by Raven Steele
She squirmed. "Good and yes."
Silence.
Smith leaned forward and rested his elbows on his desk. "What's going on, Claire?"
She shrugged. "I don't know. It's just that..."
She shook her head. Her phone buzzed again. This time it was Logan. She turned off her phone and looked up. "Why?"
"Why what?"
"Why have I had so many problems? Is something wrong with me?"
Smith leaned back; the chair creaked under his weight. "You've had your fair share of trials, no one would deny that. Everyone has them, some worse than others. Trials are what make us stronger, better people if we let them."
She stared at the floor.
Smith continued. "Sometimes it may feel like we're wandering around in the dark for a long time, but then we get these rays of sunshine that push through the shadows. It's these rays we need to hang on to for they will guide us out of the night and into the day.” He waited a second before saying, “Do you understand?"
"What if there are no rays?" she said, still staring at the floor.
"There's always light, no matter how small. You have people that love and care for you, Claire. Hang on to this, and soon, what you're going through now, will just be a bad dream. Besides, you're only eighteen. You have your whole life ahead of you, and, knowing you as well as I do, you will crash right through it." He shook his head and laughed. "I can't wait to see where you end up. It's going to be somewhere fantastic for sure."
For the first time in many days, Claire really smiled, and her burden didn't seem so heavy. "Thank you.”
"You’re welcome. You know," he said, reaching into a drawer and removing a file "maybe this will help you feel better, too."
She leaned forward.
"I don't know what Gage is exactly, but I know Bodian Dynamics had something to do with it. I've been collecting evidence against them and I think—"
Claire jumped up. "No! You can't!"
She was afraid of getting him any more involved than he already was. Bodian would ruin him for sure just like they had Anne.
Smith leaned back. "Why?"
"Please, Smith. Don't look into it. Just forget it. There's nothing to look into. Please. I'm begging you." She was close to tears. If anything happened to Smith…
He stood up and hurried around the desk, taking her by both arms. "What aren't you telling me?"
Claire coughed and quickly recovered. "Nothing. I just don't want to see you get hurt. Bodian is dangerous."
"I'm sorry, but I have enough evidence to open an investigation. I've been wanting to go after them for a long time."
Claire lowered her head. "Then be careful."
"If there's something you're not telling me, I need to know."
“There’s nothing.” Not yet anyway. Maybe if she got rid of Gage.
"Did Johnson give you a ride here?" he asked.
"He's out front waiting for me."
"Good. I'll walk you out."
Outside the police station, Officer Johnson was leaning against his patrol car reading a book.
"Looks like rough work," Smith said and shook his hand.
"Real rough," Officer Johnson said. "You should've seen the crazy party Claire threw the other night."
Smith turned to her.
Claire walked around the front of the car and opened the door. "Right. And Johnson cooked us special brownies."
Officer Johnson laughed. "I'll be just a second, Claire," he said and began talking to Smith.
She got in the car and checked her phone. Kate and Steph had both called her once, Logan two times, and Ethan three. She smiled. Smith was right about people caring.
The driver’s side door opened, but instead of Johnson, Smith got in. Johnson slid into the back seat.
“What’s up?” she asked.
Smith started the car. “I think I’ll play watch dog for awhile, drop Tom off at home. It’s his anniversary, did you know that?”
“Forty-two years,” Johnson said, smiling.
“Congratulations,” Claire said and then turned back at Smith. “But what about your car?”
“Wife dropped me off today.” He drove onto the street and ten minutes later was dropping Johnson off in front of a small white house. “I’ll pick you up in the morning, Tom,” Smith said. “Have fun tonight.”
Johnson nodded his head and disappeared into his house. Several minutes later it was Claire’s turn. Smith parked the patrol car in her driveway.
"I'll be out here if you need me," he said.
"You know you can come inside, right?"
"Oh no. It's better if I'm out here. Keep an eye on the surrounding area."
