I took a deep breath and said “Yes, I am. As long as you promise you got me and won’t let me fall.”
“I promise I will always be there to catch if you ever fall.”
Chapter 5:
Q yelled from downstairs “Damn, Jasmine you are taking forever to get ready, and were going to be late. Are you ready to go yet?”
I yelled back from upstairs saying “I‘m coming.”
Tonight we are going out to an after party for the ESPY Awards. I guess making a whole bunch of appearances at the different sports events is a must if you are in a relationship with an athlete. I will admit that this whole lifestyle was starting to wear me down a little bit. I was beginning to hate having to be so sociable all the damn time. I am normally a very quiet person. And I keep to myself for the most part, but you can’t be that way at these types of events. I loved Q, but I was beginning to wonder if this lifestyle was one that I could really live for the rest of my life. I’m always alone in this apartment while he travels and plays ball. I mean I understand that basketball is his job, and his first love. But it can get really lonely at times. I guess I didn’t realize how much effort you have to put into a relationship when you’re dating a professional athlete. It is definitely a life that takes time for you to get used to.
You hear so much about athletes, and the trifling stuff that some of them do to their women. It can be very hard to not think about if your man is out there doing the same. Hell I’ve seen women throw themselves at my man while I was standing right there with him. It’s amazing how some of these chicks have no type of respect for themselves or another woman. But I trust Q I know he wouldn’t betray me like that. He hasn’t given me any reason not to trust him. I have access to everything he has; we don’t have any secrets. I am a firm believer in if you don’t have trust, you have nothing but an end to your relationship. Thank God for my dog, Lyric, and work, or else I would have been gone crazy.
Tonight my whole outfit was on point. I wore a form fitting white dress by Herv Ledger. This dress complimented and highlighted my curves perfectly. I matched it with white strappy YSL stilettos that Q had bought me as for our six month anniversary last week. My man knew that his boo had a thing for nice shoes. My makeup was light and very natural. I looked great, and would definitely do my man justice on his arm tonight.
As I walked down the stairs to meet up with Q, I saw his eyes light up as he looked at me.
He said “Damn baby you look beautiful.”
I kissed him on the lips as I said “Thank you! I’m glad that you like it.”
He pulled me into his arms and placed kisses all over my neck as he said “You look so damn good tonight. I don’t even want to take you out of this house. I want to keep you all to myself. Yup, I’m being selfish and I don’t care.”
I laughed as I said “Come on now stop playing you was just rushing me a minute ago, and now you want to be looking all lustful at me. Nope not right now we have somewhere to go, and we are already late so stop it. No time for a quickie sorry. But you are looking and smelling real good right now.”
I kissed him seductively and sucked slightly on his bottom lip. He managed to slip his hand under my dress. He began to stroke me light and slow as I wrapped my leg around his waist. I moaned in pleasure as I said “Stop, we really have to go.”
He didn’t stop he kept stroking me and kissed me as he said “You didn’t wear any panties for a reason. So stop talking.”
After he said that he picked me up and placed me on top of the kitchen counter. He got on his knees and rolled up my dress above my waist. He placed light kisses all over my clit. He licked, kissed, and sucked every part of me. I dug my heels into his back the deeper that his tongue went. I loved it I placed my hands on the back of his head pushing him in even deeper. As my moans became louder he picked up his pace and ate relentlessly. Once he did that I couldn’t hold back anymore I screamed as I came hard. My orgasm was so intense that I thought my juices would drown him. But he didn’t let a single drop escape his mouth. My body was shaking as I tried to come down off of my orgasmic high. As he got up off his knees he just looked at me smiling and licking his lips. As soon as I stopped shaking he took me down from off of the counter.
He laughed as he said “Now didn’t that feel good? Just so you know that was just a preview of what is to come tonight.”
I pulled down my dress and laughed as I said “Well now, since I’m fully satisfied, I might go to sleep early tonight.”
He smacked me on the butt as he said “Yeah, okay you can play hard to get if you want. Just know that when we get back home that ass is all mine. He walked away going into the bathroom to wash his face and brushed his teeth.
He said “Tonight we may even finally make us a baby. I think that it’s about time that we start a family. You already know that I plan on making you my wife. I don’t see any reason why we can’t start a family now. I mean I know how you feel about work. Your schedule is busy, but so is mine. I was thinking that once we start a family you can stop working all together. I make more than enough money to take care of us. Plus I’m sick of wearing condoms, Jasmine we have been together for a while I think we are passed that now.”
I got aggravated with this conversation. I didn’t want to have this conversation at all. We can never see eye to eye on this whole family thing. He wants me to be a stay at home mom which is not what I want. He should know by now how much my career goals mean to me. Yes I want to have a family eventually, but I also have a career that I value. I couldn’t understand what made him think that I couldn’t have both? Plus I refuse just be his baby mother. If I’m going to do this I want to do it the right way. I want to be a wife first, and enjoy being married. Then we can work on starting a family. So I chose not to engage in this conversation to avoid an argument.
So I just smiled and said “I hear you, baby we can talk about it later.” I went into the bathroom to freshen up before we left out of the house.
