by S. L. Grey
S.L. Grey is a collaboration between Sarah Lotz and Louis Greenberg. Based in Cape Town, Sarah writes crime novels and thrillers under her own name, and as Lily Herne she and her daughter Savannah Lotz write the Deadlands series of zombie novels for young adults. Louis is a Johannesburg-based fiction writer and editor who worked in the book trade for many years. He has a Master’s degree in vampire fiction and a doctorate in post-religious apocalyptic fiction.
Also by S.L. Grey
The Mall
The Ward
Published in paperback in Great
Britain in 2013 by Corvus, an imprint
of Atlantic Books Ltd.
Copyright © S.L. Grey, 2013
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This novel is entirely a work of fiction. The names, characters and incidents portrayed in it are the work of the author’s imagination. Any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, events or localities, is entirely coincidental.
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ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
S.L. Grey thanks: Lauren Beukes, Adam Greenberg, Sam Greenberg, Bronwyn Harris, Sarah Holtshausen, Alan Kelly, Savannah Lotz, Charlie Martins, Helen Moffett, Oli Munson, Sara O’Keeffe, Laura Palmer, Lucy Ridout, Alan and Carol Walters, Maddie West, Naomi Wicks and Corinna Zifko.
Table of Contents
Chapter 1 RYAN
Chapter 2 TARA
Chapter 3 PENTER
Chapter 4 RYAN
Chapter 5 TARA
Chapter 6 PENTER
Chapter 7 RYAN
Chapter 8 TARA
Chapter 9 PENTER
Chapter 10 RYAN
Chapter 11 TARA
Chapter 12 PENTER
Chapter 13 RYAN
Chapter 14 TARA
Chapter 15 PENTER
Chapter 16 RYAN
Chapter 17 TARA
Chapter 18 PENTER
Chapter 19 RYAN
Chapter 20 TARA
Chapter 21 PENTER
Chapter 22 RYAN
Chapter 23 TARA
Chapter 24 PENTER
Chapter 25 RYAN
Chapter 26 TARA
Chapter 27 RYAN
Chapter 28 TARA
Chapter 29 PENTER
Chapter 1
RYAN
Ryan slices his hand on a loose snarl of guttering. He jerks his arm away and the light bulb slips out of his hand.
‘Look out!’
The ladder judders and he braces himself against the aluminium rungs, watching the kids below him scattering backwards, tripping over their feet, bumping into each other in their urgency to move. All but one. A new girl he’s never seen before drifts there, under the ladder, as if she hasn’t heard him shout, as if she doesn’t see the other children scurrying. The girl’s hair is pale – a strawy yellow that looks artificial. The space around her is a void. The other kids don’t look at her. The light bulb whistles an inch from her face and smashes at her feet with a hollow plock. She stops moving, but doesn’t even look up.
The flexible frame of the ladder still bucks, and Ryan grips on tighter. Even though he’s only two nouveau-kitsch, architect-designed, concrete-and-veneer high-school storeys above the ground, he imagines himself shattering on the walkway like that fragile glass orb.
‘Mr Devlin,’ calls out a voice from below. ‘Mr Devlin!’
It’s the headmaster, totally overdressed in a dark suit. ‘Yes, Mr Duvenhage.’
‘Are you all right up there?’
‘Yes, sir.’ There was a time when Ryan would never have said ‘sir’ to a man like this, but now he knows what greases the wheels, what makes life easier.
‘Do try to be careful, would you?’
‘Yes, sir,’ Ryan says cheerfully. One good thing about becoming a blue-collar worker at the age of thirty-eight is that he feels a righteous resentment towards the managing classes. Solidarity with the workers. He now understands what lies behind those blank, passive-aggressive looks he got from labourers on the side of the road, or in the backs of trucks he used to trail in his car. It’s hatred; a blanket, undifferentiated loathing. The same way he feels towards this little jerk barking orders below him. Their mistake, the reason they’re still at the side of the road, on the back of that truck, is that they show it.
