by Wendy Hudson
Table Of Contents
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Acknowledgements
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Chapter 14
Chapter 15
Chapter 16
Chapter 17
Chapter 18
Chapter 19
Chapter 20
Chapter 21
Chapter 22
Chapter 23
Chapter 24
Chapter 25
Chapter 26
Chapter 27
Chapter 28
Chapter 29
Chapter 30
Chapter 31
Chapter 32
Chapter 33
Chapter 34
Chapter 35
Chapter 36
Chapter 37
Chapter 38
Chapter 39
Chapter 40
Chapter 41
Chapter 42
Chapter 43
Chapter 44
Chapter 45
Chapter 46
Chapter 47
Chapter 48
Chapter 49
Chapter 50
Chapter 51
Chapter 52
Chapter 53
Chapter 54
Chapter 55
Chapter 56
Chapter 57
Chapter 58
Chapter 59
Epilogue
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Acknowledgements
Thanks to the Ylva Publishing team for their hard work and continued support.
To Andrea Bramhall, much love and thanks to you as my friend and editor. You got me through another one and somehow we still kind of like each other.
My fellow writer pals have been invaluable and are always there for random ramblings and to cheer me up when every word is a load of crap. Huge love and thanks to G Benson, who always just gets it. To Clare Ashton, for her two-hundred or so title suggestions (I’m only exaggerating a little). To A.L. Brooks, who I can rely on for an honest opinion. And to Clare Lydon, who is never too busy to buy me a pint.
To L.A. Hill, friend and beta reader extraordinaire, for our conversation that never ends and her world class GIF skills.
Thanks to my colleagues on the day job, who have always been a fantastic source of support and encouragement. In particular, Susan Burns, who listens to me talk books on an almost daily basis and never complains. Also, Kay Sillars, Fiona Montgomery, Stephen Low, Danny Phillips, and Trisha Hamilton—thank you all for reading, for the kind words and humour, kicks up the arse, and boosts of confidence whenever I need them.
Thanks to Shona Moir, for her endless and infectious enthusiasm—now hurry up and get that book finished!
Love and thanks to all my family and friends, who continue to cheer me on and tell anyone who’ll listen about my books. If you ever meet my Mum in a pub, I guarantee you’ll leave with a copy of my book ordered.
Special thanks to Tree Middlemiss, for her support and insight into the world of policing.
So much love to Lynsey Duguid, for picking up the slack and never complaining (much). Thanks for making the best tea, and for bringing biscuits and hugs with it. I couldn’t do it without you.
A heartfelt thanks to all the readers, book groups, reviewers, and champions of this genre—those who protect it fiercely and keep us writers going.
Finally, thanks to Graeme Coutts, for that line in Mine to Keep, because I forgot last time and he won’t let me hear the end of it…
To Susan—the real Work Wife
Chapter 1
The bridge was so close.
Eilidh huffed a breath and swore aloud. “Fuck.” The word came out in a prolonged wheeze. “C’mon, Grey. Nearly there. You’re. Nearly. Bloody. There.” It was a straight stretch now, less than fifty metres. She screwed her face up and focused on every step that pounded the pavement.
“Yes!” She touched the middle lamppost, threw her arms in the air, and then bent double and concentrated on taking long, slow breaths rather than the ragged ones causing stars in her vision. Finally, able to stand upright again, she leaned her thighs against the cold brick of the bridge wall and braced her arms on top of it, taking a moment to admire the view.
The River Ness wove its slow path below her. At this time of year, meandering blocks of ice jostled one another on their journey, destined to melt before they reached the great Loch Ness. Streetlights lining its banks still projected their yellow orbs; the sun hadn’t yet appeared to snuff them out. The castle on the hill glowed white under blinding floodlight, creating a ghostly effect that was surreal yet friendly, unimposing despite its fortress status.
Her gaze flitted from one landmark to the next, but always returned to the shadow of Ben Wyvis almost thirty miles in the distance. She scanned its shadowy outline as her breathing slowed and her heartrate returned to normal.
An impatient voice snapped her out of the reverie, and she turned to see a harried-looking woman headed her way, muttering obscenities into her phone. It was held in place with her shoulder, while one hand balanced a tray of four coffees and the other rooted in a huge handbag slung over the opposite shoulder.
Eilidh knew she should have called out; she saw it coming. One bag strap slipped from the stranger’s shoulder, followed in slow motion by the other. As she came level with Eilidh, the weight of the bag yanked the crook of her arm and the tray toppled. In her vain attempt to save the cups of coffee, the phone dropped with a clatter alongside one unlucky cup.
“Oh shit.” Eilidh reached to catch the underside of the bag in order to relieve the weight. “Are you okay?”
The woman flinched at first, then looked embarrassed. She glanced from the precarious tray to her phone on the ground and then the bag Eilidh was holding. “Aye, aye. I’m fine. Thank you. Would you mind?” She held the tray in Eilidh’s direction, and Eilidh dutifully took it.
