Matthew dropped his hand from Trenton’s arm. He wasn’t going to lie to the man’s face about it.
“It is true that your duties for the king are not something I would do,” he said. “That does not mean I judge you for it, but you are correct in stating that I do not want an assassin for my daughter. Even if it is you.”
Trenton lifted a dark eyebrow. “I fully intend to resign my post,” he said. “I have other properties I can retire to. I will take Lysabel and the girls, and we shall live there in happiness and love. That is something none of us has ever known.”
“But they will eventually,” Matthew stressed. “They will know the happiness of a family, and with a man who can be a husband and father to them. You cannot be either of those.”
In that statement, Trenton saw an opportunity to press his case even more. Matthew was bringing up another man, any man, who would be both a husband and father to Lysabel and her girls. It was a faceless, nameless man who threatened everything Trenton wanted.
But it wouldn’t just be the three of them at some point; soon, there would be a fourth.
“Any man you find for Lysabel and the girls will be taking on an instant family,” Trenton said. “Lysabel is pregnant; did you know that? The night I killed Benoit was the night her child was conceived. It was conceived in the most brutal way possible. I am more than willing to overlook her pregnancy. I do not care in the least and I will love that child as if it were my very own. Do you really think you can find a decent man to take Lysabel, her two girls, and an infant? It is not as if she doesn’t come with great wealth or titles, you know. She has much to offer, but to a discerning man, her liabilities will outweigh her assets and any other man will simply be desperate for what she has to offer. Is that what you want? Another Benoit who is just looking for an opportunity to dig his claws into the Wellesbourne name?”
Matthew looked at him in shock as he finished what was a rather strong tirade. Lysabel hadn’t told him of the child in her belly and he was not only feeling foolish about it, he was feeling a great deal of astonishment. What Trenton said wasn’t unreasonable; a woman and two small girls was one thing, but now with the added burden of an infant, it would be increasingly difficult to find her a desirable husband. Most men simply weren’t that accepting, and it would be far worse if that baby was a girl. A son, a man could assume as his own, but three girls…
It complicated the situation.
Still, Matthew couldn’t give in to Trenton’s argument.
“Pregnancy or no pregnancy, it does not change the situation,” he said. “Trenton, listen to me. If you love Lysabel as you say you do, then you will not want to condemn her to a world of shame. Of course she has fallen for you; you saved her from Benoit. It is natural that she feels something for you. But when the shock of Benoit’s passing fades away, she will realize that she jumped from one bad situation to another if she goes with you. As her father, I must protect her. Even from you.”
Trenton could see that Matthew was coming to the heart of his opinion on the situation and Trenton could feel everything slipping away from him faster than before. Even the pregnancy revelation hadn’t swayed the man. And if that didn’t do it, nothing would.
He could feel his heart beginning to pound.
“Then what are you saying?” he finally asked. “Are you telling me that there is nothing I can say to change your mind?”
Matthew was firm, but there was sorrow in his eyes as he spoke. This wasn’t any easier for him than it was for Trenton, but he had to do what he felt was right.
“Nay, there is nothing you can say,” he said quietly. “I am asking you to leave, Trenton. I want you to go. Lysabel deserves better than what you are offering her, and I want you to leave and never come back to Wellesbourne as long as she is here. If you do not leave voluntarily, I will have you escorted out.”
Trenton knew he would, too. Rather than rise to the man’s threat, he did something he’d never done before – he began to plead.
“Please do not ask me to do that,” he said, his voice hoarse. “I do not want to leave her or the girls. I love them, Uncle Matthew. I cannot leave behind something I love.”
It was rare when he called Matthew by the name he’d called him when he was young. It was indicative of his level of emotion and Matthew, a naturally emotional man, was fighting off the extreme pain of this decision.
But he knew it was for the best.