‘And Mr Devlin...’
‘Yes, sir?’
‘You’re dripping.’ The man grimaces and steps backwards daintily before turning around and scuttling off.
Ryan looks at his slashed palm, clasps his hands together in an effort to staunch the flow, but watches with perverse fascination as the blood oozes its way between his palms and snakes down his forearm. Blood always finds a way out.
The flow gathers at his elbow, clotting with the late-summer sweat on his skin, collecting into a syrupy gout before reluctantly letting go and falling slickly. The kids have moved off along their lines like bees in an intricate dance. Except, right below him – he almost didn’t notice; she is half obscured by his body – the new girl. She’s like nobody he’s ever seen before. She looks so thoroughly disconnected from the school kids around her. She doesn’t move like other people. Most move along their predestined tracks just as they should, react to stimuli and repulsion just like idealised bodies in a science experiment. Occasionally they shunt off their path just a little – you can notice it in their lost expressions – but then they always correct their own course. Ryan sizes people up quickly, he knows where they fit. But this girl... she magnetises him like no other girl has before.
As he watches her, his hands clasped, noticing how she exerts no gravitational pull or push on the other kids passing by, a clotty drop of his blood hits her on the head, staining the long, straight, yellow hair like a stabbed duckling. Anyone else would look up, but she doesn’t. She looks at her reflection in the ground-floor window. She calmly slides a middle finger over the blood on her head, then brings her hand down to look at it. She smears her thumb over the blood on the tip of her middle finger intently. Curiously.
Then, way after she should have, she tilts her head backwards and looks up at Ryan, clamped against the ladder’s stilled struts. She stares at him, expressionless, causing Ryan to feel something very wrong. Then she lowers her head mechanically and continues to drift her void through the web of relationships in the yard below.
Ryan washes and disinfects his hand in the sink in the maintenance quarters, takes a pull of Three Ships from the bottle in his locker and breathes the fumes out tremulously, bracing himself against the clammy metal of the lockers.
‘Eita, Ryan.’ Thulani Duma, the school’s chief groundsman, essentially Ryan’s direct superior, comes in, the blue hibiscus of his Hawaiian shirt showing through his buttoned-down overalls. He taps his watch and shakes his head microscopically. ‘Mr Duvenhage wants to see you.’
‘Hmm, what now?’
Thulani shrugs.
Ryan
rinses with the Listerine in his locker, knowing as he does it that the reek of mouthwash is more damning than any waft of whisky. He wonders why it matters. When he was a scholar at his dark, faux-Gothic government-funded boys’ school, all the senior teachers were drunk half the time. It’s the same at Alice’s expensive Catholic private school... It’s all about the show, of course. They can behave how they want as long as they look right doing it. Ryan can picture men like Duvenhage going home and beating his wife and kid – something Ryan never did, even in the worst of it – then cruising the streets in his tame sedan and raping some street child. He beams that sort of malice from those tiny eyes of his, tucked away behind that unctuous rubber smile and that fussy haircut.
Ryan’s aware, as he announces himself to the school’s ‘executive secretary’, that the ‘Crossley College’ stitched across the back of his blue overalls brands him. Property of the school. And since when did schools start needing ‘executive secretaries’ in the first place? This is apparently one of the innovations Duvenhage brought in when he joined the school at the beginning of the year, one of the wave of school administrators who take more pride in their MBAs than their teaching diplomas. Sybil Fontein is a fifty-something, thin-lipped, uptight bitch who reeks of her failure to land a job as a corporate PA. She treats her position as a portal to Duvenhage’s petty majesty like some sort of holy penance. One day, having cleansed herself sufficiently, she might climb a rung and become – what? – a vestal sacrifice at the monthly meeting of the school governing body?
Ryan shakes off the image before it becomes too deeply lodged in his mind. Graphic images are at the root of his problems, this urge to actuate what he sees in his mind. He’s never quite been able to separate the real world from the pictures in his mind.
