by Heiress
“Ain’t shit changed my nigga. We still at odds,” I told him as I made my way to the door. “See yourself out.” I opened the door and watched him walk out with a grin on his face. In the back of my mind, I thought that what I was doing was crazy. Like what nigga you know gone tell another nigga to get back with the woman he trying to be with? It was crazy, but it’s all in the process of doing what I got to do to prove to Cali that I’m a changed nigga.
Now if this came back to bite me in the ass, I’m gone be pissed as fuck.
CHAPTER 5
CALI: MOMMY DEAREST
Sitting up in the day bed in Mona’s room, I tried my best to get my paper done for my writing course. I had been slacking a little these few weeks with everything going on. I slept in Mona’s room, so I found myself being woken up every hour to her crying. I was starting to see how frustrating and stressed it is being a new mother. My brain was on overload from me reading, her crying and Compton blasting his loud music. I was seconds from exploding.
“UGGGH! I wish he would turn that music down!” I barked, slamming my hand on my laptop’s keyboard. Just then, Mona started screaming to the top of her lungs. “Ohhhh, no. Baby please not now.” Getting up from the bed, I picked her up and tried to soothe her. She was not having it.
“Come on, Mona baby. What do you want? You want toys?” I asked, grabbing her bear but she screamed louder. “Okay, no toy. Do you need to be changed?” I asked, lifting her up to sniff her diaper. She was clean, so it wasn’t that. “Are you hungry?” I pulled out my breast and tried to put my nipple in her mouth, but she screamed louder.
“I don’t know what you want, Mona Baby just please stop crying! Mommy has to finish this homework, and I can’t do it if you’re crying,” I whined with her.
This is why I stayed frustrated. I needed so much guidance when it came to Mona. Momma Banks had been busy with something lately that had all of her attention. I couldn’t ask her for help, and I wouldn’t dare ask my so-called mother. I’m sure she wouldn’t even have the answers on how to deal with all of this.
“You know what, I can’t do this.” I threw my free hand in the air as to say, I give up. With Mona in my hands, I walked to Compton’s bedroom, making my way inside. He was in his room doing his workouts on his leg, so he didn’t notice me. I walked over to his stereo and turned it off. That got his attention.
“Fuck you do that shit for?” he quizzed, sweating like crazy.
“Compton, you are so inconsiderate! I’m in there trying to write a paper, and you got the music on a thousand. Mona is screaming at the top of her lungs and I can’t fucking concentrate. I don’t know what she wants, and I’m getting emotional because I want to get her to stop crying but she won’t and I just-,” I was sobbing before Compton interrupted me.
“Lil’ momma calm down. Stop all this crying and shit. My bad for having the music up so loud but I was in the zone. I can take Mona while you go do ya’ homework,” he offered, grabbing a crying Mona out my hands. Immediately she laid her head on his shoulder and stopped crying.
“See. Why doesn’t she do that with me? You always get her to stop crying and I can’t.” I pouted.
“Lil’ momma, you just be all stressed and frustrated. She be feeling that so she get aggravated with ya’ ass too. You just got to have more patience,” he told me, rocking her up and down. I loved the relationship Compton had with Mona. Yes, I was jealous at times, but he was so good with her, and she loved him so much. It was so cute to see how she clung to him like he was her teddy bear.
“Gone head and get some work done-matter of fact,” he paused, limping over to the bed. He tried his hardest to stay out his wheelchair and off his crutches. “I’m gone run you a bath water with them bubbles, and you gone relax. You can worry about that paper later.”
“Aww, Compton that’s nice of you but I’m already behind on my studies, and I really need to-,”
“Cali that wasn’t a fucking request. Strip and come get ya’ ass in this tub.” He cut me off. He limped into the bathroom and ran me a bath. I tried to fight my smile, but his gesture was just too damn sweet. Compton wasn’t the sweet type so to have him do this for me, meant a lot.
I walked back to the guest room and stripped out of my clothes, and then I put my black silk robe on. When I came back in the room, I could see the steam coming from the bathroom. “Aight so the water might be hot but-,” Compton paused when he saw me. I could see the lust in his eyes, and I knew he wanted me. I know Compton and the way his eyes sat low and how he licked his bottom lip told me that he was horny.
