I pulled back from him and stared into his eyes. “Sean, I want you to make love to me.”
He flinched back and shook his head. “No. No, I didn’t say that so you would sleep with me. I just wanted you to know how I feel.”
“I know, but I don’t care anymore. I know you love me and I know you would never hurt me. I trust you with my heart and this is what I want. I don’t need to wait to know that you’re the one for me.”
He reached down into his pocket and pulled out a simple gold band and held it out to me. “I’ve known for a while now that I loved you, but I didn’t know how to tell you. I got this ring from my mom a few weeks back. It was my grandmother’s wedding ring. I wanted it for you because it was so simple, exactly the way I feel about you.”
I quirked an eyebrow at that, not sure I wanted to be referred to as simple.
“Just wait. Let me finish. I love you more than I ever thought I could love another person. I was scared to death when you entered that building tonight because the thought of you being taken away from me was too much. My love for you is deep and all consuming, but simple in that there is no wavering. I simply love you. There is no second guessing or wondering if I’m making the right choice. I know that you were meant to be mine, and I know you don’t need any fancy display of love. You just need to know that I’m yours. That’s what this ring is. No frills. Just a symbol of my unwavering love.”
I smiled at his overwhelming explanation. He was right. It was simple, and I didn’t need anything big and splashy from him. I needed to know that no matter what, I would have him.
“I love you, Sean.”
He kissed me deeply and then picked up my left hand.
“What are you doing?”
“We will be married in the eyes of God before I make love to you. I know how much that means to you and I won’t make you break something so sacred to you.”
He held my hand and started to slide the ring onto my left ring finger.
“I, Sean, take you, Lillian, to be my wedded wife, and I promise before God to be your loving and faithful husband in plenty and want, in joy and in sorrow, in sickness and in health, as long as we both shall live.”
A few tears slid down my face as he recited wedding vows so accurately. He must have looked them up and read them several times. This was crazy, but I didn’t care. He was making sure that my faith remained intact because he respected my beliefs.
“I, Lillian, take you, Sean, to be my wedded husband, and I promise before God to be your loving and faithful wife in plenty and want, in joy and in sorrow, in sickness and in health, as long as we both shall live.”
When he kissed me, it truly felt as if I was kissing my husband. It didn’t matter if we were legally married. We had just pledged our lives together in front of God and that was all that mattered to me.
He lifted me up and carried me bridal style up the stairs to his bedroom that would now be ours. When he set me down, he ran his hands slowly down my arms, sending tingles down my spine. His hands went to the hem of my shirt and he slowly pulled it up. I lifted my arms, allowing him to pull it over my head. I thought he would continue to undress me, but instead, he walked me back to the bed and then pushed my gently to the mattress.
He caressed my cheek with the back of his hand and placed gentle kisses all over my face. I felt cherished. I felt loved. His kisses glided down my neck and across my collarbone. When he reached the swell of my breasts, he trailed hot kisses across to each nipple, nipping lightly through the fabric of my bra. I felt my nipples tighten in response and my pulse quickened with every touch.
He ran his fingertips lightly over my breasts. My breaths started coming in short pants as he caressed my body. I felt his fingertips run along the waistband of my pants, never dipping more than a fingertip inside. I was shaking with need, wanting him to put his hands on me and get on with it. As if he sensed my frustration, he looked into my eyes.
“Lil, I’m going to take my time with you and make this everything you ever wanted. This is your first time, but this is my first time with my wife and I’m going to treasure every second of it. By the time I’m done with you, there won’t be a single piece of your body that I don’t have ingrained in my memory.”
I ran my hand over his cheek, feeling the stubble from the day against my palm. “I’m just nervous. I’ve never..I don’t know what to expect.”
“Have you ever touched yourself?”
I shook my head no.
“What do you feel when I kiss you?”
“I feel..tingles. I want more and I feel like if you stop, I’ll explode. I get..wet.” I blushed. This was so unlike me to talk about this, but he was my husband now and if I couldn’t talk about it with him, then what was the point of this?
He ran his hand down my pant leg and up my inner thigh. When he reached the apex of my thighs, he ran his hand lightly over my mound. I moaned at the feeling and felt my panties dampen further. I was sure that he could feel it through my pants.
“You get wet for me. You get hot. I can feel how much your body wants me.” He rubbed the heel of his palm over me, my pulse skyrocketing. “I’m going to make you come and when you do, you’ll know it. You’ll feel like you can’t hold back the feeling that wants to break free, but at the same time, your body will be curling into itself to stop the intense pleasure.”
He rubbed me harder through my pants as he described what it would be like. I could feel my body pushing higher and higher. “When I touch you with my fingers and spread your cream over your clit, you’ll feel like you can’t catch your breath. Those tingles that you feel when I kiss you will feel like thousands all over your body.”
He removed his hand from my mound and ran his hand up my bare belly to my breasts. “Do you feel your nipples tightening? That’s another way I’ll give you pleasure. I’ll pinch them and twirl them in my fingers or I could suck them into my mouth and run my tongue all over your beautiful breasts. You’ll feel yourself soaking your panties from the sensations.”
