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by Fyfield, Frances




  Frances Fyfield has spent much of her professional life practising as a criminal lawyer, work which has informed her realistic and highly acclaimed crime novels. She is also a regular broadcaster on Radio 4, most recently as the presenter of the series ‘Tales from the Stave’. She lives in London and in Deal, overlooking the sea which is her passion.

  Also by Frances Fyfield

  A QUESTION OF GUILT

  SHADOWS ON THE MIRROR

  TRIAL BY FIRE

  SHADOW PLAY

  PERFECTLY PURE AND GOOD

  A CLEAR CONSCIENCE

  WITHOUT CONSENT

  BLIND DATE

  STARING AT THE LIGHT

  UNDERCURRENTS

  THE NATURE OF THE BEAST

  SEEKING SANCTUARY

  LOOKING DOWN

  THE PLAYROOM

  HALF LIGHT

  SAFER THAN HOUSES

  LET’S DANCE

  THE ART OF DROWNING

  BLOOD FROM STONE

  Copyright

  Published by Hachette Digital

  ISBN: 978-1-4055-2061-4

  All characters and events in this publication, other than those clearly in the public domain, are fictitious and any resemblance to real persons, living or dead, is purely coincidental.

  Copyright © 2004 Frances Fyfield

  All rights reserved. No part of this publication may be reproduced, stored in a retrieval system, or transmitted, in any form or by any means, without the prior permission in writing of the publisher.

  Hachette Digital

  Little, Brown Book Group

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  Contents

  About the Author

  Also by Frances Fyfield

  Copyright

  Dedication

  Acknowledgements

  Prologue

  Chapter One

  Chapter Two

  Chapter Three

  Chapter Four

  Chapter Five

  Chapter Six

  Chapter Seven

  Chapter Eight

  Chapter Nine

  Chapter Ten

  Chapter Eleven

  Chapter Twelve

  Chapter Thirteen

  For Jennifer Davies, nee Curtis,

  with love and admiration.

  ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS

  To Dr Richard Meyer, artist first, and zoologist second, who introduced me to the chough and the raven, and informed me throughout, as well as commenting on Tiepolo and the subject of zing.

  He is entirely the wrong shape for the Richard in this book, whom he is not supposed to resemble. And, as he would be the first to point out, all ornithological/art-appreciation/spelling/semantic/factual mistakes are entirely mine.

  With many thanks.

  PROLOGUE

  It was, in its own way, a beautiful day. By which he meant that the light was fine, and the sky provided a background, and if all else failed he could sketch the sky, because it was always there. Light permitting, he could put an angel on clouds if there was nothing else to do, although, perversely, he always preferred to look down rather than up, into and over the ground rather than turning his eyes towards the sky. There was a notice to his left: Do not walk, which had drawn him to the edge and from there to here, via the slippery path he had seen used by the botanists, to be where he sat now on a white clay shelf, twenty feet below the overhang, looking to his left at a bunch of pinks and wishing he was remotely interested in wild flowers. He had been panting running towards the edge, panting before he reached it, but now he could not remember why. The anxiety was gone, the view breathtaking and the loneliness blissful.

  There was a strong breeze, typical of the days he had spent up here sitting to the side of the scant supply of scrubby bushes in the hope of other people who might sit long enough to be watched and sketched, only they never sat, they plodded past without pausing or seeing, hell bent on reaching the other end of the trek, too tired to stop. For some it was the beginning, for others the end. The breeze caught his hair, making the still unfamiliar length of it whip across his face. He was short, broad yeoman stock, not easily mistaken for the artist he hoped he was and more easily defined as the amateur and out-of-date birdwatcher he also was. He did not care what he looked like: it was enough that he did not look like a man who ever wore a suit. Two days’ growth of beard itched, pleasantly. The middle of nowhere, he wrote on his pad, ignoring the fact that his ears were suddenly filled with the dull, resonant drone of a hovercraft coming from across the English channel into port. On a rare, still afternoon the sound of it filled the whole horizon, and on a gusty day like this the hummm of it was interrupted, with the effect of a broken signal, always surprising when it resumed.