"Well if you get bored, at least come inside for something to eat. I think I have chips and salsa. Or I can bring it out to you."
"Deal." Smith peered out the windshield. "Looks like a nasty storm is coming."
Claire didn't bother looking.
"There's always a storm," she whispered and opened the door. Before she closed it, she said, "Thanks for everything. I really do feel better knowing you're out here."
"No problem. And don’t worry about things. Like you said, Gage is probably long gone. Maybe just another week of this and then you can go back to living a normal life."
She nodded and closed the door. A normal life. She sighed and walked inside the house. Stuck to the refrigerator, Claire found a note from her mother saying she'd be back late, but from where, she didn’t say. Claire must’ve just missed her. She scrunched the paper and tossed it into the garbage. It missed its target and fell to the ground. She sat down next to the crumbled paper, overcome by an overwhelming feeling of dread.
Claire wasn't sure how long she'd been sitting there, but when a knock rattled the door, she jumped. Before she stood up, she reached behind her back and adjusted the gun.
"It's me, Claire," Ethan's voice said. “Are you in there? I’ve been looking for you.”
She took a deep breath and opened the door. "Hey. Sorry I wasn’t here. I went to see Smith."
“Let me know next time, okay? I was worried.” He walked inside and dropped a backpack by the door. "Talk about anything specific?"
“Not really.”
He took hold of her hand. "Did something happen?"
She hesitated, searching his eyes.
"Come on, Claire. Talk to me."
There was nothing to see. Only concern and love.
"Gage sent me something," she said.
He tensed. "What was it?"
“Another dose.”
"And?"
"I looked at it for a very long time."
Ethan grabbed onto her, like his knees had suddenly gone weak. "What did you do?"
She shook her head, her eyes tearing. "I wanted to take it more than anything. I wanted to be free—"
"Claire?"
"But I couldn't do it." She looked up at him. "I wanted to, really, really wanted to."
His arms came around her. "It's okay. You did good."
She sniffed, tears running down the back of her throat.
"Why don't you go run a bath? Relax. I'll make us a snack and clean up a bit."
She half laughed, half cried. "Sorry it's messy in here."
Ethan pulled her toward the bathroom. "Serious. I want you to relax. I've got this."
He turned on the water and held his hand under the faucet. She watched his reflection in the mirror. So calm.
"I'll come check on you in a little bit," he said and closed the door.
She sat on the edge of the tub. Ethan was a ray of light in her life. She hoped it would always be that way.
Her phone vibrated within her pocket. She pulled it out and checked her text messages. It was from Kate: "You sure missed a good fight between Ethan and Logan. Have you talked to either one of them about it yet?"
Her heart began to pound. She was about to call Kate when her phone rang. She answered it on the first ring. "Logan?"
"Claire! I've been trying t
o reach you! Where are you?"
"I'm at home. What's going on?" The panic in his voice made her shake.
"Is Ethan with you?"
"Yeah, so? And what were you two fighting—"
"Claire, listen to me closely. You have to get out now. Ethan's Gage."
"What?"
"Ethan's Gage, do you hear me?"
She shook her head, clutching the phone tightly. "How do you know?"
"I broke into his house."
"You what?"
"I had to know. And I found all sorts of crap, specifically Bodian’s vials under his bed. And the whole inside of his house had been destroyed."
"It can't be true," she whispered.
"Can you get out of the house without Ethan knowing?"
Claire shut off the water and listened. She could hear Ethan moving around the living room. "I don't know."
"I'm coming over."
"No! I don't want you to get hurt." She tried to keep her voice low.
Logan paused, then said, "Is there a cop out front?"
"Yes. It’s Smith."
"Good. Get to him and meet me at the police station."
Just then Ethan knocked on the door. Claire dropped the phone and covered her mouth to keep from screaming.
"Are you talking to someone?" Ethan asked.
"Um, no. Just getting ready."
"Okay. I'm going to take the garbage out."
"Right. Okay."
