by K E Osborn
“I’m a dickhead. I’m so sorry,” he says and it feels like the wind has been knocked out of me for the second time tonight. I swallow hard and look into his eyes. My bottom lip trembles again and he puts his finger on my lips to stop them. “Vee, it’s no excuse. I had a bad day and I took it out on you. I can’t even begin to describe how sorry I am,” he says moving closer to me. My body starts to feel that electricity pulsing between us as the hairs on my arms stand up in reaction.
“Hudson—”
“I’m so sorry. I just hope I haven’t broken us completely because, to be honest Vee, I don’t give a fuck if you never tell me anything else about you. The thought that I’ve lost you tonight… when you left… I… I can’t lose you. You mean too much to me, baby,” he says softly. I look into his eyes and they’re glistening, his green and blue eyes are staring back at me so piercingly that I’m having trouble thinking straight. “Baby, please come home,” he says taking my hands in his.
I revel at the warmth of his hands. It sends a tingle up my arms and down my spine. His touch always does that to me. It sets me on fire, but I know going back to him will only spell more heartache in the future.
“Hudson, I don’t know. I can’t tell you yet. It’s not the right time and I can’t stand the thought of losing you again. And I know I will! I don’t think I can handle that, you know?” I say honestly.
He frowns and shakes his head. “Baby, I don’t know what has you so scared and I don’t know what you’re running from, but I’m here. I’m not going anywhere. The only thing that might put a dampener on us is if you were a man. You’re not a man are you?” he says with a slight smirk.
I smack his arm. “No, I am not a man you idiot, but I just don’t know what to think. Hudson, you hurt me and I can’t trust that you’re going to stay with me. When I go in, I go all in, and I want that with you, but if I’m all in then I can’t lose you. I won’t recover from it. Not again,” I say meaning when Danny left me.
“Hey, I’m sorry I told you to leave and you don’t have to worry about recovering from it again because I won’t ever do that again. I promise you, Vee! Whatever you’re scared of it’s not going to happen. I won’t let it. I care about you too much. I know I was a fuckhead. I know I let you down. I took my anguish out on you and I should never have done that. Now I’ve made you question us, and I can honestly say that letting you walk out of my house was the worst moment of my life, especially after you said you could’ve fallen in love with me. I can’t walk away from this and neither can you,” he says and he stands so close to me I can smell the beer he had before on his breath. “Vee, I want to be with you. I want you to live with me because it feels good. It feels right. I know that’s a lot to say after only three months, but it’s true. I’ve never felt this way about someone before and it scares me, but Vee, there’s no one I’d rather be with than you. As corny as it sounds – you complete me, in every way. You make me better. Please baby, please come home,” he says and I look at him and bite my bottom lip.
I swallow hard thinking my heart is winning over my head. I know I should just let this end here. If I go back to him I know it’s only delaying the inevitable broken heart again, but his words are so beautiful and he smells so good and he looks so delicious that I find myself standing up and looking him directly in the eyes.
“This is a bad idea,” I whisper.
He smiles and shakes his head. “No baby, this is how it’s meant to be. You and me. We can do this,” he says wrapping his strong arms around my waist pulling me to him.
“Vee, I don’t care where you’ve come from, or what your past entails. All I care about is our future, and if you don’t want to tell me about your past, then I will one hundred percent understand and never bring it up again. I want you. Nothing will change that baby, I promise,” he says leaning his forehead against mine. “Vee, please. Please give me another chance. Let me make this up to you,” he asks.
I exhale and close my eyes, just taking him in surrounding me. I love this feeling, he’s touching me in every way possible and I never want him to let me go… ever.
I can’t listen to my head anymore. I have to go with my heart, even though I think it’s the wrong choice, I make it anyway. I lean in and press my lips to his softly. His arms grip onto me tightly and I wrap my arms around his neck and run my fingers through his hair as his tongue enters my mouth and I feel like I’m home. I feel like the broken pieces of me are all joining back together and right here, at this moment, Hudson may just be my forever.
