The Boy I Love
Danielle Lee Zwissler
A Young Adult Love Story
Falling for You Book II
©2016 Danielle Lee Zwissler
Firefly & Wisp Books
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Copyright © 2016 by: Danielle L. Zwissler
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Dear Reader,
If you’ve already read the first book, The Boy Next Door, then you’ve met Keri and Payton. Keri, much like myself, is a bit of a dreamer, and wants everything to be perfect all of the time. Payton, on the other hand, takes life one step at a time, which isn’t necessarilya bad thing. In this next book,The Boy I Love,we learn all about what makes them different, and what makes their relationship actually work. Unfortunately for them, not everything is as easy as loving someone. The loving is the easy part. I hope you like this book, as Keri and Payton have become pretty important to me.
As always, thank you!
Much love and happiness,
R Danielle Lee Zwissler
With Thanks,
A big thanks to everyone at the Wildcat Café in Mogadore, Ohio, where the coffee is always hot, and Tiff welcomes you with a smile on her face.
Thanks to my readers, you are all very special to me!
While writing, I find that music helps me immensely with scenes and characters. A big thank you to the following artists: David Bowie, Freddie Mercury, Lourdes, Miranda Lambert, Luke Bryan, Eric Church and Sam Smith.
Chapter One
* Another first…*
Payton looked at me once more and I nodded. I was ready. This was it, it was time. “I want all my firsts with you, Pay.”
Payton’s jaw tensed and he smiled. “I want all of my firsts with you, too.”
He put his lips against mine and I felt his tongue slide alongside my own. I moaned, and his hands moved slowly up my rib cage toward my breasts. I sighed. This was it. It was finally going to happen. I arched my back, his hands moved up further, cupping my breasts in his palms. “I love red,” Payton said, grinning. “My new favorite color.”
“I’m glad I don’t disappoint,” I replied, glad to know that going to the trouble of trying to match bra to panties wouldn’t be for naught.
His breath hitched. “Keri, you’re so…perfect.” Payton’s voice sounded reverent as usual. He was pretty damn awesome.
I smiled inside as he touched me. His hands were rough, calloused, but they made my body hum. I wiggled underneath him. “More,” I breathed.
His hands moved around to my back to undo the catch in the bra. It snapped and his eyes darkened. He lowered his head toward my chest, his lips full and wet. His hands moved the bra down my arms until it was completely off, and then his hands were back on me. Bare skin this time. His mouth moved toward my right breast as his tongue laved my nipple, beading it, and I moaned, arching further up toward him, wanting him so badly.
“Oh, Pay,” I moaned. I looked up into his eyes as his tongue moved over me. “This feels so good.”
Payton sighed, and it was a very sexy sound. “I don’t know how this first time will be, Keri, I’m…”
“I know,” I said, knowing that he was a virgin, too. “It doesn’t matter. We’ll get the first one over with, and then have plenty of time for practice.” I grinned and Payton’s mouth moved toward my own. He smiled at me, and then closed his eyes. I could tell he wanted this just as bad as I did.
“I love you,” Payton said huskily.
“I love you, too.” I reached out and, with a deftness that I’ve never experienced, took off his shirt. His glorious abs tightened, and I bit my bottom lip, stifling a groan. He was unbelievably sexy. How did I not see this in high school? I can’t wait to feel his skin against mine.
Payton’s hands moved lower now, tugging at the button on my jeans. I sucked in a little, and the button popped. He slowly eased down the zipper and I felt a tightening in my stomach. Heat flooded my body, and I moaned. He moved the jeans down by legs and then closed his eyes.
“Fuck,” he whispered. “Red.”
“Yeah,” I agreed.
I was wearing a little scrap of silk panties that I bought with my roommate back in school. She said every girl should have something sexy to wear. To be fair this was after she saw my boy shorts underwear. I’m really glad I brought those…
“Take off your pants, too,” I said, brazen once more.
He did as he was told and we were both just there in our underwear. I could see the outline of his erection in his boxers, and it was hot.
“Oh,” I moaned.
Payton looked at me once more. “You’re sure?”
I nodded quickly. My heart was beating so fast in my chest now that it made it hard to concentrate. “Oh yeah.”
Payton smirked and then was on top of me. Our bare skin meeting for the first time. “Oh that feels good,” I moaned. I’d been waiting for this. Yes, it was perfect. No wonder Alexis did this a lot.
“Yeah,” Payton agreed. His mouth was back on my chest, and his hands moved down my navel toward the area between my thighs. His fingers moved the scrap of material a little and made their way home. I moaned once more.
“Oh God.”
“Damn, baby,” Payton groaned. His hands were amazing. One finger moved inside and then up. My eyes rolled to the back of my head. Holy Hell.
“Keri! It’s breakfast time, tell Payton you’ll see him later!” Mom yelled from somewhere.
My eyes opened, and I pushed Payton so hard that there was a loud thud on the tree fort floor.
“Everything okay up there?” Mom asked.
