“How's the hospital for him? He said that this is the first time he's working in pediatrics.”
Elizabeth was sincerely interested, which was refreshing because when I had first told about getting married her she had dropped a bottle of wine on the floor in my old apartment which shattered and was a total waste. Now she was at least asking about him like he was a real person and not someone I had made up. But she was still pressing for the four of us to go to dinner sometime, and after dinner with Cole's uncle, I wasn't too keen to repeat it. I still couldn't believe what he had done under the table if we had been caught! I couldn't even imagine.
“It's fine. I don't think Pediatrics is really his thing, I mean he's used to a more military type of medicine but I don't think he hates it either. I mean he’s not there much longer anyway.”
I noticed that Elizabeth raised an eyebrow at that. “And why not?”
Shit. I hadn’t mentioned that Cole was only going to be working there for short period of time. I had to get better at the lie that was our lives.
“Well he's on loan from another hospital, so I don't think he intends on staying there full-time or anything.”
“What about you? Have you even been looking for a job? I just don’t want you to become this trophy wife Addison. Not to mention that's not really your style.”
“And what’s my style? What's that supposed to mean?”
“The little socialites, going to fundraising dinners and hosting cocktail parties. That might be what Cole is looking for, but that’s not you. That’s certainly not us.”
“So what? Just because you and I were raised different than Cole, what’s that got to do with things? Elizabeth, that's kind of shitty thing to say.” Especially because she was right. Doubt pushed its way into my mind.
She didn't make eye contact continuing to go through invitations. “I can't believe how many people got back to you, considering it was such short notice.”
I could tell she was ignoring my comment but I couldn't really blame her. She was right, Cole’s world wasn’t my own. For God sakes, I was getting married to someone who was practically a stranger and that was all because he wanted me to. What was I doing? Who was I becoming? This was all completely insane! It didn't matter how good sex with Cole was, or all the things that I could get the money from the severance package.
I was marrying him! I looked at Elizabeth as she continued to sort through invitations making the final no pile when I realized I needed to talk to Cole now!
“Elizabeth, I'm actually going out for a bit. Can you lock up when you're done?”
She looked at me, her face was concern and annoyance etched into it.
“But I'm not even halfway done.”
I grabbed my keys off of the counter and I muttered to her, “You might not need to finish.”
Sixteen
Addison
I walked into the hospital already sweating and practically breathless. I felt like I was losing my mind. It was a smart girl, not the type that randomly got married because it gave them a lot of money. I was supposed to marry for love, not lust. How hadn't I seen this before?
I just needed reassurance from Cole. I just needed him to tell me that we could continue dating as we were while we got married. That everything would turn out okay. But as I rounded the first floor of the Children's Hospital I saw my worst fears before my eyes. There was Cole laughing with one of the nurses, a petite blonde with full lips and even fuller breasts. She was touching his arm and giggling. He didn't even look up, totally focused on her. He never even noticed me as he turned around and she rubbed his shoulders laughing and giggling the whole time. She was giving him an impromptu massage.
Jealousy raged through my body.
Why was she touching him? What gave her that right? Not to mention what the hell was he doing? I suddenly realized I hadn't just come to the hospital for reassurance that our fake marriage wasn't totally fake but also for assurance the Cole actually liked me. That he cared. And here he was doing exactly what I should've expected him to be doing, acting like the total playboy that he was.
At one point I had been smart, I didn't like men interfere with my career or what I thought about myself. But ever since I had been with Cole things had just fallen apart. And that was my fault, I had let that happen. I had somehow let my worth be entirely about what he thought of me. And as I stood there with my mouth gaping open I realized that I was done with all of that. He could say whatever he wanted to say to get me into bed, but clearly, our relationship was still strictly professional. We were both in it for the money. And at the end of the day I would walk away with that big ass check and I would never have to see him again. But as the tears pricked the backs of my eyes I realized I couldn't see him again tonight either.
I turned on my heel and walked out of the hospital dialing the number of my best friends Kendall.
“Hey, I need a place to crash for tonight. Don't ask questions, just have wine.”
Seventeen
Cole
I dialed her number again but there was still no answer. So I left another fucking voicemail. “Addison. It's me. This is the sixth time I've called you. Where the hell are you? I need to know that you're okay. Call me back.”
I paced back and forth this in front of the kitchen island again looking over the couch onto the coffee table where invitations had been sorted. Clearly, she had been home at some point during the day, but now she was gone. Missing. Part of me wanted to call John over at the station and see if he could put out a missing person’s report on her because I didn't know what else to do. I was frantic, I had never been like this about a girl. Sometimes they left, that was just the way was.
But this time, it was different.
I was practically falling apart without her.
I needed her.
I had to make sure she was okay, wherever she was. But it was nearly midnight and I still hadn't heard from her. That meant something was wrong. Finally, the text came through.
