Spinning around, she said, “I don’t know. I’ll try harder. Joshua.”
“Do you like punishment, Rose? Because I’m beginning to think you do.”
Looking up at him from beneath her eyelashes, she took a deep breath. “I’m sorry I left without asking you. I shouldn’t have done that. I don’t want to be punished. Did you miss me…Joshua?” She was babbling.
“Not really,” he teased, feeling his mood lighten somewhat.
She immediately brightened. Her lips turned into a pout. “I’ll miss you when you’re in Dallas.”
He grabbed her hand and dragged her into the other room where he pushed her back against the sofa. “Show me what I’ll be missing while I’m gone.” He breathed into her ear.
He watched her eyes change into liquid desire as she licked her lips. Damn if she wasn’t the most beautiful woman he had ever known. He couldn’t stop himself from responding to her. She pulled her knit top over her head, exposing her creamy, full breasts beneath black lace. The catch for her bra was in the front. She released it to show him her hard nipples that she pulled and lifted upward. He bent his head and began teasing them with his teeth.
“Do you wish to see my…cunt?” she asked. “Do you think I’m bad for using that word?”
“I think I want to see your cunt, and I like that word when you say it.” He breathed, his hand ripping at her shorts. She unsnapped them as he unzipped and parted the cloth. He lifted her upward as he tugged her shorts down and off her body. She slipped her bra straps from her shoulders and tossed it to the floor.
“Please fuck me.” She moaned softly, wiggling her hips.
“After you undress me and suck my cock.”
He was going to make her wait for her own gratification. By the time he did fuck her, she would be crazy with her need for him. Just the way he wanted her.
“Yes, Joshua.”
* * * *
Joshua sat up and waited for her to position herself to undress him. She unbuttoned his shirt and then his pants before she removed them along with his underwear, socks, and shoes. Her mouth was watering for him. She couldn’t explain this uncontrollable need she had for him. Everything about him turned her on in ways she had never thought possible. She was not only obsessed and insatiable where he was concerned, she was completely under his power. It wasn’t that long ago she had hated the thought of having sex with him or anyone and now here she was, naked, wanton, and about to suck his cock until she made him come. It thrilled her that she could make him want her. There had to be some genetic flaw in her makeup that made her want to do this with a man she should hate. What other explanation could there be for her actions?
She sucked his large cock into her mouth greedily, running her teeth gently over its ridges, enjoying his groans of pleasure. Slowly, she began to jerk him off, using her hands to caress his shaft and balls that were now heavy with his need. Over and over she sucked him into the wet warmth of her mouth, drawing him deeper into her throat. She knew it wouldn’t be long before she received what she wanted, his cum.
“Stop,” he commanded.
She looked up at him as she released his cock. His arms drew her upward. She knew exactly what he wanted.
“Bring me into that beautiful pussy of yours,” he said gruffly. “I want to watch you fuck me.”
She lifted herself above his cock and slid down his shaft, moaning his name. He felt so good. Over and over she lifted and lowered herself to grab his cock with her pussy as she fucked him wildly. He closed his eyes and erupted inside her, causing her to gasp and moan with her own orgasm. She clasped her hands into his as she continued to ride him, swaying and lifting her hips. Every time with him was like the first time and yet better. She felt the powerful sensations flood both their consciousness. It was as if they were one. When she was totally spent, he gathered her trembling body into his arms.
He kissed her eyelids until she opened them. “Have you come back to me now?” he asked.
“I think so. Each time, I can’t imagine that it could ever be better and then…it is. Is it like that for you, too?” she asked softly, lowering her eyes, knowing immediately she should not have asked him that question. The rules she had been given stated she was not to ask her master if he liked sex with her because she should already know the answer.
“You’re amazing,” he said, before he kissed her gently on the lips. “I can’t get enough of you.”
“I’m glad,” she breathed, relieved and happy. “I want you all the time, too.”
“Do you really? I know you’re well trained. It could be an act, for all I know.”
“I am well trained.” She bit her lip as she lowered her eyes. “I should go wash. Please excuse me.”
“You’re mad at me?” he asked in surprised shock. “I’ve made you angry.”
She was his submissive and had no right to be angry regardless of how she really felt. She didn’t want him to know how much he had hurt her. “I’m not acting.”
“Well, then, you’ve been taught well even if you weren’t actually fucked.”
She closed her eyes for a moment, the hurt washing over her. Get it together, she reprimanded herself. Tell him what he wants to hear.
“I’ve seen videos, read books, and had things explained to me, but nothing prepared me for fucking you. I thought sex was to be tolerated, not wanted the way I do with you. It scares me,” she confessed. She wasn’t just telling him what he wanted to hear, but the truth. Why did it matter to her so much that he knew she wasn’t faking?
* * * *
Her eyes looked earnestly into his. She couldn’t really be as innocent as she appeared. Was Mistress Adams that talented a teacher? And yet, there was something so infinitely endearing about her. It was like she really didn’t know the rules as well as she should. A nagging thought came to him, one that he had before. Was she so skilled that she could actually make her dominant believe she was naïve? Or, and this thought made him almost cringe, was she exactly as she seemed. If that were the case, was she really here of her own free will? No, he thought immediately. She knows the score. She had told him often enough.
