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by Victoria Helen Stone


  Not her mother. Nobody.”

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  I roll my eyes. “She’s missing or she ran off?”

  “I don’t know. She’s missing or kidnapped or dead.

  Anything could have happened to her, and no one even

  cares? How is that right? She’s Wesley’s sister! And if he disappeared, I’d want someone to look for him. If I weren’t here … Good Lord, I shudder to think what could happen to my son.”

  “Look, Joylene, I don’t even know this girl. I’m in

  Minnesota. I’m not a criminal attorney or a detective,

  and I’m certainly not a children’s advocate. I couldn’t

  help if I wanted to.”

  “She’s been in a little trouble,” she says, as if I haven’t spoken, “but nothing real bad. And she’s just a tiny little thing. She can’t look out for herself.”

  “Sorry.”

  “It’s not right. Everyone has just thrown her away.

  I’m not a blood relation, so no one will even return my

  phone calls!”

  “You should call an attorney in your area. Get help

  there.”

  Joylene sighs, and I’m moving the phone away from my

  ear, ready to hang up, when she speaks again. “Everyone

  always says she’s just like you, so I hoped maybe you two

  had a connection or something.”

  Frowning, I pause in mid-motion, the phone three

  inches from my ear. What does she mean, “just like” me?

  I slide the phone another inch toward the receiver,

  but I’m a cat when it comes to curiosity, so I impulsively

  change my mind and put it back to my ear. “What do

  you mean?”

  “I thought maybe you’d been involved with her when

  she was young.”

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  “No. Why do people say she’s just like me?” I’m also

  a cat when it comes to narcissism. Joylene hesitates, so

  I press harder. “She looks like me? Or she’s mouthy or

  something?”

  “Yes, she’s definitely mouthy.”

  “Good for her. She sounds like a teenager.”

  “Yeah, but…”

  I groan at her hesitation. “Joylene, I don’t have time

  for this. It’s the middle of a workday. Spit it out.”

  “Okay.” Her voice is harder now, sick of my shit.

  “Everyone says she’s a cold-blooded little bitch just like

  you always were.”

  I freeze, but my heart beats faster, harder. Just like me.

  Is it possible? My condition does run in families, especially if you throw in hardship and a healthy dose of instability.

  “Cold-blooded how?”

  “She’s a little … I don’t know. I guess she’s a little

  spooky. But that’s no reason to throw a child away! Wesley

  loves her. Or he used to, anyway. We moved to Moore,

  and he hasn’t seen her in a good three years, maybe four.

  But when she was little, she was more wild than spooky.”

  Spooky. Her chatter fades in my ears as my pulse fills my head. Ricky has a daughter who’s a spooky, cold-blooded bitch just like I am. Is it possible? A little Baby Jane out in the world?

  I settle back in my chair and cross my legs. “All right,

  Joylene, let’s start from the beginning. Tell me everything you know.”

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  She doesn’t appear sixteen in her picture. Not even close.

  She’s a weak-looking thing, scrawny and pale, and my

  first instinct when I find her photo online is to dismiss the whole story entirely. She’s nothing like me. Look at her.

  But her eyes stop me. It’s a school photo, the cheap

  blue-gray background a dead giveaway, and she doesn’t

  seem pleased to be sitting for a forced portrait. Kayla’s

  dark-blond hair is parted in the middle and falls in a flat line a couple of inches past her shoulders. Her white

  skin is dotted with freckles and her thin mouth is set

  in a stubborn line, nostrils flared, as if she’s refusing the command to smile.

  Everything about her is unremarkable, maybe even

  pitiful. Everything except the eyes. A dull green, they’re

  fixed on the camera, and if they were sad or scared, she’d

  look every inch the neglected child she likely is. But there’s no fear there. No sorrow. There’s nothing. Just a slight

  sheen of moisture and the cold emptiness of deep space.

  “Hello, hello, hello,” I whisper to my missing niece.

  She does look a little like me after all.

  I turn on my laptop camera and pose for a humorless

  full-face shot, just as Kayla did. We don’t resemble each

  other in any other way. I have dark brown hair cut in a

  fringed bob, and my face is a nice, full oval without the

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  bony angles of hers. But the spooky eyes? Yeah. Those

  are the same.

  I can cover it up by smiling, crinkling my eyes into

  little half-moons of happiness. But that takes effort to pull off, and Kayla clearly doesn’t give a shit.

  Is my niece a sociopath?

  Joylene said the girl had been in a little trouble before

  but nothing huge. A couple of fights at school. A few

  items shoplifted from the grocery store. Or maybe more

  than a few.

  “What kind of society calls the police on a child for

  stealing food?” Joylene huffed. But we all know what kind of society does that. Our kind. And Kayla had known it too, and she hadn’t been afraid to try it. Maybe she wasn’t as weak as she looked.