He sits nonchalantly on the hard wooden bench outside the principal’s office while, in the alcove opposite, Sybil Fontein makes a huffy show of filing papers and clattering on her keyboard. She looks up at him with distaste – the grubby help occupying her space – but then he smiles and she blushes and quickly looks down again. He knows she’ll look at him again. Three, two, one – there we go – and this time the look on her face is more inviting. Ryan knows what works.
At length Duvenhage pokes his head around his door. ‘Mr Devlin. Come inside, please.’
Like the rest of the school, the office is decorated in pale earth tones, with broad plate-glass windows, stone tiles and blond-wood furnishings. It’s expensive and new – just eight years old, as its shammy coat of arms with the ‘Est.’ date below it proclaims – and not what Ryan imagines when he thinks of school. It’s more like one of those corporate office parks. But as much as the rich parents are prepared to pay to keep their children out of the overcrowded, underfunded, directionless mess of South African state education, it’s still fraying at the edges, and that, Ryan supposes, is why he has a job. The ceiling boards in this office are sagging and there’s an invasion of rising damp and mildew eating through the wall where it abuts the picture window. Hurried architecture and shoddy work. Ryan goes to the corner to inspect the damp more closely.
But Duvenhage indicates a chair at his desk. ‘Sit, please, Mr Devlin.’
Duvenhage sits and faces him across the desk, his smooth-skinned, pudgy face sheened, that oily smile. Ryan sits across from him, all casual deference calculated to placate the petty bureaucrat. Duvenhage shifts a pink folder across his desk and clasps his hands above it. ‘As you know, Mr Devlin, Crossley College is concerned that the... ethos of the institution is pervasively and consistently upheld by each one of its members, whether that be student body, teaching staff or support services.’
Ryan lets him talk, nodding at the right times. The ethos. He’s heard a lot about that. From what he can see, it’s the same ethos as at his own high school: bullying, repression and conformism. Couching it in corporate cant doesn’t change it. Ryan keeps his mouth shut. He needs this job.
‘To that end, your... uh, contract of employment states that all personal belongings brought onto the campus by... contract staff... are subject to regular inspection to ensure that the... said, ethos is upheld. At eleven fifteen this morning, I carried out a routine examination of the lockers in the maintenance staff changing room and found... uhm... certain items on the list of items banned from campus which was appended to your contract, namely... uhm... two bottles of alcohol and... uhm... one pocket knife—’
‘Oh, that. Don’t worry, I can—’
‘A minute, Mr Devlin,’ Duvenhage says. The smile is gone and there’s something cold behind his eyes. The man’s not used to being interrupted; he’s surrounded by sycophants. ‘You will have your chance to explain. Two bottles of alcohol, one pocket knife, and a book by a banned author. Let’s see...’ He takes out his phone and makes a show of flicking through a series of photos he has taken of Ryan’s things. ‘Yes, here. J. K. Rowling. The Deathly Hallows.’
‘It’s for my daughter.’ The mild irritation Ryan’s been feeling at this man’s constipated tone and mindless bureaucracy shifts up a gear into anger. He wills himself to keep calm. He has to keep a lid on it.
Duvenhage pales and shakes his head, then finds solace inside the folder, opening it and shuffling through it as if to confirm to himself that the rules were laid down in ink. He finds what he’s looking for and holds it up to Ryan. ‘The list of banned authors is distributed to all staff on a weekly basis, Mr Devlin, and it is staff’s responsibility to familiarise themselves with the contents. There is really no excuse for this... book, or any of the other undesirable items, to be brought onto campus. What’s more, I can smell that you have been drinking alcohol, which is a gross contravention. I’m issuing a final, written warning which will go into your file. Hiring you in the first place was an act of kindness on the part of Mr Grindley – a misguided one in my opinion, since the security of our student body is the...’
