by Maggie Walsh
“This is ridiculous. Yesterday we were all on the same page about getting to know one another and talking about the three of us being true mates. Well, I still want that and I think you both do too. I know Raiden does. And I warn you both right now, I am too damn old to play games or enjoy drama, and I’m hoping that the both of you feel the same way. So, I’m just gonna get right to the point and be honest here,” Tug stated.
He gave each man a questioning look and waited for them to nod their acceptance. Once they did, Tug moved further into the room, his confident alpha back in place. Both his men were submissive personalities and needed someone to take charge. Even though Raiden also had some Dominant genes, his baby loved his submissive side as well, and was overjoyed when Tug took control, so that was what he would do now, and hope it was what the situation called for.
Tug walked to the small couch and sat, then said, “Alex, I am not going to lie to you or play games with you. I’m going to be straightforward and say what I want to say, and I mean what I say. I don’t want any secrets between the three of us and hope to keep any misunderstandings to a minimum. So to start, yes, Raiden and I have been together for almost four years, which I know you are aware of. And you and I have known each other for longer than I have known Raiden. I understand we have never hung out together and aren’t close friends, but I have considered us friends all these years. As I know you are aware of, I am an alpha which means I can be very Dominant.”
He stopped talking and smirked when he saw his last words caused a shiver to race up Alex’s spine. He liked that response and could work with that. He let his voice drop an octave as he continued, knowing what it would do to Raiden, and hoping it would affect Alex in the same way. “I want an equal partner or partners in my life. I will honor and respect your individuality and your talent as I do with Raiden. I am not looking for a sex slave or a twenty-four seven submissive who will run around doing everything I say when I say it. But, you should also know that because I am an alpha, I have a large sex drive, and when I do play with my lovers, my mates, my submissives, I play hard. I am in control and if I’m lucky you will give yourself to me freely, following my demands and submitting to me fully, and trusting that I know what you desire and will give it to you, in my own time, of course. And if you do, I promise I will take you to heights you have never even dreamed of before, but in our situation, we are unique in the fact that we are part of a trio. A real true mate trio.
“You, me, and Raiden each deserve to find happiness with each other as well as have all our individual needs met. Raiden, love, come to me and kneel,” Tug ordered firmly, but gently.
Raiden instantly went to him and dropped to his knees beside Tug’s leg with his hands clasped behind his back and his head lowered. Tug placed a hand on Raid’s head and brushed his fingers through the soft brown hair, then looked back to Alex. The feeling of victory rushed through him when he saw the longing in Alex’s eyes as he fixed his gaze on Raiden.
“That brings me to our Raiden. I say our, because that is what he is, who he is, just like you are our Alex and I am your Tug. We belong to one another. As you can see, Raiden is submissive to me and he loves every fucking minute of it—craves it actually—but it is not all he is. Raiden is a delta/beta, which means he also has Dominant genes in him, and he needs to have that release and control of a Dominant occasionally. Because of that, and not knowing we had a true mate out there somewhere, or that we were actually true mates waiting for our linchpin to arrive, like Dell said, there have been times that Raiden and I have openly looked for a third.”
He cleared his throat and looked at Raiden. “Come up here and join me, mate,” Tug said, and Raiden lifted his head, smiled, then stood and slid onto the couch beside him. Tug looked to Alex and continued, “I would love to have two boys kneel at my feet and to control. To have them give themselves to me, trusting me to care for them and give them everything they want, desire, and need, and Raiden wants someone he can do the same with on the occasion his Dominant side needs it. So, that is why we were looking for another, but we could never find anyone who fit what we were looking for. Most submissive lovers we have met and talked to about taking on the both of us, were not on board with submitting to Raiden. Most thought that there was something wrong with him, and tried to convince me to leave him for them, saying he wasn’t right for me and couldn’t fulfill me, because of his Dominant side. But they couldn’t be more wrong. It is I who can’t fulfill him. And there was also no way I was giving Raiden up. He is my life and I know that if we give this mating a chance, that you will join him in owning my heart, devotion, and love.”
