“It’s complicated.” he grimaced, hating the catch-all trendy Facebook phrase.
Thankfully, Mom interrupted. “Dinner is served.”
Inside, Brooke was, as usual, in charge of the wines even though she was pregnant and hadn’t had a drop in eight months or more. “Who’s having some of our newest Pinot Grigio? It has an earthy nutty flavor, I’m told. I can’t wait to sample it.”
“I’ll have some for you, babe.” Billy held out his wine glass.
“I will too,” Pop said.
She shifted her hefty shape around the table and filled wine glasses.
“What should we toast tonight?” Pop asked.
“Actually,” Wallace raised his glass. “We have an announcement to make.”
Holy shit, Scott thought. It took him one second to figure it out. Gen was pregnant. He wondered if it was as obvious to everyone else or if he was particularly dialed in to it since he spent so much time around the two of them.
“So do I,” Sophia said, raising her glass.
What the hell? No, no, not now. Scott tried to meet her eyes but she sat across the table from him and wasn’t paying attention.
“You go first,” Wallace said.
Of course his brother would say that. Scott sucked in a breath. Maybe Sophia had other news. Hadn’t she said she didn’t need his support, that she’d do this on her own? Right, yeah, she probably had something else to say.
“I’m dropping out of Berkeley,” Sophia said.
In the dead silence that followed her words, Scott stared at her. He understood that it had taken her a while to get to this place. To be fair, she couldn’t have any idea she’d probably ruined Wallace’s news tonight. Scott knew his brother, and no way would he want to follow this with his own good news.
“Dropping out. Berkeley.” Giancarlo was the first to speak, smile frozen in place as he held out his wine glass.
“Yes, Daddy-o.” Sophia used her term of endearment for her father.
Giancarlo laughed. “No, no, that’s funny but not appropriate dinner humor. Of course you’re not quitting school. That’s ridiculous. Now, what about your announcement, Wallace?”
“Uh, well—” Wallace said, scowling. Gen put a hand on his arm, stilling him.
Scott put his face in his hands.
Sophia stood up. “I’m sorry, but I mean it. I hate business! It’s a bunch of preppy guys and girls who want to rule corporate America. I hate them all! I’m nothing like them.”
Giancarlo’s face turned an interesting shade of crimson. “You’re as smart as any of them. Don’t be ridiculous.”
“I am as smart as they are, but I don’t want to be them! Don’t you get it? I want to live my own life, not yours!” She stormed out of the dining room.
“Sophia Maria! Do not walk away from your father!” Giancarlo got up to follow her, and of course Mom left the room to follow him.
She did stop long enough to turn to the rest of them. “Go ahead and eat.”
Pop, Wallace, Gen, Billy and Brooke all sat around the table, looking a bit dazed and confused. Welcome to the club.
“Where’s that Scotch?” Wallace growled.
“What was your announcement?” Pop asked as he rose to get the Scotch bottle behind him.
“Yeah, bro,” Billy said. “Tell us.”
Gen snuggled up to Wallace, who kissed her forehead. “Actually, Gen didn’t want me to say anything yet but I was excited. I’ll consider this a sign.”
“Did you know anything about this thing with Sophia?” Brooke directed the question to Scott.
Scott wondered when that question would come up. Because of his age, he was closer to Sophia than anyone else with the possible exception of Gen.
“Yeah,” Scott admitted. “What about you, Gen? Did she say anything?”
“Not much,” Gen said. “I figured it was a tough class or something, but I never imagined this.”
“Giancarlo is going to take this hard,” Billy added. “He has this idea that Sophia is going to do a lot better with her life than running the family restaurant.”
“I don’t know why he can’t see that Sophia would never be happy as a business executive,” Brooke said. “There, I’ve said it. Isn’t it obvious?”
“Her heart is in the family restaurant.” Gen nodded.
“She grew up in it. It connects her to her mom,” Scott said.
