Works of Grant Allen

by Grant Allen

  Audouin jumped up again, and led the way down to the Emissary, where the guide was already standing, impatiently expecting so many visitors, with the little taper in his hands which he lights and sets floating down the stream in order to exhibit to the greatest advantage the full extent of the prehistoric tunnel. ‘Can’t I manage to shake off this fellow Churchill somehow or other,’ Audouin thought to himself in inward vexation, and get half an hour’s chat alone with Miss Bussell? I do believe the creature’ll checkmate me now, all by his ridiculous English heavy persistency! And yet, what a scholars mate, too, to go and be shelved by such a mere hobbledehoy of a fellow as this young man Churchill!’

  Half way down the steep path, they came unexpectedly upon a solitary figure, sitting with colour-box open and sheet of paper before him, just above the entrance to the old tunnel. Audouin started when he saw him. ‘Why, Hiram,’ he cried, ‘so there you are! I’ve been hunting everywhere for you, my dear fellow. We couldn’t, any of us, imagine where on earth you had evanished.’

  Hiram didn’t look up in reply, and Gwen’s quick eye immediately caught the reason, though she couldn’t guess at its explanation — the young American painter had certainly been crying! Sitting here alone by himself, and crying! Gwen’s heart interpreted the tears at once after a true woman’s fashion. He had left some little rustic sweetheart behind in America, and he didn’t care to sit and chat gaily among so many other women, while she was alone without him; but had crept down here with his paint-box by himself, to make a small sketch in perfect solitude, and think about her. But who would ever have imagined that that gawky shock-headed American boy had really got so much romance in him!

  ‘Oh, I just came down here, Mr. Audouin, to take a little view of the lake,’ Hiram answered evasively, without raising his eyes. ‘The bit was so pretty that, as I’d brought my things along, I couldn’t resist painting it.’

  ‘But what a shame of you,’ Gwen cried, ‘to run away and desert us, Mr. Winthrop. You might at least have given us the pleasure of watching you working. It’s always so delightful to see a picture growing slowly into form and shape under the hands of the artist.’

  Hiram’s voice had a touch of gratitude in it as he answered slowly, ‘I didn’t know, Miss Russell, you were likely to care about it.’

  ‘Oh, he always loves solitude,’ Audouin answered lightly, in a tone that cut Hiram to the quick. ‘He doesn’t care for society at all. I’m afraid, in that respect, Winthrop and I are both alike — lineal descendants of the old Red Indian. There’s nothing he loves so much as to get away to a corner by himself, and commune with nature, with or without his colours, just as he’s been doing now, in perfect solitude. And after all, solitude’s really the best society: solitude’s an excellent fellow by way of a companion. Even when we’re most alone, we have, not only nature with us, but such a glorious company of glorified humanity that has gone before us. We walk with Shelley down the autumn avenues of falling leaves, or we meditate with Pascal beside the great breakers of Homer’s much-resounding sea. We look with Claude at the shifting lights and shades on the craggy hillside opposite there, or we gaze upon the clouds and the sunset with something of the halo that flooded the dying eyes of Turner. Somebody has well said somewhere, Miss Russell, that without solitude no great thing was ever yet accomplished. When the regenerators of the world — the Messiahs and the Buddhas — wish to begin their mission as seer and founder, they first retire for forty days’ fast and meditation in the lonely wilderness. And yet, I begin to think that our solitude oughtn’t to be too profound or too continuous. (Perhaps mine has been so.) It ought to be tempered, I fancy, by continual congenial intercourse with some one other like-minded spirit. After all, there’s a profound truth of human nature expressed in the saying of the old Hebrew cosmogonist— “It is not good that man should be alone.”’

  ‘So I’ve always thought,’ assented Colin Churchill gravely.

  Audouin was vexed at the interruption, partly because he was just in the middle of one of his fluent, high-flown, transcendental periods, but still more because it came from that wretched interloper of a young English sculptor. He was just about to go on with a marked tone of continuity, when Gwen prevented him by taking up Hiram’s unfinished picture. ‘Why, this is beautiful!’ she cried, with genuine enthusiasm. ‘This is even better than the Alexandria Bay drawing, Mr. Winthrop: I like it immensely. What a lovely tint of purple on the crests of the little wavelets! and how beautifully you’ve done the steep sides of the old crater. Why, I do believe you ought to be a landscape painter, instead of going in for those dreadful historical pictures that nobody cares about. What a pity you’ve gone into Mr. Seguin’s studio! I’m sure you’d do a thousand times better at this sort of subject.’

