“That fucking farmer knew,” he said. “He lives right there. What the fuck we waiting for, Lieutenant?”
Cruz had sensed something like that was coming. Time and again, he had to cope with the rage of the survivors.
“We don’t know he did it,” he said. “We’re not snuffing some farmer who’s scared shitless.”
“They blow away Hanley,” Sanchez said, “and we walk? They kill us and we don’t kill them? We should fucking burn his place so it don’t happen again!”
“And put our whole battalion in the shit?” Cruz said. “No. This is over.”
Sanchez raised the hoe high above his head, opened his hips, and swung fiercely. The iron blade buried deep into the earth, and the pole splintered. He hurled the broken handle into the creek.
“This country sucks,” he yelled. “It sucks all to hell!”
Day 1
APRIL 6
1
The Night Watchman
The San Diego courtroom looked as austere as a jail cell. The judge on the raised podium, her graying hair tied back in a bun, was briskly sorting through papers. She habitually settled the guilty pleas in the morning before court opened. A few family members were shifting uncomfortably on narrow wooden benches. Off to one side, the bailiff was shooing the guards to their assigned places. With manacles on his hands and feet, the prisoner in an orange jump suit stood erect, head bowed as though in shame. He was solidly built, with a military-style crew cut, a swollen right eye, and bandages across his cheek.
“Mr. Sanchez,” the judge said, “I’ve read the letters written on your behalf. In view of your military service, I have agreed to hear from your former commanding officer.”
She gestured at the Marine sitting in the front bench. Captain Diego Cruz got to his feet, his broad chest stretching the seams of his crisp khaki shirt with four rows of colored ribbons. His eyes seemed strangely soft in a face stern and unyielding.
“Captain, Mr. Sanchez pleaded guilty,” the judge said. “And he has three prior convictions, all drug related.”
She held up a few handwritten letters.
“What can you add to these appeals?” she said.
“Sanchez fell apart, Your Honor,” Cruz said. “He didn’t intend to harm anyone, only himself.”
The judge had expected to hear a booming voice, but Cruz spoke with a high-pitched, lilting cadence. Surprised, she shook her head as she looked down at her papers.
“He drunkenly stormed into a 7-Eleven with a rifle,” she said, “and opened fire! Life imprisonment is the guideline for attempted murder.”
The public defender who had requested Cruz’s presence had warned him to be brief. The judge had a full docket and a brusque manner.
“Your Honor,” Cruz said, “he fired into the ceiling. I think he wanted the police to kill him. I’ve seen Sanchez make a head shot at five hundred meters. If he wanted to smoke someone, he would’ve done it.”
“He’s misguided?” she said. “The war made him do it? That’s the excuse you’re offering?”
Cruz hesitated to find the right words.
“No, Sanchez deserves punishment,” he said. “He got sick of his life and dove off the deep end. But when he was in my platoon, he obeyed orders, didn’t flinch, and took care of his brothers. He’s not a punk criminal.”
The judge looked at him quizzically.
“Not a criminal?” she said. “We’re in San Diego, Captain, not on some battlefield. The past has no bearing on his actions.”
Cruz felt the anger surge inside him like an electric current. How do you know? he thought. You weren’t out there. He almost blurted it out. Then he thought of Jenny’s warnings and amended his reply.
“Sanchez came home carrying a heavy load, Your Honor,” he said quietly. “He hasn’t cut it loose.”
The judge leaned forward to appraise his hard face. Cruz returned her stare without blinking.
“In your laconic way, Captain,” she said, “I believe you’re telling me something.”
AFTER LEAVING THE COURTROOM, Cruz drove to the Marine Corps Recruit Depot near the downtown airport. On the enormous grinder, a 180-man company of trim recruits was marching past the reviewing stands to the cheers of their proud parents. The band was playing John Philip Sousa’s “Pass In Review,” the snappy tune echoing off the stucco walls of the beige Spanish-style buildings with their domed walkways and terra-cotta roofs.
