“It’ll cool off.”
“I miss you.”
“Honey, I miss you too—”
“I hate it here! There’s all these people over and I don’t like any of them—”
“What people?”
“I want to come home!”
“Rachel, listen to me. I’ll make you a deal. Just try it out for a couple months.”
“A couple whole months?!”
“I want you to try. We all need to try. And then if you still don’t like it, we can talk about you coming back up here.”
“You hate me! Why don’t you just say it? You hate me and Mom.”
“I don’t hate you.”
“You hate Mom.”
“I don’t hate your mother.”
“This is so fucked.”
“Come on, Applesauce—”
The line clicked.
“Rachel.”
The line clicked again. Then the doleful dial tone.
What the hell happened? Wasn’t she starting to make friends?
She made a lot of friends. The older kids in the woods. But she made enemies too.
Who?
Goody girls. Cheerleaders and bitches like that. Teachers asking was everything all right at home.
Was everything all right at home?
What home? Jimmy’s trailer? That wasn’t their home.
Is that why she wanted to go back to Montana?
She didn’t want to go back to Montana.
Then why did she ask to live with her father?
Because her mother was letting her have friends over and of course the kids wanted to drink beer and her mother would be having people over too and there was this one perfect night when her mother didn’t stop any of them from getting beers from the cooler and nobody got in trouble or called the cops or anything, but the next day she was being such a bitch and said they couldn’t do that again.
Because it was inappropriate. Because she was her mother, not her friend.
Because she was hungover. Because she was jealous, to be honest.
Of the attention Rachel was getting?
Rose.
What kind of attention?
Just looking at her. Not looking at her mother. Talking to her. Jimmy always finding an excuse to lean over her just to get something from the shelf, rub against her in the narrow hall. One time fetching her a beer even though she didn’t really drink that much, she didn’t like being drunk and sick, she could nurse a beer for hours or pour it half out when no one was looking she was drunk enough on the attention the attention the attention like a drug.
So she liked Jimmy?
Ick.
The attention then.
Yes. The older guys in the woods, car stereos blasting. She knew the girls didn’t like her that much, but she didn’t care, she just talked to the guys, her mother’s friends, a suntanned blond saying they should go to his boat. Guys her dad’s age. Her whole life became more interesting. Every minute charged with her new participation in it.
But her mother, she hated this.
Jealous.
Surely it was more complicated than that.
They’d shared cigarettes and talked about men. They’d cried when they talked about Pete and Jimmy and what were they gonna do now, they couldn’t live here. Waco was terrible. They were broke. They were friends. Her mother didn’t know how to navigate backward to motherhood.
Or Rachel wouldn’t return to being a daughter.
She ran away. Two days.
Where did she go?
None of your business.
The Waco cops spotted her after curfew smoking at a Dairy Queen picnic table? She didn’t run?
No.
Why not?
She thought maybe her mother would be so glad to see her that she would let her get away with anything.
Was she?
She slapped her. Right in front of the police. Then kissed her and held her and cried and asked why and answered her own question that she was a bad mother and they needed to leave this place, they needed a fresh start and in a week they were headed to Austin where she had a job waiting for her.
What job?
A guy knew a woman who had to go back to Charlotte and needed someone to sublet her place and even better would Beth take her shifts at the bar down there, it paid good enough, hell yes.
What did they tell Jimmy?
They just left.
ELEVEN
He went back to work. He visited the Shorts armed with mace for the Rottweilers (gone), called Cecil’s uncle Elliot to check in on them (no answer), and paid a visit to Cecil’s mother, Debbie (skittish, defensive), and Katie (hale), but Pete was distracted. His mind kept turning to the Pearls, the boy, the coins. He watched for coins.
The cache of clothes and medicine was as he left it in the cleft of the rock. He sat listening to the forest, the chipmunks scurrying over the duff, the sky yellow with thin clouds and high smoke from a forest fire in Canada.
On his way down, Pete encountered a man dragging a travois of marijuana plants out of the cedar. When he spotted Pete, he dropped the plants and marched straight up the road toward him. Pete’s only options were up or down the mountain, or back up the grade behind him. He took his hands out of his pockets and waited. Told himself the guy just wanted to check him out. Tried to appear harmless and fearless at once.
The man was a panting six foot five, two-fifty. Not exactly fit, but formidable and aptly paranoid. He’d stripped his torso to a sweat-stained thermal undershirt. He wore leather gloves and a three-day beard and he looked like he meant business a little more than Pete expected.
“Who . . . the hell are you?” he asked.
“My name’s Pete Snow. I’m a social worker.”
“A social . . . worker . . . ,” the man panted.
“Yes. There’s a family up here. . . .”
Clearly the man had no idea what that could mean. He scanned Pete up and down and then stepped closer to him. Pete balled his fists at his side and backed up. The guy halted his advance and squinted sweat out of his eyes and dabbed them with his sleeves.
“I’m a need you to let me pat you down,” he said.
“What for?”
“Weapons. Whatever I find.”
“Would I be making fists if I had a weapon?”
The man sighed like he’d done this dozens of times, like a bouncer.
