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by Sabrina York


  “I should like to go to a tropical island,” Vicca said. She’d always been the more daring of the two.

  “They wanted to read this.” Meg gestured to a translation of Grimm’s Fairy Tales on the table. “But I decided it was far too ghastly for such tender minds.”

  He took the book and thumbed through. “Excellent judgement,” he said with a laugh. How like his girls to prefer horror.

  “Papa,” Vicca said, clutching his hand and staring up at him pleadingly. “Can we go outside and play in the snow? Meg said we had to wait until it was warmer.”

  “Did she?” He glanced at Meg who nodded.

  “You can take them, though,” she said, oh-so-helpfully. And then, when he grimaced, she chuckled. “You did say you wanted to spend more time with them.” She stood, brushed out her skirts, and patted down her hair. It annoyed him that she’d done it up in a tight, governess-like bun. Last night it had been down.

  “You can come with us,” Lizzie told her earnestly.

  Meg sniffed. “And get snowballs down my nape? I think not. Besides, now that your father is here, I need to go help your grandmother plan the party. She’s becoming annoyed with Mawbry for some reason.”

  Jonathan knew damn well why his mother was annoyed with Mawbry—she so often was—but he also knew damn well that Meg was escaping. “Are you deserting me?” he asked in a petulant tone.

  Her smile was broad and bright. “That I am,” she said, and before he could protest further, she whisked from the room, leaving him alone with two avaricious fiends who very badly wanted to pelt him with snowballs.

  That was how they spent the rest of the morning, out in the snow, freezing and laughing and engaging in a very lopsided war. It occurred to him, several times, that what this family needed was another male. Or, at the very least, someone to fight on his side.

  They were all tired and wet and happy when a carriage rolled up the lane, interrupting the battle. Jonathan, for one, was relieved to see his sister, Susana, poke her head out the window and wave.

  Thank God.

  Susana had two boys of her own who would, no doubt, help wear the girls out.

  Susana also had the good sense to bring a governess, so as they all trooped into the house, this angel herded all the children upstairs for lunch and a much-needed nap time. Jonathan stripped off his wet outer clothing, and followed his sister and her husband, Christian, to the parlor, where Mother and Meg were having tea. He dropped into a chair with a heavy sigh, looking on dotingly as Meg and Susana greeted each other with warm hugs and kisses.

  They’d all grown up together, in Devon, but Meg and Susana hadn’t seen each other since last Christmas, apparently.

  As they sipped warm tea and feasted on cucumber sandwiches and cakes, the two young women chattered on, catching up. Susana did most of the talking, he noticed, sharing the adventures she’d had in London and in Inverness, where they had gone to visit her twin sister, Sara, and her Scottish husband. And wasn’t it a shame that Sara couldn’t come for Christmas? But what a blessing that she was increasing again.

  Yes, Susana went on and on. But then, what did Meg have to share, really? She’d spent the last two years immured in the country at Pembroke fetching shawls and whatnot for his mother.

  The thought bothered him, but he didn’t know why. It wasn’t his fault her brother had died and her cousin had evicted her, forcing her to find work wherever she could.

  It was Cyril’s fault. The bastard.

  Jonathan had never liked him.

  Susana’s big news, which she shared, eyes shining, was that she and Christian were expecting again.

  He happened to be watching Meg at that moment, so he saw her expression, which, to her credit, only lasted the flash of a moment, before she arranged her features into absolute delight. But he saw it. It burned through his soul.

  Her expression made it clear. Meg wanted children. She wanted them desperately.

  Jonathan vowed, at that very moment, to do whatever he could to help Meg get what she wanted.

  It was the least he could do.

  Truly. It was.

  Chapter Three

  After Susana, Christian, and the boys arrived, time seemed to fly by for Meg. Granted, the dowager kept her busy, now that a true governess was on site and she had Meg back exclusively in her service. In addition to her usual duties, she was in a flurry helping the household staff prepare for the house party. She wrote out invitations, planned menus, and arranged entertainments for the three-day event. And then there were the decorations. The dowager was determined to have the most talked-about event of the season. That meant outdoing all of the London hostesses, which was a daunting proposition.

