Perhaps some sorrow — the actuality being vague in her mind; perhaps some hidden suffering — but she learned that he had never been wounded in battle and had never even had measles.
The sudden sullen pallor, the capricious fits of silent reserve, the smiling aloofness, she never attributed to the real source. How could she? The Incomprehensible Thing was a Finality accomplished according to law. And the woman concerned was now another man’s wife. Which conclusively proved that there could be no regret arising from the Incomprehensible Finality, and that nobody involved cared, much less suffered. Hence that was certainly not the cause of any erratic or specific phenomena exhibited by this sample of man who differed, as she had noticed, somewhat from the rank and file of his neutral-tinted brothers.
“It’s this particular specimen, per se,” she concluded; “it’s himself, sui generis — just as I happen to have red hair. That is all.”
And she rode on quite happily, content, confident of his interest and kindness. For she had never forgotten his warm response to her when she stood on the threshold of her first real dinner party, in her first real dinner gown — a trivial incident, trivial words! But they had meant more to her than any man specimen could understand — including the man who had uttered them; and the violets, which she found later with his card, must remain for her ever after the delicately fragrant symbol of all he had done for her in a solitude, the completeness of which she herself was only vaguely beginning to realise.
Thinking of this now, she thought of her brother — and the old hurt at his absence on that night throbbed again. Forgive? Yes. But how could she forget it?
“I wish you knew Gerald well,” she said impulsively; “he is such a dear fellow; and I think you’d be good for him — and besides,” she hastened to add, with instinctive loyalty, lest he misconstrue, “Gerald would be good for you. We were a great deal together — at one time.”
He nodded, smilingly attentive.
“Of course when he went away to school it was different,” she added. “And then he went to Yale; that was four more years, you see.”
“I was a Yale man,” remarked Selwyn; “did he—” but he broke off abruptly, for he knew quite well that young Erroll could have made no senior society without his hearing of it. And he had not heard of it — not in the cane-brakes of Leyte where, on his sweat-soaked shirt, a small pin of heavy gold had clung through many a hike and many a scout and by many a camp-fire where the talk was of home and of the chances of crews and of quarter-backs.
“What were you going to ask me, Captain Selwyn?”
“Did he row — your brother Gerald?”
“No,” she said. She did not add that he had broken training; that was her own sorrow, to be concealed even from Gerald. “No; he played polo sometimes. He rides beautifully, Captain Selwyn, and he is so clever when he cares to be — at the traps, for example — and — oh — anything. He once swam — oh, dear, I forget; was it five or fifteen or fifty miles? Is that too far? Do people swim those distances?”
“Some of those distances,” replied Selwyn.
“Well, then, Gerald swam some of those distances — and everybody was amazed. . . . I do wish you knew him well.”
“I mean to,” he said. “I must look him up at his rooms or his club or — perhaps — at Neergard & Co.”
“Will you do this?” she asked, so earnestly that he glanced up surprised.
“Yes,” he said; and after a moment: “I’ll do it to-day, I think; this afternoon.”
“Have you time? You mustn’t let me—”
“Time?” he repeated; “I have nothing else, except a watch to help me get rid of it.”
“I’m afraid I help you get rid of it, too. I heard Nina warning the children to let you alone occasionally — and I suppose she meant that for me, too. But I only take your mornings, don’t I? Nina is unreasonable; I never bother you in the afternoons or evenings; do you know I have not dined at home for nearly a month — except when we’ve asked people?”
“Are you having a good time?” he asked condescendingly, but without intention.
“Heavenly. How can you ask that? — with every day filled and a chance to decline something every day. If you’d only go to one — just one of the dances and teas and dinners, you’d be able to see for yourself what a good time I am having. . . . I don’t know why I should be so delightfully lucky, but everybody asks me to dance, and every man I meet is particularly nice, and nobody has been very horrid to me; perhaps because I like everybody—”
She rode on beside him; they were walking their horses now; and as her silken-coated mount paced forward through the sunshine she sat at ease, straight as a slender Amazon in her habit, ruddy hair glistening at the nape of her neck, the scarlet of her lips always a vivid contrast to that wonderful unblemished skin of snow.
