Charity laughed. It was a pretty sound. One he wouldn’t mind hearing more of.
“Have you told Mom that?” she asked. “Nothing would make her happier than to hear those words. Preparing delicious food is one of her love languages, and Dad’s expanding waistline is a consequence of all that devotion from the kitchen.”
“I think she probably guessed what I thought by the way I cleaned my plate. If she keeps having me over, I’ll be like your dad.” He patted his stomach for emphasis, then eyed her thoughtfully. “So tell me something, Charity,” he drawled.
Her eyebrows arched in question. “What’s that?”
“From what I can tell, you almost never make it home to see your parents, and you only live in Boise. An hour away is all, more or less. And now, when they’re gone, you come for the summer. What gives?”
He knew he’d made a mistake before the question left his lips. An instantaneous chill emanated from the other end of the table. Cold enough to form icicles on his day-old whiskers. Or just about. Without answering, Charity rose from her chair and cleared the dirty plate and juice glass from in front of him. Her gaze avoided his.
“Hey, I’m sorry, Charity. It’s none of my business. It’s just, I like your parents and I know they—”
“You’re right. It’s none of your business.” She ran hot water into the sink and began washing the dishes.
Annoyed with her response, Buck remained at the table for a few minutes. She might be the prickliest female he’d ever come in contact with. Okay, so maybe he shouldn’t have asked about her parents, but she didn’t have to act like the question was a criminal offense either.
Don’t think you’ve scared me off yet, Miss Anderson. I’ll figure out what makes you tick. You’ll see.
When she didn’t turn or even look over her shoulder, he knew he was being ignored. Must be time to make himself scarce and let her calm down. He managed to rise and get his knee on the scooter without tipping over chair or table.
CHARITY LISTENED AS THE WHEELS ROLLED ACROSS the hardwood floor. Once she knew Buck was out of the kitchen, she released a slow breath.
Who does he think he is?
She stopped, bowed her head, and closed her eyes. Nobody had to remind her that her parents were hurt by the distance she kept between them. And since she’d steadfastly refused to tell them why she stayed away from Kings Meadow, they weren’t ever going to understand.
I should have rented an apartment in Boise for the summer. I shouldn’t have come up here. I thought I could handle it. Maybe I can’t.
Drawing one more steadying breath, she finished the last of the cleanup, dried her hands on a dish towel, and then headed for the living room. Eyes averted, she said, “I need to get back to work.”
She felt Buck studying her. “Hey, Charity. I really am sorry. Didn’t mean to offend you or interfere. Forgive me?”
“Yes. It’s all right.” She reached for the doorknob. “I’ll check in on you later, but call if you need anything before that.”
“Sure.”
She opened the door and escaped into the fresh morning air.
Chapter 4
“YOU ALMOST NEVER MAKE IT HOME TO SEE YOUR PARENTS.” The words echoed in Charity’s memory for the next few hours. “What gives?”
When she couldn’t turn off Buck’s voice in her head—or the ache in her heart that it caused—she decided to take a drive, hoping to outrun the feelings churning inside of her. She made her way to the two-lane highway and drove east. Cocoa rode shotgun, her head out the window and tongue flapping in the wind.
“You almost never make it home to see your parents.”
“I know,” she whispered. “I know.”
She loved her mom and dad. It wasn’t their fault she’d stayed away all of these years. She was lucky they chose to come visit her as frequently as they did. Of course, they wondered why it had to be that way, but she’d never been able to tell them. Would never be able to tell them. She knew she couldn’t. She’d tried many times.
He’s gone from Kings Meadow now. You don’t have to be afraid of seeing him. It’s over. The past is done with.
“Only it isn’t done,” she said aloud.
The tears came, swift and blinding. She applied the brakes and pulled off to the side of the road before cutting the engine.
How could it still hurt this much after a decade? Ten years. She wasn’t that stupid, naïve girl any longer. Why couldn’t she pull herself up by her bootstraps, as her grandpa used to say, and get on with it? She’d tried. Heaven knew she’d tried. Again and again and again.