“Uh, it might be hot, but you should be good,” he finished his sentence after clearing his throat. When he walked passed me, his body grazed against my skin, and I got moist instantly. Heat was rising from in between my legs, and I wanted it. I wanted him.
“Wait,” I said, turning around on my l heels. I took a step forward and slid my hand up his shirt. I caressed his rock-hard abs and his deep v cuts on his hips. He knew what time it was when I did that.
“You must want some dick,” he stated, untying my robe and opening it up. My bare body was on display, and he enjoyed the view as he admired me.
“Yes, I do,” I answered in a hushed tone. That was all the confirmation he needed. He picked me up, and I wrapped my legs around him. Placing my hands on both sides of his face, I kissed his lips. His tongue invaded my mouth, and we tugged on each other’s tongues hungrily. It had been a minute since we had sex, so we were all over each other.
Compton’s hands rubbed and squeezed my ass as he struggled to hold me. I could feel him shaking, and I knew we were headed towards the ground. He tried to hold his balance, but it didn’t help. We landed on the floor with me on top of him, and we burst out laughing. “I like this position better,” I whispered.
“Well show me how good you like it then,” he responded, tugging on my bottom lip with his teeth. My hormones were at an all-time high, and I couldn’t wait to feel him. My pussy twitched every time his dick rubbed against my clit. I could feel my juices running down my tunnel. My body was more ready for this than I was.
“It might be tight so go slow.”
“Nah, you the driver, lil’ momma. Handle him however you want.” He bit his bottom lip, lifting me up by my waist. He pulled out his fully erect member and as soon as the tip was at my opening, we were interrupted.
Knock. Knock. Knock
“Hell, nah man. Get the fuck away from my door! I’m tryna’ get some pu-,” Compton was saying before I placed my hand over his mouth.
“We don’t even know who that is, Compton so shut up. You’re going to wake, Mona,” I whispered, jumping off of him.
“Nah, we were both about to wake her ass up with what we were about to do,” he mumbled as I was walking away. I hurried up and tied my robe and walked to the door to open it. My mind was blown when I saw that it was Tre’ standing in front of me. A wide smile appeared on my face, and I was overjoyed. This had to mean that we were about to be back on good terms.
“Tre’ what are-,” I was saying, but his lips cut off my sentence. He had my chin hooked and his free hand wrapped around the small of my back. I fell into him and enjoyed the feeling of his tongue massaging mine. When I thought about what I was just doing with, Compton, I pulled away. Before I could speak, he spoke up.
“Before you say anything, I want to apologize. I was feeling some type of way about you and, Compton when I should have just been a man about it. I love you, Cali and I want to be with you. If you can promise me you won’t allow him to come in between us, I’m willing to make this work,” he said, holding my hands in his.
For some reason, I don’t know why but I hesitated to give my response. In my mind, I was so happy, but my heart was uneasy. I was just about to fuck Compton again and now here Tre’ was in front of me asking me back. I had to shake those feelings off. “I promise, Tre’. That nigga will just be my baby daddy, and that’s it,” I assured him not really knowing if that was the tr
uth.
“So does that mean you will get a divorce?” he quizzed.
Again, I hesitated, but I knew this was something I should have been done. “Yes, I will. I can go do it today if you want me too,” I let him know. I couldn’t believe I agreed to all of this after what me and Compton were just about to do.
“That would put my mind at ease. We can go tomorrow if you ready.”
Before I could answer, I heard doors slamming from outside the house. I stepped out, and there was a cop car parked in the garage. Two black cops were approaching the door. “May I help you?” I quizzed nervously.
“Are you, Caliana Banks?” one of the officers asked politely.
“Maybe? Why?” I was keeping my guard up because they were the police and I knew Compton was into a lot of illegal stuff.
“Well, if you are, we have your sister in the hospital. She’s pretty banged up and she-,”
“I’m sorry, sister? I don’t have a sister,” I told them confused.