Duvenhage’s words have been dissolving as the anger simmers, and now they disappear. A familiar feeling wakes up and twitches inside Ryan, a painful itch that needs to be scratched. He’s successfully kept the compulsion at bay for months now. The psychiatrist said that what he called Ryan’s transient kleptomania was a dislocated symptom of the unresolved anger about the circumstances of his family’s dissolution, and treating the rage with antidepressants had apparently all but put an end to the episodes. The last time he had given into it was during his last job, a short stint as a hospital porter at New Hope Hospital. He had no use for any of the items he stole from the staff and patients and he left the job before his petty thefts were discovered. But, now, being treated like a child by this pasty bureaucrat, the urge is back, as strong as ever. He fidgets in his seat, clenches his leaking palms.
‘Are you even listening, Mr Devlin?’
He makes himself speak. ‘Yes, Mr Duvenhage.’
‘I need you to countersign this official notification of warning.’ Duvenhage pages through the documents in the pink folder again, his face growing redder, his brow creasing.
‘Mrs Fontein!’ he bellows.
No answer.
‘Mrs Fontein!’
He gets up from behind his desk, muttering, ‘Where is...? Wait here,’ he says to Ryan and leaves the office, closing the door behind him.
Now’s his chance. Ryan springs up, locks the office door and moves to Duvenhage’s side of the desk. There has to be something here. His lower belly thrums with the thrill of being caught. He’s forgotten how powerful the feeling is, how seductive; it’s almost sexual. He opens the desk’s top drawer, knowing that Duvenhage is just across the hall and will be back as soon as he’s found his document. Ryan’s got to hurry. He scratches through the drawer. A sheaf of letters and documents he wouldn’t mind reading sometime; a silver pen and pencil set, a stapler.
The second drawer. A Bible, some thin manuals, a box of tissues. Uh-uh.
He forces himself to slow down. The door handle rattles. ‘Mr Devlin? What the...?’
Ah. There, the
re.
‘Devlin! Open the door. What are you...?’
Duvenhage’s briefcase, resting against the side of the bookcase. It’s unlocked. Click, click. More papers, fuck it, but, yes, underneath, here we go. A tiny flash drive, shaped like a stylised dove. That’ll do. It’s something that Duvenhage will just think he’s misplaced.
He shuts the briefcase, leans it back where it was, pockets the drive and rushes to the door, unlocks it.
‘Devlin, what the... on Earth... are you doing?’ Duvenhage is red in the face.
‘Sorry, Mr Duvenhage, I noticed that a screw in the deadbolt was loose. I was just... If I’d had my... my pocket knife, I could’ve...’
‘Don’t try your luck, Mr Devlin. We have a complete inventory of maintenance equipment, which, school regulations state, must be kept under lock and key in the designated storage compartments, not, regardless, in contract staff’s personal lockers.’
‘Yes. I’m sorry.’
‘Well, sign this, please, as acknowledgement of our discussion and of your warning. Note that this is a final warning, and contraband – and especially drinking during hours of service – will not be tolerated. Do you understand, Mr Devlin?’ Duvenhage holds up a pen.
‘Yes, I do, sir. It won’t happen again.’ He smiles his disarming smile, takes the pen and signs the paper.
‘Good. Now get that stuff off my campus.’
Ryan nods and makes towards the door.
‘And, Mr Devlin...’
‘Yes, sir?’
‘See to this rising damp tomorrow, would you? I’m sure it’s unhealthy to work in this office. I believe there are spores breeding there.’
‘Of course, sir.’ The anger he was feeling just minutes ago is a distant memory. Now he just feels empty.
At four o’clock, Ryan changes into his jeans and T-shirt, stashes the knife, book and bottle in his backpack and heads towards the school’s main gate. The elaborate boom system with a security booth in the middle is not designed for pedestrians and he has to take his chances against the polished 4x4s that choke the school’s parking ground as parents idle, like sharks in a tank, waiting to pick their children up from sports.