  He was not a brave man, or immune from vertigo. It amazed him to have found this vantage point where he could see how the chalk cliff sprawled outwards and downwards, spilling its guts below in a tumbling process full of interesting forms, until the last of the tilting land reached the angry sea which gnawed and growled. He could discern crevices, and landings with more of those pink flowers. He was wondering if the hovercraft sound was actually musical or irritating, because when it became silent he found himself holding his breath. The cliff path had been almost deserted today: he had definitely not wanted people for sketching or anything else, thought he would look out for the birds. It was the birds that were the second love of his life. He was no longer a boy, but when he had been he had lived near cliffs like these, two hundred miles away, and adored the birds. He had once played with a chough. He was sentimental about birds, revered them for their grace and dignity.

  And then the girl appeared, sailing over his head. Not a girl, but the body of a girl so near to death she may already have greeted it, appearing from over the top of his skull without a sound at the moment he expelled his breath as the hovercraft noise came back and he was looking skywards and thinking, I am doing nothing here, except looking for the birds, probably at the wrong time of day; I shall go in a minute. A body with arms out-flung, spreadeagled against the sky, reminding him of a parachutist before the cord was pulled.

  She seemed to have been projected from a point above the cliff, hung there, level with his face, for a fraction of a second, and then moved into an awkward, flapping freefall, as if her body could not decide which direction to take, whether to pirouette, somersault, glide, or go back from where she came. Then It (it was already It) bent into a V and fell, quietly and certainly, an item of clothing detaching itself and floating alongside like a ghostly companion. She landed suddenly, before she had even begun, far below, on the penultimate outcrop before the cliff splintered into the rounded rubble which met the churning white of the sea. Lay there, peacefully, so near and yet so far, as if it was exactly as she had intended, turned in her sleep, to avoid the sudden, impertinent shaft of sunshine.

  He could see the outline of her, graceful and abandoned, arm outflung, face turned to the view, the breasts and hips which had weighted the fall, one leg bent beneath her, the other straight, the shape of her defined by triangles of black knickers and bra, and the gauzy material of whatever else she had worn drifting down to the water, which captured it, wrestled it and began to bear it away. There was the mass of hair he had noticed as she flew past, paler than the pale, sharp rock which had broken her back. Somewhere near her extended hand there was a flush of pink and green from those same flowers. He sat transfixed by the sight, terrified and enchanted, the sketchbook gripped tightly in one hand, the pen clutched in the other fist, shook his head slowly, then adjusted his hands and began to draw. Live models were hard to find.

  Woman at one with nature/Woman returns to nature. Everything had a title. She was exquisitely
beautiful. He was fascinated by the lines of black created by the bra, drew slowly, wished he could sketch with the insouciant speed he imagined of a master, but his own way was always painfully slow and deliberate. As he drew, the light began to change, altering the contours of her body, so that he etched the shadows she made, was tempted to start again. It seemed to take a long time, and after a while, as he grew colder and colder, as he wrestled with the form of her with increasing frustration, he saw that she had company. Black company, curious, lascivious, hungry, winged ghosts, swooping in to land and hover around her. He grabbed his forgotten binoculars, looked closely and blinked back tears. He had so wanted to see these creatures, but not like this. He wanted to love them. They strutted and hopped, flapped, busily, Quork, quork. They moved in.

  Oh, you bastards.

  His fingers were numb. He watched and watched.

