I did?”
“Did yourself one, too. Because guess who would have gotten it next.” Daniel circled a finger toward Ollie.
Ollie exhaled dramatically. “That was a close one.”
“Yeah, scary close,” Daniel agreed. “You know, Merry. She seems to think we should make these lists, so... What do you really want for Christmas?”
Ollie didn’t miss a beat. “A worm farm,” he repeated.
Daniel eyed his son, amused. “Still with the worm farm, huh?”
Ollie nodded decisively.
“Worms, they don’t do much, you know,” Daniel went on. “Not so big on thrills and chills. Can’t race ‘em or goof with ‘em. Just kind of hang out there under the dirt.”
Ollie’s shoulders went up in a little shrug. “Marty Ruppick has one,” he pointed out. “Marty grows lots and lots of worms. Then his dad takes him fishing.”
There it was.
It was so simple that Daniel wondered why he hadn’t put it together before. It wasn’t so much the worms Ollie wanted, Daniel realized. What Ollie wanted most for Christmas was his time.
Long after his children had gone to bed, Daniel sat in his study, deep in thought. Nothing about this roller coaster ride of a day had gone like he had supposed. He finished off a short note and slipped it into the Christmas drawer, knowing Merry would find it in the morning.
♥ ♥ ♥
Even after finishing up the late shift at the Downtown Diner, there was a spring in Merry’s step as she walked with Kiki toward the stop where they would catch the El to their respective homes. Despite the disastrous heirloom platter incident, Merry was quietly exuberant. For Arthur’s sake, Merry hadn’t said much about her job with the Bells. She’d only spoken about it in the most general of terms. Still, Merry felt Kiki studying her, the way Kiki did whenever she’d figured out that something intriguing was afoot.
“So, gimme the real skinny on this Christmas gig,” Kiki probed.
Merry did her best to feign nonchalance. “You heard what I told Arthur.”
“Yeah, I heard you dancing ‘round the doo-doo for him, but this is me. Kiki. So, let’s have it straight now.”
Merry cocked her head with a smile. She lit up from inside. “Almost got fired today.”
“So, why you glowing like a Tiki torch?”
Though Merry did her best to downplay her excitement, it still kept bubbling through. Still, she did her best not to say too much. “No, it was just...he has this cute way of being all boss-man, but underneath, I get these little glimmers that he’s... It was good, that’s all.”
Kiki clasped her hands and raised them toward the heavens. “Precious Lord, help us!” Then turning back to Merry, she nailed what even Merry hadn’t realized. “You jazzin’ on that man!”
Merry sputtered, taken completely off-guard. “No, no, I mean, he is—”
“I know sparks when I see ‘em,” Kiki crowed, “and Honeypot, you about to set this here track on fire.”
Merry felt her face turn crimson. She covered it with her hands. “Augghh! No, no, no. You know what? I can’t even go there.”
“Well, that kit’s already caboodled.”
Merry grabbed Kiki’s arm in desperation. “It is not! It can’t be. Okay, okay. Maybe it is. But it’s just in my head.”
“Oh, it’s on your face, too,” Kiki hooted.
Mortified, Merry stopped in her tracks. “Is it that obvious? What if he can tell?”
Kiki shook it off. “Naw, Baby. Men don’t see that inside stuff. That’s why God made women.”
♥ ♥ ♥
Hours later, all was quiet at the Bell household. Ollie checked the clock in his father’s study. It read 2:10 a.m. Painstakingly, Ollie tiptoed to his dad’s desk. He knew he wasn’t allowed up at that hour, much less to prowl his dad’s study, but curiosity over just what he’d be getting for Christmas had gotten the better of him.
Reaching his father’s desk, Ollie eyed the forbidden fruit: the mysteriously taboo Christmas drawer, the one he knew was completely off limits. Unable to resist, Ollie carefully slid the drawer open. Suddenly, the lamp flipped on, illuminating the room. Ollie startled to see Tara. “Augh!”
Tara padded over quickly, her finger to her lips. “Shhhhh!”
His little heart pounding, Ollie whispered emphatically. “You shush! What are you doing here?”
“Same as you, apparently,” Tara retorted.
Ollie looked back quizzically. “Seeing what I’m getting for Christmas?”