  The tree was the largest challenge, because it had to be cut and set and decorated just before everyone arrived. Beyond that, the dowager wanted mistletoe on every door jamb, fresh boughs wound around every bannister, and a parade of characters representing the Twelve Days of Christmas. Thankfully, Susana had friends in London who knew a troupe of actors who were more than happy to have the opportunity to perform before the cream of the ton.

  With so much to attend to, Meg was busy from dawn to dusk and exhausted by supper, so she chose to have a tray in her room, rather than eat with the family. Aside from which, she hadn’t been invited. Therefore, she didn’t see Jonathan at all. Which was a blessing. Truly it was. It was far too difficult to be in his presence and pretend that everything was fine when all she wanted to do was cry. Once the party began, he would find a young, fresh-faced bride, and she would have to watch him marry someone else all over again.

  Being busy during the day helped distract her, though. It was the long nights that were difficult. One would think, with all her tasks, that sleep would come easily, but it didn’t.

  One night, just a few days before the guests were to arrive, she tossed and turned for hours before padding down to the library in her nightgown to find a book. She was surprised to find a lamp lit, and even more surprised to see Jonathan seated by the hearth staring into the fire.

  He noticed her before she could slip away and waved her in.

  Dear heavens. Perhaps she should have taken a moment to pull on her robe.

  “Can’t sleep?” he asked in an amused tone.

  She had no idea why he was amused, so she sniffed. “I came for a book.”

  “Of course.” He waved at the decanter on the table at his elbow. “A whisky may help.” Before she could demur, he poured her one. “Sit. Please. I would like to talk to you.”

  She should go. Really, she should. But for some reason, she didn’t want to. With a sigh, she sat, as he asked, and lifted the tumbler to her lips. The liquor burned her throat and she coughed.

  Jonathan grinned. “Good, isn’t it? It comes from Ian’s distillery.”

  She forced a smile. Though she’d never met Sara’s husband, she’d heard wonderful things about him and his whisky. “Helps, having a brother-in-law with his own distillery, does it?”

  His grin widened. “I am never without friends.”

  “I can imagine.”

  He went back to staring at the fire, which prompted her to ask, “Was there something you wanted to talk about?”

  “Ah. Yes. But first, why haven’t you been at dinner?”

  She blinked. Dinner? “Dinner is a family event.”

  He frowned. “You’re family.”

  Oh dear. “No, Jonathan,” she said with a sigh. “I’m not. I know my place.”

  “Do you eat dinner with Mother at home?”

  “Of course…but that’s different.”

  “How is it different?”

  She had no idea why this conversation seemed to be annoying him. This was the way of the world, after all. “For one thing, she hates to eat alone and she claims that Mawbry puts her off her food.”

  He laughed at that, but it was more of a snort, and he tried to hide it. “So if we want you to come to dinner, it must be a command?”

  “Something
like that.” She proffered a smug smile, but it might have been a result of the whisky, which—now that she’d had another sip—was quite warm and pleasant.

  “Well, I expect you at dinner tomorrow night then.”

  Meg started and she frowned at him. “Bollocks,” she said.

  It surprised her when he threw back his head and laughed. “Do you speak that way to my daughters?”

  “Only when the three of us are alone.” My, this whisky was something. She lifted the tumbler and observed the colors. “Does one always tell the truth when one drinks this?”

  He nodded. “Pretty much.”

  They sat in silence and sipped whisky and stared at the fire, until Meg recalled what he’d said earlier and asked, “You wanted to talk to me?”

  “Ah yes.” He sighed heavily and scrubbed his face with his palm and she had a flash of worry.

  “What is it?” What was so difficult to say?

  “I just wanted to ask you…”

  “Yes?” Now her curiosity was running wild.