Q and I sat at a table with a bunch of his teammates and their wives, girlfriends, and even some of their mistresses. I was getting real annoyed because one of Q’s teammates kept staring at me like he wanted to take a bite out of me. So I moved in closer to Q and kissed him. I wanted to show his teammate that I was far from being even slightly interested in him. He needed to know I was nothing like the other scandalous chicks he came across. I am loyal to my man. Once I did that he turned his attention away, and I just laughed.
Q looked at me surprised as he said “I don’t know what that was for, but I want more.”
I smiled as I pulled him into me by his chin, and we kissed some more.
He said “You need to stop teasing me, before I take you out to the car.”
I laughed as I said “Okay, I quit. I look too cute to be getting my hair and dress messed up by having sex with you in the car. Last time we messed around in your truck I was sore for a week.”
He laughed as he said “Don’t play with me, Jasmine. You got me horny as hell right now. Understand that the bathroom will work just as well, too.”
We both busted out laughing at how freaky we were talking, and nobody even had a clue. It was amazing that whenever we went out together we were in our own little world. We would laugh and flirt with one another all night. I never have been in a relationship where a man showed me so much affection. I loved how special he made me feel. Even with so much going on around us, he always finds a way to always make me feel like I was the only one who mattered.
But the sex between us is on another level. I didn’t come into our relationship with many tricks up my sleeve. I was very behind when it came to sex Trey was the only guy that I had been with. Q took me under his wing and has been my teacher. The shyness that I used to always feel when it came to my sexuality was nonexistent now. Now I wasn’t afraid to try anything sexually with him. He increased my sex game tenfold. I can barely be in the same room with Q without getting turned on. Q snapped me out of my thoughts when he told me that he
had to make his rounds. I nodded that I understood before he walked away. I just sat down by myself and sipped my glass of wine while I waited for him to come back.
I watched Kobe Bryant, Lebron James, Carmelo Anthony, and Dwayne Wade all walking around the event. I had to remind myself that I can’t act like a crazy fan tonight. Even though I wanted to jump out of my seat and ask for their autographs. Anyone who knows me knows that I am a huge fan of the game. My favorite player is Mr. Kobe “Bean” Bryant. It took everything in me not to stalk his ass for the entire night. All I wanted to do was tell him how amazing that I think he is. But his wife Vanessa was on his ass like white on rice. No female would even get the chance to get that close. I respect it though after all Kobe was a cheater. I needed a distraction, so I pulled out my phone and started to message London. As I was talking to her I felt someone tap me lightly on the shoulder. When I turned around I was stunned to see Trey standing there. What the hell was he doing here I thought to myself. Before I could say anything he pulled up a chair next to me and began to talk.
He spoke with a sense of urgency saying “Listen I know that you don’t want to hear shit from me, and believe me I understand why. But I really need to talk to you. Just give me a couple minutes of your time, please.”
I looked around to see if Q was anywhere in sight. Then I said quietly “What are you doing here, Trey? Now isn’t the place or time for any type of conversation. I’m with my boyfriend tonight, and he will be back any minute. I don’t want any drama between the two of you.”
He refused to take my warning so he continued on saying “I don’t care who you are here with. I need to talk to you. Just listen. I’ve been thinking about this ever since I saw you. Back when you and I were together we were just kids, Jasmine. I knew nothing about love and how to make a relationship work. I can honestly say I had no idea what to do with you when you were in my life. Once we were done I thought that I could come to live my life without you in it. I thought that over time I would forget all about what we had. But the truth is I never stopped thinking about you. You were always in the back of my mind. Your presence never left my heart and mind. Ever since I ran into you that night I realized that my life just hasn’t been the same without you in it.
“I have missed you, Jasmine. I miss staring at you when you used to sleep in my arms at night. I miss the way you used to caress my face when you kissed me. I miss the way you pout when you were mad at me. Most of all I miss you just being my best friend. You and I had this amazing friendship on top of us being lovers. You are an extremely special person, and I truly miss everything about you. This whole time I have been lying to myself thinking that I could be without you. I know you said that you have a new man in your life, but I know I’m the only man for you. Just think about us and what we once shared. I know you like nobody else does, and you know me unlike anyone else does. I know what scares you, what makes you sad, and what makes you smile.”
I tried my best to ignore what he was saying to me. I was refusing to let his words into my mind, or even worse let it into heart. He continued on saying “I remember everything about you since you were 16 years old. I know he doesn’t know you like I do. All I want you to do is just think about it. Can you do that for me please? I know I don’t deserve another chance, but I’m hoping that you will find it in your heart to forgive me if nothing else.”
I just stared at him unable to speak or move. I didn’t know what to say, or how I should feel after hearing what he said. I felt like he had me cornered with his words. I would never betray Quincy’s trust so I blocked out any feelings that I was trying to feel. I said “Trey me and you just can‘t happen, period. I mean hopefully I can stop being mad at you long enough so that we can at least try to be friends one day. But right now I’m not ready to do that. I need you to give me some space until I’m ready to deal with things. Right now I’m telling you I don’t want to go there with you so just let the shit go.”
He just stared at me, and I held my ground refusing to give in to his stare.