Unnoticed, Cruz stood behind a group of captains watching the ceremony. Two years ago, he had been a series officer training recruits like those he was now watching. He had loved that job, supervising the drill instructors who in thirteen arduous weeks turned green teenagers into fledgling Marines. Then last year, he was assigned to the admin staff, where his discomfit with paperwork and lack of proper syntax became all too evident. On his fitness report, he was rated “average,” a failing grade.
The list for promotion to major had been posted on the internet last night. Of the five captains eligible for promotion, four had been picked up. Cruz was the one left off the list. Despite his Bronze Star and Purple Heart, he would remain a captain, to be reevaluated next year.
When the parade ended, the other captains turned around to greet him with the usual smattering of “bros,” quick pats on the shoulder, and a few knuckle-knocks to celebrate having the rest of the day off. Cruz mumbled short replies and forced a halfway grin that looked like it was chiseled in stone. For a few minutes, they stood around awkwardly, none wanting to bring up the subject.
“I better hit the books,” Cruz finally said. “I got an afternoon class.”
He walked away, feeling isolated and alone, shut off from friends who were now his superiors. His work schedule allowed flextime to work on his master’s at San Diego State. He liked the art appreciation class. Maybe that would distract him.
When he arrived at the classroom, he sat in his usual seat in the rear tier. The professor was clicking through the Impressionist Period. The screen showed a painting of two women strolling through a field of blazing scarlet flowers under an azure sky.
“Notice,” the professor said, “how the sky sheds light upon the poppies.”
Cruz slightly shook his head just as the professor happened to look in his direction. He rarely spoke in class, and she remembered his name only because on each Friday he wore his uniform.
“Mr. Cruz,” she said, “you disapprove of Monet?”
Surprised, Cruz blurted out what he had been thinking.
“I didn’t know,” he said, “there were corn poppies in France.”
“Corn?”
“Imitation. The petals on real poppies have softer shades,” he said. “Their sap looks like fried bacon or cow dung. Monet wouldn’t paint that.”
A few in the class snickered. Caught off guard, the professor responded defensively.
“Monet lived in Paris, Mr. Cruz,” she said, “not in some Third World country. Your reference to fauna is not relevant,”
With a wave of her hand, she clicked on the next slide.
Not relevant, Cruz thought. Meaning you think I’m out of place in your classroom. You’re right. Damned if I know anymore where I belong.
FOLLOWING CLASS, CRUZ PICKED UP his four-year-old, Josh, at the prekindergarten school on base and drove through a quiet neighborhood to his neat bungalow. Josh was strapped in the infant seat in the back, and Cruz absentmindedly mumbled a few replies to his son’s perky questions. When he lifted Josh to the ground, his son clung to his leg. Surprised, Cruz looked down.
“Daddy’s sad,” Josh said.
Cruz dropped to one knee, hiding his tears as he hugged his son. I haven’t taken care of you, he thought. I didn’t make the grade.
“No, no,” he said. “Daddy’s not sad. Now let’s get you into the pool!”
Soon, Josh was splashing merrily in the rubber wading pool in the backyard. Cruz sat in a beach chair, tapping a beer bottle against his front teeth, trying not to drink or think. He forced his min
d to remain blank. Around five, Navy Lieutenant Jennifer Cruz arrived home from the nearby naval base at Point Mugu. After she changed out of her uniform, they sat in the backyard sipping beers.
“Add any names to the list?” Cruz said.
“Yep,” Jennifer said. “One O’Brien and a John Smith.”
It was their standard joke. Jennifer ran an intel team on the 3rd Fleet staff, providing a threat folder for each ship sailing to the Gulf. The Secretary of the Navy, a defeated governor, had criticized the folders as racial profiling, composed of only Muslim names. Since then, every folder included a few Caucasians, selected randomly from the FBI Most Wanted list.
Cruz nodded in a distracted way.
“Why the glum face?” she asked. “How’d court go?”
“Sanchez got seven years.” he said. “The public defender said that was light.”
