“Yes, oh, yes, it is!” she murmured; “I am so happy, so proud — but I knew it was in your blood, Phil; I knew that you were merely hurt and stunned — badly hurt, but not fatally! — you could not be; no weaklings come from our race.”
“But still our race has always been law-abiding — observant of civil and religious law. If I make myself free again, I take some laws into my own hands.”.
“How do you mean?” she asked.
“Well,” he said grimly, “for example, I am forbidden, in some States, to marry again—”
“But you know there was no reason for that!”
“Yes, I do happen to know; but still I am taking the liberty of disregarding the law if I do. Then, what clergyman, of our faith, would marry me to anybody?”
“That, too, you know is not just, Phil. You were innocent of wrong-doing; you were chivalrous enough to make no defence—”
“Wrong-doing? Nina, I was such a fool that I was innocent of sense enough to do either good or evil. Yet I did do harm; there never was such a thing as a harmless fool. But all I can do is to go and sin no more; yet there is little merit in good conduct if one hides in a hole too small to admit temptation. No; there are laws civil and laws ecclesiastical; and sometimes I think a man is justified in repealing the form and retaining the substance of them, and remoulding it for purposes of self-government; as I do, now. . . . Once, oppressed by form and theory, I told you that to remarry after divorce was a slap at civilisation. . . . Which is true sometimes and sometimes not. Common sense, not laws, must govern a man in that matter. But if any motive except desire to be a decent citizen sways a self-punished man toward self-leniency, then is he unpardonable if he breaks those laws which truly were fashioned for such as he!”
“Saint Simon! Saint Simon! Will you please arise, stretch your limbs, and descend from your pillar?” said Nina; “because I am going to say something that is very, very serious; and very near my heart.”
“I remember,” he said; “it’s about Eileen, isn’t it?”
“Yes, it is about Eileen.”
He waited; and again his sister’s eyes began restlessly searching his for something that she seemed unable to find.
“You make it a little difficult, Phil; I don’t believe I had better speak of it.”
“Why not?”
“Why, just because you ask me ‘why not?’ for example.”
“Is it anything that worries you about Eileen?”
“N-no; not exactly. It is — it may be a phase; and yet I know that if it is anything at all it is not a passing phase. She is different from the majority, you see — very intelligent, very direct. She never forgets — for example. Her loyalty is quite remarkable, Phil. She is very intense in her — her beliefs — the more so because she is unusually free from impulse — even quite ignorant of the deeper emotions; or so I believed until — until—”
“Is she in love?” he asked.
“A little, Phil.”
“Does she admit it?” he demanded, unpleasantly astonished.
“She admits it in a dozen innocent ways to me who can understand her; but to herself she has not admitted it, I think — could not admit it yet; because — because—”
“Who is it?” asked Selwyn; and there was in his voice the slightest undertone of a growl.
“Dear, shall I tell you?”
“Why not?”
“Because — because — Phil, I think that our pretty Eileen is a little in love with — you.”
He straightened out to his full height, scarlet to the temples; she dropped her linked fingers in her lap, gazing at him almost sadly.
“Dear, all the things you are preparing to shout at me are quite useless; I know; I don’t imagine, I don’t forestall, I don’t predict. I am not discounting any hopes of mine, because, Phil, I had not thought — had not planned such a thing — between you and Eileen — I don’t know why. But I had not; there was Suddy Gray — a nice boy, perfectly qualified; and there were alternates more worldly, perhaps. But I did not think of you; and that is what now amazes and humiliates me; because it was the obvious that I overlooked — the most perfectly natural—”
“Nina! you are madder than a March heiress!”
“Air your theories, Phil, then come back to realities. The conditions remain; Eileen is certainly a little in love with you; and a little with her means something. And you, evidently, have never harboured any serious intentions toward the child; I can see that, because you are the most transparent man I ever knew. Now, the question is, what is to be done?”
