Playing to Win (The Complete Series Box Set): 3 romances with angst and humor

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by Alix Nichols


  Giving myself to Zach would make me an ungrateful little snake who bites the hand that feeds her.

  Just yesterday, when we talked over Skype, Marguerite went on and on about how happy it would make her to see her favorite protégée and her son together.

  “You’re perfect for each other,” she said for the umpteenth time.

  “I’m not so sure,” I dared to argue.

  She knitted her eyebrows. “Why would you say that?”

  “It’s the way Noah looks at me… like a friend, not a man in love.”

  “Oh, Uma.” She rolled her eyes. “I see Parisian mores have gotten to you already. Don’t you know how corrupt the men are who look at women that way? Don’t you know what they want? Noah respects you. That’s precious and rare. It’s something you should cherish.”

  She’s right.

  And Mathilde is right.

  I’d do better to heed their sage advice.

  All is not lost.

  As long as I’m strong enough to fight my attraction to Zach, I’ll fight it.

  Just like he’s fighting his.

  ELEVEN

  Zach

  Uma opens the door before I can ring the doorbell with my forehead, as I have my hands full carrying Sam. He fell asleep in the car while listening to the CD with his favorite Nepali lullabies that Uma got for him. I’m so glad he slept. Otherwise, we would’ve been stopping for him to puke every twenty minutes, just like we’d done on the way to Yvelines three hours earlier.

  I took him there for a checkup with his doc.

  “So, what did he say?” Uma whispers as I carry Sam upstairs.

  I glance at her. “Were you waiting by the door?”

  “You were late, and I got a bit anxious, but I didn’t want to call you while you were driving.”

  With my shoulder, I push the door to Sam’s room open. “I’ll tell you everything once he’s in bed, OK?”

  “You’re putting him to bed without dinner?”

  “We grabbed a bite before heading back.”

  She nods and tiptoes to the family room.

  When I join her there with a bottle of champagne and two flutes, she’s cross-legged on the couch, embroidering. I sit next to her and open the champagne.

  Uma sets her work aside and points to the bottle. “Does that mean good news?”

  “Very.” I hand her a flute. “The doc ran some tests and confirmed what we’ve been suspecting. The new antiseizure drug is working like a charm.”

  Her grin broadens.

  “Wait, it gets better. If Sam goes seizure free for a year, the doc will start weaning him off the meds.”

  “Really?”

  I nod. “Apparently, there’s a sixty-five percent chance he won’t have another seizure after that.”

  She claps a hand over her mouth.

  “But whatever happens,” I say, “even if he continues to have seizures, the doc is confident they can be controlled with this drug and the diet he’s on.”

  Uma’s beautiful eyes glisten when she says, “He can have a normal life.”

  “Yes.” I pick up the second glass. “He’s come a long way.”

  “Here’s to his health!” She raises her flute.

  I raise mine. “To Sam.”

  The champagne is damn good. No wonder, considering it’s a Bollinger. I refill our glasses, and we empty them. I refill them again. It would be a crime not to finish the bottle.

  “Good thing it’s Saturday tomorrow,” Uma says on her third flute. “It would be a pain having to get up early after this.”

  I shrug. “It’s just champagne. You’ll be as fresh as ever tomorrow morning.”

  “Speak for yourself.” She rolls her eyes. “We aren’t getting the same amount of alcohol per kilogram of body weight, are we?”

  “Touché.”

  She cocks her head. “Tell me, is it a requirement to be as big as you are to play water polo?”

  “No.” I smile. “But it’s certainly an advantage for the hole-set—that’s me—and the hole defender. Remember Julien?”

  She nods.

  “And, of course, for the goalie. Noah is about the same size as Julien and me. For the other players, it doesn’t matter that much.”

  “Why does it matter for the hole set?”

  “My job is to score, right?”

  “So?”

  “The opposing team’s job is to prevent me from doing that. So, every time I get ready to shoot, two or three guys jump at me, trying to stop me. One would hang on my back like a human backpack, another would try to drown me, and a third would kick me underwater where the ref can’t see.”