  There are no details about her disappearance online.

  Just her birth date and description and the day she was

  seen last on a website about missing and endangered chil-

  dren. Kayla was last seen four weeks ago, just as Joylene

  explained. She didn’t know too much beyond that. “Your

  mama says she must have run off. I called the police, and

  they said they’ve filed a missing-person report but had

  no reason to believe she was at risk. They sounded bored

  about the whole thing.”

  “And Kayla’s mother?”

  Joylene snorted. “She won’t even call me back. Your

  brother says no one has heard from Kayla, and he can’t

  do shit from prison, so to leave him alone. The end. No

  one cares, Jane. I can’t get any information from CPS or

  the county or the police because we’re not related.”

  Joylene came to the wrong place looking for concern,

  but I still find myself fascinated as I google my niece’s

  name. Did she just run away? God knows, I considered

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  it a hundred times, knowing I’d be better off without

  my shitty family weighing me down. But in the end I

  decided the free room and board was worth it. I wanted

  to finish high school so I could get to college and show

  them all how much better I was than them.

  And I did it. But maybe Kayla came up with a different

  plan. Leave these losers in the dust and hope for the best.

  Or maybe she was raped and killed and left on the

  side of the road.

  “It’s none of my business,” I tell myself aloud. But I

  still spend most of my afternoon looking up information

  on missing teens in Oklahoma. No bodies have been

  found that look like hers. No random feet w
ashed up in

  rivers. Maybe she’s just being sex trafficked.

  This time when Luke texts me, I don’t ignore him.

  Jane, come on. Can we talk?

  Yes, I write. Come by my place tonight.

  Sounds like a setup for murder??? he responds.

  I laugh at that. Maybe he knows me better than I

  think. Perhaps you can appease me with calzones

  and save yourself.

  Done.

  There’s an Italian take-out place a block from his

  condo that I love. He already knows my order. There are

  good things about being in a relationship.

  I’m not ready to give him up. I know that. But I refuse

  to hang around until he dumps me. That’s not an accept-

  able outcome, and I might lose my shit and do something

  dangerous to the next girl he sleeps with.

  A conundrum. Give him up now or later? Or …

  maybe there’s a third choice. String him along forever,

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  promising children we’ll never have. That’s an option to

  consider. I can distract him with good sex for years, and

  then I’ll surely get tired of him and walk away before he

  has a chance to realize I’ve been voluntarily infertile this whole time. I will get sick of him. Nothing lasts forever.

  The sex has to get boring at some point, and there’s not

  much more to me.

  When I leave work at six, Rob is still typing away in

  his office, hard at work, and I’ve never seen that before.

  This experience is going to be so great for his personal

  growth.

  Half an hour later, Luke knocks on the door of

  my condo. When I open it and see him, I feel strange

  inside: a tight, vibrating sensation high in my belly

  that makes me nervous. He sets the bag of food on the

  counter along with a bottle of wine and turns to face

  me. “I’m sorry I freaked you out yesterday. That wasn’t

  my intention.”

  “I know,” I respond, and then I add, “I’m sorry too,”

  because I understand that I’m supposed to, but I don’t

  know what to add after that. I don’t have anything else

  to say except Stop it, stop it, stop it, I don’t like this. But that would cause another conversation, and who can live

  like that? So instead of telling him to stop, I make him stop by sliding into his arms and squeezing him tight. He

  squeezes back and within seconds we’re kissing.

  The fight has triggered something rough and des-

  perate in him, and I like rough and desperate, so I’m

  thrilled when he backs me up to the countertop of my

  galley kitchen and lifts me onto it. He doesn’t have to

  move carefully or ask if I’m in the mood. I’ve trained

  him not to. I’ll lash out if he does. I know my own

  bad habits.

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  I groan when he shoves my skirt up, then hiss with

  pleasure when he slides his hand into my underwear to

  touch me.

  “Christ, I can’t get enough of you,” he whispers,

  and I’m suddenly filled up and overflowing with power

  and delight. I’m not a soft and caring person. I’m not

  nurturing. But I have this, damn it. And he loves it. He

  still loves it.

  “Show me,” I beg. “Fuck me.” He does.

  I don’t have a soul, but in this moment I feel as if I

  do. I feel beautiful and full and glowing with the kind

  of life that other people take for granted. Luke needs this, and I’m human for a few minutes, his soul filling me up

  as he thrusts. This is love. This is emotion.

  Is it real?

  I expand, my heart swelling until it pops wide-open

  with my climax. Then I’m myself again, my insides cool-

  ing as the sweat evaporates on my skin.

  And there are still the calzones to look forward to.

  “I missed you,” he murmurs against my neck.

  “It’s only been twenty hours.”

  He grins like an embarrassed little boy, and he’s so

  cute that I laugh and kiss him on the cheek. “Tell me

  you love me,” I demand.