“Done? Good heavens! Nothing, of course! There’s nothing to do anything about! Nina, you are the most credulous little matchmaker that ever—”
“Oh, Phil, must I listen to all those fulminations before you come down to the plain fact? And it’s plain to me as the nose on your countenance; and I don’t know what to do about it! I certainly was a perfect fool to confide in you, for you are exhibiting the coolness and sagacity of a stampeded chicken.”
He laughed in spite of himself; then, realising a little what her confidence had meant, he turned a richer red and slowly lifted his fingers to his moustache, while his perplexed gray eyes began to narrow as though sun-dazzled.
“I am, of course, obliged to believe that you are mistaken,” he said; “a man cannot choose but believe in that manner. . . . There is no very young girl — nobody, old or young, whom I like as thoroughly as I do Eileen Erroll. She knows it; so do you, Nina. It is open and above-board. . . . I should be very unhappy if anything marred or distorted our friendship. . . . I am quite confident that nothing will.”
“In that frame of mind,” said his sister, smiling, “you are the healthiest companion in the world for her, for you will either cure her, or she you; and it is all right either way.”
“Certainly it will be all right,” he said confidently.
For a few moments he paced the room, reflective, quickening his pace all the while; and his sister watched him, silent in her indecision.
“I’m going up to see the kids,” he said abruptly.
The children, one and all, were in the Park; but Eileen was sewing in the nursery, and his sister did not call him back as he swung out of the room and up the stairs. But when he had disappeared, Nina dropped into her chair, aware that she had played her best card prematurely; forced by Rosamund, who had just told her that rumour continued to be very busy coupling her brother’s name with the name of the woman who once had been his wife.
Nina was now thoroughly convinced of Alixe’s unusual capacity for making mischief.
She had known Alixe always — and she had seen her develop from a talented, restless, erratic, emotional girl, easily moved to generosity, into an impulsive woman, reckless to the point of ruthlessness when ennui and unhappiness stampeded her; a woman not deliberately selfish, not wittingly immoral, for she lacked the passion which her emotion was sometimes mistaken for; and she was kind by instinct.
Sufficiently intelligent to suffer from the lack of it in others, cultured to the point of recognising culture, her dangerous unsoundness lay in her utter lack of mental stamina when conditions became unpleasant beyond her will, not her ability to endure them.
The consequences of her own errors she refused to be burdened with; to escape somehow, was her paramount impulse, and she always tried to — had always attempted it even in school-days — and farther back when Nina first remembered her as a thin, eager, restless little girl scampering from one scrape into another at full speed. Even in those days there were moments when Nina believed her to be actually irrational, but there was every reason not to say so to the heedless scatterbrain whose father, in the prime of life, sat all day in his room, his faded eyes fixed wistfully on the childish toys which his attendant brought to him from his daughter’s nursery.
All this Nina was remembering; and again she wondered bitterly at Alixe’s treatment of her brother, and what explanation there could ever be for it — except one.
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nbsp; Lately, too, Alixe had scarcely been at pains to conceal her contempt for her husband, if what Rosamund related was true. It was only one more headlong scrape, this second marriage, and Nina knew Alixe well enough to expect the usual stampede toward that gay phantom which was always beckoning onward to promised happiness — that goal of heart’s desire already lying so far behind her — and farther still for every step her little flying feet were taking in the oldest, the vainest, the most hopeless chase in the world — the headlong hunt for happiness.
And if that blind hunt should lead once more toward Selwyn? Suppose, freed from Ruthven, she turned in her tracks and threw herself and her youthful unhappiness straight at the man who had not yet destroyed the picture that Nina found when she visited her brother’s rooms with the desire to be good to him with rocking-chairs!
Not that she really believed or feared that Philip would consider such an impossible reconciliation; pride, and a sense of the absurd, must always check any such weird caprice of her brother’s conscience; and yet — and yet other amazing and mismated couples had done it — had been reunited.
And Nina was mightily troubled, for Alixe’s capacity for mischief was boundless; and that she, in some manner, had already succeeded in stirring up Philip, was a rumour that persisted and would not be annihilated.
