“I can't,” I moaned. If I hadn't found magic by now, I didn’t have it. “I don’t have any power.”
Dad gave me a sardonic look. “And what about Great Aunt Stregheria? You broke her spell.”
I shuddered. Great Aunt Stregheria was a witch with a capital B, an ugly old crone somehow related to my father. She dressed like an evil witch from a fairy tale and talked like everyone else, including my parents, existed to do her bidding. And she hated kids. My sisters and I had done something to offend her - I forget what, now - and she turned all three of us into frogs. We’d been ten at the time. It was the first time any of us had been transfigured against our wills.
Dad was utterly furious. He literally picked Great Aunt Stregheria up and threw her out of the grounds, then reset the wards to deny her admittance ever again. But, for all of his power, he couldn't unravel the spell she’d placed on us. Neither he nor mum could undo it. We’d feared - even Alana, who’d got on best with the witch - that we would be stuck as frogs until the end of time, or at least until my father swallowed his pride and asked her to remove the spell.
But the spell on me had worn off in an hour, leaving me human again. My sisters had been stuck that way for a week when they returned to normal.
My father said, afterwards, that I must have used magic instinctively. He insisted that I had somehow broken her spell and freed myself. He even cast spells on me himself to encourage me to develop my talent. None of his spells lasted as long as he had intended either. But it was never something I could do consciously. If I had a talent - and he seemed to think I had something - it wasn't one I could develop. My sisters sneered that magic was allergic to me.
“Dad, I don’t have magic,” I said, finally. It had taken me long enough to come to terms with it. “I’m just a zero.”
Dad sighed as he walked on. I trotted beside him, looking around. Normally, I would have enjoyed the chance to spend some time alone with him, but now ... now I just felt tired and bitter. I’d never backed down in front of my sisters, I’d worked hard to find ways to extract revenge for their humiliations, yet there were limits. They would get better and better at magic, while I ... the best I could hope for, I suspected, was theoretical magician. And even they tended to have magic. They needed it to prove their theories.
There were other options. I wasn't a bad forger, even though I lacked magic; I was smart, capable ... I could have found work easily, if I hadn't been born to House Aguirre. The family name is a blessing, but it is also a curse. I was expected to be a powerful magician and I couldn't even light a spark! There was no way I could work for anyone without magic, even the king. They’d all expect great things from me.
I sighed as we walked down the street, other pedestrians giving us plenty of room. It was just growing busy as more and more people finished their work and came out onto the streets to shop or merely to chat with their friends. A shopgirl was using magic to sweep dust out onto the streets, a blacksmith was chanting spells as he hammered metal into its shape ... a street magician was showing off, but hardly anyone was paying attention. Shallot has a larger population of magicians than anywhere else in Tintagel, as well as Jude’s and a couple of magical universities. You had to do more than swallow fire and breathe water to impress this city.
But that clown has more magic than I do, I thought, feeling another flicker of bitter resentment. Illusionist or not, he was still a magician. And he can do something else with his life.
We crossed the bridge from Water Shallot to North Shallot, the guards on the gates saluting my father as we walked past. North Shallot is the richest part of the city, home to merchants and traders as well as sorcerers, alchemists and enchanters. I’d often wondered why Madam Rosebud and her superiors hadn't opened their school in North Shallot, although the costs of buying land in the north are much higher. No doubt someone in Magus Court had objected, loudly. Magicians rule North Shallot. Everyone else lives on their sufferance.
“Things are changing, Cat,” my father said. I shivered. He only called me Cat when he was worried. “House Rubén has been making advances in Magus Court. My position may be under threat.”
I looked up at his dark face. He was worried. House Rubén was our family’s great rival, our only real equal in Shallot. I’d grown up listening to horror stories about how they treated their friends and so-called allies. It would be hard for them to unseat my father, I thought, but they could undermine him. Stepping down from his post was one thing; being unseated was quite another. The other Houses would back away from us.
“He can't do that,” I said. “Surely ...”
“He’s trying,” Dad told me. “House Rubén has wanted to win power for generations. Now ... they might have a chance.”
“Because of me,” I said. “Because I don’t have any powers.”
Magic is stronger, I have been told time and time again, if children are twins or triplets ... there’s even a legend of a witch who gave birth to five magical children. My parents, with three daughters, should have been powerful indeed, their bloodline secure for generations to come. But I had no powers ...
... And the trinity my sisters and I should have formed had never come into existence.
House Rubén had only two children, as far as I knew. Twins, rather than triplets. But both of them were powerful. There was no weak link.
“You have power,” my father said, sharply. He sounded as though he was trying to convince himself. “The spells I have cast on you ... they should have stayed in place until I took them off. But you broke them.”
I looked down at the pavestones. “But I don't know how!”
“Figure it out,” my father said, sternly. He squeezed my shoulder, gently. “Time is not on our side.”
I shook my head, helplessly. Maybe I did have a gift. But it was more likely that I was just a freak, a child born without any magic at all.