  Her eyes widen. “That’s awful.”

  “It’s part of the game,” I say. “That’s why the hole-set must be big and well-trained, so he can fend them off.”

  She leans forward a little. “I have another question.”

  “Ask.”

  “When Sam and I attended your match against Toulon, I noticed something…” Uma looks down, hesitating.

  “Yeeess?”

  “You and some of the other players were shaved everywhere—legs, chest, the whole body.” She lifts her eyes. “Why?”

  My lips curl up. “Picture the situation I just described when the other team’s players try to hurt me beneath the surface, so the ref won’t know.”

  “Do they—” She frowns in disbelief. “Do they pull your body hair?”

  “They’ll rip it out if given the chance. Armpit hair and the hairs under the Speedo are a preferred target.”

  She squirms. “Oh my God.”

  “That’s why I make sure I’m shaved everywhere before all important games.”

  She picks up her flute and sips slowly, keeping her eyes on her beverage.

  Am I imagining it, or have her nipples hardened under her T-shirt?

  My cock sure has.

  Walk away before it’s too late.

  This whole “celebration” was a terrible idea. Hadn’t I promised myself to never be alone with her again? But I was so happy about the doc’s conclusion that I had to share it with Uma. For some weird reason, I wanted to share it with her before anyone else, even before I called my parents and Colette. I should’ve resisted that urge.

  As I brace myself for the salutary retreat, Uma places her glass on the coffee table, uncrosses her legs and lowers her feet to the floor.

  I watch her, my thoughts getting increasingly muddled.

  She turns toward me. “Would you like to kiss me again?”

  Sweet Lord.

  There’s nothing I’d like more right now.

  Nothing at all.

  Before I can dissuade myself, I hoist her onto my lap. She trails her small hands along my jawline, through my hair, and rests them on my nape. Our gazes lock. Her touch, her scent, the look in her eyes combine to intoxicate me in a way that no amount of alcohol ever has.

  I come undone.

  Gripping the back of her head, I pull her face closer, and claim her mouth. Unlike in the gay bar last week, I skip the tentative part and push my tongue between her parted lips. That’s how much I crave her taste. She opens up. The more I demand, the more she gives, her need matching mine.

  I can’t get enough of this woman.

  Releasing her mouth for a moment, I rain hot kisses on her eyes, cheeks, nose, and chin. I trail my tongue along her neck and down her shoulders, tugging at the neckline of her tee. It will have to come off sometime soon. Very soon. Because I need to kiss and stroke more of her, taste every inch of her skin. Because I need to learn the shape of her breasts and the shade of her nipples. My hands ache to rub them, to pinch them gently, and to feel them go hard against my palms.

  My mouth burns to suck them.

  A weird need surges within me—something primal, almost animalistic. I want to mark her somehow. I want to stake a claim to her body and make sure no one else ever dares to kiss her like I’m kissing her.

  Get a grip, man. You should be ashamed of those feeli
ngs.

  And I am. But I can’t help them. When I cup her breast through her tee and kiss the side of her neck, biting slightly, she moans. I can feel her heart racing. When I lick the sensitive hollow at the base of her throat, her head falls back. Another soft moan escapes her. She murmurs a word, her voice throaty and low, barely recognizable. But there’s no mistaking it. She said my name.

  She wants me.

  My sweet Uma wants what I want, every sultry, scathing bit of it. Unless… unless she doesn’t realize what’s coming next.

  She’s inexperienced, remember?

  But is she that inexperienced? Does she believe kissing is all I intend to do to her tonight? Is she under the impression I’ll let her go to bed without stripping her naked first and claiming her? More than once. In more than one way.

  I touch her between her legs.

  That’s where I’m headed, Uma.

  Slap me, punch me, call me a jerk. Stand up and run away. Do something. Anything.

  Because if you don’t, I’ll keep stoking your desire until you lose yourself.