“Your fear comes from knowing what will happen if you don’t please me,” he stated. “And the sex between us, for right now, keeps me wanting more.” The sex was great, but it was these feelings of total and complete oneness with her that filled him with anxiety and uncertainty. No woman had ever gotten to him quite like Rose had with such effortlessness.
When she left at the end of August, he was sure Mistress Adams would find her a new client and how long would it be before the beautiful woman he was holding in his arms was gone forever, hardened by being used up by one man after the other? The thought of any man but him touching her intimately made him angry. Immediately, he felt his guard go up. That emotion was unacceptable.
She had chosen this life, even if it was hard to believe one so young would be in a position to make that kind of choice. He had to remember it was what she wanted. He couldn’t confuse lust with caring or make this more than it was. If he did, he would suffer the fool, and he was no fool.
Chapter Eight
Rose walked hand in hand with Joshua as they entered a tunnel that ran underneath the racetrack. He told her he was taking her to the pit, where the car and what was aptly called the pit crew were already waiting for him.
She saw Kevin waving to them as they reentered the sunlight. She started to wave back but stopped herself.
“For God’s sake, you can wave to him.” The sharpness in Joshua’s voice startled her.
“I wouldn’t want you to think I’m encouraging him,” she said snidely without thinking.
“Watch your attitude, Rose, or you’ll find yourself on the receiving end of something that will help curb that tongue of yours.” The smooth and seductive tone of his voice that was meant as a reprimand had her nipples hardening against her blouse.
She looked down and away from him, wishing he didn’t have the effect he had on h
er. She was already wet for him and she had a feeling he knew it by the look in his eyes when she dared look back up at him.
“If I didn’t have business here, I’d find a place to rip off your clothes and fuck you.” He breathed into her ear.
She gasped. She leaned into him for support. The man literally made her knees weak.
“If I weren’t committed to this,” he said with regret, “I would make you beg for it, and you would, believe me.”
How could he speak to her like this while from all outward appearances he was cool land calm?
Kevin was waiting for them with a smile on his face. “Hello, you two.”
“Hello, Kevin,” Joshua said, his voice friendly, unaffected by what had turned her insides into a hot mess.
“It’s good to see you, Rose. I’m glad he brought you.”
“Me, too,” she said. Joshua’s hand tightened his grip, the only sign that he might not be pleased with Kevin’s admission.
Joshua let her hand go as he surveyed the car. He bent down and looked under the carriage. “She looks beautiful.”
“Yes, she does,” Kevin responded, his eyes on Rose and not the car.
Obviously, Kevin had no idea just how possessive Joshua could be. If he did, she was sure he wouldn’t be devouring her with his eyes. She turned away from Kevin and watched Joshua.
“Well,” Joshua said, “Let’s do it.”
One of the pit crew handed him a helmet and a jumpsuit that he put on over his clothes. He smiled at her as he expertly entered the car from the top. The expression on his face was one of excitement. He looked young and happy. She liked seeing him like this. It suddenly dawned on her that she wanted him to be happy. But why should she care whether he was happy or not outside of having sex with her?
Trying to put those thoughts from her mind, she watched as the car roared into life. It was very loud. The pit crew stood back as he pulled out onto the track. The car was sleek, beautiful, and fast. She held her breath as he sped around the far turn.
“Don’t worry. He’ll be fine,” Kevin said, now standing beside her. “Joshua’s an excellent driver. If he wanted to, he could be a professional.”
“Why isn’t he?” she asked.
“He’s a rich boy, and for rich boys, this kind of thing will always just be a hobby.”
“I guess that holds true for you, too,” she said, not pleased that he thought it was okay to talk about Joshua in a less than flattering way. Did he have no loyalty to his friend?
“My family has money, but we’re small pickings compared to the wealth Joshua’s family has amassed.”
“Well, you appear to be doing quite well,” she murmured, wishing he would change the subject.
“I’d be doing better if I thought I had a chance with you.”
“You don’t, Kevin. Even when Joshua and I go our separate ways, I could never be with you…because you’re his friend. You are his friend, aren’t you?”
“Yes. I am. It’s just that I know him and he doesn’t care what a woman does or who she does it with when he’s done with her. You don’t have to worry about being disloyal.”
“I do. Please respect that.”
Joshua sped by them. He made her nervous. She couldn’t imagine going that fast in a car.
“You really don’t know him,” Kevin said, closing what little distance there was between them. “Joshua’s the best friend I ever had and we’ve shared a lot. A lot more than you think. Don’t be sure that he sees my attraction to you as disloyal.”
“What are you talking about?” She moved a step away so their bodies were no longer touching.
Kevin shook his head. “Shit. Forget I said that. You make me forget myself, Rose.”
He obviously said something he shouldn’t have. Maybe she didn’t really want to know.
“How many times is he going to drive around the track?”
Kevin turned back toward her. “A few more times and then he’ll bring her in. He just wanted to see how she would handle after we made some changes. I want her ready for a race that’s coming up.”
“Will Joshua drive?”
“No. I have someone else.”