  ‘We’ve considered very carefully the best place in which to develop my friend Winthrop’s unusual powers,’ Audouin answered in a cold tone; ‘and we’ve both quite come to the conclusion that there’s no teacher better for him anywhere than Seguin. Seguin’s a really marvellous colourist, Miss Russell, and his mastery of all the technical resources of art is something that has never yet been approached, far less equalled, in the whole history of painting.’

  Hiram looked up very shyly into Gwen’s face, and said quite simply, ‘I’m so glad you like it, Miss Russell. Your appreciation is worth a great deal to me.’

  ‘More compliments!’ Gwen thought to herself, smiling. ‘They’re all at it this afternoon. What on earth can be the meaning of it? My new poplin must be really awfully fetching.’ But her smile was a kindly one, and poor Hiram, who hadn’t much to treasure up in his soul, treasured it up sedulously for months to come among his dearest and most precious possessions.

  In the end, as it happened, Audouin never got the chance of speaking alone with Gwen during the whole picnic. It was very annoying, certainly, for he had planned the little entertainment entirely for that very purpose; but really, as he reflected to himself at leisure in his own room that evening, it was after all only a postponement. ‘In any case,’ he thought, ‘I wouldn’t have insulted her by proposing to her to-day; for it is insulting to a woman to ask her for her hand until you can see quite clearly that she really cares for you. A human soul isn’t a thing of so light value that you can beg for the gift of it into your safe keeping on a shorter acquaintance than would warrant you in asking for the slightest favour. A woman’s heart, a true and beautiful woman’s heart, is a dainty musical instrument to be carefully learnt before one can play upon it rightly. To take it up by force, as it were, and to say at a venture, “Let me see whether perchance I can get a tune out of this anyhow,” is to treat it with far less tenderness and ceremony than one would bestow upon an unconscious Stradivarius. So perhaps it was wisely ordained by the great blind Caprice which rules this universe of ours that she and I should not speak alone and face to face together to-day at Albano.’

  But Hiram lulled himself to sleep by thinking over and over again to himself that night, ‘She smiled at me, and she admired my drawing.’

  CHAPTER XXV. MINNA BETTERS HERSELF.

  Away over in London, the winter had passed far less happily for poor little Minna than it had passed at Rome for Colin Churchill. While he had been writing home enthusiastically of the blue skies and invigorating air of that delicious Italy, the fogs in London had been settling down with even more than their customary persistency over the great grey gloomy winter city. While he had been filled with the large-hearted generosity of that noble fellow Maragliano— ‘May I not be proud, Minna,’ he wrote, ‘to have known such a man, to have heard his soft Genoese accents, to have watched his wonderful chisel at its work, to have listened to his glorious sentiments on art?’ — she, poor girl, had found prim, precise, old-maidish Miss Woollacott harder to endure and more pernicketty to live with than ever. Now that Colin was gone, she had nobody to sympathise with her; nobody to whose ear she might confide those thousand petty daily personal annoyances which are to women (with all sympathetic rever
ence be it written) far more serious hindrances to the pursuit of happiness than the greatest misfortunes that can possibly overtake them. Worst of all, Colin, she was afraid, didn’t even seem to miss her. She was so miserable in London without him; so full of grief and loneliness at his absence; while he was apparently enjoying himself in Rome quite as much without her as if she had been all the time within ten minutes’ walk of his attic lodging. How perfectly happy he seemed to be in his intercourse with this Signor Maragliano that he wrote to her about! How he revelled in the nymphs, and the Apollos, and the Niobes! How his letters positively overflowed with life and enthusiasm! She was glad of it, of course, very glad of it. It was so nice to think that dear Colin should at last be mingling in the free artistic life for which she knew he was so well fitted: should be moving about among those splendid Greek and Roman things he was so very fond of. But still... well, Minna did wish that there was just a little more trace in his letters of his being sorry to be so very, very far away from her.