  “I love you,” he says, and I know he means it, which

  is strange and wonderful and sad.

  “Me too,” I say solemnly, hoping it’s close to the

  truth. If it’s not love, it’s as near as I’ve ever gotten. “Now let’s eat.”

  “I brought your favorite wine.”

  “I saw that. How do you think we ended up on the

  counter?”

  “My boundless charm?”

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  I slide off the cold granite, pull my underwear back

  on, and open the bag of food. What a great reunion.

  By the time I pop the last bite of calzone into my

  mouth, Luke and I are sprawled on the couch, my legs

  draped over his lap, and half the bottle of wine is gone. I lick my greasy fingers and watch him watch my tongue.

  “Something weird happened today,” I say. “My niece

  is missing.”

  His reaction is delayed, because I suck a finger into

  my mouth and he finds that distracting.

  “What?” he asks.

  “My niece is missing.”

  He frowns, his head cocked, then he pushes himself

  upright on the couch. “Your niece? Jane, are you joking?”

  “No.”

  “What niece? Where? What happened?”

  “One of my brother’s many children, of course. His

  first one, I think. Down in Oklahoma. I don’t know her.”

  He only looks more alarmed. “How old is she?”

  “Sixteen.”

  “But…” He shakes his head hard, as if he’s trying to

  clear it. “How did you find out?”

  “Someone called.” He raises his eyebrows at my words

  and gestures impatiently for more information.

  Tipping my head back in weariness, I call on my

  best storytelling capabilities and find little to nothing to tap into. “One of my brother’s baby mamas tracked me

  down online and called the office. A couple of times. I

  finally took her call this afternoon. She explained the

  situation.”

  “And that situation is…?”

  “You’re a regular Curious George tonight.”

  “Jane, come on! This is awful. Tell me everything.”

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  “She’s sixteen. She’s been in a little trouble. She van-

  ished four weeks ago. Maybe she just ran away. No one

  seems to know or care.”

  “But the woman who called you cares.”

  “Yeah.” I wiggle my legs against his thighs, looking

  for attention, and he obliges by settling his hands on my

  skin. “I guess Joylene cares. But the state doesn’t care, and the cops don’t care, and neither do her parents.”

  “Jesus, they sound just like your parents.”

  “Well, the apple doesn’t fall far from the tree and all

  that. And that place is a whole goddamn orchard.”

  “Do you think she ran away?” he presses.

  I shrug. “I don’t know. If I ever met her, she was a baby

  at the time. I guess I did meet her, but I don’t remember.

  Still…” I glance at him under my lashes, studying his

  open face. “Apparently she’s a lot like me. That’s whatr />
  Joylene said. Everyone says she’s like me.”

  “Oh. How so?”

  “You know. She acts like me. And if that part is

  true, she’s logical and straightforward, so she’s prob-

  ably fine.”

  He squeezes my calf, his hand a warm anchor for my

  body. “That’s not true at all. Didn’t you need help when

  you were a little girl?”

  I shrug.

  “You did. Someone should have helped you, Jane.”

  No. Not really. I didn’t need help by the time I was

  sixteen. I needed help when I was a neglected, needy

  seven-year-old and I didn’t get it, so I learned to help

  myself. No one can go back in time and rescue baby

  Kayla any more than they can rescue stupid Baby Jane.

  What’s done is done.

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  “Anyway, she asked me to help.”

  “You should!” he says immediately.

  “How? I’d have to go down there. There’s nothing

  I can do from here.” As soon as I say it, I realize I want

  to. I want to get out of my office and stir up trouble and

  track down this girl who might be like me. I’m bored.

  And let’s face it, I don’t want to deal with Luke and his

  ridiculous fantasies about what our life could be like to-

  gether. I want to get away from here.

  “You can get some time off, can’t you? This is an

  emergency.”

  “Yes,” I answer. It’s almost inevitable now. This is how

  I make decisions. I think of something, and if I like the

  idea, I do it. Trying to deny myself just makes me cranky

  and delays the outcome. “God. If only my family were

  from Southern California. I really don’t want to waste

  vacation days in the middle of nowhere.”

  “Family leave?”

  Hmm. I don’t know the ins and outs, as I don’t have

  family, and I’m certainly not any kind of caretaker at all.

  “I’ll check into it. But maybe they’ll be sympathetic.”

  “Your niece is missing! Of course they’ll be

  sympathetic.”

  That’s news to me. Girls are thrown away all the time

  in our world. The only thing going for her is that she’s

  a white girl, but even that advantage was pretty much

  lost once she started shoplifting. And if she’s not a virgin, forget it. She’s worthless trash at this point! Not that I’ll let the firm know that.

  “You really think I should go?” I ask, not to reassure

  myself but because I want him to think he helped decide

 

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