“I cannot approve or condone what you are asking,” he said. “Trenton, I love you as much as if you were my own son, but at this moment, you are a threat to Lysabel and her future happiness. If you love her, then you will let her go. You will put her future over your wants, and if you do not do that, then you are not the man I thought you were.”
That which was slipping away from Trenton was now gone. Trenton could feel it. He ran a weary hand over his face, struggling to keep his composure, made worse when Brencis shouted to him as William took the girl over the tiny barrier he’d made for Cynethryn’s pony. His gaze was on Brencis and that happy little face, now something he was destined never to see again.
It was tearing his heart out.
“You want me to leave her?” he asked, pointing to Brencis. He had a lump in his throat. “How can I leave her? She has a love for life that I shall never have, and it is glorious. And Cynethryn… she is such a serious child and she is now coming to warm to me. It is one of my best accomplishments, gaining her trust. And Lys… the woman is glory personified. And you are asking me to leave this all behind, Uncle Matthew? Are you truly asking me to do this?”
Matthew could hear the pain and it ripped at him, like great claws. He hated seeing Trenton so shattered, but he could not go back on his request.
He would not.
“They were never yours to begin with,” he whispered. “Trenton, you cannot ask me to approve of what you want. In your heart, I think you know how wrong it is but you are blinded by this infatuation you have with Lys and her girls.”
Trenton’s head snapped to him. “It is not an infatuation,” he said, his eyes blazing. “I love them. I have told you that. How dare you diminish my feelings?”
Matthew hung his head for a moment. He didn’t want a battle but if they continued this conversation, that was going to happen.
“I will say this one more time and this will be the end of it,” he said. “If you love my daughter, then you will let her have the life she deserves in an honorable marriage, not a life as an earl’s mistress. It is a cheap and tawdry thing you are asking and while there is breath left in my body, I will never approve of such a thing. You are unsuitable for her in so many ways, only you do not see that through your own selfishness. I want you to gather your things and go, Trenton. I will give you an hour. You will not speak to Lys or the girls before you go, and I will remain with you until you ride from these gates. Is this in any way unclear?”
“And if I refuse?”
“Then this will get ugly. Do you truly want Lys to see that?”
He didn’t. The longer Trenton looked at Matthew, the more he realized that this was really over. The life he wanted for him and Lysabel had slipped through his fingers, dashed to pieces by a man who only saw the morality of the situation, not the heart of it. He couldn’t fight Matthew, nor would he, so the only thing he could do was obey the man.
But, God, it was killing him.
“I do not,” he muttered, feeling dead and hollow inside. “But I will say this; you have always been the wise and understanding one, but I see now that you have lost those qualities. Since I am not allowed to speak to Lys, what will you tell her? That you ordered me away?”
Matthew was honest. “I will tell her that you have gone and why. If it makes you feel any better, I will shoulder the burden in this situation. I will tell her that I forced you to leave.”
It didn’t make him feel any better to hear that, and he didn’t like the idea of leaving and not being able to tell Lysabel farewell, but he could see by Matt
hew’s face that no amount of pleading would change the man’s mind.
“I see,” he said. “When you tell her that, you can also tell her that you have put your pride above her own happiness. Make sure she knows that.”
Matthew had heard the same thing from Lysabel, but he wasn’t going to respond to Trenton. In truth, there was nothing more to say.
And his heart was breaking.
In silence, Matthew followed Trenton as the man went to the knight’s quarters to collect his property, and then back to the stables where Dewi was having a lovely nap. As Dewi was brought out and saddled, Cynethryn was still in the stables, watching a groom put a mustard poultice on her pony’s leg, and she smiled at Trenton and her grandfather when she caught sight of them.
Matthew smiled, but Trenton was focused on Dewi, too distraught to even look at the little girl who was now looking at him quite curiously. She was still looking at him as he mounted his steed and thundered off in the direction of the gatehouse.
The last anyone saw of Trenton, he was riding from the gates and disappearing into the village beyond.
