by Nalini Singh
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"Damn Pack," he muttered. "No one's heard of fucking privacy. "
Tamsyn chuckled. "So? Ashaya hides it well, but that much ice in a woman's eyes when she looks at a man spells trouble. What did you do?"
"She disobeyed a direct order, put herself in harm's way. " He watched as Keenan took something out of his pocket and put it on the table. Ashaya took the object at once, enclosing it tightly in her fist.
"Are you sure you're really angry at her, and not at what you saw inside that house?"
He thought of the wall of blood droplets, the metallic bite of iron in the air. "What I saw inside that house was a nightmare," he admitted. "But I'm very definitely furious with her. " The cat nodded in agreement inside him.
"Why?" Tamsyn insisted. "She only did what any other woman would've done for a man she cared for, in the same situation. "
Ashaya looked up at that second and even from this far away, he saw the primal awareness in her eyes. She looked away an instant later, but the damage had been done. His body tightened, the anger transforming into something else. "It was easier to keep her at a distance when she didn't act so human. "
Tammy hugged him, her warmth soaking into his bones. "I don't think your cat wants to keep her at a distance. "
"That's the problem. " He broke their embrace. "I want her so badly I'm burning up from the inside out, and I can't justify it. " He'd hungered for her from the start. But now that hunger was clawing into his heart.
"Just because she's Psy - "
He cut her off with a sharp slice of his hand. "It's not that. She worked for the Council, Tammy. How do I face Kylie's memory if I feel this way about a woman who was part of the machinery that led to her death?"
"Ashaya had nothing to do with Enrique. "
His cat hissed at the sound of that name. "She kept the Council's secrets, worked for Ming himself. "
"You're not making any sense. " Frowning, Tammy folded her arms. "Sascha was a Councilor's daughter and, granted, you wanted to rip her throat out once, but you adore her now. Faith did predictions for the Council and you never reacted to her like this. What is it about Ashaya that makes her worse?"
Dorian couldn't betray Ashaya's secret, her love for a sister who was more than broken, more than damaged. "Just leave it. "
Tammy's eyes widened. "Oh, my God, Dorian, it's not only lust, is it? You're starting to fall for her. She matters. "
Tammy was wrong, Dorian thought, looking out and into the yard again.
The truth was, he'd already fallen for her.
Did you even consider how it would've hit Keenan if you'd been captured or killed?
The truth was, Ashaya hadn't thought at all. She'd acted. . . on instinct. The need to protect Dorian had slammed into her without warning, broadsiding her with its sheer strength.
It wasn't as if she was a stranger to irrational behavior. She was used to acting that way where Keenan and Amara were concerned. They were both blood of her blood, flesh of her flesh, linked to her with invisible psychic threads. It made a certain kind of sense that she wouldn't be entirely logical where they were concerned.
But today, she'd acted against all reason and sense for a man who was wholly unconnected to her. She'd disregarded her own safety - the first priority for most Psy - disregarded common sense, disregarded her other obligations, everything but her driving need to ensure Dorian made it out alive.
Now she sat across from her son, and instead of the guilt that had first hit her, she felt a kind of peace. Because in doing what she'd done, she'd taken an irrevocable step. A step out of even the pretence of Silence. On the PsyNet she continued to protect her mind, but within, the last vestiges of her conditioning had ceased to exist.
Come on, Amara, she whispered. Let's end this. Because Dorian was right, she couldn't keep living this half life.
"Mommy?" Keenan's solemn little face, looking at her quizzically. "Where are you?"
"Right here. " Standing, she walked around the table and picked him up in her arms, hiding nothing of what she felt. "I love you, my baby. I love you. "
He gave her the sweetest smile. "I know that, Mommy. "
Even as her heart broke under the lash of that confident voice, she looked up to see Dorian stalking toward her. Her body tightened, her heart thudded, and her mind grew frantic with a need so primitive and sensual, it threatened to make a slave out of her.
Dorian spoke to Keenan first. "Tammy made cookies. "
Keenan immediately wiggled to be put down. "I like cookies!"
Ashaya set him on the ground and watched him run to the house. "Has there been a decision on her cubs?"
"They'll be back tonight. Sascha's confident he won't hurt them, but when you're not with him, she and Faith are going to take turns at keeping an eye on things. "
Ashaya nodded, understanding the caution. Keenan was a strong telepath, and conversely, the cubs did have claws and teeth. "I want him to have friends. " To have a life.