She waited until she heard the front door open and close before she picked up the phone.
Logan was saying her name over and over. "Claire, are you there?"
"I'm here."
"Good. I'm coming over."
"Wait!"
But it was too late. The phone went dead.
Chapter 42
Claire stared into the partially filled tub. Why, Ethan? She wanted to sink into the water, clothes and all, but she couldn't. Ignoring her pounding heart, she stood up. This had to end. She reached for the gun behind her back and moved it to the front of her pants. She pulled her shirt down over the top and opened the door.
"Ethan?" She moved down the hallway. Focus. Don't look him in the eyes. Her hands began to shake.
The front door opened suddenly, bringing in Ethan and a blast of wind and rain.
"Crazy weather out there," he said as he brushed himself off. "How come you're not in the tub?"
"I couldn't ..."
"Claire?"
"Were you fighting with Logan?" she blurted. She had to know. She had to be sure.
His jaw muscles bulged and his lips tightened.
"Were you?"
"I wanted to tell you later. When the time was right."
"Tell me what?"
He inhaled deeply and let it out. “I confronted him at the gas station earlier today. About what he's been doing." His eyes met hers. "What I'm about to tell you is going to be hard. I know how close you two are."
"I don't understand."
"Before I found Logan, I drove to his house to see if you’d gone there." Ethan walked to the window and peered out. "I had to know. I suspected he was Gage from the very beginning. Things he'd say and do. It just wasn't right."
"And?"
Ethan turned around. "I found it. Under the floorboards. Only a few vials were left."
Claire shook her head, more confused than ever. "But that's what Logan said about you."
"What? He did? When?"
"He called just a few minutes ago. He said he's coming over."
Ethan began to panic. "We need to get you out of here."
He moved to grab her arm, but she stepped away.
"How can I believe you? You're both saying the same thing."
Ethan’s terror turned to sadness. "Why can't you trust me?"
When Claire didn't answer, he went to his backpack and searched it. "I have proof, Claire."
He pulled out a vial. It looked the same as the one Gage had given her. "I got this from Logan's room. It’s what Gage gave you, right?"
Claire groaned in frustration.
"Please, you have to believe me! If we have any chance at defeating Gage we have to do it together, do you understand?"
She shook her head, trying to put the pieces together, but everything was happening so fast. She needed to talk to Kate. See what the fight was about. "I have to make a phone call."
"There isn’t time. He's going to be here any second!"
Just then the sound of tires squealed in the driveway.
Ethan slowly turned to the window. "He's here."
Claire backed against the wall while Ethan frantically searched the house for a weapon. He found a knife for each hand. "There's mace in your room, Claire. Go grab it, quick!"
She was frozen. Even her heart didn’t seem to be beating anymore. A car door slammed. Footsteps ran fast toward the home, but then stopped suddenly. Claire hoped it was Smith capturing Logan.
"Claire!” Ethan said. “Do you hear me?"
She didn't. The footsteps were moving again and had reached the front porch. Logan. Her best friend. When the door opened, Ethan moved with it and hid behind.
Logan stood in the doorway holding a baseball bat high. He was soaking wet, blood clotted on his fat lip, and his eyes were blazing, like a fire had been lit inside him. His eyes darted around the room, passing her over. When he didn’t see Ethan, he said, "Come on. Let's go!"
She shook her head and flickered her gaze to Ethan, hiding behind the open door. Ethan put his finger to his lips, signaling her to be quiet. Where was Smith?
Logan moved into the house. "Come on, Claire. Please."
Ethan slammed the door. "We know who you really are Logan, and I’m going to kill you for hurting Claire."
Logan turned around slowly, the bat raised.
"Not if I kill you first," he said and swung the bat hard.
Ethan tried to get out of the way, but the bat caught him in the ribs. He stumbled into a nearby lamp and fell to the floor.
"Logan, stop!" Claire shouted.