The woman bent to retrieve her phone, and Eilidh winced when she saw the cracked blank screen. “Not a great start to the day, eh?”
The woman shook her head. “At least it was only the boss’s coffee I dropped.” She retrieved the now-empty cup from its brown puddle on the pavement and jammed it back in to the tray. “She never returns the favour anyway.”
Eilidh chuckled. “I’d call that karma, then.”
Knackered phone in bag, bag back on shoulder, with spots of coffee wiped from her sleeve, the woman was set. She reached for the tray. “Thanks again…” She drew the last word out, waiting for a name.
“Eilidh. And it was no problem…”
“Darcy.” The woman returned her name and held Eilidh’s gaze for a moment. She gestured around them with her free hand. “It’s rare I see anyone about the town this time of the morning. Especially on a Saturday. What on earth forces you out of bed to run before the sun comes up? In minus temperatures, no less?”
Eilidh patted a gloved hand to her tummy. “Christmas
belly. It’s my resolution to finally get rid of it.”
“Finally? It’s only the eighth of January.”
“Ah, but this band of chub has been hanging around since at least Christmas 2011.”
Darcy laughed. “Oh, I know how that goes. Good intentions in January, then suddenly you’re scoffing chocolate eggs the entire Easter weekend.”
“Exactly,” Eilidh agreed. “Then it’s summer barbecues and beer gardens, followed by an autumn of eating half a loaf with every bowl of broth.”
“And then we’re back to Christmas.” Darcy nodded her resignation. “I feel your struggle. It’s a vicious circle.”
“Indeed. Hence the six a.m. self-inflicted-pain regime. What’s your excuse for being up at this ungodly hour on a weekend?”
“Conference call to Hong Kong. They’re seven hours ahead and, apparently, it’s urgent. So…” Darcy took a cup from the tray and offered it Eilidh’s way. “I can only offer black, no sugar, I’m afraid. I’ll never survive if I don’t get my fix, and my work pal will be raging if she doesn’t get hers either. The other guy. Meh. He’ll live.”
Eilidh waved her away. “Not for me, thanks, and also not necessary. Honest. I need to get moving again and get home before I start seizing up in this cold anyway.”
“Okay, well, thanks again for your help.” Darcy glanced at her watch. “Crap, I better get a move on too. It was really nice to meet you.” She held Eilidh’s gaze for a moment longer and seemed about to say something more before changing her mind. Her head dropped. “Your shoelace is undone.”
Eilidh looked down. Oh, hell, this meant she had to squat. “Cheers for that. I hope the call goes okay.”
Darcy smiled and turned to go. Eilidh watched her a moment, making sure she didn’t turn back and catch the grimace that would accompany her squat to tie her lace.
As was her luck, midway down to the ground, Darcy turned and headed back her way. Eilidh pasted a smile on her face despite the burning in her thighs. “Hey again.”
“Hey. Erm…” Darcy shifted nervously, and Eilidh wished she’d spit it out. Her hamstrings were screaming. “I know this is random. It’s six-thirty in the morning, and we’ve only just met but…well, maybe I could buy you a coffee you might actually enjoy? To say thanks for being so kind.”
Dammit. Eilidh was pretty sure she was stuck down there now. She held up a finger. “Give me one sec.” Her gloved fingers fumbled impatiently before the lace was finally tied. Then she held up an arm. “You could return the kindness right now and help me up if you like?”
Darcy chuckled and reached a hand down for support. “I guess the seizing has already started.”
Eilidh struggled to her feet with a groan. “Yup. I’m going to pay big time for this later.” She leaned back against the bridge wall. “Thanks.”
“You’re welcome.” Darcy tugged at the thick green woollen scarf wrapped around her neck. “Does this mean we’re even and you don’t fancy that coffee?”
It finally clicked in Eilidh’s mind that Darcy wasn’t asking to say thank you. She was asking her out. Holy crap. It had been a long time. “Sure I do.” Her mouth engaged before her brain, and Darcy’s smile stopped Eilidh from backtracking. “You got a pen in that shoulder suitcase you call a bag?”
After much rummaging, Darcy produced a pen and a crumpled receipt, and Eilidh dutifully recited her number onto it. Her real number. She was doing this. She was inviting Darcy, another woman, to get in touch. To take her for coffee.
Darcy held up her broken phone as if to remind Eilidh. “As this has failed me, I’m going to be one of those people and give you a business card.” She seemed a little tentative when offering it over. “And now you know where I work.”
“Infinite Energy Renewables. Darcy Harris. Senior Engineer. Wow. That sounds cool.”
Darcy shrugged self-consciously. “Not really. It’s mostly dealing with tedious amounts of data.” She glanced at her watch again. “Okay, now I definitely have to go. It really was lovely to meet you, Eilidh. I’ll text you once my phone is fixed. Yeah?”
“Sure.” Eilidh raised a hand as Darcy headed toward the high street. “I’ll look forward to it.”
Chapter 2
Darcy managed to make it the rest of the way to the office with the three remaining coffees intact.