Dorian stepped closer, backing her against the picnic table. "What did he give you?"
"None of your business," she snapped, not having forgotten his earlier temper - nor the way he'd deliberately put her on the defensive so she'd back down. It had taken her too long to recognize that bit of feline trickery, but now that she had, it made her wonder what secrets he was keeping. Not that he would tell her. That thought gave her voice added force when she said, "Go away. "
Instead of complying, he put his hands on either side of the table, trapping her. "They can see us from the kitchen, so play nice. " His eyes gleamed in a way that turned the word "play" into something sinfully sensuous.
Ashaya felt her cheeks heat up in a feminine response she hadn't known she had the capacity to experience. Dorian, she realized, was a very dangerous male when he decided to play nice. "You were yelling at me not so long ago. Why the charm?"
"I want you. " A blunt statement. "I decided I could continue to stave off the need by remaining angry with you, or - " He paused, his eyes turning to blue fire in front of her.
"Or?" she prompted, knowing she shouldn't, but unable to resist.
"Or I could feed the hunger. "
She swallowed.
"Guess which option I chose?" A silken whisper that made her nerve endings skitter in warning.
"Number one?" Her voice came out oddly husky.
He pressed into her, his thighs hard and powerful against her own. "Wrong. " His gaze drifted to her lips. "No bonus points for you. But that's okay - I'll go easy. . . the first time. "
Chapter 29
Somewhere in the murky depths of the Tenderloin, a place some still called the dark heart of San Francisco, an exchange took place.
"Careful," came the hissed command as a box nearly hit the alleyway floor. "We've only got two boxes of this stuff. "
"More than enough," another person scoffed. "All it takes is one hit, right?"
"Not with your shooting," the first voice said. "Now concentrate. "
Silence reigned for the next ten minutes, until everything was stored in its proper place. "Word from Venice is that this operation is a go, if we can do it without attracting the wrong kind of attention - our top priority is to remain under the radar. " The speaker waited to make sure that was understood before moving on to more practical matters. "Some of us will be shooting with modified tranquilizer guns, so I want everyone to start practicing. If we get a chance to take Aleine, we need to be ready. Because we'll only get one shot. "
"Then let's make sure we hit the bull's-eye first time out. "
Chapter 30
Dorian wasn't wearing a shirt when he gave me his DNA. It made it difficult to concentrate. Even if I didn't know his changeling affiliation, I'd guess him for a hunting cat. The way he moves, it's an erotic dance. . . or perhaps that's only the effect he has on me. If I dared throw caution to the winds and stroked the cat within, would he bite off my ha
nd, or would he purr?
- From the encrypted personal files of Ashaya Aleine
Dorian took Ashaya back to the apartment later that afternoon, after she'd read Keenan a story and assured him she would return in time for dinner. Satisfied, the boy promised to behave for the couple of hours they'd be gone.
"It's important that I be with him tonight," Ashaya said as they grabbed a quick bite before leaving. "He needs to know I'll be there when he needs me. "
Dorian didn't argue with her decision - kids were the most precious aspect of Pack. But that didn't mean he was going to forget the teasing threat he'd made outside. The guilt, the anger, none of it was enough to stop him - Ashaya Aleine was going to be his. "I can pack up your stuff, bring it to you. " He could play very nice when he was in the mood.
She gave him a suspicious look. "No. It's better if Keenan doesn't come to expect me here all the time. Just in case - "
He kissed her without warning, taking his time with those full, bitable lips that drove him crazy. "You'd better start trusting me to keep you safe," he said against her kiss-wet mouth, "or I don't know what my bruised ego will make me do. " It came out not as a warning, but as a promise.
He intended to further her education in the care and feeding of the male ego at the apartment, but when they arrived, it was to find Faith waiting at the top of the stairs, fingers plucking at the ends of the green silk scarf she'd used to pull back her hair. Vaughn lounged by the doorway, back against the wall.
Dorian moved smoothly in front of Ashaya. "What are you two doing here?" While Vaughn was a good friend, Dorian's relationship with Faith was a little more problematic.
"I wanted to talk to you," the cardinal Psy said, biting her lower lip. "And Ashaya. "
Protectiveness gripped his throat. "This is meant to be a safe location. You could've led someone here. "
