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by Jane Kindred


  in his tongue and Belphagor moaned, trying to muffle the sound in the

  matted hair. Vasily’s flesh was hard and hot against his hand.

  Vasily slipped away from his grip and scooted down beneath the

  covers, and Belphagor bit his lip to keep from crying out. As with

  that first unexpected moment so long ago, he tempered the heat

  of his tongue, sliding it along Belphagor’s skin like flame. It was an experience nothing and no one had ever matched.

  Vasily was swallowing him gluttonously when the angel turned on

  the light.

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  Odinnadtsatoe: Tvorila Night

  from the memoirs of the Grand Duchess Anazakia

  Helisonovna of the House of Arkhangel’sk

  I’d been careful not to wake the demons when I slipped out of bed

  to get a glass of water, but they were not asleep. The glass slipped from my hand and shattered on the bathroom floor.

  They were engaged in the basest of acts I could imagine, one I

  only knew of from scullery maids whose bawdy jokes I loved to listen

  in on. I had begun to think the demons were not so different from

  my kind. I had even begun to believe Belphagor cared for me. How

  desperate for home and family was I that I imagined a demon would

  care for one of the Host—or that I could have feelings for a demon?

  My face burned. I was obviously a grand joke to them both.

  Grabbing my boots from the entryway, I went out and slammed

  the door. I was not staying in this room. I was not staying with them

  at all. They could forget about their meal ticket. I pulled on my boots and ran down the stairs before they had time to follow me and hurried

  toward the bus station we’d passed on the way to the hotel. If there

  were no buses this time of night, any passing car, Belphagor had told

  me, might be a “taxi” for the right price. I had the rubles he’d given me before rushing in to fight the Seraphim.

  My steps slowed as I approached the bus station. The leaded

  windows on the white façade were shaped like the diamonds on

  Belphagor’s playing cards. Had I already forgotten what the demons

  had done for me? I sighed and sat on the curb. They were demons,

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  after all. What had I expected? And it wasn’t as if I’d never seen lewd behavior before. I had been to Raqia, where demoness harlots were

  less than discreet in conducting their business. I might have been

  sheltered, but I was not a fool.

  I slapped away a tear, angry at my sentimentality. Truly, what had I expected? Belphagor’s affection for the other demon had become

  increasingly obvious since St. Petersburg. He hadn’t risked his life

  for me at all. He had rushed headlong into the flaming wrath of the

  Seraphim to save Vasily.

  “U vas yest’ rubli?” A youth of the sort Belphagor called “gypsy”

  stood before me with his hand held out, a falcon perched on a gauntlet on his other. Rubli. He wanted money.

  I shook my head, and then thought better of it and gave him the

  billfold. What did I need of it? I had nowhere to go.

  “Spasibo.” He thanked me, his eyes wide, and then said distinctly,

  “Welcome to Novgorod.” He had spoken in the angelic tongue.

  He was off across the road before I recovered from my

  astonishment.

  I leapt to my feet. “Wait!”

  The boy moved swiftly, and I pursued him across a footbridge

  over the river. Groups of young people were still out in large numbers, drinking and carousing around the bonfires on the bank, and I soon

  lost him among the revelers. I moved on past the bonfires, hoping to

  catch another glimpse of him, but there was little beyond the ancient

  fortress. Still, I could not let go of the idea of finding him.

  I was certain he was no demon; there had been no hint of radiance.

  Yet he spoke in the language of celestials. He knew me for one. What

  could it mean?

  The glow of candles floating downriver provided an aethereal

  illumination while I followed the riverbank out of town. Wherever my

  candle was, there was no chance of my wish coming true. I had wished

  to wake up in my own bed in Elysium. I had wished for my family.

  The wind picked up with the promise of a coming storm, stirring

  the air with the smell of rain. I stopped and looked about the empty

  road. There was no sign of the gypsy. As I started back, a falcon’s

  screech came from the darkness. I looked up and saw the bird against

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  the moonlight before it turned and soared away.

  I began to run. Following the path of the falcon, I tumbled down

  hills and slid through bracken, slipping once on an embankment into

  a dark reservoir and wading to the other side in the light rain that had begun. The bird lit briefly on the fence bordering the reservoir as if to give me time to catch up, and then took flight again when I drew near.

  Never once did it occur to me I might have flown after it.

  I scrambled over the cut branches lashed together to form a crude

  fence and found myself on a gravel road beside the river, sprayed

  by rain in the whipping wind. Soaked to the skin, I hugged my chest

  and stared, the falcon forgotten. Hidden among a cluster of gnarled

  branches and wildflowers were the onion-domed cupolas of an ancient

  monastery. Painted royal blue and emblazoned with gold, eight-

  pointed stars like wizards’ hats, the cupolas perched incongruously

  above peeling, whitewashed walls, rusted window sashes, and decay. I

  had never seen anything so beautiful in all of Heaven or Earth.

  I took a step toward the monastery and heard a sudden crack,

  realizing as I collapsed onto the gravel that the crack had been against my head.