“What you all don’t get is that Giancarlo wants a better life for her. He’s a typical dad, and he sees her potential,” Wallace said. “That shouldn’t be wasted.”
“She gets to decide what’s best for her.” Scott stood up.
“Where are you going?” Wallace asked, his forehead wrinkled in the don’t-make-me-kick-your-ass way.
“To see what I can do.”
Billy groaned. “Nah, bro. Stay out of it.”
“I can’t.”
“Yes. You can.” Wallace said. “It’s not your job to rescue everyone.”
The words hit Scott hard, because he didn’t see it as rescuing. He’d been accused of that too much in the recent past. He was no one’s hero and didn’t want to be. But what was wrong with wanting to help? If he’d only helped Jake more, maybe…
Scott ignored Wallace, and paced the hallway. He noticed that no one ate a bite as loud voices wafted in from the next room.
“I can’t allow you to throw away your future,” Giancarlo could be heard to say sternly. “We will discuss this later.”
“I want to discuss it now!” Sophia whined.
“But dinner—” Mom started.
“I’m not hungry!” Sophia shouted.
“Don’t you dare speak to Eileen that way!”
“Fine! I’m going to bed.” Sophia’s footsteps thundered up the steps.
Scott had been about to leave town for the next few days. With Diana’s reaction, and the concern he could expect from his mother, he’d considered not telling them the whole truth. But he couldn’t lie to his family. They’d see right through him anyway. Anyway, he couldn’t go anywhere now because Sophia would need his support.
“Dammit.” He didn’t bother saying goodbye when he left the house.
He’d reached his truck when he could hear Wallace call out to him. He jogged over to Scott’s truck at the edge of the long circular driveway. Wallace’s brow was furrowed in concern, not at all what Scott had intended. Wallace already worried too much, and if Scott was right about the news tonight, Wallace had another eighteen years of worrying about another human being coming up.
“What the hell’s going on?”
Scott had been on his own for years, but Wallace still considered himself to be Scott’s pseudo-dad. A casualty of being the eldest brother of three and growing up with a single mom.
“Nothing. Gotta go.”
“Without eating?”
“Yeah. Who can eat now?”
“You kidding me? You once ate a hot dog while Billy dissected a frog on the kitchen table. You won’t let anything stop you from eating. For crap’s sake, you even ate tofu when Mom was on her health kick. Tofu!”
Scott stuffed his hands in his pockets and glanced up at the starry night. “Maybe I’m going to meet a girl. Maybe she’s waiting. That’s always better than food.”
Wallace seemed to consider it. “You know what I think? I think this is about Jake.”
Too bad Scott had confided in Wallace in a moment of weakness. More like over one too many beers at The Tavern. Wallace had wondered why Scott never talked about Jake anymore.
“I don’t talk about it. You know that.”
Wallace sighed and raked a hand through his hair. “Yeah, I know. It will have been four years this month. Right?”
Four years since he’d received the call from Jake’s sister, pain and accusation in her voice. Four years since his biggest failure. It hadn’t been on the battlefield but right at home. Home, the one place they all should have been safe. But maybe it was the single most dangerous place to be, becau
se a soldier got complacent. Relaxed. Lost his edge. Or gave up.
Scott shook his head to clear it. No, he wasn’t a soldier anymore. “A long ass time ago.”
“And then again it feels like yesterday.”
“Yeah. There is that.”
“Don’t do this to yourself.”
“Do what?” Scott had a real bad feeling he already knew what Wallace was going to tell him, and it was going to take everything in him not to haul off and slug his big brother.
“You know. It’s not your fault. I know you think it is, but Jake was hurting, and he didn’t get the help he needed.”
Scott’s eyes burned. He wanted to hit something. “This shouldn’t have happened. It’s such a waste. I should have had his back.”
“For how long? Forever?”
“I don’t know. As long as it took.”