  Then one rose, level to his height, glossy and black, with bright red beak and red feet. He held his breath. A chough: oh Lord, how he had longed to see the chough. He had dreamt of seeing the chough; it made him hold his breath again. Quick, quick, before the light went, and before the sounds intervened. It was becoming dark. His hands were paralysed; he pushed his finger and thumb to draw what he had seen. The hovercraft noise came back in a rough symphony with other sounds; a rope skimmed by his face over the cliff, engine noises intervened, and still he could not tear his gaze away to look towards evening clouds, went on staring, down, watching her, imprinting her and the solid ghosts on his memory, watching his pen on the paper, until the shadows were way too long and she was surrounded. Someone appeared beside him. Bigger, stronger, younger.

  ‘What the fuck do you think you’re doing?’

  He had no response. Tried to stand and found it difficult. Suddenly afraid of scrambling back up that dangerous path, wondering why he had ever come down, what he had been hiding from. The other man, peculiarly dressed, his belt loaded with accoutrements, and big, raw fists, was unaccountably furious.

  ‘I said what do you think you’re doing, you sick bastard?’

  He found himself hauled up by the neck, his sturdy body easily moved, and because his limbs had become numb, he was grateful. At the top of the steep path, near the notice which said Do not walk and nothing else, after a muttered conversation, he was punched in the head, and found he did not mind. He had seen and drawn the beautiful body and watched the chough fly. A man could only be so lucky in a single day. There was a crowd at the roadside where the path started and ended; some of them seemed to be baying for his blood.

  Blood. He would close his eyes to whatever else he had seen.

  All was as wicked as it was beautiful.

  Somebody hit him again. He felt sure he had somehow deserved it, and all he could do was sigh.

  In a moment he would have to remember the other man he was, when he did not have a sketchbook in his pocket and visions in his mind.

  ‘What’s your name?’

  He paused. ‘Richard. I think. What have I done?’

  CHAPTER ONE

  Trespassers will be prosecuted

  Lilian Beaumont looked down into the street below, wondered if she would be better off outside than in, saw the rain and decided not. The apartment was huge, with big, slightly dark rooms, panelled doors, moulded ceilings, a kitchen rarely used for cooking, two bathrooms, a porter downstairs with a uniform, and carpet like cushioned velvet. Silence indoors was assured. It was home sweet home, and yet a million miles from home, especially when it came to the silence. She had a childish dislike of silence. It made her want to stamp her feet.

  The kitchen, like everything else, was a showpiece. In here her husband, or ‘they’ as legend had it, kept an impressive collection of antique glass, arranged against a mirrored wall and carefully backlit. He loved glass: he had once treasured it. Lilian was standing on an elegant library ladder, reaching for the top shelf, from which she plucked an ancient and fragile decanter of pink crystal and let it fall from between her varnished fingernails to the marbled floor beneath. It imploded, neatly, with a satisfying crunch. Good. The mirrored glass caught her reflection, slender, agile, tense. Still well groomed, even when slightly drunk at home, alone. No leisure track suits and slobbing out for Lilian, although her hair required attention. She had always been like that, even as a little girl, and she was scarcely more than a girl, now. She swept up neatly. There were now several holes in the display.

  Then she replaced the library steps (old mahogany, beautifully carved and valuable in their own right) where they belonged as an adornment to the room at the front, where they stood against another shelved wall full of colour-coordinated books, rising to an impossibly high ceiling. The remainder of the walls were furnished with large, decorative paintings of flowers, older than the furniture, a pleasing room, capable of holding fifty for drinks and still leave gaps in between. Definitely the best room in the block, apart from the lighter penthouse, perhaps. The traffic hummed beyond the magnificent curtains. The boiler, hidden somewhere, made soothing, efficient noises to ward off spring. The place was as luxurious as a colossal suite in a luxury liner and made her feel as if she was on a ship going nowhere.

  Bastard. Absolute bastard. What about little me? I’m too young to be left alone.