"Get out of here!" he shouted back. He raised the bat again and brought it down on Ethan’s back just as he was reaching for the knife that had fallen from his hand. Ethan cried a painful scream.
"You will pay for everything you've done!" Logan said and raised the bat again.
Claire removed the gun from her shirt. "Stop Logan, or I'll shoot!"
He froze and turned around slowly, his eyes settling on the gun. "What are you doing?"
"You need to get away from him," she said, trying to steady the gun in her sweaty palms.
"But he's Gage! I told you that on the phone."
Claire lowered her gaze to Ethan. Their eyes met.
"It's not true," Ethan said, and then he kicked at Logan's legs, knocking him off balance. "Shoot him, Claire! Now's your chance!"
Logan looked at Ethan. A feral cry rose in his throat, and he raised the bat.
Where was Smith? She could barely hold the gun.
"Shoot him!" Ethan shouted again.
The bat came crashing down on Ethan, and Claire gasped at the ferocity of it. She steadied the gun.
Ethan raised his arm to defend himself from another blow, but Logan was too fast. The bat smashed Ethan's arm. The sound of his bone snapping hurt her ears. Ethan cried out, but when Logan raised the bat again, he yelled, "Now, Claire! He's changing!"
She put her finger over the trigger. Her best friend was in her line of sight. Memories of their childhood flashed like a movie reel. Logan teaching her to ride a bike. Logan diving into the canal to save her when she was only nine. Logan eating lunch with her on the first day of junior high. Logan comforting her at her father's trial.
As the bat swung down, Claire knew what she had to do. She closed her eyes and pressed the trigger. The gunshot rocked the frame of the house, and she stumbled backward.
Logan's body twisted around from the shock of the blast. It took him a second to realize what had happened, but when he did, his eyes met hers. "What
have you done?"
The bat fell to the floor, and he dropped to his knees. Blood seeped through his yellow t-shirt on his right shoulder and ran down the length of his arm.
Ethan was slow to get up, but he made it to her and drew her attention away from Logan. "Let's get out of here,” he said and gently pushed on her back to guide her from the house.
She tucked the gun back into her pants and did as he asked.
As soon as they were in the pouring rain, he said, "We have to get as far away from here as possible. I can't fight Gage, even if he's injured."
But Claire wasn't listening. She was moving toward Smith’s patrol car. Through the rain she could see his dark figure hunched over in the driver’s seat. Why wasn’t he moving? Her steps felt slow, like wading through deep water.
She rounded the front of the car. The driver’s side window was smashed in. Glass, like miniature diamonds, were sprinkled across his slumped-over back. As she drew closer, she saw more glass, but they didn’t look like diamonds anymore. They were rubies, crushed into the back of his open skull.
The drops of rain suddenly felt like ice picks piercing her skin. Her legs gave out, and she would've fallen if it hadn't been for Ethan who caught her. He spun her around to face him. "I know this is all happening fast, but we have to run. Please! I can't carry you."
She looked down. His arm was bent funny. Broken. Like Smith’s head. It was all too much.
Just then a sound erupted from the house. "
Claire!" Logan roared.
Fight, Claire.
The emotion behind his cry jerked her into action. She took Ethan's good hand and ran. "Let's go to the police station," she yelled over the sound of thunder.
"No! That's where he'll expect us to go," he said, gasping for breath. "Let's go to the cliffs. We can hide there."
For how long? she wondered, but kept silent.
They sprinted into the forest, up and over logs, between brush, and ignoring tree limbs that snagged at their arms and legs. Just keep moving. She focused on her footing through the rough, wet terrain. Her lungs burned and her muscles felt like they were going to explode.
Finally, they burst from the forest and ran toward the beach. The sand sucked at her feet, threatening to slow her down. She pushed harder, trying to keep up with Ethan.
"Ethan!" she called, breathless and shaking, whether from exhaustion or the fact that she'd just shot her best friend or seen the only man she considered to be her father dead, she couldn't be sure.