“Did you mention the phone calls?” she said. “You’ve tried to settle him down, what, eight or ten times?”
“That was between Sanchez and me,” Cruz said. “The 7-Eleven stunt was different. I did tell the judge he was mission reliable.”
She looked down at her hands before speaking carefully.
“We’re back to that again?” she said. “You have to stop comparing everything to performance in the field. You put people off.”
That isn’t the half of it, Cruz thought. All day he had been mulling how to tell her he’d been passed over. When he didn’t respond, Jennifer gently kicked at his foot.
“Earth calling Silent Sam,” she said. “Anyone home up there?”
He smiled a grimace and didn’t answer.
“OK, next question,” she said. “How’d class go?”
“I told the professor that Monet didn’t paint real poppies” he said. “That irritated her.”
Jennifer drew in a breath.
“In one day, you’ve angered a judge and a teacher. That’s above quota, even for you. But stop brooding. Cheer up! You’re taking Josh and me to the beach tomorrow, and we have that barbeque on Sunday.”
Having played on the women’s soccer team at Cal State, Jennifer shared Cruz’s compulsion to stay in shape. By far the better long-distance runner, she chattered merrily on their weekend ten-mile runs as Cruz plodded along, adding an occasional “uh-huh.” Where she was bubbly, he was terse. Small talk didn’t come easily to him, and she organized their social life.
Jennifer was self-confident and Josh was a joy. Cruz felt he was the miserable failure. As he was brooding, his cell phone rang. Seeing the number came from on base, he answered formally.
“Captain Cruz.”
“Cruz, Inchon Six here,” Lieutenant General Paul Killian said. “I have a bit of problem you might help with.”
Cruz walked inside to take notes. Inchon Six had been Killian’s radio call sign in Afghanistan. Back then, he had accompanied Cruz on several patrols. In the five years since, Cruz had spoken to Killian only a few times at review parades. Now the general was the Marine deputy commander at the Central Command, with headquarters in Tampa, Florida. On the phone, his manner was still preemptory.
“Standing by to copy, sir,” he said.
“I’m sending an artillery battery back into Helmand,” Killian said. “A temporary op. The security platoon commander has come down with an appendicitis, and I’d like you to replace him.”
Cruz felt he’d been punched in the gut. He was a captain, yet the general wanted him to take a lieutenant’s job. A platoon? He’d done that twice. He blurted out his hurt.
“A security platoon, sir?” he said in a strained voice. “You want me to babysit arty tubes? Check the wire twice a day?”
“Captain, take a deep breath and listen,” Killian said in very much a general’s voice. “I saw the major’s list. In my opinion, you slipped on a banana peel. You’re not cut out for admin duty. Now open your ears. Commanding this platoon puts distance between you and that fitrep. Once you’re evaluated in your natural environment, you’ll make major. Are you clear on what I’m offering?”
Cruz calmed down and gathered himself. All he had to do was check guard posts and he’d be rated “Outstanding.” It might look absurd—being rated first in a field of one—but it would help with the next promotion board. Killian was extending a lifeline.
“I understand, sir,” he said.
“Took you long enough to get the message,” Killian said crisply. “And stow that talk about babysitting. Hell, I’m stuck in the Pentagon doing liaison work for this op. At least you’ll get your boots dirty. Are you in?”
“When, sir?” Cruz said.
“That’s a slight problem,” Killian said. “It’s wheels-up in twelve hours. Not much time. Want to talk to your wife and call me back?”
Cruz didn’t hesitate. This was his way out.
“I’d be glad to take the platoon, sir.”
“Good. Take this down and get your ass in gear.”
After writing down the details, Cruz hung up and walked outside. Jennifer, her back to him, was wrapping Josh in a towel. She didn’t say a word.
“I’m making a short hop to Helmand,” he said apologetically. “The general…”
She whirled around and cut him off.
“Helmand! That horrid place?” she said. “The general calls and all of a sudden our lives change? You’re shipping off again, thinking only of yourself? We were sitting right here and you never even looked at us. What’s the matter with you?”