Tried plenty of the wrong things too.
She swiped at the tears on her cheeks.
“Maybe if I went there . . .”
Her heart began to hammer, her breath coming in shallow pants. Should she do it? Could she? She glanced over at Cocoa. The dog watched her with what seemed a compassionate, understanding gaze.
“If only you could understand,” Charity whispered as she reached out to stroke Cocoa’s head.
Odd, the way the action of petting her dog gave her the courage to start the car and pull back onto the highway. After two miles she turned left onto a connecting road. A few more miles and she turned right again.
The old Riverton place was located on a hillside, surrounded by forest, with tall wrought-iron fences and brick posts encircling the mansion and entire twenty-five-acre estate. It had belonged to Sinclair Riverton, a powerful and wealthy businessman who had moved with his wife to Kings Meadow in the late seventies. Two years after giving birth to their son, Jon, his wife had died. Sinclair—as well as the nanny, maids, butler, and cook—had raised his son to be a Riverton through and through. Which meant ruthless, heartless, and ambitious. That was exactly what Jon Riverton had become.
The front gates of the estate came into view. She drove up to them and stopped. It didn’t matter if she parked there. The place was deserted these days. A large sign—at least six feet wide—hung on the fence to the right, red letters proclaiming the property for sale. Charity got out of the car, Cocoa on her heels. When she reached the gatehouse, she looked up the drive and caught a glimpse of the house.
Old Mr. Riverton must be rolling over in his grave.
Shifting, she put a hand against the walk-through gate and, unexpectedly, it swung open. A memory of that same gate, open on a moonless night, assailed her. She fell back against the side of the gatehouse, sweat beading on her forehead. Fear lay like lead in her stomach.
“Shh, Charity. You gotta be quiet.”
Jon’s hot, alcohol-laced breath seemed to brush against her cheek again, as it had done that night.
“Shh, Charity,” Jon whispered. “You gotta be quiet. We don’t want to wake up the help. The old man doesn’t like me to have friends over when he’s away.”
The night was as black as ink, but up the hillside, lights from the house beckoned to them.
“Not a sound until I tell you it’s okay,” he said, his mouth right next to her ear.
She swayed unsteadily.
He caught her with hands on her shoulders. “Come on. Let’s get you inside. It’s getting cold out here.”
Charity wasn’t cold. Not even a little bit. The margaritas—she couldn’t remember how many—had made certain of that. All the same, she was glad when he put his arm around her shoulders and held her close as they walked up the curved driveway. As the Riverton mansion came fully into view, golden light spilling from windows here and there, she released a soft gasp. Her only glimpses of this house had been from the road. Never in her life had she imagined she would be here with Jon Riverton himself.
She wasn’t even sure how it had happened. He’d never noticed her back in high school. Not very many kids had, boys or girls. She’d been a nobody. An introvert in the extreme. Invisible.
But Charity had changed during her first two years at Boise State. She’d grown up, lost weight, learned to pretend to be confident even when she didn’t feel it. She liked to
party because it forced her to get outside, to be with others, to meet guys. She liked to drink a little more than she should, but not as much as many of her fellow students.
Tonight, at one of those college parties where the liquor never seemed to run out, Jon Riverton had come over to introduce himself to her. Not that he’d known who she was at first. Not until she told him who her parents were and where they lived. After about an hour—and a couple more drinks—Jon had suggested they leave the party, and she’d agreed to go with him. In the car, when he’d asked if she would like to see his home, she’d said yes. What girl wouldn’t? Anyone in Kings Meadow would have answered the same. Any girl at BSU would have too. This was Sinclair Riverton’s son who’d invited her. Of course she wanted to go.