He said “Wow, Jasmine, why are you doing this? I can look into your eyes and know that you don’t love this dude that you’re with. Your eyes give it all away. So who are you really trying to convince me or yourself? But, okay, if you’re trying to make me wait since you waited on me I’m willing to do that. I‘m willing to do whatever it takes just to prove that I’m serious about what I’m saying to you. I want to show you how much I’ve changed. If you want to make me wait and suffer for however long until you’re ready then I’m willing to do that.”
I just sighed as I said “Listen, I don’t want to make you suffer, Trey. You know that is not even the type of person that I am. I’m just not interested in moving backwards at this point in my life. So far as I moved forward nothing but amazing things has come my way. I finally understood and accepted the fact that you and I weren’t meant to be. Like you said we were both kids we didn’t know what love really was. Hell, we didn’t even know who we were back then. So I let it go and I suggest you do the same. I’m happy with the man in my life. I am not leaving him for anyone and that includes you, Trey.”
He said “I’m telling you right now I am not letting it go. I want you back with me, and I will do whatever so you understand that. Listen, baby, I’m right here admitting I fucked up badly when we were together. All I want is a chance to make it up to you. I don’t give a fuck about the dude you’re with. All I care about is you, Jasmine.”
I was beginning to feel really uncomfortable and annoyed. Then confusion began to settle inside my mind. Old memories of him and I began to flood my mind. I began to think back to all the days where most of the time we spent together we were laughing and talking. I remembered the time he comforted me when my grandfather died. I was crushed when my granddad died so suddenly. Trey stayed with me night after night for like a month straight, because I was afraid to sleep alone in my apartment. I was having nightmares so he made sure to always hold me tight in his arms so that I would feel safe. And instantly I would fall fast asleep in his arms. I wouldn’t have made it through that time in my life without his support. As I came to think about it we did share a lot of good times together I had to admit. But before I could say anything I felt Q come up behind me, and kiss me on the cheek.
“What’s up baby?” he said cautiously, “Who is this?” I looked over at Trey and his face instantly turned into a frown as he realized that this was the new man in my life. I nervously stood up and said “Hey, baby this is an old friend of mine, Trey. And Trey this is my boyfriend, Quincy.”
Trey stood up to greet him, and they both reluctantly shook each other’s hand. I could tell that they both could care less about meeting one another. There was definitely animosity building between the two of them.
Q said “I’ve heard a lot about you.” Q kissed me on the lips and held onto me tight as he said “I don’t know why you let this woman out of your sight, but I’m glad you did. If you didn’t I would have never found her for myself.”
I knew Q was being an asshole so I tried to diffuse the situation as I said “Trey just came over to say hello. He was just leaving.”
Trey gave me a look that sent chills up my spine. It was written all over his face that he wanted to snatch me right out of his arms. He forced a fake smirk onto his face as he said “I don’t know why I let this beautiful woman out of my sight. I regret it to this day, trust me. But every man makes mistakes. I’m man enough to admit that to myself and to her as well. Just make sure you keep a real good eye on her. She is looking flawless tonight, and you wouldn’t want anyone to take her from you.”
I gave Trey an evil look, which he completely ignored just like Q did. I realized that it wasn’t about me. It was all about Trey and Quincy’s egos.
Q said “I’m not worried! She is not going anywhere.”
Trey turned his attention to me and said “Well, it was nice seeing you again, mama. Hopefully we can get together sometime soon, and get caught up on everything tha
t I’ve missed. Again you look beautiful tonight.”
Before he walked away he took my hand and kissed it lightly. I quickly snatched my hand away and nervously said “Thanks, it was nice seeing you again as well.”
Q just glared at Trey like he was ready to punch him in the face. I rubbed Q’s back trying to keep him calm. Then Trey walked away and disappeared into the crowd. I watched him walk away, and I felt myself wanting to go after him just to finish our conversation. It seems like every time we saw each other we never get to say everything that needed to be said to one another.
I was about to sit back down, but Q stopped me and pulled me back up. He had an attitude with me, and I knew why. But I couldn’t control what Trey did.
So I said “What’s wrong with you? Let go of my arm, Quincy.”
He said angrily, “Don’t fucking play with me, Jasmine! So do you want to tell me what the hell that was all about?”
I was mad and scared at the same time. I never saw this side of Q before. I could see the jealousy written all over him.
I immediately got pissed off. “What are you talking about? He came over here to say hello. We haven’t seen each other in a while, obviously. But that’s all it was. We were only talking, nothing more than that.”
He said “Well, I don’t like the way he was looking at you in this tight ass dress, and him making those smart ass comments either. He was blatantly disrespecting me by kissing your hand and shit. I should go over there and smack this nigga for disrespecting me. I don’t want him touching my woman period.”
I was annoyed. “Listen, you’re talking about me like I’m just a piece of property, and not a damn human being. And you weren’t thinking it was a tight ass dress before we left the house. You act like I can control what comes out of his mouth. He is a grown ass man Q! I don’t understand why you are even worried about him in the first place. I do not want him, Quincy. He is my ex-boyfriend. He lives here, too; we were bound to run into each other. Today just so happened to be that day.”
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