Tara pushed Ollie aside, made a beeline for the open Christmas drawer, and removed her father’s note to Merry. “Yeah, I’m really itching for a worm farm.” Tara opened the envelope, pulled the note out, and read.
Ollie crowded in to see. “What’s it say?”
Turning the note away from her brother, Tara quietly read its text:
Merry,
I hope you’ll forgive my overreaction. Please continue to follow your heart. I can see you have a good one. And the more I think of it, the more I realize just how much I need you.
Daniel
Ollie’s tired eyes widened. “Is that like a love letter?”
“No, dopey,” Tara explained. “He’s just apologizing for flipping out over the whole china debacle. He’s just—” Tara interrupted herself, a sly expression forming. “You know...with just a little help, it could be...”
Tara grabbed her dad’s pen, the same one he’d used to write the note. Carefully mimicking his handwriting, Tara inserted a “Love,” before her father’s signature.
Ollie watched, agape. “Love, Daniel? I’m telling.” Ollie started to leave, but Tara firmly yanked him back.
“You tell and I tell you were down here,” Tara threatened. “Besides. Maybe if we do a little something to encourage him to like Merry, he might forget all about Miss Boring Face. It could be our gift to him, a secret. You like Merry, right?”
Ollie nodded. “Yeah, so...”
Tara slipped the note back into place in the drawer. “So, pinkie swear,” she said, extending her little finger.
Never before had Tara offered to share such a confidence with Ollie. It felt good to him, like he was included in her life in a whole new way. “Our Christmas present to him, together?” he queried.
Tara nodded in affirmation, waiting for his agreement. Ollie hooked his pinkie to his sister’s with a mischievous grin, sealing their holiday pact.
six
Merry scurried into Daniel’s study. Though she’d worked hard and late the day before, she’d awakened at dawn, invigorated by the second chance she’d been given. Her mind brimming with ideas, Merry pulled off her coat and draped it on the back of Daniel’s desk chair. Dutifully, she slid open the Christmas drawer to check for instructions.
Reflexively, Merry tingled all over. Whereas she’d expected a simple list, instead there was a nice note card with just her first name written on the envelope.
Merry pulled out Daniel’s note and read. That he’d told her he was sorry said a lot to her, but it meant all the more that he had gone on to affirm the goodness of her heart and to say that he needed her. It was hard for Merry to imagine, but there it was, written in his hand. Yes. He actually acknowledged that he needed her. Merry had felt many things in her life, but needed hadn’t r
eally been one of them. She had felt extraneous, overlooked, even needy. But being needed was an entirely new sensation. “I need you,” she read aloud, taking in the sound of it.
Suddenly, Merry noticed how the note had been signed. “Oh,” she gasped. “Love, Daniel...?” Merry’s hand flew to her mouth as she examined Daniel’s signature. She had sensed that their conversation the night before had been something of a breakthrough. She knew he had lit a spark in her, but what she hadn’t dared dream to consider was the possibility that the feeling could have been mutual.
Each time Merry had entered Strong Bank & Trust, it had felt different, but this fourth time had been the most strangely wonderful of all. How had this all come to be, she mused. As she sat waiting for Daniel to check her receipts, she replayed the events of the previous days, savoring every detail, leading up to the note signed Love, Daniel. It hardly seemed real to her, but there he was, receptively cordial, light years out of her league according to Arthur and yet, it was his affectionately signed card she prized in her pocket.
As Daniel counted out Merry’s cash advance, she took in his darkly handsome features with freshly stirred interest. He had a very strong jaw and the tiniest bit of gray just at the top of his sideburns. She enjoyed the sound of his voice.
“Everything appears to be in order,” Daniel said, maintaining his professional air. Then, studying her demeanor, he added, “You all right today?”
Merry smiled demurely. “Fine, it’s just, I got your note and I...I was kind of surprised. Good surprised. Guess I’m not used to hearing—er—I should say reading that kind of thing. And I know I’m like six shades of red,” she added, failing to fight the blush rising to her cheeks.
Daniel took on an engagingly familiar tone. He leaned across the desk and lowered his voice to a confidential level. “To tell the truth, I did a little soul-searching after you left last night and—I didn’t mean to embarrass you, but it’s what I was honestly feeling. And I signed it the way I did because, well...I was hoping you’d start calling me Daniel.”
