Why, then, did I feel so uneasy?
Toby was Mr. Good Manners himself on Friday morning. He helped me wash up after breakfast, and promised to muck out and feed the hens for me, after he’d had just one more cup of coffee. That was nice of him. Of course by that time in the morning I’d already let the hens out and fed them, but he could clean the henhouse for me with pleasure!
He was charming. He was everything that I’d always wanted in a man. He called me pretty names, such as Butterfly and Quicksilver, and said he’d always liked his women to look fragile. He measured my height against his, and tucked me under his shoulder to give me a hug. I had daydreamed of his kissing me, but when he did, I pushed him away. I said it was too early in the day for canoodling, and that I had come down to the house to work, and not to play. I could have hit myself afterwards, for instead of looking hurt, he shrugged and asked for another cup of coffee.
Fool! I told myself, but I didn’t try to kiss and make up. There was plenty of time for that, I argued, as I went upstairs to make the beds. Elm Tree House boasted two bedrooms, one big double bedroom at the head of the stairs, in which Toby had slept the night before, and a smaller single room leading off that. It wasn’t an ideal arrangement, especially since the bathroom also led off the main bedroom, and there was no access to the bathroom from the smaller bedroom without going through the master bedroom. Last night I had slept in the small bedroom, as I had done as a child, and wondered if Toby would try the door. He hadn’t. I suppose I was disappointed about that, too.
A dealer in antiques had been to see me the previous afternoon, and had taken away an old desk and a set of dining-room chairs, together with the best of the china and a brass lamp. He said the rest was junk, but that he’d give me a price for it when I was ready to leave. In the meantime I had to clear cupboards, a chest of drawers, cabinets and shelves of knick-knacks, ancient bottles of medicine, and a mountain of old clothes. Also the kitchen. I started on the wardrobe, carrying piles of old clothes down to the yard to burn. They smelt fusty and after a couple of trips I felt dirty and tired. The morning sun promised a hot day.
‘And is my little kitten in a better temper now?’ Toby asked, beaming at me over a cup of coffee.
‘Worse!’ I said shortly.
‘Have a drink,’ he suggested. He was intrigued by the shelf of home-made wines in the kitchen. I declined on the grounds that it was too early in the day for me to drink anything but coffee.
‘You haven’t a cigarette?’ he asked.
‘You know I don’t smoke. Anyway, I thought you went for some last night.’
‘Yes, but … I couldn’t get my favourite brand. I went from one pub to the next, but no luck. I told you.’
‘The Swan down the road usually stocks the lot. You must have been drunk …’
‘You know I wasn’t. I was sober when I came back, wasn’t I?’
‘After one and a half hours! All that time to look for cigarettes … Come off it! And that edgy, with it!’
‘I don’t know what you mean!’
‘Bad-tempered. On edge. You might have been apologetic about it …’
‘About what? The dent in the car? Well, I am sorry about it, but I couldn’t help myself. I just didn’t notice that gate post at the end of the lane …’
‘It’s painted white, and has a reflector on it. Besides, you didn’t make that dent by bumping into a gate post. You can see it must have been made by something … well, not something with a hard edge to it, like a gate post.’
‘What, then?’
I shrugged. We were sitting in the big living-room of the cottage, with the front door open onto the yard. Clucking hens bustled between us and my little Mini, sitting full in the sun.
‘Another thing,’ I said. ‘Why should your car be parked under cover, and mine be left outside?’
I stumped out to inspect the damage, intending to change the cars over. Toby followed me, trying to jolly me back into a good humour.
‘Look at it!’ I shrieked. I was buying the Mini on the never-never, and it was the pride and joy of my heart. The nearside wing was badly dented, and this in turn was affecting the cant of the headlight.
‘I said I was sorry! Come on, now. I’m concluding a very big business deal at the moment. In a few days we’ll go back to town together and I’ll buy you a brand-new Mini, instead of this second-hand heap. Then you can have this one broken up for scrap, which is about all it’s good for, if you ask me.’