Alex took a step closer and slid into the chair across from them. Tug could see the desire to have what he offered in Alex’s beautiful light brown eyes, but there was something else there he couldn’t put his finger on. Tug discreetly took a deep breath through his nose, hoping it would help him decipher what was going on inside Alex, and he was right when he took in the slight sour smell of disgust, but there was also anger there. Well, he wasn’t expecting that. Never in all his life would he think that if he was lucky enough to find his true mate, that talking to the man about what he brought to the mating would fill his mate with disgust, or anger.
Alex must have seen the confusion or something on his face, because he sat forward, his eyes opened wide and he quickly said, “I’m not angry. Well, not at you. I was just thinking about... Raiden.” Alex’s gaze shifted to Raiden.
Something squeezed inside his chest, and Tug suddenly wanted to run. Yes, Alex was his true mate, but from what Dell said, so was Raiden. They had been together for so long and Tug loved his man more than air. He hoped Alex wasn’t expecting him to give up Raiden too. What was wrong with all these little twinks and not understanding that Raiden was an amazing man, but because of his genes, he needed to have his beta side fulfilled just as much as he needed his delta si―
“I think it’s sad that those others treated you like that, Raiden. You can’t help who you are just like the rest of us. I’m angry at those men for not using their brains and realizing that as Tundra Wolves we make up a huge variety of Dominant submissive sides. All my life, everyone has always looked at me as a delta and treated me as such, and honestly, until my twenty-fifth birthday last year, I lived the life of a delta, but when I went through my change on my birthday and my wolf became complete, I’m now a gamma/delta. I know that sounds strange, because around here most always label the most Dominant side of us as the first, then the submissive side, but I think it’s the other way around,” Alex explained.
Well, Tug could have been blown over from Alex’s words. First, that he could see that Alex was being genuine and was angry for Raiden’s sake, and second, that Alex had the same thoughts on their breeding as he did.
He felt Raiden sit up straighter beside him, then could hear the happiness in his voice when Raiden replied, “That’s exactly how Tug sees it too. And I agree with him. I’m considered a beta/delta, but I know what I feel and what I want, and I know there is more delta in me than beta, so I consider myself a delta/beta, but as Tug said, I crave to Dominate as much as I long to submit.”
Alex gave Raiden a bright smile as his eyes filled with total understanding, and suddenly a great weight lifted off Tug’s shoulders. For all these years he always felt like he was holding Raiden back, because he couldn’t give the man everything he needed. He loved Raiden with all his heart ,and it destroyed him every time he thought about losing Raiden because of it, but sitting here, knowing that Raiden was their true mate and that Alex looked to be accepting of Raiden’s needs, had Tug wanting to pull Alex onto his lap and kiss him.
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Raiden was overjoyed from hearing Alex’s acceptance of who and what he was. Not that he actually doubted Alex would. Raiden was one hundred percent certain that Alex was his friend Deltadawn, who he had been chatting with for about three years online, which meant he knew right from the horse's mouth what Alex wanted and desired,
which just happened to be two Masters. Now seeing that Alex understood Raiden’s need to also submit, and didn’t have a problem with that, Raiden knew he could work with this.
Then, a thought hit him that had Raiden afraid once more for their future and their mating. What would happen if Alex found out that he was UM? Would Alex think he had faked their whole friendship? Would he be angry at him? Maybe think that he and Tug were in on some kind of trick? Shit. He needed to tell Alex who he was. Raiden didn't want to start their mating with lies, or anything else between them.
And then there was the fact of why Alex hadn’t shown up for dinner tonight. He had spilled his heart out to UM about this person who approached him in the street and told him lies, but how would Alex react when he found out the man he trusted on the other side of that computer screen, who Alex was able to tell all his deepest, darkest secrets to, happened to be one of his mates. Would Alex be mortified and run from them again? Shit, he needed to tell Alex the truth, but how?