He thought to himself, quite impersonally: “She’s a real beauty, that youngster. No wonder they ask her to dance and nobody is horrid. Men are likely enough to go quite mad about her as Nina predicts: probably some of ’em have already — that chuckle-headed youth who was there Tuesday, gulping up the tea—” And, “What was his name?” he asked aloud.
“Whose name?” she inquired, roused by his voice from smiling retrospection.
“That chuckle head — the young man who continued to haunt you so persistently when you poured tea for Nina on Tuesday. Of course they all haunted you,” he explained politely, as she shook her head in sign of non-comprehension; “but there was one who — ah — gulped at his cup.”
“Please — you are rather dreadful, aren’t you?”
“Yes. So was he; I mean the infatuated chinless gentleman whose facial ensemble remotely resembled the features of a pleased and placid lizard of the Reptilian period.”
“Oh, George Fane! That is particularly disagreeable of you, Captain Selwyn, because his wife has been very nice to me — Rosamund Fane — and she spoke most cordially of you—”
“Which one was she?”
“The Dresden china one. She looks — she simply cannot look as though she were married. It’s most amusing — for people always take her for somebody’s youngest sister who will be out next winter. . . . Don’t you remember seeing her?”
“No, I don’t. But there were dozens coming and going every minute whom I didn’t know. Still, I behaved well, didn’t I?”
“Pretty badly — to Kathleen Lawn, whom you cornered so that she couldn’t escape until her mother made her go without any tea.”
“Was that the reason that old lady looked at me so queerly?”
“Probably. I did, too, but you were taking chances, not hints. . . . She is attractive, isn’t she?”
“Very fetching,” he said, leaning down to examine his stirrup leathers which he had already lengthened twice. “I’ve got to have Cummins punch these again,” he muttered; “or am I growing queer-legged in my old age?”
As he straightened up, Miss Erroll said: “Here comes Mr. Fane now — with a strikingly pretty girl. How beautifully they are mounted” — smilingly returning Fane’s salute— “and she — oh! so you do know her, Captain Selwyn? Who is she?”
Crop raised mechanically in dazed salute, Selwyn’s light touch on the bridle had tightened to a nervous clutch which brought his horse up sharply.
“What is it?” she asked, drawing bridle in her turn and looking back into his white, stupefied face.
“Pain,” he said, unconscious that he spoke. At the same instant the stunned eyes found their focus — and found her beside his stirrup, leaning wide from her seat in sweet concern, one gloved hand resting on the pommel of his saddle.
“Are you ill?” she asked; “shall we dismount? If you feel dizzy, please lean against me.”
“I am all right,” he said coolly; and as she recovered her seat he set his horse in motion. His face had become very red now; he looked at her, then beyond her, with all the deliberate concentration of aloof indifference.
Confused, conscious that somet
hing had happened which she did not comprehend, and sensitively aware of the preoccupation which, if it did not ignore her, accepted her presence as of no consequence, she permitted her horse to set his own pace.
Neither self-command nor self-control was lacking now in Selwyn; he simply was too self-absorbed to care what she thought — whether she thought at all. And into his consciousness, throbbing heavily under the rushing reaction from shock, crowded the crude fact that Alixe was no longer an apparition evoked in sleeplessness, in sun-lit brooding; in the solitude of crowded avenues and swarming streets; she was an actual presence again in his life — she was here, bodily, unchanged — unchanged! — for he had conceived a strange idea that she must have changed physically, that her appearance had altered. He knew it was a grotesquely senseless idea, but it clung to him, and he had nursed it unconsciously.
He had, truly enough, expected to encounter her in life again — somewhere; though what he had been preparing to see, Heaven alone knew; but certainly not the supple, laughing girl he had known — that smooth, slender, dark-eyed, dainty visitor who had played at marriage with him through a troubled and unreal dream; and was gone when he awoke — so swift the brief two years had passed, as swift in sorrow as in happiness.