‘You can’t be serious!’
It seemed he was. Charming, generous Toby. Only I was no grateful yes-woman, ready to cast myself into his arms and tell him that I’d love to have him take care of everything for me. As my mother has always said, I have no tact at all where men are concerned. Besides, I loved my Mini, second-hand or not.
Aware that I was once more jettisoning my chances of marriage, I refused his offer. One part of me was always wanting to swoon at a man’s feet, but the other part wouldn’t allow me to do so. Regretfully, I decided I’d made a mistake in inviting Toby down, and equally regretfully I saw it would be a bad idea to allow him to stay on during the coming week. Now we both knew I wasn’t going to hop into bed with him, the situation would be embarrassing.
‘Just get it repaired,’ I said. ‘And as for staying on here, don’t you think you might find it boring …?’
At that moment the tramp pushed open the garage door and fell into the yard.
I screamed.
I didn’t actually leap for Toby’s arms but he got them round me somehow.
‘Christ Almighty!’ breathed Toby. ‘Where did that come from?’
That uncurled itself and staggered to its feet. One dirty claw was extended towards us while he shielded his eyes from the sun with the other. He was filthy; mud-caked and bloodied. His boots were enormous and without laces. His coat and trousers hung on him in concertina folds, patched and torn, allowing glimpses of brown skin here and there. He might be any age from twenty to sixty, a stunted, stick-like, mop-headed monstrosity.
I’ve always been terrified of tramps. I clung to Toby and begged him to protect me. ‘Don’t let him come near me!’
‘Of course—I’ll drive him away!’ But he took his time about releasing himself.
The tramp’s eye alighted on my car. To tell the truth, he acted as if he were uncertain where he was. He stared at my car as if he were seeing a ghost. From the back he looked even odder than from the front; he clutched at his trousers with one hand, so as to prevent them from falling down.
‘The road’s that way,’ said Toby, advancing on him.
The tramp turned his head. He opened his mouth to speak, but no sound came. His eyes swivelled, looking for an escape route. He looked like a trapped animal, awaiting the coup de grâce.
‘Wait a minute!’ said Toby, in a hard, surprised voice.
The tramp began to run, lurching and slipping in his ludicrous boots. Toby overtook him without effort, and tried to stop him by grasping at his coat. The tramp lashed out with claw and boot, but only succeeded in infuriating his pursuer.
‘Like that, eh?’ Toby laughed, and disregarding the tramp’s feeble attempt to dodge, dropped him flat on the cobblestones.
The tramp moved feebly and then lapsed into unconsciousness. The hens squawked and flapped away from us, disturbed.
‘Why did you do that?’ I cried.
‘He was here to steal, wasn’t he?’
Toby checked that the tramp was out for the count, and then went to the garage to fetch the chain and padlock which had been used years ago to restrain my grandfather’s dog when she was on heat. He dragged the tramp, legs trailing, to where an iron boot-scraper had been sunk into the flagstones at the side of the front door. He clipped the chain round the man’s ankle, and secured it to the scraper.
‘Better check he didn’t steal anything last night,’ said Toby, going through the tramp’s pockets. I looked away. Much as I hated tramps, I didn’t like to see a man treated li
ke a parcel of fish, to be trussed up and turned over and prodded like that. Toby was so big and the tramp was so small that my sympathies began, little by little, to alter direction. Now that he couldn’t harm me, I began to see that the tramp was such a poor specimen of a man that if he had molested me, I would have been able to deal with him.
‘That’s enough!’ I said, as Toby wrenched off the tramp’s remaining boot, and stripped off his jacket. His torso was bare and brown, splotched with blood and mud. His right arm and the back of his leg were badly bruised. There was a pale, broad band of skin around his left wrist which argued the absence of a wrist-watch.
Toby agreed that it was indeed enough, but he stood looking down at the man for a long moment before he joined me indoors.