Suddenly an idea hit him and Raiden slid his cell phone from his pocket and brought up the Deepest Desires site and logged in.
“What are you doing, baby?” Tug asked, as he tried to look at Raiden’s phone.
“There’s something extremely important we need to talk to Alex about. I completely agree with you, Tug. I am too old to play games and I don’t want any drama. Life is too damn short for that. I just want to find my balance with my mates and start building a life together. Which means we start with a clean slate and no lies. Even lies of omission,” Raiden replied, as he went on his private message board and typed out a message.
A second after he hit send, he heard a low ding coming from behind him and he looked to Alex. The smaller wolf’s gaze flicked over his shoulder, and Raiden could see the need Alex had to go answer the message, but Alex sat there bouncing one leg up and down. It was a nervous tick and Raiden thought it was cute.
Raiden smirked at him. “Do you need to get that?”
Alex’s gaze flicked back to him, those amazing light brown eyes wide open. “Huh? What? Oh, no. I’ll get it later.”
“Are you sure?” Tug asked, and Alex nodded, but his gaze shifted back over Raiden’s shoulder.
Raiden immediately looked down at his phone again and typed another message. The computer dinged again. He looked up at Tug and smiled.
“It sounds like someone is trying to get a hold of you. Why don’t you go ahead and see what they want. We’ll wait,” Tug suggested, and Raiden almost laughed from the amused tone in his voice. Raiden really wanted to see what was about to happen. He just hoped it didn’t backfire on him.
“I’ll just look quick and tell them I have guests,” Alex replied, then stood and hurried off to the desk that Raiden knew was behind him.
He and Tug both turned to look at Alex as he sat in the chair and started typing. Raiden knew the moment Alex saw his message and he held his breath waiting for the fallout.
CHAPTER 11
He really shouldn’t be answering messages right now with his two mates here. Alex had been shocked when he opened the door to find them both standing there, looking all hot and lickable. Having them inside his home, his private domain, was a weird and exciting feeling. As soon as Tug and Raiden stepped inside, their scents began to swirl around him, making him lightheaded, and the longer they remained there, the heavier their scents filled the small living room.
When Tug ordered Raiden to kneel at his feet, Alex’s heart started to beat faster and his cock filled. He had moved his legs slightly, trying to cover the bulge in his lap, and it had appeared to have worked, seeing as neither man said anything, but then he thought maybe they were being discreet about it, afraid they would scare him or something, because otherwise wouldn’t they have shown some kind of reaction from scenting his arousal? Unless they hadn’t, but was that even possible? They were all wolves and their sense of smell was far stronger than any other creature in the Tundra. Then again, Alex had seen the large bulge in Tug’s pants and watched as one grew in Raiden’s when he knelt at Tug’s feet, but he couldn’t remember scenting their arousal. Maybe it was because his brain was too preoccupied with just the fact that they were there, and everything Tug was saying.
Alex had been thrilled with what the large man had said. He knew he was much younger than the two of them, but he was no longer a teen encasing himself in one drama after another. Alex agreed with Tug’s words of no games and no drama and found that he was relieved to hear Tug say it and Raiden agree. Yes, he was young, but he didn’t want any of that in his life. He was ready to settle down and being with his mates was filling him with hope for their future. Alex suddenly realized, he really wanted what they could have.
Being with Tug and Raiden would make all his dreams come true. Faithful mates who would love him, protect him and want to make him happy. As well as two Dominant males to control him. When Tug spoke of Raiden and his two sides both submissive and Dominant, Alex had found that very appealing, which had shocked him, but to see the big man that Raiden was, kneeling at Tug’s feet without hesitation, and looking like he was enjoying it, had Alex’s dreams and fantasies shifting.
As Tug spoke, Alex had a fantasy pop into his head of him and Raiden both tied down, side by side as Tug Mastered them both, and the thought had been so fucking hot. Then, it shifted to him being bound and gagged as both men Mastered him. Tug would use the flogger on him, pinking his skin and making it tingle, while Raiden ordered him to suck his cock, maybe holding Alex’s head between his large hands and fucking Alex’s throat, making him feel like he was owned by both men.
