by S. Walden
a novel
S. Walden
Penny Press
Copyright 2013, S. Walden
Publisher: Penny Press
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This is a work of fiction. Any similarities to real persons, places, or events are entirely coincidental.
Better is the second and final installment in the Too Good series.
And these three remain: faith, hope, and love. But the greatest of these is love.
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epilogue
about the author
Seven months earlier . . .
“Mr. Connelly! You’re making that up!” Cadence cried.
He watched her tiny shoulders shake with laughter. She pressed the dry erase marker against the board to hold it steady, but it was no use. Her laughter forced it up and down and sideways, muddying the numbers he’d written out for her.
“I’m not. I swear,” he chuckled. “And now you get to start all over.”
“Ugh! Help me, please,” she said, turning around to look at him.
He studied the wisps that framed her face, the afternoon sunlight streaming through the windows, catching them and setting them on fire. Her hairline, temples, and cheeks glowed. She looked like a porcelain doll.
She grinned and shook her head. “I still don’t believe you.”
He grinned back. “I know.”
He walked to the board and erased her mess. And then he rewrote the numbers and waited for her to start the problem. He wouldn’t baby her this time. He’d done it every time before. All it took was a little pout and the upturn of those sad blue eyes. He was a sucker, and he knew it. But not this time. This time she’d have to work for it.
“You know this, Cadence,” he said encouragingly.
She nodded and took a deep breath. He thought it was cute. He couldn’t help it. She was steeling herself for the mental workout.
He watched her furrow her brows.
No, he thought. Don’t you dare.
And then her face clouded over.
Cadence . . .
“Mr. Connelly, I don’t think . . .”
“Yes, you do,” he said. “You can do this, Cadence.”
She chewed her lip and made a decision. She turned her pretty little face towards him, tilted her chin a fraction of an inch, and looked up with her big, sad eyes. And then she blinked. And waited.
Fuck.
Mr. Connelly sighed. “Okay. I’ll start you off.”
“Thank you,” she whispered.
He saw her tuck her chin to hide the grin playing at the corners of her lips. She knew she won. Again. And he couldn’t be frustrated with her. He wanted to kiss the top of her head instead—right at the point where her hair parted. His admission of defeat.
She turned her face to him again, marker poised inches from the white board.
“Well? Let’s do this, Mr. Connelly.”
He smiled. “Okay, Cadence.”
And there was no going back.
He walked around all afternoon with Cadence in his brain—unable to shake her, unable to figure out what to do with her even though he already resolved to make her his. How? How did he honestly think he could pull that off? He needed perspective, so he made a detour on his way home.
He plopped the six-pack on the counter and stared at Dylan after his confession.
Dylan scratched his neck, then leaned back in his chair. He propped his feet on the counter and looked at his best friend.
“Are you out of your fucking mind?”
Mark sighed and popped the cap of his Newcastle. He took a swig then shrugged.
“Uh, no. You don’t get to shrug. Answer my question! What the hell, man?” Dylan said. He took the beer Mark handed him.
“She’s . . . she’s just . . .” He searched for the words, frustrated that they couldn’t come easier.
“You need a song?” Dylan joked.
“Shut up, man.”
Dylan laughed and grabbed a record off the back counter. He slid it over to Mark.
“Go put that on,” he said.
Mark rolled his eyes and walked to the closest record player. He pulled the vinyl from its sleeve and placed it on the turntable. He lifted the arm, then paused.
“She’s like a clean slate,” he said quietly.
“Yeah. One you plan to dirty up,” Dylan said.
“No. That’s not it.” Mark placed the needle carefully on the vinyl. “Good choice, by the way.” He listened as the distinctive sound of The Killers filled the tiny space of the record store.
“I know,” Dylan replied, downing his beer.
“I don’t wanna mess her up,” Mark said. “I want her to make me a clean slate, too.”
He said it facing the record player. He couldn’t look at his friend, but he sensed the immediate tension in the room. There was a long stretch of silence before Dylan spoke. Mark watched the record spin as he finished his beer.
“Look man, I know everything with Andy—”
“Don’t say her name,” Mark said. “Just, please don’t.”
Dylan took a deep breath. “How is this chick gonna help you, Mark? She’s in high school. She’s nowhere near your maturity level, experience level—”
“I don’t want her to be,” Mark said. He turned around and walked back to the counter, hoisting himself up on it and reaching for a second beer. “You want another?”
Dylan shook his head. “I’m on the clock.”
Mark smirked. “Well, I’m not.” He popped the cap and took a long, satisfying gulp. “I don’t want her to know anything.”
“What? So you can corrupt her?”
“No. I just like her innocence.”
“Yeah, so you can corrupt it.”