  And then I’ll take you.

  She stiffens a little, no doubt shocked by my unceremonious move. Her lids are still heavy and her eyes glazed with arousal, but there’s a question in them, an inkling of concern.

  “I’m going to fuck you,” I say.

  Never in my whole life have I spoken to a woman like that. But desperate times call for desperate measures.

  The confusion on Uma’s face grows by the second.

  Good.

  I apply more pressure to my touch. “First, I’ll do it with my fingers.”

  She blinks.

  “Then with something bigger.” I draw back, unzip my jeans, and let my raging hard-on free.

  If anything can shock her into dashing to her room and locking herself in, this will.

  She stares at my cock, wide-eyed.

  What, still not running? Has my good-guy image numbed your instincts?

  I push my thumb between her lips. “But before I pop your cherry, I’ll have you give me head.”

  A deep crease forms between her eyebrows as her confusion gives way to censure.

  Good.

  “Do you know what that expression means?” I ask.

  She gives me an unblinking stare.

  I hold her gaze, trailing my thumb over her lips. “I think you do.”

  The sick irony of the situation is that I’m not just saying these things to shake her out of her trance. I would love to do them to her. In that exact order.

  She stands up. I force myself not to move. But instead of scurrying to her room as I expected her to, Uma runs downstairs. I hear her open the creaky entrance door and close it.

  It’s past eleven.

  I sprint to the foyer. Her purse is in its usual spot on the shelf. This means she’s out on the streets with no money, no ID, and no phone.

  What was I thinking, trying to shock her into action?

  She’s shocked, all right, enough to run out into the dark, at an hour when my part of town is empty, and she can bump into all manner of individuals. Bad individuals.

  I grab my keys and bolt outside.

  After forty-five minutes of searching in vain, I go back home. Sam has been alone in his room too long already.

  All I can do now is pray she’ll be safe and knocking on the door before long. If she isn’t home by midnight, I’ll take Sam with me in the car and comb the town, leaving no alley unchecked.

  I close my eyes and pray again, Please, come back, Uma.

  Please, please, please.

  TWELVE

  Uma

  Zach opens the door before I’ve even knocked.

  He must’ve been waiting for me here in the foyer.

  “Thank God, you’re back,” he says as I step in.

  He makes a move to take me in his arms but stops, censoring himself.

  I fold my arms over my chest and stare into his eyes.

  “I’m sorry, Uma,” he says, dropping his head to his chest. “I’m so very sorry about the things I said… the way I said them.”

  I don’t respond.

  His expression is pained when he lifts his head. “If you don’t feel safe with me in the house, I’ll pack a few things and go to the hotel down the street. I can sleep there every—”

  I cover his mouth with my hand. “Stop talking nonsense. I’ve never felt unsafe around you.”

  “You… haven’t?” He searches my face.

  I shake my head for emphasis. “Not once, not for a second. That’s not why I ran.”

  “Why then?”

  “I needed to get away from you so I could think clearly.”

  He draws a long breath. “Did you manage?”

  “Yes.”

  His eyes drill into mine with a mixture of anxiety and hope in his dark gaze.

  “You see,” I say, turning aside so I can say my piece without losing my nerve. “My parents want me to marry Giriraj. My mentor—Noah’s mom—wants me to marry her son. I was raised to look up to my elders, and it’s hard for me to ignore their wishes and give myself permission to… to…”

  He puts his fingers under my chin and tips my head up. “What do you want, Uma?”

  “Something else,” I mutter, running out of courage to name what that “something” is.

  “Let me guess. You want to have sex with me.” He smirks as if anticipating I’ll laugh at his ludicrous proposition.

  “Yes,” I say.

  “Uma—”

  “Those things you said you wanted to do—”

  “I’m so sorry I spoke to you like that,” he cuts in. “You must be disgusted and mad at me.”

  I take a fortifying breath. “Those things… All those things… I want them.”

  His jaw slackens.