  Besides, what dreadful note of warning was this that sounded so ominously on Sunday mornings, when she had half an hour later to lie in bed and read over all Colin’s back letters — for she kept them religiously? What dreadful note of warning was this that recurred so often?— ‘Miss Howard-Russell, a niece of the old vicar’s, and a cousin of Lord Beaminster’s, who, I told you, came with me from Paris to Rome in the same carriage’... And then again, ‘Miss Howard-Russell, whose name I daresay you remember’ — oh, didn’t she?— ‘came into the studio this morning and was full of praise of my figure in the clay from the living model.’ And now here once more, in to-day’s letter, ‘Miss Howard-Russell was at the picnic, looking very pretty,’ (oh, Colin, Colin, how could you!) ‘and I took her round through a beautiful gallery of oaks’ (Italianisai for avenue, already, but uncritical little Minna never spotted it) ‘to an old Roman archway where Winthrop was painting a clever water-colour. I believe Winthrop admires her very much’ (Minna fervently hoped his admiration would take a practical form:) ‘but she doesn’t seem at all to notice him.’ Why, how closely Colin must have watched her! Minna wasn’t by any means satisfied with the habits and manners of this Miss Howard-Russell. And the insolence of the woman too! to go and be a cousin to the Earl of Beaminster! Unless you happen to have lived in the western half of Dorsetshire yourself, you can have no idea how exalted a personage a cousin of the Earl of Beaminster appeared in the eyes of the Wootton Mande-ville fisherman’s daughter.

  ‘Minna Wroe,’ Miss Woollacott observed in her tart voice, as the little pupil-teacher came down to breakfast on the Sunday morning after the picnic, ‘you’re nearly seven minutes late — six minutes and forty-nine seconds, to be precisely accurate: and I’ve been all that time sitting here with my hands before me waiting prayers for you. And, Minna Wroe, I’ve noticed that since that young man you describe as your cousin went to Rome, you’ve had a letter with a foreign stamp upon it every Sunday. And when those letters arrive I observe that you’re almost invariably late for breakfast. Now, Minna Wroe, I should advise you to write to your cousin’ — with a strong emphasis of sarcastic doubt upon the last word— ‘asking him to make his communications a little less frequent: or else not to lie in bed quite so late in the morning reading your cousin’s weekly effusions. Family affection’s an excellent thing in its way, no doubt, but it may go a little too far in the table of affinities.’

  Instead of answering, to Miss Woollacott’s great surprise, poor little Minna burst suddenly into an uncontrollable flood of tears.

  Now Miss Woollacott wasn’t really cruel or ill-natured, but merely desiccated and fossilised, after the fashion of her kind, by the long drying-up process incidental to her unfortunate condition and unhappy calling: and moreover, she shared the common and pardonable inability of all women (I say ‘all’ this time advisedly) to see another woman crying without immediately kneeling down beside her, and taking her hands in hers, and trying with all her heart to comfort and console her.

  So in a few minutes, what with Miss Woollacott saying ‘There, there, dear, I didn’t mean to hurt your feelings,’ and smoothing Minna’s hair tenderly with her skinny old fingers (worn to the bone in the hard struggle), and muttering to herself audibly, ‘I hadn’t the least idea that that was what was really the matter,’ — Minna was soon restored to equanimity for the present at least, and Miss Woollacott, forgetting even to read prayers in her discomposure (‘Which it’s the only time, mum,’ said Anne the slavey to the landlady, ‘as ever I know’d the ole cat to miss them since fust she come here’) went on with the breakfast, beaten all along the line, and trying to pass off ‘this unpleasantness’ by pretending to talk as unconcernedly as possible about every distracted idea that happened to come uppermost in her poor old scantily-furnished and disconnected cranium. But when breakfast was over, and Minna had positively kissed Miss Woollacott (an unheard-of liberty), and begged her not to trouble herself any more about the matter, for she wasn’t really offended, and didn’t in the least mind about it she went off upstairs to her own room alone, and sat down, and had a good cry all by herself with Colin’s letters, and sent down word by Anne the slavey, that if Miss Woollacott would kindly excuse her she didn’t feel equal to going to church that morning. ‘And the ole cat, she acshally up and says, you’d hardly believe it, mum, says she, “Well, Anne, an’ if Miss Wroe doesn’t feel equal to it,” says she, “I think as how she’d better lie down a bit and rest herself, poor thing,” says she: and when she said it, mum, you could ‘a knocked me down with a feather, a’most, I was that took aback at the ole cat’s acshally goin’ and sayin’ it. Which I do reely think she must be goin’ to be took ill or somethin’, or else what for should she go an’ answer one back so kind and chrischun-like, mum, if she didn’t feel her end was a comin’?’