“Please don’t break me,” I whisper against his lips.
He nuzzles into me, my heart is racing and I feel light like I’m floating and I never want this feeling to end.
“I never could. I promise you, Vee, I will never break you,” he says and with that I lean in and kiss him again, giving myself over to him fully.
I sniff as tears threaten to fall, but they don’t. They never do. “Hudson.”
“Yeah?” he asks looking into my eyes searching desperately.
“Will you dance with me?”
He smiles brightly and nods. He lets me go and walks us over to the dance floor. He pulls my arms up over his shoulders and my hands run through his hair as his hands wrap around my waist tightly.
“I’m never letting you go, Violet,” he says and then leans in kissing me passionately while we sway to the music, every inch of us touching each other. And at this moment I know I never want to let him go either.
I arrive at Hudson’s after we made up at Amor. He pulls in behind me on his bike and I get out of my car as he steps over his bike and pulls his helmet off. He walks across to me and wraps his arms around my waist.
“C’mon firecracker let’s go inside where we can make up properly,” he says sultrily into my ear.
I nod and walk with him to the front door. After opening it, we walk inside his house and he puts his helmet on the dresser, as always, and then turns around shutting the door. I look at him just admiring his ruggedly, handsome good looks. He truly is breathtaking.
He turns back toward me and lunges forward taking me into his arms suddenly making me squeal as his lips press to mine forcefully and he carries me to his bedroom. His tongue finds mine and instantly a fire burns inside me for him. I pull my legs up and wrap them around his waist as he carries me toward his bed. We’re both already breathing heavily as we kiss frantically. He reaches the bed and lays me down gently. I was expecting him to throw me to the bed and rip my clothes off in his usual dominant style, but it seems like this is going to be slow and gentle and I’m totally okay with that. He lowers himself over me and puts his full weight on top of me. He breaks the kiss and stares me in the eyes. His blue is shining flecks of grey and the green flecks of gold, they’re shining so brightly I get lost in their illumination until he speaks distracting me from their brilliance.
“I’m so sorry, but let me make it up to you… slowly?” he says more like a question.
I nod and lean back in to kiss him. He pulls me from the bed suddenly and I giggle at his playfulness.
“What are you—”
“Shh, I want to see you baby, strip for me?” he asks and I smile and nod.
I lean in and kiss him quickly and then take a step back away from him. His eyes watch me intently as I move my hands down to the bottom of my shirt and slowly pull it up and over my head as I sway my hips to the imaginary music in my head. I hear a low growl rumble from his chest and I smile knowing that it was out of enjoyment and I like that I can make him growl. I love that my body turns him on. I throw the shirt on the floor and run my hands down from my neck grazing over my breasts and down my stomach and to the fly of my pants. I unbutton them and slowly pull the zip down, tantalizingly slow while watching as his eyes never leave me. He’s devouring me with his eyes and I love that look on his face. I hook my fingers into the sides of my pants and I shimmy out of them in a slow, sexy way, moving my hips from side to side and staring straight into his eyes. He move
s his hand to his pants and rearranges his cock. I smirk and bend over pulling off my heels and pants leaving me in just my underwear. He steps forward and licks his lips grabbing the back of my head forcefully, but not painfully and bringing my head to his. His lips caress mine so passionately my knees feel weak. I love the way he can still dominate me even though he wants this to be a slow fuck. I love it when he takes charge. I move my hands over his chest and down toward the hem of his tank top. I grab the bottom and pull it upwards. His lips break from mine momentarily so I can pull it off over his head and then his lips crash back to mine. His hands are all over me while I move mine down to his jeans and undo his zip and then tug them down. It surprises me when his cock springs free. He has no underwear on and that turns me on even more. He moves out of his boots and pulls his legs free of his jeans as his hands caress my back and they work their way to my bra strap. I move my hand down and take his rock hard cock into my hand and start to pull on him slowly. He moans into my mouth while he undoes my bra and it falls to the floor. I kick it over with the rest of my clothing. His hands come down and he takes hold of my panties ripping them so they fall to the floor in pieces.