  She could have telephoned her sister. Emailed even. Also her brother, her other sister and all those she had left behind when she married him. And been despised for it, even while they approved. She certainly wasn’t going to phone them now and say, how are you all, I’m feeling like shit in W1, not after she had virtually disowned them for something better. Or inform them how the rich, much older man, so upper class, so blessedly respectable, who looked so good and provided a passport to another land, had turned out so badly. There was no way she was going to say anything of the kind. Although they might quite like it if she told them that the man they had liked, despite themselves and because of his relentless consideration of their preferences when it came to the wedding, had just been arrested in some part of the coast nobody acknowledged, probably for pissing downwind, somewhere a hundred miles from here, and that aside, only came home when he needed a wash, the way he did these days. Had enough money to sink this ship and several others, and what did he do?

  Went weird. Decided at sixty years of age that what he wanted was the great open spaces, dirt, cold and feathered friends. Had a thing about birds, ha ha, which was not a preoccupation that could be cured by getting a parrot for the kitchen.

  Nothing she did could keep him from his hobbies. Or nothing she did could keep him as sweet as he was. And she did not know what to do.

  The wide corridor bisecting the apartment was precisely fifty feet long. She should know: she had paced it enough times. It was dark and artfully lit to show more of the decorative paintings, themed with pale green walls. She walked on angrily, trying to make a noise by stamping, but the carpet merely yielded to her feet. She had arranged all this, the pictures, the plants in silver containers, the gleaming candlesticks, the clever lighting effects, the impression of comfort and harmony, and he had been delighted with the result. Then she turned left, where the corridor led to the two commodious bedrooms, both ensuite, and then the third room, which was study, library, the darkest room of all, where she kicked open the door decorated only with the sign Do not disturb in blood-red lettering. She itched to scrub that door.

  Here the harmony ended. The sweet proportions of the room were not enough to neutralise the contents, namely, an easel with the latest, virulent daub mounted on it, and a set of once beautiful freestanding bookshelves lugged nearby to be used for paints and palettes, brushes and whatnots, the surface of it scarred and stained beyond recognition. The polished wooden floor, similar, the walls half covered with sketches, roughly pinned, ruining the plaster, and everywhere at eye level abandoned paintings on wood or canvas to augment those stacked messily to the left. The light was an eerie daylight, brighter and less forgiving than any other. On top of the bookshelves was a stuffed bird wit
h bright, glass eyes turned malevolently on her. Richard’s mascot. Defying its gaze, she opened the window a crack wider to get rid of the pervasive smell of turpentine. Stood by it, looking into the dark well of the building with its ugly array of drainpipes.

  You pig. What have you done?

  What had he done? Plucked her, Lilian, from the back room of the Interior Design Company where she was earmarked for failure to create an apartment reflecting a man of exquisite taste, loved it, loved her, married her. Showed her off to his world and his forgiving children for three glorious years until she was as confident as to the manor born, and then gradually and insidiously created this hell-hole of a room, retreated into it with his new passions and all but locked the door. All that hard work for nothing. Never marry a man on the brink of retirement. They change. Never give a man time to think, more like, in case he discovers what he is. There is no such thing as a free lunch.

  Why that cliché should come back to her as she stood on the threshold of his ghastly lair, she could not imagine. Only that when she met him she was running out of options, and thought otherwise. Her mind went back to the phone call earlier in the evening.

  ‘We have a genullman ‘ere, says his name is Rick Beaumont. And he lives at Cramner Mansions, W1, on this number. I’m Sergeant Rice, by the way. Am I speaking to Mrs B, by any chance?’

  ‘This is Mrs Beaumont, yes. And it’s Richard . . .’

  ‘Yeah, right. Just trying to establish ID, that’s all. And what is it your husband does, Mrs Beaumont?’

  That had thrown her. What did he do? What had he done? Something in the City.

  ‘Finance. Formerly. Now retired.’

  ‘Was you expecting him home this evening, Mrs B?’

  ‘I never know what to expect,’ she said, sharply.

  ‘Oh, it’s like that, is it? Just wondered if you knew what he was doing today.’

  ‘Depending on where he was,’ she said, controlling the bitterness of her voice, ‘he was probably watching birds. All varieties.’

 

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