‘He came to steal eggs I expect,’ I said. ‘The sooner I can get rid of those hens the better. If you’d mucked out the hen-house as you promised, you would have found him earlier, because the tools are in the garage.’
‘I wish I had,’ said Toby. He helped himself to a beer and sat down, drying his forehead with the back of his hand.
I was trembling, too. I don’t like violence, and I don’t like tramps. One had followed me on a country walk once, and I’d never forgotten him; a great shambling brute of a man with a vacant expression on his face. My adult mind knew that such men were more to be pitied than feared, but childhood fears die hard. I got out the telephone directory and looked up the number of the local police station, thinking that it was a blessing that Granny had insisted on having the phone put in.
‘What are you doing?’
‘Ringing the police. They’ll deal with him.’
‘Lock him up? No, don’t!’ He broke the connection. ‘I’ve a better idea.’
I had never liked him so much as when he explained how he felt about locking up the unfortunates of this world. Toby believed that he, and other educated people ought to try to help those who were unable to help themselves, and not just hand them over to the authorities to be locked up. He said we ought to try to help them, instead.
‘But it was you who knocked him out when he was trying to run away!’
‘My first instinct was to protect you, and make sure he hadn’t stolen anything. Then I got to thinking that I’d acted dead against my principles, and that if the tramp got into the garage for shelter, or needed to steal eggs because he was hungry, then we ought to help him. We have so much, and he has so little. He had no money on him, you see. Not a penny.’
‘The police could give him a hand-out, couldn’t they? They could give him better clothes, and a chit to the Labour Exchange …’
‘They’d probably jail him first for trespass and stealing eggs! You don’t want to send a man to jail, do you?’
‘N-no …’
‘Then let’s keep him for a few days. We’ll give him some work to do, and let him doss down in the garage at night. Then when he’s earned some money, we can send him on his way with a few pounds so that he can get a fresh start. Without money he can’t buy new clothes or obtain accommodation, and without new clothes he can’t apply for a job. He’s in a vicious circle of poverty, and he can’t break out of it on his own. We could help him to do so.’
‘But I don’t like tramps, and although I know it’s silly, I’d be afraid to have him around me.’
‘I’ll cope. You won’t have to talk to him or do anything but tell me what jobs you want him to do.’
He looked excited and pleased. I couldn’t find it in me to refuse him his wish to do good, so I agreed. I got out the cutlery box and all the materials for cleaning silver, and directed Toby to set up a bench and table outside so that the tramp could do the job in the open air. I didn’t want him in the cottage. Toby gave me a lingering kiss to show his approval and I melted. I knew that just because a man was big it didn’t mean that you could look up to him morally, but in this case I thought I was on to a good thing, for Toby had proved himself big in every way.
I started to make a shopping list while Toby instructed the tramp in his duties. Presently I heard Toby’s voice raised in anger, and then the sound of a slap. I didn’t like violence, and I didn’t really think Toby needed to use any on that shrimp of a man.
‘He can’t talk!’ said Toby, returning. ‘He’s dumb. Not deaf, but definitely dumb. I can’t get a word out of him. Either that knock I gave him earlier, or some illness perhaps … For all I know he’s been like it from birth. He doesn’t seem to know his name, or where he came from or where he was going to. You can see his mind goes blank when he tries to remember!’ The tramp’s plight seemed to amuse Toby.
‘Can he understand you? Does he know what he’s supposed to be doing?’
‘He understood that all right. Where are you going?’
‘Shopping.’
‘I’ll do it.’
‘But I don’t want to be left here alone with a nameless tramp. What would I call him?’
‘Hob the Hobo, perhaps? That would be a good name for him. He’ll not bother you. He’s chained up, remember, and he understands what he’s to do. I’ll take the Mini to a garage and see if I can get the dent knocked out, and do your shopping on the way back. You can get on with your clearing out in peace and quiet, and tonight we’ll dress ourselves up and go out. I see there’s a Jazz Festival on somewhere nearby. Do you fancy it?’