He moved his hand back down to my pants, hovering over the waistband. He bent over and placed a few kisses on my belly as he slowly pulled the sweats down, exposing my panties. With both hands, he pulled my pants down my legs, leaving me naked. I was shivering, but not from cold. I was nervous and excited. I wanted him to touch me, but was afraid I would disappoint him.
He kissed down one leg in slow, wet kisses and then back up my leg. He placed hot kisses on me through my panties and then kissed back down my other leg. My body convulsed from the desire that was building. When he reached my foot, he ran his hands back up my legs and latched on to my panties. As he pulled them down, he kissed my most sensitive area.
“Ahh!” The sensations were beyond anything I could have ever imagined. I writhed under his touch, but pushed my body closer to his hot mouth. He pulled back and finished removing my panties.
“Are you beginning to get the idea?” he asked.
I nodded excitedly, breathing heavily and needing to feel his tongue on me again. When his mouth was on me again, I let out an aching scream. I had never experienced anything so moving in all my life.
He continued to lap at me and it only took a few minutes for me to feel what he had described. My legs shook violently. My breathing was so rapid, I thought I might hyperventilate and pass out. When my orgasm hit, my back bowed off the bed and my legs squeezed shut, trying to dull the sensation that was so powerful, I thought I might not recover. He continued to lick me until my orgasm dulled to a low throb. Spasms wracked my body for minutes after the experience.
Sean crawled up next to me and wrapped his arms around me, pulling me in close to him. He ran a hand up and down my arm, trying to calm my body again.
“Wow. That was..I don’t think I could accurately describe what that was.” He chuckled behind me. “Why do I feel so tired? I didn’t do anything.”
“It’s the rush. Close your eyes.”
“I don’t want to stop,” I said sleepily.
“We’ve got all night. Believe me, I’m not through with you yet.”
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I was warm and cool at the same time. Sean’s warmth was wrapped around my skin, but the kisses he was leaving on my body left me shivering with need. I moaned as his tongue left a wet trail up my neck where he was now kissing behind my ear. More shivers raced through me. Then I felt his hand skim down to my legs and his rough fingers massaged my button. It was exactly as he described it. When he pushed a finger inside me, I gasped at the new feeling. I could feel that he was getting close to my hymen because of how tight it felt.
I wasn’t sure that I was ready for this now. I wanted it so badly, but I was nervous how badly it would hurt. I didn’t want to stop him, though because I knew how much he wanted this.
“Relax, Lil. I’m gonna get you nice and wet before we go further. Just let your body relax. The more you tense up, the more it’ll hurt. Just let your body feel the sensations.” He kissed my neck again, sucking lightly and eliciting another moan from me. The more he kissed and sucked at my neck, the more my body melted from his touch.
I felt his finger slowly pump in and out of me as his thumb rubbed circles over my clit.
“That’s right, sweetheart. Feel it. Just allow your body to take over.”
I was breathing hard now from all the sensations and my eyes fluttered shut.
“Keep your eyes open, Lil. I want to watch you when you come.”
A few more circles and I was coming once again from his touch. His eyes never left mine as I came hard. His mouth enveloped mine as I moaned my release. When my breathing calmed, he stood and pulled his shirt over his head, then undid his pants and kicked them off. My eyes were glued to his erection that was threatening to break free from his boxers. When he lowered them, my eyes bulged at what he had hidden from me.
“I’ve never seen..I mean, it’s so much different than in a text book.”
He gripped his erection and started stroking himself. I found my eyes glued to his actions. It was so erotic and so much more than I had ever thought I would see. I always pictured sex being with a well mannered man and the sex was never this exciting, but then again, I didn’t really know all that was involved with sex. He stepped toward me and placed a knee on the bed.
“Lillian, you’re going to have to stop staring at me like that or I’m gonna come in my hand, and that’s not how I pictured coming with you for the first time.”
I giggled a little because, frankly, this was the strangest conversation I’d ever had. I wasn’t used to talking about sex so bluntly, but I had a feeling that once Sean and I got into a rhythm, I would be hearing something more scandalous.
He crawled over me, pushing me down as he did. When he was lying over me, he rested on his forearms and kissed me deeply. “You’re not the only one that’s nervous, Lil. I want this to be perfect for you. I’ve waited so long to feel you that I can’t believe this is real. I’ve never wanted anyone the way I want you, need you.” He bent down and kissed me again. “I love you so much.”
“I love you, too, Sean. I’m ready.”
He palmed his erection and I felt him guide it toward my opening. As he pushed in slowly, I could feel him stretching my body and I started to tense up. He stopped and looked down at me.
“Don’t. Just relax.” His hands roamed my body as he sat still inside me. He kissed my neck as his hands cupped and played with my breasts. Slowly, my body melted into his and I barely noticed when he started pushing inside me again. I was distracted by the other sensations so much that the pain of losing my virginity barely registered.
When he was fully seated inside me, he gave me a moment to adjust before he slowly moved in and out of me. I wrapped my legs around his back as he moved deeper and faster inside me. I pulled him closer, needing to feel as close to him as possible. His tongue tangled with mine as he pushed me closer and closer to orgasm. His mouth caught my screams and moments later I felt him still inside me as he grunted his release.