She was trembling with anger, and Josh had buried his head against her legs.
“It’s not a real deployment,” he said, “only a week of checking lines for an arty battery.”
Jennifer flared up.
“Do you know how absurd that sounds?” she said. “You’re going over with artillery, and you expect me to believe there’ll be no trauma? Something happens every damn time.”
The prior deployments had taken their toll on her, the calls from the command centers, the vales of tears, and the trips to Balboa Hospital where those with missing limbs comforted those who came to console them.
“Someone has to take care of those kids,” Cruz said. “I doubt any of them have been there before.”
Cruz knew how flimsy that sounded. Jennifer wasn’t buying it.
“The troops? Weren’t four deployments enough? I thought that was behind you. What about Josh and me and…”
She almost let it slip that she was pregnant. She stopped talking, determined not to heap on guilt. Her husband had to make up his own mind.
Cruz felt penned in, his thoughts churning. It was stupid to tell Killian yes before talking it through with Jenny. Fuck, he thought. I’ve messed up royally.
“You’re right, babe,” he said. “I was selfish. I’ll tell the general no.”
Jennifer studied his square, stoic face.
“I don’t mean to whine,” she said. “Before you call, look me in the eye and tell me why you said yes in the first place.”
Cruz looked down at the floor for a few seconds.
“Hey, buster,” Jennifer said, “don’t wimp out. I’m waiting for your answer.”
Cruz let his hurt burst out.
“I’m a thirty-four-year-old captain,” he said, “prior enlisted, a mustang with a state college degree. You know I hate my job on the admin staff.”
Jennifer smiled wryly.
“So you were flattered the general called?”
Cruz nodded.
“He was out there with me,” he said. “So yeah, I felt good he called.”
“At last, the truth,” she said softly. “It’s an ego trip.”
Her disappointment in him hit home. Cruz let his depression burst to the surface.
“The truth is we’re not fighting anymore and I’m not needed. In a few years I’ll be lucky to teach Spanish in some high school.”
Jennifer drew back in disbelief.
“You’re twenty years beyond that,” she said. “You didn’t learn English until you were ten, and now you’re w
orking on your MA. You don’t speak Spanish even to Josh. People say your diction’s more from Boston than Bogota. The Marine Corps is your career. What’s gotten into you?”
Cruz wanted to crawl inside himself and disappear. He drew a breath and let it out, the words strangling him.
“The list for major was posted. I didn’t make it.”
Jennifer stood still for a moment. Then she reached out, tears welling in her eyes.
“Oh, baby, I’m so sorry. You worked so hard. This is absolutely unfair. No wonder you’re upset! There has to be a mistake.”
Cruz shook his head.
“I suck at admin,” he said. “Colonel Tobin counseled me about it. I didn’t tell you.”
Jenny flared into full defense mood.
“Tobin has the IQ of a file cabinet,” she said. “He wouldn’t hack it on my staff.”
“He signed my last fitness report,” Cruz said. “I’m the one who didn’t hack it.”
He felt deflated. He’d let down Jenny and Josh, but didn’t want to lose them. He’d call the general and say no. As he picked up his cell phone, Jennifer touched his arm.
“The general called to help? That’s what this is all about, isn’t it?”
Cruz thought back on Killian’s words.
“He did say the deployment would be a plus,” Cruz said. “But I should’ve talked it over with you. Forget I mentioned it. I’m not going.”
Jennifer dabbed at her eyes and tried to smile.
“Put that phone away,” she said. “I want you to go. It’s a chance to show what you’re good at. But honey, you have to improve your technique for telling people bad news. Now give me a hug. And, I expect a tasteful present by way of apology.”
As she buried her face into his chest, Josh mimicked the gesture by wrapping his arms around Cruz’s knee. Cruz felt a sense of relief and a tinge of hope. The general had handed him a mission he could perform in his sleep.
“This op’s so short,” he said, “that I’ll be back before I’m gone.”
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