  Tilting his head to the side, he peers at me, eyebrows drawn. I hold his gaze. Slowly, the expression on his handsome face changes from disbelief to acceptance and then to delight.

  When he takes my hand and presses it to his lips, he looks positively gleeful. Closing his eyes, he kisses every inch of my palm, his lips hot and soft. I cup his jaw, enjoying how his stubble prickles my skin.

  He leans his head into my touch. “Aren’t you scared of the consequences?”

  “I want you more than I’m scared of the consequences,” I say. “No matter what happens, no matter who I marry one day—if anyone at all—I want you to be my first.”

  Zach opens his eyes and stares. “Uma, there’s something else you must consider before we become lovers.”

  Please don’t say you’re thinking of getting back together with Colette!

  “My life is complicated,” he says. “I have a kid, an ex… I’ve been alone so long I can’t tell lust from feelings anymore. If you expect a proposal—”

  “I don’t! The only thing I expect from you is that you’ll make my first time unforgettable.”

  He pulls me to his chest, and I revel in its breadth and warmth, in the powerful beat of his heart.

  I wrap my arms around him.

  He yanks the hair stick out of my bun. “I must’ve been a saint in my previous life to deserve this.”

  I nearly melt with pleasure when he tangles both his hands in my hair and rubs the back of my head.

  “I want you so much,” he says. “More than you could ever know. It’s been driving me mad.”

  His mouth descends on mine in a hungry, blistering kiss.

  With no visible effort, he lifts me off the ground and slings me over his shoulder. I gasp in surprise. Holding me tight, he runs up the narrow staircase to his bedroom.

  Once inside, he sets me down, flips on the light, and shuts the door.

  My limbs begin to quiver with anticipation. I know that the first time is supposed to hurt, but I also know Zach will do everything to minimize the pain.

  He’ll take care of me.

  Returning to me, he removes my T-shirt, and stares at my breasts.

  I’m wearing a l
acy bra—one of the several I own now. Last weekend, I bought a few of these bras and matching panties, telling myself it would be inane to leave Paris without stocking up on French lingerie.

  Except I knew deep inside, I was buying them for Zach’s benefit.

  He palms my breasts, rubbing my hardened nipples through the sheer material.

  I love it.

  Long moments later, Zach pulls off his shirt, too.

  I study his bare chest, touching the hairs that have grown around his nipples since I’d seen him in the swimming pool. They trail down to his belly button and disappear under the waistline of his jeans. My hands slide over his hard abs and the expanse of his muscled chest. The shape of him, the taut muscles beneath his skin—so different from me, so heady, so right.

  With his gaze still latched onto my breasts, Zach slips a hand under the top of my jeans. He pauses for a moment as if to ask if I mind. I draw my zipper down in response. He pushes my jeans down over my hips, leans down a little so he can reach between my legs, and touches me through my panties.

  I gasp with pleasure.

  Whispering my name, he cups me more fully and begins to rub while his other hand returns to my eager nipples.

  So good.

  As pressure builds, my panties get wetter and wetter. He pulls the crotch aside and brushes my most sensitive spot with the tips of his fingers. My breath hitches at the exquisite intimacy of that touch. As he pushes harder, rubbing and circling, my eyelids slide shut and my head tips back. I whimper, moan, and tense as a shock of pleasure rips through me, making my legs quiver.

  I grip him for balance and realize he just gave me my first ever orgasm. By simply touching me. With my underwear still on.

  Er… not for much longer.

  “I have to see you,” Zach says, unclasping my bra.

  Within seconds, I’m naked. For the first time in my life, I stand completely bare before a man. Why am I not feeling shy? Why am not hunching with shame or using my hands and arms to cover my nudity?

  His gaze.

  It rakes my body, up and down, hungry and awed at the same time. It makes me feel like I’m the four-armed goddess Lalita, playful and confident enough never to be body shy. And if he goes on looking at me like that, I’ll expect him to drop to his knees and worship me.

 

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