Don't worry I'm with a friend. I'll meet you at the wedding planner tomorrow as we discussed. Don't call me anymore.
Don't call her? What the hell did that mean? She'd been living here for three weeks. Everything was perfect, I had even stopped on my way home at some premier coffeehouse in order to get her favorite type of blend. I was learning things about her, things that I liked. The whole thing was mindbending, to begin with, two complete strangers getting married. But here we were, falling for each other. She couldn't deny it any more than I could. I wasn’t that guy, I wasn't good at settling down, but she made me want to try.
She made it so that I wanted this arrangement to last so much longer than four months.
And now she was just letting it all fall apart? It didn't make any sense. I considered having a couple drinks or eating something, but I figured sleep was better.
I tossed and turned most of the night hoping that at some point she would creep into my bed and we would snuggle up together and everything would be forgiven. Not that I had any damn clue what was wrong. But when the sun started shining through my blinds I realized she hadn't come home. I got ready for meeting with the wedding planner and checked my phone several times but nothing.
What if she was pulling out of our deal?
I couldn't tell which concerned me more, losing my shares in the company, or losing Addison.
Eighteen
Cole
It had been nearly a week since Addison hadn’t come home, and now she was sleeping in the guest room. I had no idea what was going on with her. When I would come home from my shift she would have her door closed or be out on an errand. She was avoiding me.
But today she couldn’t avoid me any longer, it was the rehearsal, no matter how annoyed she was with me, she’d have to put on a good face. Because there were about thirty people we’d have to lie in front of.
I looked at Addison, who was wearing a short satin dress and cute sandals and felt my cock growing. She was so beautiful in her
elegant outfit. Even though I loved the complex bun her hair had been pulled into, I just wanted to destroy it and move my hands through her silky strands.
But as she stood in front of the alter that would be decorated with all her flower choices tomorrow, she didn’t even make eye contact.
We parted and she walked back to her family a very fake smile plastered on her face.
My uncle grabbed me by my upper arm and we walked down the path, away from everyone else.
“What in the hell did you do?”
Shit, did he know? Had he found out our secret?
“What do you mean?”
“Your fiancée over there is pissed as hell, I’m guessing at something you did.”
“I think she’s just nervous.”
“The hell she is. She’s giving you daggers at every turn. I’ve been watching, something is going on here.”
I decided honesty, or at least partial was best.
“I have no idea what's going on with her and that's the truth. I came home last week to an empty house and no Addison and she won't talk to me about it. I don't know what I did to piss her off, but you're right she's not happy with me.”
My uncle wrapped his arm around my shoulders. “Are you sure you should be getting into these nuptials without a level head? Being angry at each other and walking down the aisle doesn't seem like the best way to enter into a marriage.”
He had no idea. The best way to enter into a marriage was actually to be marrying someone that you love. While I had thought I loved Addison, and part of me still thought that I did, it was clear that she didn’t love me back. I shouldn't have been surprised, she was super bright and talented and beautiful. She was a total catch, the complete package. Perfect for my fabricated marriage, but was I perfect for her? Was I giving her everything she ever wanted?
I wasn't sure.
“What would you have me do? Cancel the wedding? Besides, I don't think she wants to do that either. Hopefully, this will all blow over very soon and we can move on.”
“With the rest of your lives…” My uncle countered looking at me seriously.
“Yeah, something like that,” I said dejectedly. Because right now I wasn't even sure that we’d make it to tomorrow let alone the next three months. And I had no idea what was going happen after that.
Nineteen
Addison
Everyone was sitting around the table which had white linens and beautiful blush colored roses just like I asked.
It was perfect, except that it wasn't.
Cole stood up to give a speech and I could hardly look at him. But as soon as he sat back down and he took my hand within his I smiled affectionately and played my part. That's what I was here to do. Some soft music was playing in the background and while everyone was chatting and eating dessert Cole's uncle approached me.
“Mind if I have a dance with the bride-to-be?”
Cole nodded raising a glass to him and I took his hand as he walked me out onto what tomorrow would be our dance floor.
“No one else is dancing.”
“I kind of wanted it that way. I don't know what is going on between you and Cole, but I will give you the same advice that I gave him. Figure it out before you walk down that aisle tomorrow. Before you make a decision that will impact both of you for the rest of your lives.” He spun me out and pulled me back in close. I was happy no one else could hear our conversation.
“What's that supposed to mean? Cole and I are fine. Just a little disagreement is all.”
“I'm not sure that he sees it that way. You know the whole relationship is a little suspect now that I think about it. He had told me about you a couple months ago of course but I was surprised you agreed to marry him.”
“Why is that?”
“Because you're smart. You might even be smarter than him. And you look like a woman who takes her time in making a decision about something. Like you wouldn't do something just because it benefited you, and plan out your whole life around it. Cole isn't that way. He's impatient and stubborn and everything has to be done immediately when he's around. He doesn't think about the future, there is no long-term plan for him.”