A zero.
Chapter Two
Aguirre Hall is more than just my family’s residence. It’s the centre of our power.
I followed my father through the gates - warded extensively to keep out hawkers, traders and pedestrians, even though I couldn't sense the spells - and up towards the hall. It is an immense building, a mansion composed of stone and practically coated in protective enchantments and spells. The magical community is fond of testing our protections from time to time, sending probes over the walls and into our wards. So far, none of them have actually managed to break through the defences.
Travis, the butler, opened the door as we approached. He’s lesser family - he has a blood tie to us - and it gives him an ability to sense the more senior members as they walk into the mansion. I rather liked him, despite a snooty attitude that grated on my nerves from time to time. My sisters joked he had his nose so high in the air that he kept walking into walls, but I didn't think so. Besides, he had always been kind to me.
“Sir,” he said, addressing my father. “Your family is gathered in the lower dining room.”
“Very good,” Dad said. “We shall attend on them at once.”
I sighed - I’d hoped for a chance to sit down and plot revenge - but Dad clearly had other ideas. It was too much to hope that he would punish Alana, of course. He wanted me to develop my powers ... and if that meant allowing my sister to jinx and hex me whenever my back was turned, he’d allow it as long as she didn't do anything life-threatening. Social death, of course, didn't register. It never seemed to occur to my father that while he had the power to be rude to all and sundry, I didn't have the same luxury. No one made allowances for zeroes.
The hallway opened up in front of us as my father headed for the stairs, his calm measured tread echoing in the air. I followed him, pausing just long enough to glance at the Family Sword, buried in the Family Hearthstone. The sword is a genuine Object of Power, crafted over a thousand years ago and handed down from generation to generation. According to legend, only a true member of the family can draw the sword from the stone. I’ve seen a couple
of apprentices, strong young men, try and fail to pull it free. The sword had been utterly unmovable.
I’d tried to pull it out myself, one day when Alana’s taunts had become unbearable. The sword had come out easily, even though I’d only been nine years old. It was proof, I suppose, that my parents didn't take in a foundling they’d found on the steps ... but I still couldn't do magic. Half the sword’s true powers seemed beyond my reach. My father, wielding the sword, could work wonders. But then, he could work wonders without the sword too.
“Come on,” Dad said, crossly. “Don’t dawdle.”
I gave the sword one last look, then hurried up the stairs after him. The lower two floors of the mansion are devoted to my family’s work, ranging from living rooms for the apprentices and servants to forges, spell-crafting chambers and the lower library, one of the finest libraries in the world. The really interesting - and unique - texts are kept in the upper library, but most magicians would be pleased merely to have a look at the lower library. It’s the greatest store of magical knowledge in the kingdom, outside Jude’s, and it’s all ours.
The upper two levels, protected by a set of inner wards, are reserved for the family. No one, not even Dad’s most trusted apprentices, can pass through the doors without permission, unless they’re recognised as being of family blood. The doors open easily at my touch, but won’t move an inch for someone who isn’t keyed into the wards. And there are more powerful defences lurking in reserve, just waiting for someone foolish enough to break through the outer layer. A magician who tries to break into our private quarters will spend the rest of his life wishing he hadn't.
I wanted to go to my bedroom, if only long enough to splash water on my face, but Dad led me down the corridor and into the dining room before I could say a word. The smaller dining room is still larger than the classroom, easily big enough to sit thirty or forty guests ... I’ve often wondered why Dad insists on having family dinners, when we could easily eat in our rooms. There are only five of us, after all. My parents, my sisters and myself.
Alana shot me a smug look as I entered the room. She looked ... regal. My mother had been teaching Bella and her all the tricks she needed to get herself crowned queen bee, once she entered Jude’s. I’d sat in on a couple of lessons, when Bella had insisted on not suffering alone, but I’d found them immensely boring. Popularity was meaningless compared to power and I had none. As long as my sisters were around, I’d always be an outcast. Who would be my friend when it would expose them to my sisters’ malice?
I rolled my eyes at Alana, trying not to show how much it hurt to see her. Alana held herself like an adult, her long dark hair hanging down to brush against her shoulders. The dark blue dress she wore drew attention to her face, which was carefully made up to hide all traces of imperfections. Even at twelve, Alana was tall. She’d be taller than my mother by the time she graduated and went on to run the family. And the simple necklace she wore, glittering with eldritch light, was a sign of power.
“Dad,” Bella said. “You’re back!”
Dad smiled at her. I tried to keep my expression under control as I sat down. Bella had always been Dad’s favourite, although I’d never understood why. She was short and pudgy, barely putting in the minimum effort to succeed at anything. I could imagine her graduating from school and then coming home to spend the rest of her life vegetating, despite having more magic in her fingertips than most people have in their entire bodies. She was clever enough, when she could be bothered, but she rarely cared enough to put in the effort. I would have done far more if I’d had her powers.