Jon put an index finger to his lips as he opened a side entrance. And he didn’t turn on the lights after closing the door. Instead, holding her hand and keeping her close behind him, he led the way through the dark room, down a long hallway, up a staircase, and into another room. Finally, a light came on. Charity blinked. Although not bright, the bulb in the bedside lamp almost blinded her. She held up a hand to shield her eyes.
“Welcome to my home.” Jon tugged her farther into the room . . . and closer to the bed.
A tingle of fear ran down her spine.
His hands cupped her face. “Can’t believe we never met before tonight.”
I wasn’t the kind of girl you noticed.
“You’re so beautiful.” He kissed her.
She’d been kissed before. Not in high school, but she’d had a few boyfriends since moving to Boise to attend the university. Nobody serious, but serious enough that kissing had been involved.
This was different somehow.
She drew back as far as he would allow. “Aren’t you . . . aren’t you going to show me the rest of the house?”
“Not right now, baby. Right now there’s something else I want to show you.”
BUCK LOOKED OUT THE BEDROOM WINDOW, WATCHING as Chet Leonard doled out feed to the six horses in the pasture.
As if he doesn’t have enough to do at his own place. He shouldn’t have to do for me too.
Buck had looked out for himself—and his family, much of the time—since he was eighteen. That was the summer his dad had been diagnosed with stage 4 cancer. In the months and years to come, Buck had learned how to be the dependable one, the capable one, the fearless one. He’d been the strong back to help his dad from the bedroom to the bathroom, from the car to the doctor’s office. He’d been the shoulder for his mom to cry on when she lost hope. He’d been the one who made tough decisions when neither of his parents had been able to make any for themselves. Treatment. Hospice care. Burial or cremation. Mounting medical bills. Ken’s college tuition. Selling the home he’d grown up in. Helping his widowed mom move to Arizona. Giving up for good on the dreams he’d had for his future.
He closed his eyes, trying to shut out the bad memories. He’d survived. He’d made a new and different life for himself. One he was content with. Dwelling in the past was a pointless exercise. He’d learned that a long time ago.
When he opened his eyes, he saw Chet striding toward the house. He turned the scooter around and rolled it toward the kitchen. He was getting better at steering it with only his left hand. He wouldn’t win any races, but he wasn’t running into the walls either. Well, he’d only done it once today.
Chet stopped at the back door and looked in through the screen. “You sure there’s nothing else I can do for you?”
“No. Not a thing. You’ve done enough.”
“Glad to help.”
“Come on in, if you’ve got the time.”
Chet pulled open the screen door. “I’ve got time.”
Buck knew better. A rancher never had enough time. But Chet was the sort of man who put others first. Just one reason folks in Kings Meadow respected him.
“It’s getting close to suppertime. Want me to get you something to eat?”
Before Buck could answer, his stomach growled. Both men laughed at the sound.
“I guess I could eat something. There’re casseroles in the fridge. Whatever’s easiest to reach will suit me.” He rolled the scooter to the table and shifted onto a chair. He was getting better at that too.
Chet opened the refrigerator. “Did Ken tell you a bunch of the guys put together a schedule? We’ll take turns coming over to feed the horses and anything else you need done until those casts come off. Somebody in the morning. Somebody in late afternoon or early evening.”
“Yeah. Ken told me. He called earlier today with the information. I sure appreciate it. Wish I didn’t have to ask.”
“It isn’t like you haven’t helped others when they were in a bind.” Chet put a plate with food on it into the microwave. He studied the keypad for a few moments, then punched in the time and pressed Start. While he waited for the food to get hot, he turned toward Buck again. “Seems to me, sometimes God wants us to learn the lesson of how to accept the generosity of others.” He looked meaningfully at Buck. “It’s a hard lesson for some of us.”
Buck nodded.
Chet leaned his backside against the counter. “You’ve made some nice improvements to the outbuildings. I was out here once before you bought the place and saw the condition they were in.”
“Haven’t done all that much. But the horses will have better shelter come next winter.”
