by Rachel Burns
She pretended to be someone else, depending who she was with. Gina didn’t know who she was. That hurt her so much. She’d gotten out of focus trying to please others.
“I have to raise you properly while I have the chance to get you over my knees now, because I won’t be around to do it later. You’ll have to behave without me being there to watch you.” His large hand alternated between her cheeks, first hitting one and then the other.
The burn was barely tolerable, but Gina was rocking from side to side. The diaper was still working its magic, and she was certain that she would ache with need once he stopped.
“I care too much about you to allowed you to pretend to be someone you aren’t. I need you to understand that, Gina. You’re a very lovely little girl, and I wouldn’t want you any other way.”
His hand circled over her glowing cheeks. She’d gotten a nice dark red this time. He was certain that she knew exactly why she’d needed to be spanked.
Alexander moved his right leg to the side, freeing her. “Do you want to sit on Daddy’s lap, or do you want to go to your room and cry by yourself?”
He asked so kindly that Gina started to cry. Before, she’d only been reeling in the pain and pleasure he was giving her. Now she felt the shame.
“I want to sit on your lap, Daddy,” she answered, standing up. Her diaper fell to the floor.
Alexander closed his knees, so she could sit. He wrapped his arms around her and told her that he loved her the way she was.
Gina knew this was all a game, but she liked hearing that she was loved. She wanted to get closer to him. Her head was bowed, and she didn’t want him to see her face.
Gina stood up. Then she lifted her leg over his body. She sat down on him, so she was straddling him. She laid her head on his shoulder and turned her face away from him. Her arms wrapped around his neck and most importantly her heart was pressing into his.
Alexander got a handkerchief out of his pocket. “Look at me, Gina.” He spoke in soft comforting whispers.
Gina shook her head, leaving it buried in his shoulder.
“Daddy isn’t mad at you anymore. You learned your lesson, didn’t you?”
She nodded, but otherwise, her head remained where it was.
“Well then, we’re friends again. Isn’t that true?”
Gina nodded again.
Alexander’s hands rubbed lovingly up and down her back. It was clear that she needed him to hold her. She could have gone to her bedroom. Instead, she chose to cling to him.
“Yes, we’re friends again.”
“I’m so glad to hear that. You have no idea how much I love you.” He spoke the truth. Nevertheless, she would think it was part of the game and answer accordingly.
“I love you too, Daddy,” she responded.
His hands moved down, so they were cupping her backside. He squeezed her flesh together.
Gina could feel him getting hard. His bulge was pressing into her clitoris as the diaper had before. Automatically, her hips started to rock into his stiffness.
She looked into his eyes to see if she was being naughty again.
His features softened, and he smiled at her. With his handkerchief, he wiped away her tears.
“Should Daddy make love to you, Gina?” he asked knowing this truly would be the last time that they would join their bodies together in something that felt so sacred that it must be a gift from God himself.
Gina nodded at him. Reluctantly, she stood, so he could open his trousers. The moment his penis sprang free, she lifted her leg and straddled him again. Her hand wrapped around him, claiming him as her hers. He was her Daddy, and for now, she wasn’t going to share him. Until two, he was hers and hers alone.
She stroked him trying to get his as turned on as she was. His penis was like steel in her hands, but it was softly covered. She longed to have him inside of her, but she wanted to prolong this as much as she could. Their time together had become very precious.
Alexander’s hands went to her hips. He figured that she worried about being too promiscuous. He lifted her hips, so she was directly over the head of his penis.
Gina sank down around him. Her heels curled around the back legs of the chair.
Alexander held tightly to her hips, moving her body up and down on him. Gina wrapped her arms around him and rubbed her face against his, like a kitten would. He was perfectly shaved today.
The sound of their bodies clapping together when they met sounded like applause. There was nothing he wanted more in this world then to have her cling to him and make love with him.
All too soon he felt his sperm building up inside of him. It was surging in her direction. It felt so good, but at the same time he didn’t want this to end.
Alexander let go of her hips and wrapped his arms around her. Her hips were still moving, circling around his penis. A moment later he heard her coming. She was panting into his ear. He made out the word Daddy.
Selfishly, he held onto her not wanting this weekend to end.
Gina was pleased that he wasn’t pushing her away. Once she’d relaxed a little, she rested her head on his shoulder, finding a comfortable position.
Neither wanted to move away from the other. The connection each was feeling was something that was so much more than sexual. Their hearts were pressed together, beating as one.
They were clinging to the other as if the other was their own personal life support, but neither dared to speak about what was going on inside their hearts.
~ Saying Goodbye ~
Daddy got out Gina’s suitcase. It was time to pack the things that she hadn’t gotten a chance to wear this weekend.
He packed up her toothbrush while she sat on the bed, watching him. He grabbed her nightgown from the back of the bathroom door. He had already packed up half of the cookies they had made together, so she could take them home with her.
“Did you pick out something to wear home, Gina?” He was trying to sound cheerful, as if this wasn’t breaking his heart.