Fuck! Mom’s right by the ladder. Only feet from us.
My eyes widened, and Payton panicked. He hurriedly tried to put on his pants, and then his shirt. I couldn’t seem to figure out what to put on first.
“No, no,” I yelled, frantically. “Everything’s fine. We’re just…just…”
“Exercising!” Payton squeaked.
I looked at Payton and nearly burst out laughing. I had my bra and pants on by then, and I was working on my shirt.
There is no way mom believes this.
“Oh, okay. I don’t believe you. Get to the house and eat breakfast. We only have a few hours until you go back to school and I want to have a talk with you.”
“Okay, Mom!”
“Bye, Mrs. Richards,” Payton added.
Mom laughed. “See you later, Payton.”
I turnedto look at a very disgruntled Payton. “Hey,” I said, biting my bottom lip, wondering if he was as pissed as I was about the situation.
Payton took a deep breath. “Hey.”
“I’m so sorry.” I looked at Payton and then down toward my feet. “I really wanted this.”
“Me, too.”
The whole thing was awkward. It was perfect five minutes ago, until Mom ruined it.
Payton shook his head. “This is the perfect spot. Our spot.”
I tried to smile. “Yeah, ours.”
Payton came toward me and wrapped his arms around me. “I love you. It will happen when it happens.” Payton looked a lot calmer than I knew he was feeling. This had to be a huge disappointment for him. I read about how guys hurt afterwards, and I couldn’t imagine it being all rosy down there.
“But I’m going back to school in a few hours,” I cried. “I just wanted to…I…”
“Me, too. But I’ll see you soon, right?”
I nodded. “Yeah, if three weeks is soon.”
Payton sucked in a breath and then blew it out, frustrated. “It’s going to seem like forever.”
“Yeah.”
“I was hoping to get this embarrassing first time out of the way, you know? That way when you came back after Christmas you wouldn’t be disappointed.” Payton said this last part kind of softly. He was embarrassed!
“This is special, too, you know? I’ve never… and I really don’t know what I’m doing either.”
“You looked great to me,” Payton admitted. He looked at my lips and then leaned in.
“You felt so good.”
I felt him move against me, and I knew that this was affecting him just as much as it is me. He takes a deep breath and groans. “I really want you.”
“I want you.”
“How fast do you think we can do this?” Payton asked, shocking me. I stiffened in his arms.
“How fast?”
“Yeah, we can just… you know. Really quick.”
My eyes widened, and immediately I was pissed. “What?!”
“Payton released me and stepped back. “What’s wrong?”
“Are you fucking kidding me, Pay?” I put my hands on my hips, my power stance, my you aren’t screwing with me, stance.
“What?” Panic clouded Payton’s eyes and he went to put his hand on me.
“Don’t. I can’t believe this! You just want a quickie with me? That’s it?”
Payton laughed. My eyes widened.
“No, no…that’s not. No.”
“I came up here so we could be together, and now you want to just get it done and over with?”
Payton paced back and forth, his right hand going up to his hair. “You make me nuts. No, that’s…I told you, I don’t know what it’ll be like. I’ve heard that the first time’s… well, difficult.”
“Pick that up in health class?” I asked, snottily.
Payton’s face reddened.
Of course.
“I told you before that I didn’t care about that. This is my first time, too. If it isn’t special enough for you, then why did you wait?”
Payton looked at me oddly, trying to figure out what I was asking.
“Why are you a virgin?” I asked.
“Because…I…”
“Couldn’t get anyone to screw you, Pay?”
Payton’s face got even redder, and I felt horrible.
“I’m sorry,” I admitted.
“No, you’re right,” Payton said. “I couldn’t.”
Tears fell down my face, and I wanted to punch him right in the face. “Well then. Don’t worry about making me your first. Come back to me when you’re good and ready, and I’ll do the same.”
Payton’s eyes widened, and I turned to go out of the tree fort, leaving the lone condom that I brought with me lay discarded beside the bed.
Chapter Two
*Square One*
I was back on campus, and waiting in my dorm room for a call that I knew wouldn’t be coming, and to be honest, I wasn’t even sure I really wanted to talk to him. Payton, the boy that I loved, and that I kind of hated at the same time. Payton, the boy that wanted to hurry up and just get it done, instead of the man that I knew he should have been, that should have taken it slow and sexy.
“How fast do you think we can do this?” played over and over in my mind, and have ever since he said the stupid ass phrase.
“Ugh!” I cried. I put my head into my pillow and actually screamed, not caring at all if everyone in the damned dorm heard me. “Boys!”
“Boys? Ut, oh,” Alexis said as she came through the door. Todd wasn’t with her, which was surprising, and good.
“Yeah,” I said, clearly frustrated.
“What happened?”
“Payton happened. He’s just so…so…”
“So?” Alexis prompted.
“Stupid.”
“Okay, I thought he was perfect just a week ago. In fact, yesterday you said that he was perfect. What the hell did he say?”