But then, she didn't need to work, not if she didn't want to. The family would take care of her for the rest of her life.
Dad clapped his hands, the sound echoing outside the room. I groaned inwardly - even that simple spell was denied me - and watched as Lucy wheeled the food into the room. The last day of school, it seemed, was special. Cook had produced his finest roast beef, then used magic to keep it hot until we were ready to eat. Lucy might be a maid, but even she could cast the spells to release the food. She’d always been nice to me, at least when she knew I was listening, yet I’d seen her cast a few disdainful glances at me when she’d thought I wasn't looking. I don't know why. Alana had targeted Lucy with a few nasty spells before Mum had put a stop to it. Whatever Mum had said to my sister had clearly been effective.
“Let us eat,” Dad said, after casting a spell to make sure the food was safe to eat. I don’t know why he bothered - the cook had been with the family longer than I had been alive - but he insisted on checking, every time. He’d taught us all the spells too, although I couldn't make them work. Someone who wanted to poison me would have an easy time of it. “Lucy, carve the meat.”
Henry, the cook, had exceeded himself - as usual. I would have enjoyed the meal, I thought, if I hadn't been brooding. Alana had probably ensured I wouldn't get to enter upper school, even if my father shovelled money in their direction. Madam Rosebud was probably already complaining to the headmaster about my cheeky attitude. And if I didn't get to go on, what then? There were no apprenticeships for students without powers, at least in Shallot. I couldn't even get hired as a sailor until I was older!
And I’d still need some spells if I wanted to sail, I thought, numbly. What can I do with no magic at all?
“I worked out the last stages of the potion,” Mum said. “The idiot who wrote the book left out two steps and altered five of the quantities.”
“Well done, Mum,” Bella said. “Can anyone brew it now?”
“Caitlyn can’t,” Alana said. She snickered. “Zeros can’t brew potions.”
I felt my cheeks heat with helpless rage. Mum had taught me how to brew, but - of course - I lacked the magic to trigger the cascade that turned the potion from a mixture of odd ingredients to something useful. It didn't matter how carefully I followed the instructions, or what changes I made if I felt like experimenting ... nothing worked. Alana or Bella could take a potion I’d brewed and trigger it, but I couldn’t trigger theirs. Maybe I was doomed to work in an apothecary. Someone who had enough magic to start the cascade, but lacked the patience to brew the mixture properly ...
“That’s very good, dear,” Dad said. “Are you going to write it up?”
“I think so,” Mum said. “It isn't anything worth trying to reserve for the family.”
“Don’t let Stregheria hear you say that,” Alana said. She was trying to be grown-up, acting as though she was an adult already. “She’d expect you to reserve it.”
Mum looked annoyed, her lips thinning until they were almost invisible. Great Aunt Stregheria certainly would expect the recipe to be held in reserve. She was a selfish old biddy, utterly devoted to herself. Mum had never liked her, even before she’d turned us into frogs. I’d heard, afterwards, that Mum had been on the verge of calling Stregheria out for a duel. Stregheria was old and powerful, but I wouldn't have bet against my mother. She was powerful too.
“There is little to be gained by keeping it back,” Mum said, stiffly. “It’s a basic healing potion, not something radical.”
I listened, absently, as we finished our dinner. I’d hoped, as soon as Lucy had removed the plates, to be allowed to leave, but no such luck. Dad told all three of us to follow him to his study. I sighed, even as Alana exchanged excited looks with Bella. Dad’s study, to them, was a hall of wonders. To me, it was just another dangerous room in a dangerous house.
It was, in many ways, the sort of study I’d like to have. The walls were lined with bookshelves, including many volumes I knew were unique or forbidden; the chairs were charmed to be comfortable, all the better to allow my father to work. But I also knew the room was strongly warded, so strongly warded that even Mum couldn't enter without permission. Alana had tried to sneak in a few times, but she’d always been caught. Dad had not been amused.
“Your mother and I have made some decisions about your futures,” Dad said, once we were sitting on comfortable armchairs. They
were so large that I half-wondered if someone had cast a shrinking spell on me when I wasn't looking. Even Dad looked small, sitting on his chair. “The three of you will be going to Jude’s.”
It was so unexpected that I didn't quite grasp what he’d said, not for a long chilling moment. It had to be a joke, a cruel joke. Even my sisters looked shocked. Alana actually paled. And why not? I’d long since given up hope of going to Jude’s. Entering a school for magicians without magic ... it would have been safer to cover myself in fish sauce, then go for a swim in the shark tank.
“Dad,” Alana managed, finally. “Caitlyn can't go to Jude’s!”
Dad fixed her with his stern look. “And why not?”
Bella spluttered. “Because she’s a zero!”
“Caitlyn defeated a spell that bested me,” Dad pointed out, icily. “Can either of you say the same?”
“... I,” Bella said. “Dad ...”
Alana took over. “Dad, she hasn't been able to cast a single spell,” she said, talking about me as if I wasn't there. “She can't even do this!”
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