Fuck that was hot!
He moans as I tug on him gently working him up. His lips leave mine making me mourn the loss of him.
“I’m meant to be making it up to you, so let me give you the pleasure, Vee,” he says taking my hand from his cock and placing it on his chest over his heart. I smile as that little gesture melts me yet again. I nod and he picks me up and slowly carries me to the bed. He lowers me down with his body completely covering mine. I run my legs up the sides of his as his lips come back to mine and I wrap my legs around his arse.
“I’ve never wanted someone the way I always want you, Vee,” he murmurs against my lips. I smile and lean up kissing him forcefully. My pussy is already wet for him as the energy surging between us is making my heart race a little faster. His tongue massages mine as he starts to move his hips on top of me, grinding into my pussy.
“Fuck me Hudson,” I whisper against his lips and he groans.
“Can I make love to you, instead?” he asks and my breath catches at his words.
I smile at him and nod. “Make love to me,” I whisper and he groans, crashing his lips back to mine. He shifts his weight on me and moves his cock in line with my opening. No foreplay just straight to it this time. He looks into my eyes and a surge passes between us, a jolt of electricity tingles up my spine causing me to gasp and I notice he does the exact same thing. It makes me think he’s feeling this too, he looks at me and I see nothing but adoration in his eyes.
“I need you, Vee,” he whispers as both our chests heave.
My heart races as butterflies flutter in my stomach swirling around so ferociously I feel giddy.
“I need you too, more than you know,” I whisper and his lips crash back to mine while he slowly eases inside me. We both moan as he fills me completely. Fire floods my veins whenever he’s inside me and now is no different. Honestly, I feel like I’m in an inferno and I love every second of it. He starts to move inside me slowly. There’s no fucking, no pounding or any dirty talk. It’s just Hudson, slowly making love to me. He eases inside again and the feeling is so intense that I can’t breathe. I’ve never made love with anyone other than Danny and even though I’ve felt this with Hudson before the feelings flowing through me are making me emotional. The connection with him is unmistakable and to think we could have thrown this all away tonight makes this even more special.
His tongue massages mine slowly and gently as he pulls his hand down from my face and takes my hand in his entwining our fingers together next to my head. I love how close we are right now and the feeling of him moving in and out of me so slowly is driving me crazy. I feel so close to him and right now I am falling in love with Hudson Stone, and I’m pretty sure he feels the same way about me. I can tell, by the way his eyes haven’t left mine since we started making love and the energy surging between us is like fireworks shooting off in every direction. I’m so happy he found me at Amor and I’m so happy to be here with him now, making love and sharing a piece of me with him that I never thought I could. My heart is starting to belong to him and I love this transformation he’s putting me through.
He thrusts into me slowly as he stares into my eyes. Unlike every other time I don’t see lust in them, I only see unmistakable attraction and adoration. He adores me and I adore him right back. He thrusts inside me again and my body starts to flame in an intense heat. He rocks back and forth slowly and even though it is slow, it’s so pleasurable that my insides are quivering. Our mouths lock together while he kisses me sensually sending goose bumps up my entire body. My free hand moves to his back and I grip on tightly as he starts to move slightly faster. I know he’s feeling the rush of this along with me. The undeniable chemistry is exhilarating as he moves inside me. I love that he trusts me enough to make love to me, skin on skin and without a condom. It feels so good to have him touching me in every way and the thought of him loving this as much as me makes my stomach flutter. He moves in such a way that he goes a little deeper, not much, but enough for me to gasp and my head falls back into the pillow. His eyes finally leave mine and he moves in kissing my neck as he motions inside me.
“Oh God, Hudson,” I murmur as he works me higher.
“I know baby, I feel it too,” he whispers back into my neck as he kisses me again.
We’re both moaning in time with his thrusts and even though it’s taken a little while to get there I’m starting to feel the pressure building up. I don’t know how he manages to get me to climax every… single…. time we have sex, but he does. We just fit together perfectly.