“The hospital told us that she listed you as her sister on her emergency card. Does the name, Amber Joy ring a bell?”
My hands flew over my mouth, and I gasped. “Oh, my God!”
CHAPTER 6
AMBER JOY: THE SECRETS OF MY LIFE
I could hear the loud yelling coming from my apartment building. I knew that it was my aunt arguing with her so-called pimp, who happened to be her drug dealer. His name was Demon, and he was exactly like a Demon too. I dreaded going into my apartment, but I feared that things might get ugly if I wasn’t there. Last time Demon nearly killed her.
I rushed past all the crack addicts and homeless people to get to my apartment door. The smell of liquor, drugs, and poop filled my nose. I hated this smell. When I opened the door to the apartment, I immediately closed my eyes at the sight before me. My aunt was on her knees giving Demon oral sex. How they went from arguing to doing this, I have no clue.
“Damn. My little baby came just in time. My balls feeling a little dry so how about you wet ‘em up with that young tongue.” He grinned with his eyes gawking at my body. His stare felt so disgusting that I wanted to puke.
“Ummm, no thank you. I have homework, so I think I’m going to-,” I was saying before he snatched his man part out of my aunt’s mouth and ran towards me.
“I take what I said back. I think I want to take my precious baby for a test drive. I know you ain’t been touched. Let Daddy feel you,” he said, pressing his body against mine. I could smell his stench, and I literally threw up in my mouth.
“Amber baby he just wants to feel on you. You want Aunty to get her drugs so she can feel better right?” she asked still kneeling down on the floor.
“Yes, aunty but-,”
“Well do this for me, please. I promise this is the last time baby,” she assured me. I knew she was lying. Ever since I was old enough to know my body parts, I had been doing favors for her. Demon has been in my life ever since I was a toddler. At one point, I thought he was my daddy, but he wasn’t. My Aunt would get herself into these situations where I had to get her out of. Demon would make me touch him, or he would touch me. I hated it.
We did so many intimate things together that we were basically a couple. And when I say a lot of intimate things, I mean a lot. The only thing we haven’t done was have sex, but I had a feeling that was about to change today. “Aunt I can’t do this. I don’t want to. Please don’t make me do this,” I begged, and all she did was roll her eyes in aggregation.
“Jo get out. I need some time alone with my baby,” Demon told her while rubbing his hands up and down my body.
“Are you going to give me that good stuff? I promise you can have her if you want.”
“No! Aunty don’t give me to him!” I screamed, trying to get away from Damon but he had me pressed so close to the wall that I felt as if I was one with it.
“Girl shut the hell up. It’s just dick. It ain’t gone kill you so just take it damn. Your ass cry too much.” My heart broke a little every time she pretended like I was nothing to her I know I wasn’t her daughter but I was family. She should care, but she didn’t. For some reason I did, and I didn’t know why. She was horrible to me but I loved her so much, and I would do anything for her.
“Here, Jo,” Damon said, digging in his pocket. He pulled out a bag of rocks and threw it at her. She fetched them like a dog and wasted no time getting high. I watched her do this on a daily and every time my heart broke as if it was the first time.
“Now I’m ready for baby. Open up for me,” Damon grunted, lifting my legs up, so he had better success.
“Nooo! No, Demon, please! Don’t do this to me. I’m only fifteen!” I screamed, trying my hardest to get away from him but he was so strong. “Help! Heeelp me!” I screamed but no one came, and I doubted no one cared even if they could hear my cry for help.
”Shut the fuck up!” he barked, punching me in my face twice. I could feel the blood leak from my nose, and I found it hard to breathe. But even then, I didn’t stop fighting. I didn’t want to lose my virginity like this and not with Demon.
“Oh, so you gone still fight me? Aigh’t cool. I’ll fight your ass right back.” The next thing I know, I was being punched in the sides of my stomach like a boxing punching bag. He hit me countless of times in every place that was visible to him. I couldn’t defend myself against him because he was just too big so I gave up. I no longer fought back and that’s when it happened.