To inform a man frankly that a young girl is a little in love with him is one of the oldest, simplest, and easiest methods of interesting that man — unless he happen to be in love with somebody else. And Nina had taken her chances that the picture of Alixe was already too unimportant for the ceremony of incineration. Besides, what she had ventured to say to him was her belief; the child appeared to be utterly absorbed in her increasing intimacy with Selwyn. She talked of little else; her theme was Selwyn — his influence on Gerald, and her delight in his companionship. They had, at his suggestion, taken up together the study of Cretan antiquities — a sort of tender pilgrimage for her, because, with the aid of her father’s and mother’s letters, note-books, and papers, she and Selwyn were following on the map the journeys and discoveries of her father.
But this was not all; Nina’s watchful eyes opened wider and wider as she witnessed in Eileen the naissance of an unconscious and delicate coquetry, quite unabashed, yet the more significant for that; and Nina, intent on the new phenomena, began to divine more about Eileen in a single second, than the girl could have suspected of herself in a month of introspection and of prayer.
Love was not there; Nina understood that; but its germ was — still dormant, but bedded deliciously in congenial soil — the living germ in all its latent promise, ready to swell with the first sudden heart-beat, quicken with the first quickening of the pulse, unfold into perfect symmetry if ever the warm, even current in the veins grew swift and hot under the first scorching whisper of Truth.
Eileen, sewing by the nursery window, looked up; her little Alsatian maid, cross-legged on the floor at her feet, sewing away diligently, also looked up, then scrambled to her feet as Selwyn halted on the threshold of the room.
“Why, how odd you look!” said Eileen, laughing: “come in, please; Susanne and I are only mending some of my summer things. Were you in search of the children? — don’t say so if you were, because I’m quite happy in believing that you knew I was here. Did you?”
“Where are the children?” he asked.
“In the Park, my very rude friend. You will find them on the Mall if you start at once.”
He hesitated, but finally seated himself, omitting the little formal hand-shake with which they always met, even after an hour’s separation. Of course she noticed this, and, bending low above her sewing, wondered why.
It seemed to him, for a moment, as though he were looking at a woman he had heard about and had just met for the first time. His observation of her now was leisurely, calm, and thorough — not so calm, however, when, impatient of his reticence, bending there over her work, she raised her dark-blue eyes to his, her head remaining lowered. The sweet, silent inspection lasted but a moment, then she resumed her stitches, aware that something in him had changed since she last had seen him; but she merely smiled quietly to herself, confident of his unaltered devotion in spite of the strangely hard and unresponsive gaze that had uneasily evaded hers.
As her white fingers flew with the glimmering needle she reflected on conditions as she had left them a week ago. A week ago, between him and her the most perfect of understandings existed; and the consciousness of it she had carried with her every moment in the country — amid the icy tumble of the surf, on long vigorous walks over the greening hills where wild moorland winds whipped like a million fairy switches till the young blood fairly sang, pouring through her veins.
Since that — some time within the week, something evidently had happened to him, here in the city while she had been away. What?
As she bent above the fine linen garment on her knee, needle flying, a sudden memory stirred coldly — the recollection of her ride with Rosamund; and instinctively her clear eyes flew open and she raised her head, turning directly toward him a disturbed gaze he did not this time evade.
In silence their regard lingered; then, satisfied, she smiled again, saying: “Have I been away so long that we must begin all over, Captain Selwyn?”
“Begin what, Eileen?”
“To remember that the silence of selfish preoccupation is a privilege I have not accorded you?”
“I didn’t mean to be preoccupied—”
“Oh, worse and worse!” She shook her head and began to thread the needle. “I see that my week’s absence has not been very good for you. I knew it the moment you came in with all that guilty absent-minded effrontery which I have forbidden. Now, I suppose I shall have to recommence your subjection. Ring for tea, please. And, Susanne” — speaking in French and gathering up a fluffy heap of mended summer waists— “these might as well be sent to the laundress — thank you, little one; your sewing is always beautiful.”