When Matthew told Lysabel the truth behind Trenton’s departure a few hours later, she wept uncontrollably.
CHAPTER TWELVE
Deverill Castle
Wiltshire
They called him The Dark One.
Gaston de Russe, Duke of Warminster, was a larger-than-life warrior who had fought more battles in his lifetime than most. He came from a long line of warriors, for the House of de Russe had come over with William the Conqueror in days long past, and the name de Russe stood for power, talent, and intimidation.
That reputation still held true.
Gaston had been married at a young age to a cold and unpleasant woman, and that marriage had produced Trenton. When he married his current wife, Remington, he acquired her son, Dane Stoneley, whom he adopted after the death of Dane’s father. But Gaston and Remington had produced seven more children – twins Adeliza and Arica, Cort, Matthieu, Boden, Gage, and Gilliana. He had six sons and three daughters to carry on the de Russe name, and they had obliged him for the most part by producing grandchildren – Adeliza and Arica had both married fine men and had eleven children between them, while Matthieu had married a few years back and had four sons.
But the rest of the de Russe sons weren’t so obliging.
Dane had been married once before but had lost his wife to a fever many years ago, while Cort, Boden, and Gage seemed to think they didn’t have to marry, ever. Then, there was Trenton, who had been unlucky in the three marriages he’d had. His current marriage in particular was something that had been bad for Gaston’s relationship with his eldest son and that, coupled by other complex issues, had kept Trenton away from Deverill Castle for six long years.
It was something Gaston had stopped agonizing over a long time ago, but something he’d never gotten over. He still hurt for his son and missed him every day.
But life went on.
Seated in his large, paneled solar, the one that overlooked his wife’s tranquil garden but also had windows facing the bailey should he need to see the comings and goings of the castle, Gaston was in the process of examining his map of Wiltshire and Dorset because he’d received a missive from the king offering him some local crown properties at a good price. While Gaston was always looking to expand his empire, the property he really wanted was in Dorset.
Sherbourne Castle was a magnificent castle with rich lands attached to it, and he had hoped to purchase the castle and use it as a bargaining chip to lure one of his sons into a marriage. But as he pored over the maps, his son, Cort, appeared in the doorway with the news of a new arrival.
“Da,” Cort sounded breathless, having run all the way from the gatehouse. “You will never believe who has come.”
Gaston looked up at his son; he was his first son with Remington, an enormous man with copper curls to his shoulders and eyes the color of the sea. In fact, he looked astonishingly like his mother all the way down to her pale, freckled skin, only on Cort, Remington’s coloring and Gaston’s massive build made him look like a god.
Cort de Russe was all shades of delicious.
And he had no shortage of women throwing themselves at his feet. It was something he was quite proud over. One look at that beautiful, curly hair and those flashing eyes, and women were butter in his hands. At twenty years and nine, it was time for the man to settle down, but he was squirrelly when it came to allowing his father to broker a marriage for him. In fact, it was with Cort in mind that Gaston wanted to purchase Sherbourne. Even his cheeky, egotistical son couldn’t pass up on an opportunity like that.
Or, so Gaston hoped.
But those thoughts were pushed aside as the very man he’d been considering was now standing rather excitedly in his solar. Cort had an excitable personality, passionate in everything he did, so to see the man twitching with glee wasn’t anything unusual. A smile played on his lips as Gaston sat back in his chair.
“Tell me, Cort,” he said. “Who could possibly be visiting me today?”
Cort didn’t sense that his father was taking him seriously, but he knew the moment he spoke, his father would. He was so excited that he simply couldn’t be gentle about it.
“Trenton is here,” he said.
As Cort knew, the smile vanished from Gaston’s face and a look of astonishment washed over him. “Trenton?” he repeated. “Here?”
Cort nodded eagerly. “Come, Da,” he said. “He is at the gatehouse.”