  “I… Just…” He turned to her, his expression sincere and unbearably adorable. “Are you happy?”

  What?

  “Am I happy?” She gaped at him. “Of course I’m happy. Whatever do you mean?”

  “When I told you that Mother was planning to find you a husband, you seemed aghast. Do you not want a husband? Are you happy as a companion?”

  Oh dear. How to answer this?

  She stared down at her lap for a moment, gathering her thoughts. “There was a time when my fate was to marry.”

  “Technically, that is not an answer, just a statement of fact.” Blast. She’d never been able to cousin him. “What do you want, Meg?”

  “I…”

  “Is it so hard a question to answer?”

  Another sip was in order. It was going down much more smoothly.

  “Meg?”

  “No. Jonathan, it’s not a difficult question to answer. But no one’s ever asked it of me before. And for the past two years, since George died, it was a moot point. What I’ve wanted since then was to have food to eat and a roof over my head. Am I happy with those things? Yes.”

  “But you want more?”

  Oh, did she.

  She tried to look away, but couldn’t. He’d captured her in his warm brown gaze. They shared a moment, one simple moment, where she didn’t hide anything, where she let him see exactly the truth.

  “I want more, yes. I want a husband to love me. A home that is more than a mere house. I want to belong somewhere. I want choices. Options.” Annoying tears pricked at her lids. Oh, bollocks. She’d had too much whisky. She set the glass down on the table, a little too hard, as it happened.

  “And children?”

  Blast him for seeing her so clearly. His gentle query triggered the waterworks she was so sure she could hold back. It dredged up the deepest pain, her greatest loss in all this. She angrily swiped at her cheeks.

  “Meg.” He sighed her name, which was painful in itself, but then he—the bastard—stood, took her hand, and pulled her into his arms. He was in shirtsleeves and his chest was firm against hers. He wrapped himself around her and held her. Just held her there, in that warm haven, bolstering her with his strength as she wept. His scent, tantalizingly male, wrapped around her as well. “We’ll get you a husband,” he whispered into her hair. “Don’t worry. We’ll find someone.”

  To which she had to rear back and wail, “I don’t want just any husband.”

  Yes. That was the crux of it all, wasn’t it? She didn’t want just any husband.

  She wanted him.

  And she could never tell him that, because it would thrust a wedge between them that would destroy their friendship. It would make things awkward.

  Not that they weren’t awkward now.

  Especially when, from the doorway, Susana chuckled. “What is this?” she asked in a far too theatrical lilt.

  Naturally, Jonathan and Meg leaped apart and whirled to face her.

  “Nothing,” they both said at the same time, which only made her smirk.

  “We were just talking about life,” Jonathan said in a defensive tone.

  “And marriage,” Meg added.

  Susana looked them up and down. “And Meg started crying? And you gave her a hug?”

  “Exactly!” Jonathan crowed.

  “Of course.” Susana smiled. “Just what I surmised. The two of you don’t look guilty in the least.”

  Meg’s cheeks flared. “Guilty?” It had been terribly nice, being held by him. But they’d done nothing wrong. Not in the slightest. She glanced at Jonathan. His Adam’s apple bobbed.

  “Of course not,” he averred.

  Susana’s smile widened. “Well, you might want to get these late night meetings out of your system before the guests arrive. If you’re not careful, you may find yourselves thoroughly compromised.” She seemed gleeful when she said it, which was a trifle mortifying, but Meg ignored that.

  Jonathan frowned. “Don’t be ridiculous. Meg is family.”

  “She is.” Susana nodded. “And she isn’t, if you know what I mean.” The wink didn’t help.

  “I, in fact, do not know what you mean.” He seemed disturbed.

  Meg wondered idly if there was any whisky left in her glass.

  “You and I know Meg is family. That we all grew up together. But the mavens of high society don’t know or care. All they will see is that she is a single woman and you are a roguish duke.”

  “I’m hardly roguish.”

  “Not according to gossip.”

  “That is entirely unfair.”