“Why don’t you drive?”
“I’m not that good at it. I know my limitations. However, I’m not giving up on you, Rose.”
She didn’t respond. What could she say that she hadn’t said already? They watched silently as Joshua completed two more laps and brought the car back to the pit. He took off his helmet and jumped out of the car. He face was animated.
“That was fun. She’s purring like a kitten. You worked out the kinks that’s for sure. Good job.”
“Thanks. I was hoping you would say that.” Kevin was beaming.
“So, what did you think, Rose?” Joshua asked her as he took off the jumpsuit and handed it to one of the pit crew.
“I’m not into speed. But I can tell you liked it and you’re good at it.”
“You said that once before, about not being into speed. I think you just need to experience it. I’ll have my motorcycle brought over from my mother’s. One of her boyfriends borrowed it a while back.”
Kevin nodded with a big grin on his face. “Oh, you’ll find out what speed is on the back of a Harley. I have one, too. Maybe I’ll come with you.”
Without responding, Joshua turned and went back to the car where he spoke with the pit crew. Kevin was still smiling as he turned to her. “Methinks he wants you all for himself when he takes you for a ride on his mean machine. What do you think, Rose?”
“I’d rather you went with him and he left me home. I’m not looking forward to it.”
“Then tell him that. You don’t have to go if you don’t want to.”
“We’ll see,” she said noncommittally. She was glad Kevin didn’t understand their relationship. If he had, he would have known the decision wasn’t hers to make.
Joshua talked to the pit crew for a few more minutes and to her relief Kevin went to join him. She watched the two men together. Joshua was taller and in her opinion much better looking. However, Kevin wasn’t bad looking. He was cute with his shaggy sandy-blond hair and warm brown eyes that had looked at her with lust. He was in good shape and he did have a nice smile. Under different circumstances she would have been attracted to him. But now all she wanted was for him to leave her alone.
She had been attracted to a number of boys in high school and at the community college she had attended near her home. She had admirers but she had never done more than casual making out. It helped that her Aunt Melissa had never encouraged her to have boyfriends and in fact had discouraged it. She said she didn’t want her to lose focus on her education. Was that really true or had she been hoping she would stay a virgin for Mistress Adams? Her aunt knew only too well what was in store for her. Was everything in her life a lie? Even after everything that had happened, she still didn’t want to believe that her aunt had betrayed her so blatantly and without any regard for her as a person. Had she not loved her at all?
Joshua and Kevin walked back to where she was standing.
“I thought we’d stop for some lunch before we head back home.” Joshua said, looking down at her. “You okay? You look like you’re somewhere else.”
“I’m fine. Lunch sounds good.”
“I’m kind of hungry myself. Mind if I join you?” Kevin asked, watching Joshua.
“Sure. I was thinking of something like that burger joint over on Maple Avenue. They have great fries.”
Kevin smiled. “The shakes aren’t bad either. What about you, Rose? You like food that’s bad for you?”
“I like burgers and fries.”
“Then it’s settled,” Kevin said. “Should I meet you there or do you want to ride together?”
“Let’s meet there,” Joshua said. “I may not go directly home after.”
“Okay, then. I’ll see you say in fifteen or twenty minutes.”
Joshua nodded to Kevin and grabbed Rose’s hand. She followed sl
ightly behind him as they walked back through the tunnel and to the car. He opened the door for her and she slid into the passenger side of his car. He went around to his side and slid in. She watched as he fastened his seat belt and started the engine.
“You really enjoyed that, didn’t you?” she asked.
“Yeah, I did. I haven’t been in car like that in a while. It felt good.”
“Were you serious about taking me riding on your motorcycle?”
“Yes.”
“I’m not sure I want to,” she said, testing the waters.
“I think you’ll enjoy it. I want you to experience it. It would please me.”
She remained silent. She had her answer.
“You’re not sulking are you, Rose?”
“No. I just don’t have anything to say.”
“Well, it appears you had a lot to say when you and Kevin were watching me.”
“How did you even know we were talking at that speed?”
Ignoring her comment, he said, “What did you talk about?”
“The car and that he thought you could be a professional driver.”
“I never wanted to be. It’s always been for fun.”
“Kevin admires you,” she said, hoping to turn the conversation to something more pleasant. She certainly wasn’t going to tell him what Kevin had really said to her.
Joshua turned on the radio. She looked out the window as they drove to the restaurant in silence. She wasn’t looking forward to having lunch with Kevin. She knew Joshua was aware of the way Kevin looked at her, so why had he agreed to have him join them? Was he testing her again? By the time they pulled into the parking lot, she had lost her appetite. She just wanted lunch to be over.
Kevin pulled up beside them in his Mercedes with the windows down and One Direction’s latest single blasting. He jumped out of the car and came around to her side and opened her door before Joshua had even unbuckled his seat belt. He took her hand, a big grin on his face. She quickly grabbed it back and waited for Joshua. He didn’t seem upset that Kevin was once again standing so close to her that their bodies touched. He just took her hand, leading her toward the front door of the small restaurant that was painted pink. It looked like a dump, but she was sure the food was good if Joshua had eaten there before and had made a return a visit.
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