Two vision-tinted years! — ended as an hour ends with the muffled chimes of a clock, leaving the air of an empty room vibrant. Two years! — a swift, restless dream aglow with exotic colour, echoing with laughter and bugle-call and the noise of the surf on Samar rocks — a dream through which stirred the rustle of strange brocades and the whisper of breezes blowing over the grasses of Leyte; and the light, dry report of rifles, and the shuffle of bare feet in darkened bungalows, and the whisper of dawn in Manila town.
Two years! — wherever they came from, wherever they had gone. And now, out of the ghostly, shadowy memory, behold her stepping into the world again! — living, breathing, quickening with the fire of life undimmed in her. And he had seen the bright colour spreading to her eyes, and the dark eyes widen to his stare; he had seen the vivid blush, the forced smile, the nod, the voiceless parting of her stiffened lips. Then she was gone, leaving the whole world peopled with her living presence and the very sky ringing with the words her lips had never uttered, never would utter while sun and moon and stars endured.
Shrinking from the clamouring tumult of his thoughts he looked around, hard-eyed and drawn of mouth, to find Miss Erroll riding a length in advance, her gaze fixed resolutely between her horse’s ears.
How much had she noticed? How much had she divined? — this straight, white-throated young girl, with her self-possession and her rounded, firm young figure, this child with the pure, curved cheek, the clear, fearless eyes, untainted, ignorant, incredulous of shame, of evil.
Severe, confident, untroubled in the freshness of adolescence, she rode on, straight before her, symbolic innocence leading the disillusioned. And he followed, hard, dry eyes narrowing, ever narrowing and flinching under the smiling gaze of the dark-eyed, red-mouthed ghost that sat there on his saddle bow, facing him, almost in his very arms.
Luncheon had not been served when they returned. Without lingering on the landing as usual, they exchanged a formal word or two, then Eileen mounted to her own quarters and Selwyn walked nervously through the library, where he saw Nina evidently prepared for some mid-day festivity, for she wore hat and furs, and the brougham was outside.
“Oh, Phil,” she said, “Eileen probably forgot that I was going out; it’s a directors’ luncheon at the exchange. Please tell Eileen that I can’t wait for her; where is she?”
“Dressing, I suppose. Nina, I—”
“One moment, dear. I promised the children that you would lunch with them in the nursery. Do you mind? I did it to keep them quiet; I was weak enough to compromise between a fox hunt or fudge; so I said you’d lunch with them.. Will you?”
“Certainly. . . . And, Nina — what sort of a man is this George Fane?”
“Fane?”
“Yes — the chinless gentleman with gentle brown and protruding eyes and the expression of a tame brontosaurus.”
“Why — how do you mean, Phil? What sort of man? He’s a banker. He isn’t very pretty, but he’s popular.”
“Oh, popular!” he nodded, as close to a sneer as he could ever get.
“He has a very popular wife, too; haven’t you met Rosamund? People like him; he’s about everywhere — very useful, very devoted to pretty women; but I’m really in a hurry, Phil. Won’t you please explain to Eileen that I couldn’t wait? You and she were almost an hour late. Now I must pick up my skirts and fly, or there’ll be some indignant dowagers downtown. . . . Good-bye, dear. . . . And don’t let the children eat too fast! Make Drina take thirty-six chews to every bite; and Winthrop is to have no bread if he has potatoes—” Her voice dwindled and died, away through the hall; the front door clanged.
He went to his quarters, drove out Austin’s man, arranged his own fresh linen, took a sulky plunge; and, an unlighted cigarette between his teeth, completed his dressing in sullen introspection.
When he had tied his scarf and bitten his cigarette to pieces, he paced the room once or twice, squared his shoulders, breathed deeply, and, unbending his eyebrows, walked off to the nursery.
“Hello, you kids!” he said, with an effort. “I’ve come to luncheon. Very nice of you to want me, Drina.”
“I wanted you, too!” said Billy; “I’m to sit beside you—”
“So am I,” observed Drina, pushing Winthrop out of the chair and sliding in close to Selwyn. She had the cat, Kit-Ki, in her arms. Kit-Ki, divining nourishment, was purring loudly.