  “Is it?” His sister fixed him with a too-knowing glance. “My point is, when the guests arrive, you will both have to behave.”

  Well really! “We were behaving!” Meg sputtered.

  Susana gave her the once over. “You’re in your nightgown.” Her gaze reached Meg’s feet. “And you’re barefoot.”

  “She couldn’t sleep,” Jonathan said, which didn’t help at all.

  Meg stepped forward. “I came down for a book.”

  “And ended up in my brother’s arms?”

  All right. Perhaps it didn’t look all that innocent—

  “I didn’t kiss her.”

  Oh dear. Granted, he was defending his honor, but did he have to shout it quite so stridently, with such…distaste? What was she, a hideous un-kissable hag? Apparently so. Fury, pain, and humiliation whipped through her. She couldn’t help it. She whirled on him and smacked his shoulder.

  His nostrils flared. “Whatever was that for?”

  But Meg couldn’t answer. Her throat was clogged and her vision slightly blurred.

  Susana shook her head. “You, Jonathan Pembroke, are hopeless,” she said, wrapping her arm around Meg’s shoulder and guiding her from the room, leaving the duke sputtering in their wake.

  * * *

  The next morning, Jonathan still had no idea what had transpired in the library the night before. Most specifically, what had made Meg cry.

  Not the first time. He totally understood that bit.

  It was the second time that perplexed him.

  Dear God, it had ripped at his heart to see her expression collapse, to see tears well in her eyes, to see her lips tremble.

  He’d only insisted that he hadn’t done anything inappropriate. He hadn’t kissed her.

  Granted, the thought had crossed his mind. She’d been so sweet and soft in his arms, and her scent, something lemony, had teased at his nostrils and made him…hungry.

  But he’d batted the thought away like an annoying gnat, just like every time he had it about Meg.

  Meg was different.

  She was like a sister.

  He’d always thought of her as such, from the first time he’d rescued her from the old elm in the meadow she liked to climb, even though she could never get herself down. She’d been five then. The same age his daughters were now. Was it any wonder he’d always thought of her as someone h
e needed to protect?

  But she wasn’t five now. Now she was a grown woman, and a damned beautiful one. Yes, he’d had, ahem, thoughts about her, but they’d felt wrong. They’d felt like he was betraying George.

  His mind flittered back to the way it had felt, holding her against his body in the library, and against his will, his passion stirred. He groaned and buried his face in his hands. It was wrong to think of her like that.

  Wasn’t it?

  It was a relief when Rodgers interrupted this mental torture with his morning tea. After that, he found his mother and told her the reason Meg never came down for dinner was because she required a command. Or at least, an invitation.

  Blast it all. It had never occurred to him that she felt she didn’t belong. It broke his heart that she felt she didn’t belong.

  She did. She belonged.

  He hunted for her all day to tell her so, and to apologize for whatever he’d said or done that had made her cry that second time, but he couldn’t find her. She had always “just left” whatever room he checked.

  By dinnertime, he was getting irritated.

  To be honest, he was irritated with himself.

  He’d spent the day thinking about Meg, and how hard it must be for her to be caught between two worlds. And how much he would like to change all that for her. How he could change all that for her.

  Mostly, he thought about how much he regretted inviting Mattingly to the party.

  He hadn’t really considered things when he added Mattingly to his list. He’d been too busy trying to please his mother with actual viable prospects.

  He hadn’t thought about what that might mean.

  Of course Mattingly would be taken with her. She was beautiful, talented, funny, and smart. How could Mattingly not want to woo her? They would dance and chat and—good God—laugh together.

  And Jonathan would have to stand there and watch with a smile on his face.

  What a miserable proposition.

  By the time dinner came around, he was in a high dudgeon. Which was saying something. Usually it was only old ladies who got into high dudgeon.

  That was probably why he frowned at Meg when she entered the sitting room in her companion’s weeds with her hair up in a spinsterly bun. It didn’t help that there was a mutinous expression on her pretty face.

 

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