The song changed but it was still slow and smooth dinner music. “I'm not sure I understand what you're trying to say.”
“Addison, I have a pretty good idea of what's been really going on here and I can say with certainty that you are about to enter into an agreement that you may never be able to get out of. So run. Take your lovely little family and get out of town. You don't deserve to be put in this situation by my nephew. I can see that his pigheadedness has won out this time, but if you stay you're the only one who's going to lose.”
I pulled away from him, my fabricated smile now completely disappeared. “Cole and I are fine. I appreciate your concern but I can tell you with great certainty you have no idea what the hell you're talking about. It will be quite easy to prove that to you tomorrow.”
I stormed past him and walked directly out of the room. I continue to walk and until I found myself next to a pond where I sat down hoping to collect my thoughts. What a mess this all turned into. I watch the bubbling of the water as it rippled towards me and I put my fingertip down it to make a ripple back. It was like I was trying to stop the water from moving, almost like I was trying to stop my emotions from overtaking me. I heard someone come up behind me and I spun around to see Cole standing with his hands in his pockets looking both disappointed and inquisitive. Like he was lost.
“What are you doing out here?”
“I came to see you, obviously. What is going on, Addison? You’ve been avoiding me for almost a week. And then you go and have a dance with my uncle and suddenly your booking it out of the reception hall like nobody's business. Not really a great way to keep up a lie by the way.”
I rolled my eyes and stood up facing him. “Do you think that's all I care about?”
He shrugged looking defiantly back at me. “How the hell am I supposed to know what you care about Addison? You don't even speak to me! I imagine you're in this for the money at this point. You're certainly not in it for me.”
“That's remarkable coming from you. You're a hypocrite, do you know that?”
“Why am I the hypocrite?”
“I saw you at work. The little blond nurse giving a back massage, it was disgusting Cole. I thought at least we were exclusive. I didn't think I would have to go through the next ninety days wondering who else you were sleeping with. Is that so crazy?”
“Ashley? The nurse from work? When were you at work?”
I threw my hands up in the air. “You don't even deny it! Jesus Cole!”
“What is there to deny? She gave me a back rub, she is working on her physical therapy degree and has to do so many hours of massage. She goofed up her schedule and had to miss a massage appointment. I told her she rub my shoulders for thirty seconds and I would sign off saying that she did her whole hour. It was a joke between friends, I was just helping her out. Why didn't you ask me? Are you really that jealous?”
I took a deep breath and crossed my arms. Was I really that jealous? Had I ever been jealous before? The truth was, probably not. I had never really gotten involved with anyone as seriously as I had been with Cole. There was no one before that I cared about.
But jealousy be damned, I was still pissed. “I know about your past. I know that you were a player and that there was a good chance she was just a notch on your belt. But maybe I was too.”
He set his lips into a thin line and didn't speak for a moment. The only thing I could hear was my own heart beating and the fountain bubbling behind me. Finally, he said, “Is that really what you think of me? Is that what you think about us?”
“I don't know what to think,” I answered honestly.
He ran his hands through his hair. “I think that I'm scared about tomorrow. But I have this overwhelming excitement too. I can't wait to see where our relationship goes. But I don't want you entering into this if that's wh
at you think about me. Even if it may have been right at one point it hasn't been for the past month. The minute I met you everything changed. And I need you to recognize that. If you can't, then I don't think we should keep going.”
My mouth dropped open. “You want to cancel the wedding?”
“If that's what you think we should do.”
I shook my head. Not only with that ruin his chances of getting his shares within his company but decimate my relationship with my family. We had to see this through. “No, I don't want to cancel. I want to see where this goes. To see what we can be. I think we owe each other that.”
He moved closer to me so that our bodies were only inches apart. “I'm Cole,” he said as he shoved his hand into mine. “I'm a doctor at the local children's hospital and I like to make pancakes in the morning. I also have several outlets at my apartment and I love watching you wake up in the morning. When your hair is an unruly mess on your head and you throw on one of my shirts to cover up. Though most of the time I wish you wouldn't. Not because I mind sharing but because I don't ever want an obstructed view of those beautiful curves.”
Blush grew up my cheeks as I began to frame out a response in my head but then I heard the wedding planner come up behind Cole. “We need you to back on the patio for the cocktail hour. You have gifts waiting for you! Let's get a few pictures before the guests want to retire for the evening. Chop chop lovebirds!”
Cole took my hands and I dutifully followed him back towards the patio. I had been so quick to judge. We could have been enjoying this past week, taking in every moment but instead, I ruined it for us. But for now on anything Cole wanted over the next twenty-four hours would be his. That would be my response to his declaration of what could be love. I would make this wedding perfect for him.
For us.
Twenty
Cole
Cameras flashed around us as I held Addison’s waist. The professional photographer got all of his shots, but Addison’s family wanted a couple too, and I wasn’t about to say no.
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