“He just… We were going at it, and we were going to, ya know?” I couldn’t really say the words, and the fact that I couldn’t probably spoke volumes.
Alexis put her hand in front of her mouth and squealed. “You did it?!”
My face reddened, and stupid tears started streaking down my stupid adolescent cheeks.
“Oh shit! What the hell happened? Was it bad?”
I shook my head.
“Well,” Alexis said, coming in for a hug, “that’s good. So, it was good, so what’s wrong?”
“It wasn’t…”
“I thought you said it wasn’t bad?” Alexis asked, confused. She pulled back and looked at my face, worry etched in her features.
I hiccupped. “We didn’t do it.”
Alexis tilted her head to the side, and then shook it. “Okay, so?”
“We didn’t do it; Mom sort of interrupted.”
“Well that’s a real bummer,” Alexis said, and I couldn’t help but agree and disagree. “Then what? Did Payton get mad?”
“N…no! He wanted to still do it.”
“Well, honey, boys are kind of dumb, but I don’t blame him. I mean, you’ve known each other for a long time, and to be honest I’m surprised you didn’t do it here. You were alone pretty much all week.”
I felt like a real dumbass. True, we were alone pretty much all week, but we didn’t have time. And, it wasn’t cool, and it didn’t feel right. The tree fort, now that felt right.
“It just wasn’t the right time when we were here alone.”
“Okay…”
“It wasn’t. Trust me.”
“So, then what?”
“Then, after Mom came up and interrupted, he wanted to just do it really fast to get it over with.”
“Well that’s romantic.”
“Yeah,” I said, miffed. “Totally.”
“Well, I’m sure he feels bad,” Alexis added, hopeful.
“Yeah, I’m sure he does, too, but I guess I really don’t care anymore.”
“You don’t mean that, Ker.”
I wiped at my eyes and took a deep breath. “I do. It shouldn’t be this hard. I mean, I’m hot and cold with him. We never fought as friends. Boyfriend and girlfriend is just too much.”
“I don’t think you should make any decisions now. I mean, you were just going to have sex with him, and that’s huge, especially for you.”
“For the virgin, you mean?” I said, dejectedly. “I know I’m not cool like you.”
Alexis’s eyes widened. “I think I’m offended,” she said, sounding hurt. “Listen, I’m not the enemy here. And, just so you know, Todd’s my one and only. I may be all in with him, but he’s all in with me, too.”
I huffed. “I know, and I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have said that.”
“No, you shouldn’t have,” Alexis said, and then put her hands on her hips. “Give it a few days. Seriously, Payton is pretty damn amazing, but it’s clear that he’s a dude, and dudes are just kind of dumb.”
I nodded, but wasn’t really feeling too agreeable. “I’ll try.”
“Please, just try for me. Besides, what can it hurt? You’re going to be busy for the next month, and it will give you time. You love ‘email Payton’, and you know how much you enjoyed really getting to know him. It’ll all be great,
you’ll see.”
Maybe she was right. Email Payton was pretty spectacular. “Okay,” I sighed, and felt immediately better. I should have known that being back in Ohio with Alexis was the best medicine to get me over myself and my Payton issues. “Have I told you how much I love you lately?”
Alexis put her arms back around me and squeezed. “No, but I know you do. I love you, too.”
***
Payton
I sat in the tree fort, pissed. Once again, Keri and I were having issues. It really shouldn’t be this hard. I shouldn’t have said the stupid words that pissed her off so much either. I was a world class moron.
All I knew about sex was in this stupid fort, and on the few DVDS that I had in a lock box under my bed.
Keri.
My best friend.
My sexy, leggy, beautiful breasted, best friend.
Shit.
I sat on the unmade mattress, thinking of the last time that she was with me, making out, braless, naked… damn. Another erection. No big deal. It wasn’t as if I hadn’t had an erection for about two weeks straight anyway. I leaned back on the mattress and looked up at the ceiling and unbuttoned my jeans. I eased them down and grabbed on to my problem. I closed my eyes and saw Keri right away.
Then the phone rang.
“Motherf*#4—”
I looked down at the screen and saw that it was her.
I swallowed, tried to calm my nerves and then I answered. “Hello?”
“Hey.”
I took a shallow breath and practically squeaked. “Hey.”
“I’m back, I thought maybe you’d want to know.”
I let out a deep breath and closed my eyes. “Yes. Honey, I’m so sorry.” There, I apologized. Maybe I’d be able to just think now.
“Me, too.”
“This is hard. It really shouldn’t be this hard, should it?”
“I don’t know,” she whispered.
“Me, either.”
“What are you doing?” she asked, and I looked up at the ceiling, guilty.
“Um, well… I…”
“What?”
She sounded as if she were on alert now. Great. What the hell do I say now? Well, I was just about to rub one off, but then you called? That would make her effing ecstatic. “I’m…I’m in the fort. I was just sitting her thinking of you.” There, that was at least half of the truth. I couldn’t be caught for that.
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