  When I opened my eyes, a star-strewn sky wavered behind a net of

  shifting branches, all signs of rain gone. On the perimeter of my vision, curious faces looked down at me. A dozen women surrounded me in

  a small glade ringed with a profusion of mushrooms. Crowned with

  garlands of grass and wildflowers, dark wisps of hair floated about

  them like leaves, their bodies barely covered by sheaths of sheer red.

  One of the women spoke, though it was hard to be certain which.

  “Welcome, korolyeva. We wait for you.” Her angelic was heavily accented.

  “For me?” I looked about at their expectant faces as they helped

  me to my feet. “I think you must have mistaken me for someone else.”

  Soft laughter rippled around the circle. “Not mistake. We wait

  many summers. The syla know who you are. You are korolyeva. You are queen.”

  Now they were certainly mistaken. “No. I’m only… I’m only

  Malchik.” Again, laughter.

  “This word we know. You are no malchik. You are korolyeva. We

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  wait. We make unseen. You come.”

  Unseen. I had heard these phrases before. “You were at the

  palace.”

  They nodded as one. “We bring korolyeva to old new city. We wait for Tvorila night when unseen things become seen.”

  “You brought me? But the car… ” From the merry smiles that met

  my words, I knew these “syla” were responsible. They had meddled

  with the vehicle’s mechanism to bring me here instead of Moscow and

  to keep me here until this feast night had allowed them to make their


  presence known. The gypsy and his falcon had done their bidding.

  “But why?”

  “You are korolyeva,” she said again.

  Another of the syla stepped forward, a dress identical to her own

  draped across her arm. She began to untuck my shirt and I protested,

  but in a moment, I was naked before them, even my boots taken from

  me. They dressed me as my ladies in waiting had done since I was a

  child. It was only a few short weeks since I’d last worn a dress—since Belphagor had turned me into Malchik—but it seemed strange and

  unfamiliar, though it fit me perfectly. The skirt swung just below my

  knees.

  I smoothed my palms over the fabric and ran my fingers through

  my shorn hair. One of the syla stepped forward with a garland woven

  in a narrow band and placed the circlet of herbs and heather on my

  head. The circle of willowy women expanded, and one by one, they

  kissed my hands and genuflected, remaining with their heads bowed

  around me.

  “Please,” I protested. “I don’t understand. I’m not a queen.”

  Their spokeswoman rose, reciting, “‘The queen shall take the

  flower of the fern and return with it to Heaven.’”

  I wrinkled my nose. “Do ferns even have flowers?”

  A soft wind of laughter flowed through the group. The other syla

  rose and linked hands, swaying around me to the sounds of the forest,

  branches in a summer breeze. They wove a pattern of intricate steps

  as though threading a length of flowing ribbon in the air, and then

  their dance began to spin inward until they closed their spiral around me. The last syla spun me with them, and they wove into a swirling,

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  undulating shape that left the grassy clearing to sew itself between the trees.

  I couldn’t break free. I didn’t want to. The freedom of running

  barefoot through untamed nature evoked the carefree games I had

  played with my sisters not so long ago. Laughing and whispering,

  the syla pulled me on, until at last we spiraled into a tight knot and fell together among the damp of rotting leaves. I lay on my back and

  looked up at the moonlight tangled in the branches above. Tufts of

  pukh floated all about us. Caught by the silver light, they glittered like fireflies on a summer night in Heaven.

  Beside us, at the base of an old birch tree, grew a solitary fern with a large stalk at its center. I rolled over onto my side to look at it, and the syla sat up, clearing a path around me.

  “What is it?” I asked.

  “What you seek,” said the one who spoke for them. “The flower of

  ice and fire. When it opens, you must take.”

  “I’m not seeking anything,” I insisted.

  “The queen shall take the flower—”

  “I’m not the queen!”

  She smiled, undeterred by my protest. “Syla spin the cords of

  queens, but Aeval cuts short. She hunts you now. Tsvetok paporotnika will protect.”

  “Who is Aeval? What do you mean?”

  The syla’s smile faded, and her twinkling eyes darkened. “She was

  queen of syla. Queen of Nezrimyi Mir.” The others gathered around her. “She is not content to rule only Unseen World. She wants more.

  To have power over Men. She wants flower. She who holds the tsvetok paporotnika holds power over all. But the syla hide flower, and she is angry. Tsvetok is not for her. Is for—how is?” She turned to her sisters.

  “Padshaya?”

  “Fallen.” The word was whispered from one to another.

  She nodded and touched my garland crown. “Padshaya Korolyeva.

  Fallen Queen.”

  Padshaya Korolyeva. The words had a strange effect on me, like spoken magic.

  “Fallen Queen lives though her cord is cut. Aeval cuts short what

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  syla spin, to punish syla. She cuts in world of Man and queensdaughters are no more. Now she cuts in Heaven, to take what is not hers. She

  uses weak men.”

  Weak men. Had Kae been weak? Was it Aeval he’d met on our

  mountain? His blade twisted again in my heart. The blade that had

  cut the cords.