I’d seen the posters, too. ‘I wouldn’t mind,’ I said, ‘Even though I’d have to go as I am.’
Toby went off in my Mini, and I found myself work to do inside the cottage. I didn’t want to pass the tramp, so I made excuses not to go outside. At twelve I made myself some sandwiches and a cup of coffee. It was a baking hot day, and even inside the thick walls of the old cottage, the air was thick and warm. I had an argument with myself about feeding the tramp, and then took him out a sandwich and a mug of water on a tray.
He had finished cleaning the silver, which was gleaming in the sun. Now he was resting, lying at full length on the bench, his bruised and bloodied feet towards me. The chain round his ankle allowed him just enough leeway to get both feet onto the bench. I didn’t like to look at him too closely, but I couldn’t avoid seeing his feet.
I pushed the tray of food onto the table, and he sat up, slowly. I stepped back, to be out of his reach, although the table was between us, and he could not possibly have hurt me from where he sat. His eyes fixed on the tray I had brought him; Toby was right, and the tramp was hungry. But when I reached for the knife box and silver cleaning things, he raised a hand to stop me. I dropped the tray in fright. He tried to smile, to reassure me. He pointed to the mug of water and made washing motions over his face and hands. He wanted water to wash himself in.
This evidence of civilised behaviour reassured me. I promised to fetch some for him, and this time he let me remove the silver. I brought him a bowl of warm water, soap and a rag of a towel. He had drunk half the mug of water by that time, but not touched the food. He thanked me with a dignified bow that should have been ludicrous, but wasn’t. He had dark brown curls all over his head, and although his hair was tangled and thick with muddy patches at the moment, it might once have been attractive. I have always wished that my hair were curly; I won’t go through all the rigmarole of perms and weekly sessions at the hairdressers, so instead I keep my hair cut short and neat, close to my head.
I watched him from the doorway. He luxuriated in the water. I could hear his intake of breath as he touched a bruise, but he didn’t miss any. In silence I fetched him a refill of water, and he got to work on the rest of himself. He was wearing nothing but a reasonably clean pair of blue pants; I wondered where he’d pinched them, for they actually fitted.
‘More water?’ I asked, when he reached his feet. He nodded, his eyes wary, but not unintelligent. It was difficult to tell how old he was, even now. A beard that had once been trimmed to a reasonable shape covered the lower part of his face, but his teeth were good. His nose was no splodge, though it did widen at the tip. His forehead was square under a lo
ose mop of hair without a thread of grey in it, but the crow’s-feet around his eyes marked him as a man past his twenties.
His feet were a mess, and in my opinion, needed more than a wash. It was a wonder to me that he’d been able to walk on them at all. I fetched ointment, lint and bandages from Granny’s medicine cupboard, and ordered him to lie flat on the bench and not move till I’d finished. He didn’t stir while I washed and bound his feet, but his eyes followed my every movement, like a watchful robin. When I had finished he put both his hands together over his heart, as if he were praying, then touched them both to his forehead and spread them towards me. In thanks.
‘That’s all right,’ I said, foolishly confused. Hob the Hobo might not be able to speak, but he could make himself understood.
From a window I watched him eat, which he did with restraint. He rinsed his fingers afterwards. I took him out a small bookcase which needed scrubbing down.
‘You understand why Toby wants you to stay? You will work for us for a few days, and sleep in the garage at night? We’ll pay you for what you do, and at the end of the week you can be on your way with some money in your pocket. You agree with this?’
He watched my face while I spoke, and frowned when I finished. But he nodded. I wasn’t satisfied with his reaction, although I couldn’t tell why.
‘Can’t you speak at all?’ I asked.
He didn’t appear to hear me, but bent down to start work on the bookcase. I stamped my foot at him. He took no notice.
‘It’s for your own good,’ I said, trying not to be angry with him. He didn’t look up from his task, so I left him to it.
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