“Good girl. Now turn around and open it up,” he demanded, forcing me to face the wall. He yanked down my leggings along with my panties. He kicked my legs apart, and in one motion, he invaded my untouched treasure from behind. Never in my life of even being abused daily have had I ever felt so much pain all at once. I wanted to scream out, but my voice was caught in my throat. All I could do was cry. Cry knowing that my innocence was being taken from me while my Aunty laid on the floor and watched.
All I could think about was my mom and how I wish she would come save me.
Beeping noises surrounded my ears as I struggled to open my eyes. It was blurred, but I could tell I was in the hospital. My body felt like I had got hit in the rear end with a bus. I couldn’t move my body, but I could turn my head. The first person I saw was Cali with Tre’ standing right beside her.
“Cali,” I whispered. She was talking to the doctor, but when she heard me, she ran to my side. Tears flooded her eyes as she stared at me.
“Oh, Amber. Baby sis are you okay? What happened? Who did this to you?” she asked but I was so afraid to tell her. I knew how crazy Demon was and the last thing I wanted was him coming after Cali. Besides my Aunt, she was all I had.
“Mrs. Banks, the police are here, and they want to question-,”
“Nah ain’t gone be no questioning shit,” Compton interrupted the doctor as he limped in the room. Momma Banks, Mr. Banks, and Ms. Lee were right behind him. I had just met her a few days ago.
“What do you mean there isn’t going to be any questioning? Amber needs to talk to the police about this?” Tre’ offered up.
“Oh, my God, Cali where did you find this man? He ain’t hood at all. Talking about we should tell the police,” Lee mimicked, chuckling.
“And why not? The authorities should know about this. Tell them, Cali.” Tre’ nudged Cali who didn’t seem like she wanted any parts of this conversation.
“You bet not fix ya’ mouth to agree to some shit like that,” Compton warned, glaring at her. Just then the officers walked in, and everyone in the room went stiff. As if they had something to hide. I watched as Lee hid her face and walked off to the corner. I don’t think she wanted to be seen by them.
“Hello, my name is Officer White, and this is my partner Officer Rells. We would like to ask Amber a few questions about today’s events,” he asked politely. Cali looked over at me, and I pleaded with my eyes for her not to allow me to speak about what happened. It was like a movie replaying in my head even while I was awake. It was just too soon for me.
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“Umm, I’m sorry. My sister isn’t feeling too well, and it’s too soon. Can you give me your card and maybe we will call you?” Cali asked.
“Cali what are you-,” Tre’ was saying before she threw a mean look over her shoulder. Cali then put on a fake smile for the officers once she was facing them again. “That’s fine miss but at least have her do a rape kit because-,”
“Rape?” Compton quizzed with the angriest expression on his face. I could tell he was very upset. I put my head down because I was so ashamed. I should have fought harder. “Ummm, look thank you for your advice. I’ll get on that but for right now can you all leave. This is just too much for her,” Cali said politely.
The officers nodded their heads and politely left. Lee walked up to Cali and snatched the card from her hand. “We don’t talk to cops,” she said before throwing the card away.
“Correction, you don’t talk to cops. We have no association with each other besides DNA,” Cali sassed, rolling her eyes. I didn’t like the way she treated her mom. I only wished to have a mom, and she had two.
“Cali come on. We’re going to go talk to them,” Tre’ insisted, grabbing Cali’s hand.
“Like hell she is!” Momma Banks stepped in. “Look I know you new to the family but we don’t deal with police. That’s the pussy way out. We handle this ourselves.”
“And just what does that mean?” Tre’ quizzed. No one said anything. Even at the age of fifteen, I knew what Momma Banks meant. “Look I understand we all from the hood and shit but some stuff the police need to handle. Like this. Whoever did this needs to end up in jail not dead,” he continued.
Still, no one said anything. Next thing you know Cali and him broke out into an argument. Tre got mad because Cali wouldn’t take his side. Cali got mad because Tre’ wasn’t trying to listen to her. Tre’ stormed out pissed. It was just too much for me. I had just gotten raped and they were arguing. I just wanted everyone to get out and leave me alone.