Yes. Oh gods yes. It was exactly what he wanted, what he craved. Needed. The ding of the computer had surprised him, because Alex thought he had shut it down before he answered the door, but with the second ding, he knew he’d forgotten. He didn’t want to interrupt his talk with his mates, because Alex knew they still had so much to talk about, but he didn’t want to leave his friend hanging. He could send a quick message that someone was visiting and he would get back to UM in the morning. Yes, that’s what he needed to do.
Alex tapped the mouse, bringing the screen back to life, and his gaze went right to the message box. When he saw the photo posted there his brain shut down for a moment, not really processing what he was seeing. UM had sent him a photo of two men standing at a bar, wrapped in each other's arms and smiling. Underneath the photo it said, turn around. What?
He was confused, and suddenly struck stupid, because he couldn’t understand how UM had posted a picture of Tug and Raiden on his private message. How had he done that? But... how did UM...? Alex’s brain finally caught up to what was happening, and he started to hyperventilate. His gaze zeroed in on the words ‘turn around’. Shit. Could this really be happening? Was... was his friend, who he had been chatting with for almost three years... one of his mates?
All at once, pretty much every conversation he had ever had with UM came at him in a flash, and Alex knew. Raiden. Raiden was UM? How could that be? He was confused, but he knew the truth of it. Alex could feel it in his bones. Raiden. Was. UM. Holy fucking shit! He had been talking with one of his mates all this time, telling the man all of his darkest desires and fantasies, but UM had also told him all of his. The conversations of how UM craved to be Dominated by his boyfriend, but also wanted to Dominate another, and that’s why they were looking for a third, came back to him. Alex’s heart suddenly stopped beating. Had they known all along and this was some kind of sick joke? Were they making fun of him after every time he chatted with UM?
“Alex, turn around,” Raiden said softly, his voice pleading. The nervous tremor in the sound telling him that Raiden was just as afraid of his reaction as Alex was to turn around and face them.
He swallowed, then took a deep breath and slowly released it. Squaring his shoulders, Alex spun in his seat to face whatever came. His gaze met Raiden’s and Alex’s heart started to beat again, pounding in his chest. The look of fear mixed with the tears he saw in the man
's eyes damn near killed him, and Alex wanted to hold the man and tell him everything was okay. A tear of his own slipped from the corner of his eye and trailed down his cheek.
“You?” He whispered. His question wasn’t an accusation, just confusion.
Raiden stood and slowly walked toward him, then dropped to his knees beside Alex, and took his hand. Alex had an urge to pull it away, but at the same time he wanted to jump in Raiden’s arms and hold on for dear life.
“I’m sorry, Alex. Or should I say Deltadawn? I had no idea it was you until tonight, I swear it. All these years we’ve been talking, and I had no idea you even lived anywhere near me, or that you were a shifter, a Tundra Wolf, or even from my own pack,” Raiden said, his voice strained with emotion.
“I’m so confused. I... I want to believe you. I do. And I can hear it in your voice that you’re telling me the truth, but this is... such a big coincidence that I can’t wrap my mind around it,” Alex confessed.
Raiden chuckled lightly and caressed the back of his hand. “I know. I can’t believe it either. The man that I consider probably my best friend in the world, even though we’d never met, or knew what the other looked like, turns out to live in my town, is part of my pack, and most importantly, is one of my mates, the linchpin to our mating. It’s unbelievable, but at the same time, it makes me very happy.”
Alex gave him a shy smile, because honestly, it made him happy too. “I feel the same way. UM... well, you I guess, have become my best friend. I mean, I know I have friends and I would do anything for them, but he... you, are the only person I have ever bared my soul to. You know things about me that no one else on the planet knows. I’m thinking maybe I should feel embarrassed right now, because of the things I’ve shared with you, but I don’t. Somehow this feels…”