  Choking on a sudden flood of grief and anger, I knelt before the

  fern. Unbidden tears splattered the stalk, and through their glassy

  surface, it seemed to uncurl. A trick of the light. I brushed the tears away and looked again. The stalk straightened and turned over, and

  in the center, a dazzling fire burned brighter than the radiance of the Seraphim.

  “Pluck the flower!” the syla cried.

  I grasped the stem, closing my hand around the delicate blossom

  to shutter the brightness while I pulled it away, but the bloom opened within my fist. We had to turn our heads. Though it was no bigger than a wingcasting die, there was no shuttering its light.

  “Put in your crown,” urged the syla. “Flower hides what is unseen.

  What is hidden is not lost. Fire and ice will protect and bring lost angel home.”

  I would be blinded like Vasily if I did not get the flower out of my

  line of sight, and so I did as they suggested and tucked the blossom

  deeply into the garland. When I looked up, the forest glowed with an

  unnatural brightness around me, but I could see without pain. The syla were gone.

  “Wait!” I jumped to my feet.

  Padshaya Korolyeva. It might have been the rush of wind in my ear. I thought I saw movement out of the corner of my eye, but when I

  turned, it was only leaves from the forest floor spinning up in a funnel of wind.

  The Fallen Queen shall take the flower of the fern, whispered the leaves. They danced around me, but they were no longer solid, no

  longer long-limbed women in sheaths of red with garlands in their

  hair. She will return with it to Heaven. I reached to touch them, but met only air.

  The wind rose once more, and rain began to patter softly on the

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  leaves in the tree branches overhead. I settled against the trunk of the birch to wait out the rain and rested my eyes for just a moment. When

  I opened them, everything had changed.

  In the dim glow of candlelight, in air close with incense, Vasily

  stared down at me. The trees were gone, sky and stars were gone,

  replaced with a painted dome, its muted tones of red, gold, and

  midnight blue depicting a pageantry of earthly saints. The cognitive

  dissonance was so complete that for a moment, I could not remember

  my own name, much less who Vasily was or how I’d come to be here.

  He compounded my disorientation by kneeling beside me and

  speaking rapidly in the language of Men. “Gde byl?”— Where have you been?—was the only phrase I caught. When I tried to sit up, my head reeled. I winced and pressed my hand to the knot at the back of

  my head. A scarf covered my hair.

  “Just go with it,” Vasily whispered in my ear.

  Behind him, a bearded cleric in a dark cassock spoke in a soothing

  voice. “Eto byla vetka dereva srublennogo molniyei.”

  “Felled by lightning?” Inside a pair of aged wooden doors,

  Belphagor stood in the chapel entry. Leaded panes spanning the arch

  over his head let in the early morning light like strokes of watercolor.

  When the cleric gave him a peculiar look, Belphagor quickly amended

  his words in the language of Men.

  Vasily helped me to my feet. He wrapped me in the blanket that

  had covered me and nodded to the cleric. “Bol’shoe spasibo, Otets.


  An elderly woman with cloudy eyes, her dour head covering

  the only thing distinguishing her garments from the cleric’s, stood

  frowning by the entrance. She opened the wooden doors without a

  word and let us pass.

  Belphagor pressed a few rubles into her hand, and the demons

  led me through the outer iron doors into the courtyard and under the

  arcade of a towering belfry.

  On the path outside the cloister, a charred branch had been swept

  to the side. I glanced back in surprise. This was the monastery I’d come upon before I’d been struck on the head—and then found myself

  among the syla. I stared up at the gleaming golden cupola on the bell

  tower, reflecting the cloud-covered dawn. How had I ended up here?

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  “I told the priest you were my feebleminded sister,” said Vasily

  beside me.

  I shook my head. “You what?”

  “So they wouldn’t try to speak to you.”

  Belphagor paused on the way to the road. “We’ve been very

  worried about you.”

  A prickling heat crept into my face when I recalled what had

  driven me from the protection of my demon companions. Perhaps it

  was only the tinted light of dawn, but the demon’s cheeks also seemed

  to have a distinct hint of pink.

  “I was in the woods.” I paused, uncertain. I was dressed in the

  clothes I’d had on when I left the hotel.

  “The woods?” said Vasily. “What woods?”

  “You’ve had a blow to the head,” said Belphagor. “A falling branch

  hit you. Perhaps you’re not remembering correctly.”

  I stared back at him, my embarrassment dissolving into indignation.

  “I remember perfectly well. Down to the last detail.” I squared my

  shoulders and strode past him to the road.

  “Malchik—”

  “Let me handle this,” Vasily interrupted. “You’re the one who’s

  hurt her.”

  “I—” Belphagor sighed. “Fine. You talk to her.”

  Vasily hurried to catch up with me, though I didn’t acknowledge

  his presence. “Don’t be angry with him,” he said, drawing up beside

  me. “What happened at the hotel was my fault.”

  A loud bark of laughter escaped me, despite myself. “It’s hardly

  my business. Why would I be angry?”

  “Well, you are angry. The why of it is irrelevant. But I’m trying to

 

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