His thrusts become a little faster and my body is reacting accordingly. He’s making soft, passionate love to me and even though I like our dirty sex, this could quickly become a favourite of mine as well. He groans out on each thrust as my hand clenches onto his back and my hand in his tightens. My insides start to quiver and I feel like I’m shaking all over. A rush of something flows through me, I’m not sure what it is, but I feel like I want to cry. I feel so close to him right now that I never want to let him go. We are really connecting on a different level, like we know that we’re meant to be together and that nothing can tear us apart. At this moment I know that I’ll be with Hudson, he will be my forever because this feeling we’re both sharing, neither of us will want to let it go.
My body starts to tense and my breathing is rapid and fast as his mouth comes back to mine. He continues his thrusts inside me and my body coats with a fine mist of sweat.
“I’m so close baby are you with me?” he asks breathlessly.
I moan in response as his lips come back to mine. He thrusts deeper and I start to see flashes of light through my closed eyes. I know I’m right on the edge as my body tenses and lifts slightly off the bed to get closer to him. I feel like I’m floating and my body is shaking while I start to moan with every thrust. He’s moaning just as loud as me and hearing that he is as turned on as I am is only heightening my pleasure. I grip my hands even tighter on him while my body starts to almost convulse with his deep thrusts.
“Open your eyes, baby,” he whispers against my lips.
I open my eyes and stare into his as I pant breathlessly and move in time with him.
“I’m so close, Vee,” he says furrowing his brows tightly together. I swallow hard, his sex face is driving me crazy. “I’m gonna come,” he says thrusting faster.
I’m right there with him. My entire body tenses so tight waiting for the impending explosion. I feel like my whole body is constricting. I moan loudly as he thrusts again.
“I love you,” he moans loudly and my heart stops and then thuds back into motion when I experience my most earth shattering orgasm I’ve ever had as he blows inside of me. I moan out loud while I grip onto him tightly coming down from our intense joint orgasm. His mouth crashes to mine and we kiss feverishly as we both fall from the undeni
able high we’ve both experienced.
He said he loves me?
I can’t believe it!
I know I feel it too, but I can’t help but think about Danny right now. If I tell Hudson I love him back, does that mean I don’t love Danny anymore?
I can’t think about that right now. I just need to be in this moment with Hudson. The man who loves me. His lips part from mine as he slowly rocks inside me.
“I mean it, Vee. When I thought I’d lost you, it made me realise that I’m so deeply in love it hurts to be away from you. I’m sorry if it’s too soon and you don’t have to say it back, I just wanted you to know how I feel. I love you with every fibre of my being, with every beat of my heart, with every breath I take – I love you,” he admits while he stares into my eyes.
For the first time in a long time, my eyes fill with salt water, but I pull myself together before I let any tears fall. He’s breaking my walls down and I cherish the fact that he’s the one to do it. But I can’t bring myself to tell him I love him back… not yet. Even though I am pretty sure I feel it, I can’t betray Danny. Maybe with some more time I can admit my feelings for Hudson, but right now I just want to hold him and kiss him and let him tell me that we’re going to be all right.
“I… I… Hudson, thank you for admitting that to me and I love the fact that you love me, I feel it too, but I—”
“It’s okay, I know you’re guarded. I know you don’t let people into your heart, but I know I’m in there. The connection I feel with you is electrifying, Vee, and even if you can’t say it, I know you feel it. I can wait. I think I’ve proved I can be a very patient man when it comes to you. Well, except for my fuck-up tonight, but that won’t happen again, baby. I’m here and I’m not going anywhere. When you want to open up to me, I will be here. But until then let me just ravish you every chance I get, okay?”
I nod and his lips crash back to mine. I’ve never met someone more understanding than Hudson, even though he lost his shit tonight it was only because he was having a bad day, and if he didn’t then I wouldn’t know that he loves me right now. So even though tonight was terrible, it was also the best thing that could have happened to us.