“Yes, Daddy,” she answered. She’d chosen jeans and the sweater with the pink heart on it, which he’d given her. She would look like a grown up, but still it was something a little girl could wear.
“Good girl. Bring your things here, so I can change you.”
Gina grabbed her pile and brought it to him.
Alexander took her things and laid them to the side. He opened the buttons at the back of her dress and removed it by pulling it over her head.
Gina’s arms remained in the air for a moment once the dress was gone. She was enjoying the way it felt to be little and taken care of.
He lifted her up and lovingly helped her lay back on her changing table. Her legs fell open, like they needed to be for a diaper change.
Alexander got a washcloth and gently cleaned her.
Why is this so difficult? he asked himself. I hardly know her. This was turning out to be one of the most difficult things he’d ever done.
He went to her pile of clothes and saw the panties he’d given her. The ones he felt she was too young to wear.
He turned back to her. “Lift you foot up to Daddy.”
Both of her feet came up. Her knees pressed into her chest. She was so precious, someone who needed lots of love and protection.
He slipped the panties around her feet, pushing them up over her knees and thighs. “Lift up your bottom for Daddy.”
She planted her feet at her sides and raised her hips for her Daddy one last time. He slipped the panties into place. The elastic border of lace and pink hearts encircled her tummy.
Seeing her in big girl panties brought with it a feeling of finality that shook his soul. He got her dress and smiled at her. She shouldn’t know how difficult this was for him.
It felt wrong not to have a diaper on. Gina was surprised at how quickly she’d gotten used to the feeling of wearing them. She’d never used them, but they had given her comfort.
Daddy put on her socks, and she was ready to go. It was
five minutes before two. She needed to be in a cab soon, proof that she’d left on time. That was something that was important to her boss. Once she was in the cab, she had to call in and tell Natasha that she was fine.
She would be lying, of course. A broken heart is worse than a bruise or a broken bone.
Gina knew that now.
“I’ll get your shoes.” Alexander left her sitting on her changing table with her feet dangling off the end. He came back with her boots. He knelt down in front of her and guided her foot into the tiny boot.
Alexander rested the bottom of her foot on his thigh, so he could close the zipper of her boot. He repeated with her other foot.
He helped her to her feet. She was smaller than he was. Her head was the perfect height to rest on his shoulder.
Gina was thinking the same thing. She wanted to cling to him and refuse to let him go. She loved him so much and this felt terrible.
Chances were that she would never see him again. This was so hard to go through. It was made worse by the fact that she had to pretend that she wasn’t feeling awful inside.
“Thank you for letting me stay with you this weekend, Daddy.”
Alexander smiled at her, hiding the pain he felt inside. “I was glad to have you.” He turned away from her, knowing that he could no longer keep up this farce. “I’ll get your coat out of the front closet.”
He picked up her suitcase and carried it to the door for her.
Gina followed him, debating if she should say something, and if yes, what. She’d made a fool of herself so many times this weekend.
He held the coat up for her, so she could slip into it. She did, avoiding his eyes as she moved.
He closed her coat for her, first the zipper and then the buttons. He wanted her to be bundled up nice and warm before she left to go outside in the cold.
“Thank you for all the gifts you gave me, Daddy.”
“Don’t mention it. I was happy to give you your things.”
Gina was trying to think of something else to say. She wasn’t ready to say goodbye yet.
Alexander opened the door for her. He went to the elevator and pushed the button. It was better to get things like this over with quickly.
Gina misinterpreted his actions. He seemed eager to get rid of her now. It gave her the courage to smile at him and say goodbye.
The doors opened, and he set her suitcase inside. “Get home safely.”
“I will,” she promised. She was smiling as the doors separating the two of them closed.
Gina gasped for air and leaned against the wall. Her world was tumbling down at her feet. She would have to take very large steps to get over the emotional boulders blocking her way.
When the doors opened, she forced herself to walk out with dignity.
The doorman opened the door of the building for her. “I hope you had a nice weekend, Gina.”
“Yes, I really did. Thank you,” she answered.
“Should I hail you a cab?” he offered.
“Yes, that would be great.”
He went to the curb and raised his arm up high. A cab stopped immediately. He opened the door for her.
“Goodbye, Gina.”
“Goodbye. Thank you for your help.”
“I was glad to do it.”
Alexander went back into his apartment after Gina had left. He remade her bed, pulling the covers tightly into place before he went into her bathroom and removed the changing table things from the countertop. He bunched up the towels and threw them in the laundry for the maid to take care of tomorrow. Then he folded up the padding and put it away in the cupboard.
He stared down at the empty countertop. All traces that an extremely beautiful and wonderful person had been here this weekend were now gone.
~ The Agency ~
Gina looked up at her boss. “I’m sorry, but I can’t work for you any longer.”
“Is this a question of your pay? Do you need some money?” Natasha asked her.