“I ain’t up here growing vegetables,” he said. “I gotta know who we’re dealing with.”
“My badge is in my car down at the gate.”
“Fuck,” he said. “Really?”
“What?”
“You’re parked at the gate? At the end of this road?”
“Yes. At the end of this road.”
He turned around and gestured for Pete to follow him. “Come on.”
“Like hell.”
The man stopped, turned around.
“One way or another,” he said wearily, “you’re coming with me.”
The grow was at the north end of a meadow where the uninterrupted sun nourished a dense half-acre of unremarkable cannabis all the day long. Two men halted chopping down the rows and stood straight up with their machetes at the sight of Pete and the man escorting him to their tiny plantation in the forest.
“Who the hell is this?” the nearest man asked. He’d gone bald, and an outsized Adam’s apple moved in his lank neck. The one behind him was from the looks of him a relation, bigger and with a full head of hair. A son or much younger brother or a cousin from one of those families where the kin bear too much resemblance and together seem like iterations of an old idea.
“Was coming out of the woods. Some kind of government worker.”
“The hell you bring him here for, George?” the bald man asked, chucking his machete into the earth and walking to them.
“He’s parked down at the gate.”
The other two men groaned. The bald man quickly looked at his watch and swore.
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“I’m sure he’s spooked.”
“He’s cautious,” the bald man said pointedly. He addressed Pete: “What are you, Fish and Game?”
Pete wondered if he appeared scared. How not to.
“I’m a social worker. I told your friend I left my badge in my car.”
The bald man looked at the other two. Pete couldn’t see the George who stood behind him, but the one with a head of hair shrugged in what Pete hoped was a benign indifference.
“Look, I really don’t have any sort of legal requirement to do anything,” Pete said. “I’m not a police—”
“Does your car have any kind of decals on it?” the bald man asked. “Like from your office?”
“Nope.”
“Give George your keys,” he said.
Pete hesitated. Thought he should break for it.
“I gotta see that badge,” the bald man said. He stepped close enough for Pete to see that maybe he could trust him. Close enough to hit him too.
Pete dug into his jeans and handed the keys over. The bald man told George to hurry, and George sighed and jogged off flatfooted in the direction of the road. At a gesture from the bald man, the other resumed chopping down the plants. The bald man pulled his own machete out of the ground and pointed with it at a place for Pete to sit. After a few minutes, he came and squatted in front of Pete, his arms across his thighs, the machete dangling between his legs.
“So what’s a social worker doing up here?”
Pete breathed through his nose, and studied a place just below the man’s eyes as he spoke clearly and without a trace of fear or impatience. As if all that mattered were facts, and with facts they would avoid all unfortunate outcomes. He explained about the Pearl boy coming to the school. How the boy said he lived up here, up this road, in these woods. How he returned the boy to his family.
“There aren’t any families up here, man.”
“This was some weeks ago,” Pete said flatly.
“There are not any families up here,” the man repeated.
“I can show you where I left them some clothes and food.”
The bald man searched Pete’s face for some sign of a lie.
“Stand up.”
“Why?”
“Stand up.”
“I’m afraid of what you’re going to do,” Pete said. “I won’t cooperate if you’re going to hurt me.”
The bald man looked at his partner, who had come over to see whatever was going to happen. The bald man half-laughed and half-sighed and said, “I’m just gonna pat you down. C’mon. Up.”
“Your friend already did that. Look, I’ll take you up to where I met Pearl,” Pete said. “At least let me show you the things I left.”
The man stood in alarm, as if a rattlesnake had emerged from between Pete’s legs.
“Did you say ‘Pearl’? Jeremiah Pearl?”
Pete nodded.
The man looked at his cousin or brother and put his palms to his kidneys and arched his back and looked at the sky. Then he grabbed a handful of plant stalks and started toward the trail.
“Come on,” he said. “We gotta move ass.”
They folded and stuffed as many of the grown plants into Pete’s trunk as would fit, and then laid several out on the backseat and floor and left many of the plants by the side of the road. Pete didn’t hazard an objection. They covered everything with their coats and climbed in. Pete backed down the road to the blacktop, turned the car around at the roadside, and asked them where to. The car was already pungent with sweat, dirt, and the aroma of their cargo.
“Left. Go left.”
The bald man kept checking the mirror as they drove. After a time, he settled down and picked through the things on Pete’s floor—clipboard, an accordion folder of case files, a plastic sack of baby bottles and rubber nipples. His lips flattened into a warmer expression. He said his name was Charlie.
“So you really are a social worker.”
“Yes.”
“Sorry it had to get a little heavy back there.”
“It’s okay. I’m accustomed to it.”