“Shut up, man. That’s not it.” Mark thought for a moment. He took another sip of beer and scratched the stubble on his cheek. “She doesn’t hurt.”
“I don’t even know what the hell that means,” Dylan mumbled.
“Yeah, you do,” Mark replied, looking his friend in the face.
Dylan shifted uncomfortably and nodded.
“She’s this beautiful little thing. And I want it.”
“You can’t use her like that,” Dylan said.
“I’m not!” Mark snapped. “It’s not like that. I don’t wanna use her. I’m attracted to her. I’m attracted to her smile and her laugh an
d her hair and the way she talks—”
“Stop,” Dylan ordered. “You’re making me sick.”
Mark laughed. “I really like her. And I know it’s unwise, okay? I know all this. But you don’t understand. She’s just there, all the time, shining.”
“‘Shining’? God, you’re a fruitcake,” Dylan said. His words were laced with light contempt. “English majors . . .”
Mark chuckled and gulped more.
“Okay, so what do you plan to do with the shining girl?” Dylan asked. He watched the smile spread across his friend’s face.
“Love her.”
“Yeah, and then the shining girl puts you behind some shiny metal bars. Mark, you’re a smart guy. Use your head. And I mean this one,” he said, pointing to his temple.
Mark chuckled. “You haven’t met her.”
“I’m sure she’s like every other teenage girl,” Dylan replied. “And I’m not saying I wouldn’t wanna hit that, but society kinda has a problem with it, in case you didn’t know. You wanna look like some child predator?”
Mark grimaced.
“Exactly. I don’t care how fucking shiny she is. Some things you don’t touch.”
“She’s not a child.”
“How old is she?”
“Eighteen.”
“How do you know?”
“Well, I don’t. I think she’s eighteen.”
“Dude. Step AWAY from the shiny object.”
Mark laughed. “I don’t think so, Dylan. I don’t think I can.”
Dylan shook his head. “You know I’m here for you. Any way this goes.”
“You think I’m messed up, don’t you?” Mark asked.
“No. I think she mesmerized you. I think you’re lonely and jaded and looking for anything out there that’s the opposite of all the shit you’ve been through—”
“Dylan . . .”
“No, man. We gotta be able to talk about it. It’s been two years, Mark. You’re not the only one who still hurts over what happened to Andy.”
The chime of the doorbell broke the intensity of the moment. Mark listened, detached, as a group of teenagers shuffled into the store, chattering. Dylan shot up from his chair, immediately on guard.
“Fucking kids,” he muttered.
Mark grinned. “They haven’t done anything. Chill out.”
The men watched as the teens wove in and out of aisles, laughing and punching one another’s arms. Mark heard one of them say “sweet ass” and instantly thought of Cadence.
“Oh God,” he whispered, running his hands roughly over his face.
“What’s wrong with you?” Dylan asked, eyeing a boy who was rifling through a stack of classic rock albums.
“Nothing.”
“Hey! What can I help you boys find?” Dylan yelled.
They turned in his direction, catching sight of the six-pack on the counter.
One exclaimed, “Dude! You drink at work?”
“My store. My rules,” Dylan replied.
They all nodded, impressed.
“That’s cool, man,” another boy replied. “Need anyone to work part time?”
“Not one,” Dylan said. “Need help finding a record?”
“Not one,” someone else replied.
The boys snickered.
Dylan cracked a smile. “Then why don’t you get the hell outta my store.”
The teens froze before shuffling out, spitting timid insults at Dylan as they went.
“You’re a freaking asshole,” Mark said.
“No, I’m not. Those shits stole from me before. It took me a minute to remember. But I remember. That little blond shit . . .”
“Why didn’t you report them?” Mark asked. “And why don’t you get your cameras fixed?”
“Unimportant,” Dylan said. “We’re not talking about stolen records. We’re talking about Andy.”
Mark took a deep breath.
“She was my friend, too, Mark,” Dylan said softly.
Silence.
Mark opened another beer. “I know she was.”
***
Present day
Mark’s eyes flew open. He lay frozen in bed, engulfed in darkness, completely unaware of the girl lying next to him, breathing heavy and even. That sweet sound of contented sleep. He could think of nothing but that afternoon at Dylan’s store, sitting on the counter drinking too much beer, talking openly for the first time about the girl who disappeared under a white sheet stained red. The girl who promised him forever, then bled it out on an operating table. The girl he loved.
Forever.
He turned his head to look at the living girl beside him. The girl who lay naked under his sheets, golden hair draped over her neck, acting as a scarf against the chill of the bedroom. He reached out to touch her hair, smoothing it through his fingers.
She nodded in her sleep, then opened her eyes. She’d done this before, and he knew she wasn’t awake.