“No, I’ve been saving most of it. The problem is me. I did something I knew I shouldn’t do. In fact, I was warning myself not to do it all weekend, but I can’t deny it anymore.” Gina had been suffering all week. Natasha had just texted her with a new assignment. Gina went to the agency to quit, knowing she couldn't pretend to be someone she wasn't again.
“Was he too old? Do you want younger men? That can be arranged.” Natasha didn’t want to lose one of her best girls.
“No, his age wasn’t the problem.”
“Then it was the Age Play thing. Gina, believe me when I say, you don’t have to do anything you feel uncomfortable with.”
“I feel uncomfortable sleeping with strange men. I can’t do it anymore.”
“Did that last man hurt you in any way. If he did, you have to tell me. I need to protect the other girls.” Natasha moved closer to Gina.
“He stole my heart. I fell in love with him. I know he doesn’t love me back. I’m not so naïve that I would think it was mutual, but I need time to get over him. If you sent me on dates, I would disappoint the men. I couldn’t go through with it. It would feel like I was cheating on him.”
“Gina, you’re one of my best girls. I’ll tell you what I’m going to do. You take two weeks off and give your heart a chance to heal. After that, we’ll sit down and talk again. If you need another two weeks at that time, you take it. This isn’t the kind of job that you give up. You won’t find anything that pays better.”
“I know, but I don’t think this is right for me. Thank you for giving me an opportunity. I’ve learned things here that will help me in later life. Thank you for everything.” Gina stood up and shook her employer’s hand. “Goodbye.”
“You can call me whenever you want. The men liked you.”
Gina nodded at her and left. She had to do what was right for her. If she didn’t, she would be hurting herself.
Alexander walked into the agency and looked around. Several women were here, talking to one another. None of them were his Gina.
He went to the one sitting behind a desk. “Good afternoon, I need information about one of your girls.”
“We don’t give out private information about the girls.”
“I understand that, but I need to speak with Gina.”
“Does this have to do with a sexually transmitted disease?” the woman asked.
“Of course not.” Alexander was shocked by the question.
“You can leave a message with me, and I could contact her. But truthfully, if she did respond, she would be fired.”
“I need to talk to her. I forgot to tell her something while she was visiting me last month.” This past month had been unbearable. He’d been suffering, and he needed to see her.
“And what was that?” The woman raised an eyebrow and looked him up and down.
“I forgot to tell her that I love her. I deeply regret that mistake.”
“Sir, chances are you’re going to make a fool out of yourself.”
Natasha stepped out of her office just in time to hear her receptionist insulting a client.
“You’re probably right. I wanted to see Gina to try to convince her that I love her. I don’t want to regret not trying to win her heart.”
“Mr. Adams, I presume.” She walked over to him with her hand stretched out.
“Yes. You’re Ms. Burke, I presume.” Alexander shook her hand.
“That’s correct. I understand that you want information about one of my girls, Gina.”
“Yes, I’d like to talk to her. I would be very brief about it. If she never wanted to see me again, I would understand and leave her be.”
“I’m afraid Gina doesn’t work for me anymore. She quit for personal reasons.”
Alexander immediately started to worry about his little Gina. “Is she okay?”
“I’m afraid not. She has a broken heart. She told me that she had to quit because she fell in love with her last client.” Natasha looked him up and down, seeing what Gina must se
e in him. He was certainly the kind of man who was worth giving up this job for. “I believe you were her last client.”
“Yes, I was with her on Valentine’s weekend.”
“Please give Mr. Adams Gina’s telephone number and her address. I hope you have a lovely day, Mr. Adams.” Natasha walked away feeling good about herself. That had been her good deed for the day. Now she could be her usual mean self again. Still, she couldn’t suppress the grin on her face.
I’d better knock that off before someone starts to think that I’m nice, she told herself.
After Alexander had carefully put Gina’s address and telephone number into his pocket, he went to a flower shop and picked out red roses for her.
Gina had told her boss that she loved him. That was the best news he’d ever heard. He would be able to go to her and tell her that he loved her without having to worry that she didn’t love him back.
Nevertheless, he was nervous when he rang her doorbell. He hid the flowers behind his back, wanting to surprise her.
The door opened, but it wasn’t his little girl who answered. Instead, it was a college girl.
“Good afternoon. I’m here to see Gina. Is she in?” he asked.
“No, she’s out. She’s been gone for hours. I don't know when she will be back,” the young girl answered him. “Do you want me to tell her that you were here?”
“Yes, thank you. My name is Alexander Adams.” He got out his wallet and gave her his card. “She can call me whenever she wants to. The time doesn’t matter.”
He left disappointed.
Gina was a block away from Daddy’s apartment. She’d stopped walking. She had been walking up and down. debating what she should do.
Her idea was to talk to him and tell him how she felt about him. That way she wouldn’t have to guess if he loved her or not. She would know the truth and eventually be able to move on with her own life.
In theory, it sounded very simple, but in reality, she wasn’t so sure. Admitting that you love someone who probably didn’t love you back, took courage. She was putting herself out on a limb, and she was going to get hurt.