The dope farmers’ camping trailer was an hour and forty minutes away, up a remote logging road that hugged the shore of a nameless tiny lake impinged on and all around littered by a haphazard selection of boulders the size of small cars. Pete parked and they hauled the plants into the trailer and tossed them into the narrow hall, and when it was done, Charlie went down to the lake and came back with four bottles of cold beer. Pete made to go, but Charlie said for him to stay a while. That they’d all feel more at ease. They sat around a fire pit that was itself nearly encircled by boulders and drank the beers. Across the water a moose walked in muck and drooled into the lake heedless of them making a fire. Pete was put to shucking corn. Charlie took a few trout from the lake that they gutted, wrapped in corn husks, and cooked on the coals. They ate them with the corn and when dark fell, passed around a bottle of bourbon and a small ivory pipe carved into the shape of a naked woman whose mouth was the carb and whose blackened crotch Charlie stuffed with a plug of pungent purple weed.
“This your stuff?” Pete asked.
Charlie laughed. “The shit I grow is shit.”
They leaned against the boulders sated as Cheshire cats. Pete became altogether absorbed by the gill-like pulsing of the coals and the stoned epiphany that fish and fire shared a profound correspondence. He chuckled morosely at how high he was, that these guys could still decide they didn’t trust him. Now too stoned to make a break for it. The moose could still be heard across the water, the occasional suction of a hoof in the shallow mire. He thought he was just being paranoid. Except he wasn’t. Not exactly. He couldn’t tell.
Charlie leaned back to reach into the front pocket of his jeans and flipped a coin that flashed in the firelight and plopped in the dark somewhere between Pete’s legs. Said for Pete to look at the quarter.
“I already know,” Pete said.
“Where’d you get yours?”
“All over.”
Charlie sucked his teeth. “I’ve heard of them as far south as Polson and west in Bonner’s Ferry,” Charlie said. “A couple in pay phones on the Hi-Line.”
“There’s a pawnbroker collects them in Whitefish,” Pete said.
Charlie nodded and gazed into the fire.
“So,” Pete said. “How do you know Jeremiah Pearl?”
THEY MEET PEARL one spring at another grow location, a place not to be disclosed. It has rained for several days and they have been waiting for good weather to plant the seedlings. They’re playing cards in their tent when they hear a man call out. Pearl, in a hooded poncho, a rifle covered with clear plastic slung over his shoulder. He wears a large beard and the rain is coming down so hard you cannot make out his eyes or his expression.
He asks what is their business up here.
Charlie says they are camping, jokes how it’s just their luck to be out in such weather.
Their saplings are in apple crates and covered by a makeshift tarpaulin of plastic bags. Pearl inspects them, ignoring Charlie’s protests. He studies their seedlings and nods, as though he now understands everything. They think for a moment they are caught, that he is law enforcement or some grizzled official with the Bureau of Land Management. But the rifle. Maybe he’s a crazy misfit, a poacher.
Pearl shouts through the rain that they have a crop in another location.
Charlie says it’s none of Pearl’s business.
Pearl describes the location exactly.
The tent is small for three men playing cards and now more so with Pearl, who has simply entered it uninvited. He tracks in a great deal of mud and badly reeks. Dark water runs off his filthy pants, and getting a close look at him, they can see now a face of staggering intensity. Eyes a mineral shade of blue, an unnerving cold potential in them.
Pearl introduces himself. Asks if they would like to parley. There’s some discussion about what that in fact means. Pe
arl has a strange way of talking. Grand, with out-of-date words and diction. He explains that he does not believe the land he walks is his own, but also that no one knows all its features as well as he. He allows there are old-timers who might know more. He’s met such men in their cabins and cruder mountain redoubts but knows several of them to have died or moved on.
He insists that he has not one issue with cannabis and discusses with them the history of the plant and its role in the early Republic, the rope, cloth, and paper that were made of it and the wide variety of its applications on land and sea. He outlines what interests had lobbied for its criminalization. He says that growing the plant is a demonstration of man’s inherent freedom.
Charlie offers to smoke with him. Pearl declines. Charlie asks Pearl does he mind if he and his partners partake, and Pearl says go ahead.
Pearl talks as they smoke, almost as if he has held forth with them many times previous and has come back to at last finish the story. He speaks unbidden about his wife’s visions, dreams of the mountains, explosions and bloodshed, and how they prayed and realized that God was telling them to make ready for the End Times. How they sold off everything. The house, the cars, the boat, the motorcycles. Pearl travels out here, finds a piece of land. It has the exact features that his wife has dreamed, a south-facing hillside, a bench of rock on which they will build a house. He buys the property, goes home to fetch his family.
They know the dollar will be worthless and so they convert almost everything they own into bullet, gun, or seed. And gold, Pearl adds. Krugerrands and Maple Leafs and smaller denominations.
There are signs of betrayal and of what will be completed. They are followed by a black sedan. The president of Italy is murdered by the Red Brigade. Their car is sabotaged in South Dakota. The heat wave, the hot blacktop as they wait for the tow truck, the hot blacktop as they wait for the mechanic.
A hundred and thirty dollars for an alternator. The mechanic says the tires look pretty wore out. Jeremiah checks for his wallet in his back pocket as if the mechanic were reaching for it, which in a way he is. They are about out of American scrip. They camp a stone’s throw from the car in a dry swale next to a cornfield. No fire. They sleep on the ground in their sleeping bags and wake up dewy and stiff. A bag of green apples for breakfast.
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