  And old Miss Woollacott, putting on her thin-worn thread gloves for Church upon her thin-worn skinny fingers, felt softened and saddened, and remembered with a sigh that though she had never positively had a lover herself — not a declared one, that is to say — for who knows how many hearts she may have broken in silence? — she was once young herself, and fancied she might some day have one of her own, just as well as her sister Susan, who married the collector of water-rates; and if so, she was dimly conscious in her own poor old shrivelled feminine heart, much battered though it was in its hard struggle for life till it had somewhat hardened itself on the strictest Darwinian principles in adaptation to the environment, that she too under the same circumstances would have acted very much as Minna Wroe did.

  But as Minna lay on her bed alone through that Sunday morning, only for a short time disturbed by the obtrusive sympathy of Anne the slavey, she began to think to herself that it was really very dangerous after all to let Colin remain at Rome without her; and that she ought to try sooner or later to go over and join him there. And as she turned this all but impossible scheme over in her head (for if even Cohn found it hard to get over to Italy, how could she, poor girl, ever expect to find the money for such a long journey, or subsistence afterwards?), a sudden glorious and brilliant possibility flashed all unexpectedly upon her bewildered mental vision: —

  Why not try to go to Rome as a governess?

  It was a wild and impossible idea — too impossible to be worth discussing almost — and yet, the more she thought about it, the more feasible did it seem to become to her excited imagination. Not immediately, of course: not all at once and without due preparation. Minna Wroe had learnt the ways of the world in too hard a school of slow self-education not to know already how deep you must lay your plans, and how long you must be prepared to work them, if you hope for success in any difficult earthly speculation. But she might at least make a beginning and keep her eyes open. The first thing was to get to be a governess; the next was, to look out for openings in the direction of Italy.

  It seems easy enough at first sight to be a governess; the occupation is one open to any woman who knows how to spell decently, which is far
from being a rare or arduous accomplishment; and yet Minna Wroe felt at once that in her case the difficulties to be got over were practically almost insuperable. If she had only been a man, now, nobody would have asked who she was, or where she came from: they would have been satisfied with looking at her credentials and reading over the perfunctory testimonials of her pastors and masters to her deserts and merits. But as she was only a woman, they would of course want to inquire all about her; and if once they discovered that she had been in a place as a servant, it would be all up with her chances of employment for ever. The man who rises makes for himself his own position; but the woman who rises has to fight all her life long to keep down the memory of her small beginnings. That is part and parcel of our modern English Christian conception of the highest chivalry.

  Little Minna Wroe, however, with her round gipsy face and pretty black eyes, was not the sort of person to be put down in what she proposed to do by any amount of initial difficulty. If the thing was possible, she would stoutly fight her way through to it. So the very next morning, during recess time, she determined to strike while the iron was hot, and went off bravely through the rain to a neighbouring Governesses’ Agency. It was one of the wretched places where some lazy hulking agent fellow, assisted by his stout wife, makes a handsome living by charging poor helpless girls ten per cent, on their paltry pittance of a first year’s salary, in return for an introduction to patrons too indolent to hunt up a governess for themselves by any more humane and considerate method. These are the relatively honest and respectable agencies: the dishonest and disreputable ones make a still simpler livelihood by charging an entrance-fee beforehand, and never introducing anybody anywhere.

  Minna put her name down upon the agent’s list, but was wise enough not to be inveigled into paying the preliminary two-and-sixpence. The consequence was that the agent, seeing his only chance of making anything out of her lay in the result of getting her a situation, sent her from time to time due notice of persons in want of a nursery governess. Minna applied to several of these in rotation, her idea being, first to get herself started in a place anyhow, and then to look out for another in a family who were going to Italy. But as she made it a matter of principle to tell inquiring employers frankly that she had once been out at service, before she went to the North London Birkbeck Girls’ School, she generally found that they, one and all, made short shrift of her. Of course it’s quite impossible (and in a Christian land, too,) to let one’s children be brought up by a young person who has once been a domestic servant.