Gaston shot to his feet. But something kept Gaston from running. His heart was pounding and eagerness surged through him, but he didn’t go. He’d long since stopped running to Trenton because he’d realized long ago that if Trenton wanted to see him, Trenton would come to him. He was finished going after a son who only rejected him when he came too close.
Slowly, he sat back down.
“If Trenton wishes to see me, tell him where to find me,” he told Cort. “You had better go tell your mother now.”
Cort was puzzled but he did what he was told. The relationship between his oldest brother and his father had been contentious over the years, so he didn’t try to second-guess either of them and he didn’t get involved. He’d learned long ago that whatever went on between those two was better left for them to work out alone.
As Cort headed off to tell his mother the news before returning to the gatehouse, Gaston returned to the maps in front of him, but his mind wasn’t on his business. He was feigning it was, but it wasn’t. His mind was on Trenton and his visit. He felt so much anxiety that it was difficult for him to focus on anything.
Why had Trenton come?
As much as he pretended not to keep track of his eldest son, the truth was that he did. He had a home in London where his cousin, Patrick, resided and Patrick saw Trenton quite frequently. Patrick commanded the small army kept based at Braidwood House, situated on the banks of the Thames just to the east of the Tower of London. Whenever Trenton was at Greenwich, he would visit Patrick, a man who had suffered a good deal of trials and tribulations in his life. Somehow, Trenton felt a kindred spirit with Patrick because the man understood what it was to suffer. He also wasn’t as judgmental as Gaston was. Therefore, Trenton trusted him, and Patrick told Gaston what he could of the man.
But Gaston knew it wasn’t all of it.
As he waited for Trenton to show himself, Gaston’s gaze moved back to the map of Wiltshire and parts of Dorset and Somerset. He noted Trenton’s properties of Westbury, Penleigh, and the hunting lodge at Hawkridge. Gaston had given those to Trenton, as his heir, hoping those things would ease whatever rockiness was between them, but gifts and titles hadn’t solved a thing.
He honestly wasn’t sure anything ever would.
Ever since Trenton had been a young man, there had been long periods of separation, and a mother who hated the sight of her son’s father and tried to poison Trenton against him. Even though the years had seen father and son repair the damage for
the most part, Gaston always thought there might have been some part of Trenton that still believed his mother, that still resented a father who had been away so much.
Mistakes he’d made with Trenton that he hadn’t made with his other children. Perhaps that was why Gaston had a soft spot for his eldest son, the lad who had gone through more tribulations than most. And then, there was his work for Henry…
That was something Gaston tried not to think about. When Trenton had taken the post with Henry, Gaston had given him his opinion on the dishonorable nature of it, but it hadn’t swayed Trenton. The man was convinced he’d be doing great and important things for Henry when the truth was that he was simply Henry’s attack dog. Everyone knew it. Everyone in England feared Trenton in a way they’d never feared Gaston, mostly because when Gaston moved, it was with an army, and one knew what was coming. But with Trenton, he moved in stealth, with his band of trusted men, and one never knew what was coming until it was too late.
Gaston had always wanted something better for his son than what he had been dealt, but it seemed as if that wasn’t meant to be.
Truthfully, Gaston had no idea how long he sat there and reminisced about Trenton’s life and where he’d gone wrong. He lost all track of time as he pondered his eldest. When next he realized, a massive figure was suddenly standing in his solar doorway and he looked up to see Trenton standing there in full armor.
Never had Gaston seen a prouder, or more welcome, sight.
His boy had come home.
“Trenton,” he said, realizing there was a lump in his throat. “I… I was told you had arrived. It is good to see you, lad.”
Trenton stood there, looking at his father, his features pale and his expression tight. There was tension in the air, tension created by separation and the fragility of the relationship between them. But there was also relief in the air, relief that they were once again in the same room, men who loved each other, but men whom the years had damaged. Trenton finally spoke.
“Father,” he greeted. “Am I welcome?”
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