Josephine and Clemence, in pinafores and stickout skirts, sat wriggling, with Winthrop between them; the five dogs sat in a row behind; Katie and Bridget assumed the functions of Hibernian Hebes; and luncheon began with a clatter of spoons.
It being also the children’s dinner — supper and bed occurring from five to six — meat figured on the card, and Kit-Ki’s purring increased to an ecstatic and wheezy squeal, and her rigid tail, as she stood up on Drina’s lap, was constantly brushing Selwyn’s features.
“The cat is shedding, too,” he remarked, as he dodged her caudal appendage for the twentieth time; “it will go in with the next spoonful, Drina, if you’re not careful about opening your mouth.”
“I love Kit-Ki,” said Drina placidly. “I have written a poem to her — where is it? — hand it to me, Bridget.”
And, laying down her fork and crossing her bare legs under the table, Drina took breath and read rapidly:
“LINES TO MY CAT
“Why
Do I love Kit-Ki
And run after
Her with laughter
And rub her fur
So she will purr?
Why do I know
That Kit-Ki loves me so?
I know it if
Her tail stands up stiff
And she beguiles
Me with smiles—”
“Huh!” said Billy, “cats don’t smile!”
“They do. When they look pleasant they smile,” said Drina, and continued reading from her own works:
“Be kind in all
You say and do
For God made Kit-Ki
The same as you.
“Yours truly,
“ALEXANDRINA GERARD.
She looked doubtfully at Selwyn. “Is it all right to sign a poem? I believe that poets sign their works, don’t they, Uncle Philip?”
“Certainly. Drina, I’ll give you a dollar for that poem.”
“You may have it, anyway,” said Drina, generously; and, as an after-thought: “My birthday is next Wednesday.”
“What a hint!” jeered Billy, casting a morsel at the dogs.
“It isn’t a hint. It had nothing to do with my poem, and I’ll write you several more, Uncle Philip,” protested the child, cuddling against him, spoon in hand, and inadvertently decorating his sleeve with cranberry sauce.
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hairs and cranberry are a great deal for a man to endure, but he gave Drina a reassuring hug and a whisper, and leaned back to remove traces of the affectionate encounter just as Miss Erroll entered.
“Oh, Eileen! Eileen!” cried the children; “are you coming to luncheon with us?”
As Selwyn rose, she nodded, amused.
“I am rather hurt,” she said. “I went down to luncheon, but as soon as I heard where you all were I marched straight up here to demand the reason of my ostracism.”
“We thought you had gone with mother,” explained Drina, looking about for a chair.
Selwyn brought it. “I was commissioned to say that Nina couldn’t wait — dowagers and cakes and all that, you know. Won’t you sit down? It’s rather messy and the cat is the guest of honour.”
“We have three guests of honour,” said Drina; “you, Eileen, and Kit-Ki. Uncle Philip, mother has forbidden me to speak of it, so I shall tell her and be punished — but wouldn’t it be splendid if Aunt Alixe were only here with us?”
Selwyn turned sharply, every atom of colour gone; and the child smiled up at him. “Wouldn’t it?” she pleaded.
“Yes,” he said, so quietly that something silenced the child. And Eileen, giving ostentatious and undivided attention to the dogs, was now enveloped by snooping, eager muzzles and frantically wagging tails.
“My lap is full of paws!” she exclaimed; “take them away, Katie! And oh! — my gown, my gown! — Billy, stop waving your tumbler around my face! If you spill that milk on me I shall ask your Uncle Philip to put you in the guard-house!”
“You’re going to bolo us, aren’t you, Uncle Philip?” inquired Billy. “It’s my turn to be killed, you remember—”
“I have an idea,” said Selwyn, “that Miss Erroll is going to play for you to sing.”
They liked that. The infant Gerards were musically inclined, and nothing pleased them better than to lift their voices in unison. Besides, it always distressed Kit-Ki, and they never tired laughing to see the unhappy cat retreat before the first minor chord struck on the piano. More than that, the dogs always protested, noses pointed heavenward. It meant noise, which was always welcome in any form.
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