“Look, I get it. This is who you are. Growing up without a father, we all took on our roles. I tried to be the leader, Billy was our cheering section, and you were the rescuer. You were always saving everything and everyone you could because you thought that was your job. I’m telling you right now it’s not your job to save everyone. Just like it’s not my job to be your father, I get it now. You’re a grown man and I can’t tell you what to do. So go ahead and keep on carrying that weight around if you want, but it’s eventually going to wear you down. I should know.”
Scott didn’t say another word, just nodded and slipped inside his truck. He started it up and pulled out on to the quiet residential street. Not sure where he was going or why, he headed out into the dark night.
Chapter 16
After her shift on Thursday, Diana had taken Gran grocery shopping. While the whole event took no less than two hours (Gran inspected every label and price-compared until Diana developed an eye-twitch) it had been more chance for Gran to venture out.
But Diana had almost lost her temper when Gran decided that though tomato sauce was on sale, she didn’t actually need twelve cans of the stuff. She was taking them out of the cart in the check-out line when Diana stopped her.
“My treat.”
“Don’t be silly. I won’t need twelve cans. I refuse to let my tomato sauce outlive me, no matter how cheap it is.”
Diana went for zany. “But what about the zombie apocalypse?”
“The what?”
“I mean, what if the Russians attack? Or we have a terrible earthquake? Don’t you want enough tomato sauce to live through it?” Diana set each one of the cans on the conveyor belt with a loud thunk.
“You’re in a mood today.” Gran sniffed.
This was unfortunately true. It had started that morning with Scott and had proceeded steadily downhill from there. She’d messed up an entire batch of garlic bagels which set her considerably behind. And of course, it seemed every other order was for a garlic bagel. Next, she’d ruined a dozen donuts. At this rate she was going to turn out to be a liability to poor Gen.
Her issue had all been with concentration, because all of the mishaps occurred after her talk with Scott. Not so much a talk as an argument.
“Sorry. It’s been a rough day so far.” She wasn’t sure it could possibly get any better since she assumed she wouldn’t be seeing Scott.
Not when she’d been such a bitch, accusing him of trying to frighten her. He’d done nothing of the sort, but only tried to be a considerate friend and let her know where he’d be in case she needed him. But the fact remained, he had unnerved her. Badly. She hated to admit it. On one level she understood firefighters had to go to the fires, put their lives in danger every time, but she’d much rather picture Scott rescuing puppies. Climbing up a tree to rescue a kitten. Giving a little boy a breathing treatment. She wasn’t sure what that said about her other than that she was an idiot.
A man like him would never be satisfied with careful and cautious. He was alpha all the way and she’d been aware of it from the first moment she’d laid eyes on him. She wished like hell it didn’t bother her at all, but she’d also never anticipated that her feelings would grow so…deep. Too fast.
Hadn’t she been the one to say that this whole thing between them was no strings? No fuss?
Good one, her Heart seemed to say. Nice try, anyway.
Diana drove Gran home, and helped unload her groceries. This took another hour because Gran had a ‘system’ and Diana kept ‘messing with it.’
Finally, Gran shooed Diana out of her kitchen, and straight to the front door. “Go home and take a nap. You’re cranky.”
Relenting, Diana kissed Gran on the cheek and said she’d check in later. It was lunch time, and back at her apartment Diana heated up the spaghetti leftovers and had those. She was sleepy, but not going to ruin her eight o’clock bedtime by taking an afternoon nap. Instead, she took another look at her article, which was shaping up well if she did say so herself. Scott was right about her writing. She couldn’t give up, even if it was agonizing at times. Instead, she cut another five hundred words and closed her eyes for a second to check the inside of her eyelids.
The loud buzzing in her jeans woke her up. Diana shifted one eye open and reached for her phone. Crap. She’d been asleep for hours! The caller ID showed Mandy had woken her up. “What do you want?”
“You finally answered!”
“I’m tired. Let me call you back.”
“No! This is serious.”
“I don’t want to hear about your latest bridezilla.”
“Diana, we have a real problem.”
The urgent tone in Mandy’s voice made Diana stiffen and sit up straight. Her heart sped up. Was Mom sick? Did someone die?