“Maybe you did more than you think.” The microwave dinged, and Chet turned to remove the plate of food. He was taking a knife and fork from the drawer when a knock sounded at the front door. “You eat. I’ll see who it is.” He set the plate on the table in front of Buck and walked to the living room. A few moments later, he returned alone.
“Who was it?”
“Charity Anderson. I hardly recognized her.”
“Yeah, she’s changed a lot since I saw her last. But that’s been years.”
“No, it was more than that. She seemed upset. Looked to me like she’d been crying.”
Buck shifted on his chair. “Did she say what was wrong?”
“Nope. Just asked if you needed her to fix you dinner. I told her you were eating already. She said to tell you that she’ll check in with you tomorrow morning.”
Buck frowned. It had been a good eight hours since she’d left his place. She hadn’t been any too pleased with him, but he hadn’t done or said anything that would make her cry, especially not all this while later. Had he?
He gave his head a shake. He’d only spoken the truth. Her parents were hurt that she almost never came to see them. Buck didn’t even know the Andersons all that well, and even he’d picked up on their feelings. They were good people. They deserved better from their youngest daughter.
“Your food’s getting cold,” Chet said, intruding on his thoughts.
“Yeah.” He awkwardly speared some elbow macaroni with the fork in his left hand and brought it to his mouth. After swallowing, he said, “Thanks for warming it up. Now you’d better get home before your own dinner gets cold.”
Chet chuckled. “You’re right. I’d better.” He turned to leave.
“Hey. I almost forgot. I finished that saddle you ordered. It’s over at Antton’s shop. You can get it anytime you want.”
His friend’s face brightened. “That’s great news. Thanks.”
Buck held up his right hand. “I won’t be able to finish the bridle until this thing comes off.”
“Don’t worry about that. Kimberly will love the bridle whenever I give it to her.” Chet waved and let himself out.
“Kimberly will love the bridle whenever I give it to her.”
For some reason Chet’s parting comment stayed with Buck as he ate his solitary meal in his solitary house.
Chapter 5
BY THE NEXT DAY, BUCK’S ONE-HANDED SCOOTER skills had improved noticeably. Leaving the house unaided was still impossible and driving was out of the question until both casts came off. Cabin fever might become a problem be
fore then, but it was manageable for now.
He was rolling his way into the living room when he heard the sound of a car door. He went to the window and saw his nieces and nephew as they hopped out of the back of their dad’s minivan. His sister-in-law, Sara, was a little slower to disembark. Ken took her arm as they walked toward the front door, his other arm around her back. There was great tenderness in the gesture, and seeing it tugged at Buck’s heart. It reminded him, more than a little, of his parents, back before the cancer.
Which also reminded him of the primary reason he preferred to stay single. It was dangerous to love. The heartache was too great when loss followed—and loss followed all too often. He couldn’t help loving his family members. He couldn’t help caring about his close friends. But he could protect himself from the kind of pain his mom had gone through after his dad died.
Ten-year-old Jake barged into the house without knocking. “Hey, Uncle Buck.”
“Hey, Jake.”
“How’re you feeling?”
“Better today. Thanks.”
His nieces, Krista and Sharon, entered next. Thirteen and twelve respectively, they were in an interesting phase—one that was foreign to their uncle. Not all that long ago they’d idolized Buck, but he’d somehow become antiquated in their eyes. He was thirty years old and over the hill. Wasn’t that a bad joke from the seventies?
“Afternoon, girls,” he said, trying to force interaction.
They mumbled some sort of response in unison before disappearing into the kitchen.
“Good to see you too.” He grinned.
His brother and sister-in-law came through the open doorway at last, Sara moving awkwardly, more waddle than walk. She came straight to Buck and kissed his unshaven cheek. Then she rubbed her fingertips over the growth of facial hair. “This is new.”
“Don’t you like it?”
“Not especially.”
He held up his right hand, showing her the cast. “Can’t manage a razor. I’m afraid I’d cut my throat if I tried it left-handed.”
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