He placed gentle kisses all over my face. I had never felt so special or cherished in all my life. What he gave me exceeded my expectations and left me feeling more than ever that he was the only man that could have captured my heart and soul.
He got up and went to the bathroom, coming back moments later with a warm cloth. He washed me up and then put the washcloth back in the bathroom. When he cocooned me in his arms once again, I drifted to sleep in moments. The steady beat of his heart lulled me into a dreamless sleep.
CHAPTER TWENTY-SEVEN
Sean
I NEVER THOUGHT I would be so lucky to have a woman like Lillian in my bed. From the moment I met her, I knew she was different, but I never would have guessed the impact she would have on my life. She challenged me to be a better man, not because she wanted to change me, but because I wanted to be the man she deserved.
When I had asked my mom for my grandma’s ring, she smiled and got if for me. She knew that only the most special woman could entice me into matrimony. I told her all about Lillian and showed her pictures of us. I promised her before I left that I would bring Lillian by soon for her and Dad to meet.
Lillian stirred next to me and I tightened my arms around her, needing to stay in this cocoon for a little while longer. The sun was just rising and the first rays of light were shining through our bedroom window. Our bedroom. We’d have to work out all the details now, but one thing was clear. She was my wife now and we would be living together from now on. There was no way I was letting this woman get away now that I had tasted her.
“Good morning, husband,” she said with a smile as she turned in my arms to face me.
“Good morning, wife.”
I kissed her, relishing in the feel of her body against mine and had to restrain myself from rolling her over and pushing inside her.
“Are you sore this morning?”
“A little,” she blushed.
“How about I make you a hot bath to soak in? I have a few things to take care of and then we can pick up where we left off last night.”
“Don’t you have to work today?”
“You know, I’m feeling a little under the weather this morning. I think I’m going to have to take a sick day.”
We smiled at each other and I kissed her one last time before getting out of bed and filling the tub with water. While she was soaking, I called the chief to let him know I wouldn’t be in today. He didn’t believe for a minute that I was sick, but I didn’t care. There was nothing that could drag me away from Lillian today.
I made her a big breakfast because I had plans for her today and she would need her energy. When it was all ready, I headed upstairs and called her from the tub. She put on one of my t-shirts and we snuggled under the covers as we ate.
“So, what are we going to do today?” she asked.
I looked at her and let my eyes drift down to her plump lips and then further to her breasts that were just barely covered by the blanket. A beautiful blush spread from her chest, up her neck, and then stained her cheeks red.
“I think you already know the answer to that.”
“Can I ask you something?” She was fiddling with her fruit, so I figured this was something she wasn’t comfortable asking.
“Of course.”
“When we first met and you were trying to get me to sleep with you, you talked differently.”
“Okay. How did I talk differently?”
“You were more crass..when you spoke about sex.”
I nodded, unsure of where she was taking this.
“Why don’t you speak like that to me now?”
I lifted her chin so she could meet my gaze. “Because back then you were a woman I wanted to fuck. Now you’re my wife and what we did last night wasn’t cheap or meaningless. I wanted you to have the best experience possible for our first time.”
“Does that mean you’ll never speak that way to me again?”
“Do you want me to?”
“
I’m not sure.”
“There are many ways to enjoy sex. What we did last night was..tame compared to some things we could do, but we’ll just take it one day at a time. If you want me to talk dirty to you, just say the word. If you want me to tie you up and take you hard, I will.” Her eyes widened and I could see her pulse jump under her skin. She liked the idea. “You have to tell me what you want and when you’re ready for it. Until then, I’ll continue to make love to you just as I did last night, and it’ll be great every time because it’s with you. All that other stuff doesn’t matter.”
“I think we should wait a little bit to try something different. What we did last night left me sore.”
“Then we’ll take it slow.” I ran a hand down her soft cheek and leaned in for a kiss. “I just want to give you pleasure. All the rest will come with time.”
Our kisses turned frantic until I shoved the breakfast trays off the bed in my haste to get closer to her. The dishes crashed to the floor, but I didn’t care. I needed her more than I needed air. I took her gently again because I knew she was still sore, but it didn’t matter to me. It felt like heaven to have her any way I could get her.
By the time afternoon rolled around, we finally decided to go downstairs and get some food. I cleaned up the mess I made with the breakfast trays and made us some sandwiches.
“So, wife, where do you want to live?”
“I just assumed I would move in here,” she said around a bite of food.
“If that’s what you want, or we can move to your place.”
“Would you prefer to live there?”
“Honestly, this is where we said our vows and I’d like to stay here, but I want you to be happy. I want to leave it up to you.”
“I think this is a good house. I don’t have any sentimental attachment to my house, so I think this would be a good move. I should probably get some of my things or I’m going to be walking around in your t-shirts all day with no clothes to wear.”
“I wouldn’t be opposed to that, but I would have a problem with you answering the door with no pants on, so let’s go grab as much stuff as we can this morning.”
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