The small maid, blushing with pleasure, left the room, both arms full of feminine apparel; Selwyn rang for tea, then strolled back to the window, where he stood with both hands thrust into his coat-pockets, staring out at the sunset.
A primrose light bathed the city. Below, through the new foliage of the Park, the little lake reflected it in tints of deeper gold and amber where children clustered together, sailing toy ships. But there was no wind; the tiny sails and flags hung motionless, and out and in, among the craft becalmed, steered a family of wild ducks, the downy yellow fledglings darting hither and thither in chase of gnats, the mother bird following in leisurely solicitude.
And, as he stood there, absently intent on sky and roof and foliage, her soft bantering voice aroused him; and turning he found her beside him, her humorous eyes fixed on his face.
“Suppose,” she said, “that we go back to first principles and resume life properly by shaking hands. Shall we?”
He coloured up as he took her hand in his; then they both laughed at the very vigorous shake.
“What a horribly unfriendly creature you can be,” she said. “Never a greeting, never even a formal expression of pleasure at my return—”
“You have not returned!” he said, smiling; “you have been with me every moment, Eileen.”
“What a pretty tribute!” she exclaimed; “I am beginning to recognise traces of my training after all. And it is high time, Captain Selwyn, because I was half convinced that you had escaped to the woods again. What, if you please, have you been doing in town since I paroled you? Nothing? Oh, it’s very likely. You’re probably too ashamed to tell me. Now note the difference between us; I have been madly tearing over turf and dune, up hills, down hillocks, along headlands, shores, and shingle; and I had the happiness of being half-frozen in the surf before Nina learned of it and stopped me. . . . Come; sit over here; because I’m quite crazy to tell you everything as usual — about how I played marbles with the children — yes, indeed! — down on my knees and shooting hard! Oh, it is
divine, that sea-girdled, wind-drenched waste of moor and thicket! — the strange little stunted forests in the hollows of the miniature hills — do you remember? The trees, you know, grow only to the wind-level, then spread out like those grotesque trees in fairy-haunted forests — so old, so fantastic are these curious patches of woods that I am for ever watching to see something magic moving far in the twilight of the trees! . . . And one night I went out on the moors; oh, heavenly! celestial! — under the stretch of stars! Elf-land in silence, save for the bewitched wind. And the fairy forests drew me toward their edges, down, down into the hollow, with delicious shivers.
“Once I trembled indeed, for the starlight on the swamp was suddenly splintered into millions of flashes; and my heart leaped in pure fright! . . . It was only a wild duck whirring headlong into the woodland waters — but oh, if you had been there to see the weird beauty of its coming — and the star-splashed blackness! You must see that with me, some time. . . . When are you coming to Silverside? We go back very soon, now. . . . And I don’t feel at all like permitting you to run wild in town when I’m away and playing hopscotch on the lawn with Drina!”
She lay back in her chair, laughing, her hands linked together behind her head.
“Really, Captain Selwyn, I confess I missed you. It’s much better fun when two can see all those things that I saw — the wild roses just a tangle of slender green-mossed stems, the new grass so intensely green, with a touch of metallic iridescence; the cat’s-paws chasing each other across the purple inland ponds — and that cheeky red fox that came trotting out of the briers near Wonder Head, and, when he saw me, coolly attempted to stare me out of countenance! Oh, it’s all very well to tell you about it, but there is a little something lacking in unshared pleasures. . . . Yes, a great deal lacking. . . . And here is our tea-tray at last.”
Nina came up to join them. Her brother winced as she smiled triumphantly at him, and the colour continued vivid in his face while she remained in the room. Then the children charged upstairs, fresh from the Park, clamouring for food; and they fell upon Selwyn’s neck, and disarranged his scarf-pin, and begged for buttered toast and crumpets, and got what they demanded before Nina’s authority could prevent.
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