“It’s six forty-five on a Saturday morning and you’re smiling.” Anja popped her head above their desk divider. “There’s something wrong with you.”
“Moi?” Darcy held a hand to her chest. “I’m perfectly fine.”
“Which is why there’s something wrong with you.” Anja skirted around her desk and nabbed a coffee from the tray. She popped the top and sniffed. “Ah. Chai latte. Have I told you today that I love you?”
“You talking to me or the coffee?”
Anja took a sip and sighed with pleasure. “Both.”
Darcy relieved the tray of her own drink before turning and leaving the last one on Joe’s desk. It was guaranteed he’d arrive with a minute to spare before their seven o’clock conference call.
“So why are you so perfectly fine this morning?” Anja perched on her desk and raised an inquisitive eyebrow.
Darcy craned her neck toward their boss’s office. The door was shut, and being Saturday, no one else was around. “I think I may have got myself a date.”
“A date? Really?” Anja seemed surprised, which irked Darcy a little. “I thought you were done with that given the last disaster.”
She waved her hand dismissively. “Who hasn’t said that after a break-up? Or a no-show, as the case was last time. And the time before that.”
“And the one before that,” Anja added with a wry smile.
“Whatever.” Darcy wasn’t deterred. “We all know it really means: done with it until the next one comes along. Or jogs along like this morning.”
“You were jogging?” Now Anja’s eyebrows had shot to her hairline. “Seriously, what’s wrong with you?”
“Cheeky bitch. She was jogging, I was on my way to work. She helped me out when I dropped the boss’s coffee, and my bloody phone, so to say thanks I asked if I could buy her a cup sometime.”
“Smooth.”
“It wasn’t really. But she said yes, so that’s all that matters.”
“Who said yes to what?” Joe breezed out of the lift ruffling snow from his hair. “Snow’s on again.”
“None of your business.” Darcy glared at Anja with her ‘keep your mouth shut’ eyes. “And no shit.” She pointed at the floor-to-ceiling windows that made up the entire front of their building. It made her almost dizzy to look out. The snow was falling thick and fast.
“Aw, don’t be like that. You two never let me in on the gossip. You’re so sexist.”
Darcy nearly choked on her first sip of coffee. “Sexist? Are you kidding? More like because you’re the boss’s pet. You can’t be trusted.”
“Pftt, that’s bollocks and you know it. She’d let you away with bloody murder, Darcy.”
On cue, the boss’s door swung open and she gestured towards them. “Joe. I need you a minute first. You two”—she pointed between Anja and Darcy—“go get the video link set up.”
“Run along, pet,” Anja muttered under her breath in Joe’s direction.
He gave her the finger but obediently went on his way. When the door closed behind him, they both burst in to laughter. “Do you think they’re shagging?” It was Anja who asked what they were both thinking.
“Nah.” Darcy picked up some files and started heading in the direction of the conference room. “But I think he wishes they were.”
“I don’t know. I always thought he had a little soft spot for you, Darcy.”
“So you keep saying, but there’s no way. I’m definitely not his type. Besides, he’s certainly not mine, so what does it matter?”
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sp; “True.” Anja hit some buttons on a remote and prepared them for the call to Hong Kong. “Tell me about this mystery date, then?”
Darcy shrugged. “Nothing much else to tell. We had a bit of a laugh at my clumsiness, and despite all the sweating and red face, there was something about her that got my attention. She had a kind face, and I thought what the hell. You know I’m a sucker for the sporty kind.”
Anja rolled her eyes. “Maybe that’s where you’re going wrong? All that obsessing over miles run and calories burned—where’s the time to be someone who’s actually fun?”
“Whatever. I dropped my bloody phone, though, so I had to be all cheesy and give her a business card. Then I said I’d text her and went on my way. The end.”
“You gave her your card?” Anja stopped midway to reaching for one of the files. “She knows where you work then?”
Darcy braced herself for the telling off. “Erm…yeah.”
“For fuck’s sake, Darcy. You do remember what the police said, right? About being careful around strangers? About not handing over any personal info to someone you don’t know?”
“I know, I know.” She put on her whiny ‘please don’t be mad’ voice. “It was a moment of weakness, and by the time I thought of that I was already handing it over. I would have looked a right weirdo suddenly grabbing it back.”
“Did you not think looking like a weirdo might be better than the alternative?”
“Woah. Harsh. What happened to not thinking about worst-case stalker scenarios?”
Anja sighed. “Well, that was before you started handing out your business card to strangers you randomly meet in the city at the crack of dawn. I worry. That’s all.”
“I know.” Darcy moved to drape her arms around Anja’s shoulders. She resisted for a moment, then allowed the hug. “But if you think about it, stalker person already knows where I work. I have a dozen bouquets of flowers, chocolates, champagne, and gig tickets to prove it.”
Anja stepped away and busied herself sorting through the reports she’d need for the call. “True. Still, I’m not sure going on a date with someone you just met in the street is a good idea.”