“I love you,” he whispered.
“I know,” she replied. “Why do you have bad dreams?”
He froze.
“Why?”
“Cadence, are you awake?” he asked carefully.
“Why do you have bad dreams, Mark?” she replied. “Why?”
“I don’t have bad dreams,” he said. “Go back to sleep.” He ran his fingers through her hair once more.
“Okay, but I don’t believe you,” she mumbled, and closed her eyes. He waited until he heard the heavy, even breathing again before slinking soundlessly out of bed.
He walked to the kitchen and opened the refrigerator. And then he stared blankly inside, deciding if he wanted food or drink. He wasn’t hungry. No to food. He wasn’t thirsty either, though that beer looked refreshing. But he didn’t need refreshment. He needed an escape.
It didn’t happen often—remembering. Once Cadence walked into the picture, he swore to bury the past, or, at least, the finer details. He’d never forget her. He didn’t want to. But the details. Well, those he could bury. But every now and then, he’d still dream of the past, and those finer details that would otherwise escape his memory during the day burst about his subconscious at night, demanding recognition. They took control of his dreams, and he’d wake some mornings soaked with sweat. He thought Cadence never knew. She never said anything about it until tonight.
He closed the refrigerator door and walked back to the bedroom. He stood over his girlfriend, watching her sleep. She was far away from him, in her own dreamland, and he couldn’t stand the distance. Not tonight.
He pulled back the sheet and watched her curl into a fetal position. Her hand searched for the covers, but he made sure to keep them away from her grasp. He couldn’t get enough of it—staring at her nakedness. She was so tiny, so fair. A little fallen angel, he thought.
His.
He grew hard with want, running his hand up the length of her thigh to touch her hip bone. He pulled on her hip until she lay on her back, completely exposed to him. He knelt beside her and kissed her stomach. And then he lay his head on her. In an instant, he felt her tiny fingers in his hair, subconsciously searching out his cowlicks. If he was very quiet, he could hear her count them in her mind. One, two, three. Oh, there’s four . . .
“Yes, Cadence. I have many cowlicks,” Mark whispered into her belly.
She shifted under him and sighed.
“I need you,” he said.
She lay motionless, fingers poised in his hair. He pulled away from her and watched her hands drop to either side of her head. And then he kissed up her stomach to the dip between her breasts. He kissed her mouth next.
“Wake up, Cadence,” he said against her lips.
She moaned.
He gently forced her mouth open and found her tongue. He kissed her deeply, slowly, until he elicited another moan.
“That’s it. Wake up,” he urged.
His hand slid down between her thighs, teasing her gently. He felt her body’s response, the growing wetness between her legs.
And he had to have her. Right. Now.
“Cadence?”
Nothing.
“Cadence?”
He stilled his hand and watched her face. She was having a good dream. He could tell. Not like last night when he cradled her on the couch and listened as she cried in her sleep. She was exhausted from her escape—had finally fallen asleep against his chest—but minutes later she was crying again. It was a bad dream, and he couldn’t rescue her. Reality proved to be no better at the moment, so he didn’t wake her.
That was yesterday. A bad day. Neither went to school today. They waited, holed up in the apartment. Sitting. Pacing. Watching the door for Cadence’s dad. They both knew he was coming, and Mark was prepared. Calm. Cadence wasn’t. She was a mess, and as the hours ticked, her fear turned to hysteria.
But Mr. Miller never arrived. And when it was close to midnight, Cadence finally relaxed. Mark, on the other hand, grew anxious. He knew the anxiety conjured his bad dream. And he also knew how to alleviate his heartache. But as he hovered over his girlfriend studying her face, watching a faint smile curl the corners of her lips, he knew he couldn’t do it. He couldn’t wake her to take from her. It was selfish.
He pulled the covers up and tucked her in. He walked to his side of the bed when he heard a loud knock on the door.
Cadence’s eyes flew open. “What? What is it?”
Another angry knock.
“Oh my God,” Cadence breathed, jumping out of bed. She searched the room frantically for her pajamas.
“Stay here,” Mark ordered.
“No!” she cried, pulling on her cotton shorts.
A third knock.
“I’m asking you to stay here, Cadence,” Mark said. He walked out of the room and closed the door on her. She ripped it open and followed him.
“Don’t answer,” she whispered, tugging on Mark’s arm.
“I’m not afraid of your dad. Go back to the bedroom.”
“Please don’t do this!” Cadence pleaded.
“Go back to the bedroom,” Mark said. He pulled his arm from her grasp and opened the door.
Mr. Miller shoved his way inside. He caught sight of his daughter and froze.
“What do you want?” Mark asked.
“I want to take my daughter home.”
“She is home.”