“W-what is it? Tell me!”
“Remember I told you I was going to do an audit when I got back?”
“Yeah?”
“I did. And that Florina woman Mom hired has been embezzling from us. Tens of thousands of dollars!”
“Oh my God.”
“As soon as I figured it out, I confronted the woman myself. I figured she’d just give Mom some lame excuse about using the money to buy from her private designer or something and Mom would accept it. It was going to be harder to answer my specific questions since I do the books.”
“So what happened?”
Mandy sounded out of breath. “I shouldn’t have confronted her. I messed up.”
Diana couldn’t draw in a steady breath through her petrified lungs. “Are you okay?”
“Yes, I am. But she’s gone.”
“Who’s gone?”
“Florina, or whatever the hell her real name is! She ran for the hills, which is what criminals do. I don’t watch enough Dateline or I would know that. I should have called the police first. But don’t worry, I have now.”
Diana had a hundred questions running through her mind at once. The one that came first surprised her. “How’s Mom doing?”
Mandy whispered. “Not good. She trusted that woman. When I explained everything, she stood and stared at the last of her inventory. She didn’t move for thirty minutes until I moved her. Now she’s lying down with a migraine. We’re going to have to sell off all the inventory and even that won’t save us. Worse, some of the brides won’t get the dresses they ordered and we might not be able to pay back their deposits.
A bride without her wedding dress? Mom and Mandy should run, and run fast. Worse, this would kill her mom even before the brides got to her. Diana realized all too well what her brides meant to Mom. It was personal.
Diana swallowed hard. “What should I do? Should I come home?”
“Absolutely not. We’ll probably have to come up there with you and Gran! When those brides find out, we’ll be in mortal danger. We’re bankrupt, Diana. Done.”
Diana groaned and did a face plant into her thrift store special couch. This day kept getting better and better.
***
Scott had been driving around for hours after leaving his mother’s house, thinking about Jake, turning it all over and over in his mind. It felt like a wound
had been reopened and he didn’t know why. He hadn’t taken it quite this hard every anniversary. Usually he went off camping to be alone at this time of the year if he could work it out. To be far from the email onslaught. But the drought and the wildfires had kept him nearby this year, ready and waiting to pounce.
Usually, he tried not to think about any of it. Worked every day to push it out of his mind and focus on the positives in his life. Had it really been four years? Something had caused him to lose his focus. Maybe it had been Sophia’s problem, or maybe it was the wildfires raging out of control, or maybe it had been the emails reminding him of how he’d failed Jake. In each case, he was unable to help, no matter how badly he wanted to.
When Jake had moved back home to Oregon to be closer to his family, Scott’s contact with him had become occasional weekend trips and visits. Scott had realized something was horribly wrong the last time he’d seen his buddy. The dark circles under his eyes and shaking trigger fingers were a dead giveaway.
“You been to the VA?” Scott had asked him.
“Many times.” Jake snuffed out his third cigarette.
“Go again.”
For reasons Scott didn’t understand, some soldiers readjusted into civilian life better than others. Wallace’s best friend Joe Hannigan had done all right, and Scott had managed too. But Jake did not. Even so, Scott didn’t see it coming. Later on, he’d learned more of the facts. The appalling statistics. Twenty-two men every day. That weekend in August, Jake had asked him to come up and go fishing at Diamond Lake. Scott hadn’t because he’d had a job with Wallace and needed the money.
If he’d gone up when Jake had asked him to … maybe things would have worked out in a different way. Watch my six Scott could almost still hear Jake say. Long story short, Scott hadn’t watched Jake’s back. And he’d never again have another chance.
When he pulled up to Diana’s place around ten, her lights were still on. He’d have kept driving otherwise, but now he sat in his truck and considered his options. He probably shouldn’t bother her, because she’d know something was wrong. But maybe she’d want to go for a run. Might be a good way to blow off some steam. He could run by himself, and certainly didn’t need her to do it.
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