Honor Among Thieves

by Rachel Caine

  My mouth went dry, and my pulse stuttered, then sped up. I wanted to pull free and bolt, but you don’t run from a dangerous beast. “So?”

  He wrapped both hands around mine, approximating a congratulatory gesture, but it ground my knuckles together so hard my eyes watered. I didn’t flinch, holding his gaze until he tipped his head like a curious predator deciding what to bite first.

  Deluca leaned in. “You have something I want.”

  “I hope it’s a smile. I give those for free . . . Oh, wait. Fresh out.”

  “Didn’t you get my card? I want the data.”

  “Well, I don’t have it. What are you going to do? Kill me here in the ballroom?”

  “I’d kill every Honor in this place if I had to,” he said. “I don’t have to. You’ve got a weakness. If you want to see him alive again, you’re going to hand the data tab over.”

  Him?

  Derry. I’d given Derry the chem.

  Horror paralyzed me for a second, and then Deluca pulled an H2 from his pocket. He turned it to show me the screen. The sound was off, but the picture was right there in vivid color: Derry, screaming. Bloody.

  I wanted to grab something, anything to use as a weapon and kill this man right here. Instead, I raised my gaze back to Deluca’s and said, “Don’t know him.”

  “No?” He shook the H2 back and forth a little. “Doesn’t ring a bell? Derry McKinnon?”

  “Nope.”

  “Funny. He went looking for more of this.” From the same pocket, Deluca produced a small bag with just a dusting of shimmering crystals. “Derry said a lot, like how you killed my man Enzo and forced him to bury the body. Look, kid. If you think you can bootleg my designer formula, well.” He drew his finger across his throat. “Don’t even try. Hand over the data and I’ll . . . let it go.”

  That was a lie. I saw it in the icy smile that came after.

  “And Derry?” Numbness trickled in. The rest of the ballroom had faded out. Derry talked. Not just about the chem, but he straight-up rolled on me.

  I had been making excuses for Derry for years, and it stopped now. No matter what, he shouldn’t have given me up. Not with everything I’d done for him.

  Fucking asshole.

  “Let him go, and I’ll tell you where to find the tab. It’s still in the box.” I took a wild guess, because it didn’t really matter if I was wrong. “You had the formula on that data tab inside, right? What’d you do, kill the chemist and wipe his records?”

  Deluca was smooth. He hardly reacted at all, but I saw the little creases at the corners of his eyes, the nearly invisible twitch in his jaw. That box I’d grabbed hadn’t been his daughter’s personal stash; it had been Deluca’s production order, and she’d been taking it to his street lab. That formula he’d stored on the data tab, the one I’d ditched? That was worth billions.

  But not to me. The only thing it was worth to me was Derry’s life.

  When he didn’t respond, I said, “Do we have a deal?”

  “I don’t work on credit. He’s dead if you don’t cooperate.”

  No choice. I had no other leverage, so I called up a map and marked the alley where I’d dropped it, next to the VR porn studio. “Here,” I said. “I stuck it under some fallen bricks. Probably still there, unless somebody found and scrapped it.”

  I killed twenty agonizing minutes at his side while he dispatched goons to check the site, and after his men retrieved the data tab, he pulled out his H2 and jabbed the screen. Then he held it out to me, a live feed; I could see the clock off to the side, set to Detroit time. A guy in a mask stepped up and slashed Derry’s ropes away. Derry got up, staggered, and ran. The guy in the mask shook his head and said something I couldn’t hear to the camera, and then he picked up the H2 on the other end and turned it around. I saw Derry darting out a broken doorway.

  “What guarantee do I have that you’re not just going to hunt him down now and kill him?” I asked.

  “None. But why would I bother?” He took in a breath, all too aware of the drones, the head-cams, the other people around us. Forced a smile. “Besides, people like him are leverage. Go ahead, run to the stars. I’ll be waiting when you get back. Maybe we’ll do some more business, kid. I still haven’t paid you back for the disrespect to my daughter.”

  I watched him go, unable to focus on the event at all.

  It was late by the time all the new Honors had their big moment, beamed live all over the world: two in the morning. I had no false excitement left, just fear. Fear of Deluca’s long reach, fear of the unknown. Whatever, at least Derry was alive and we were quits.

  I couldn’t sleep. Instead, I paced, watching the clock, feeling everything around me shift, change, and crumble. I packed the few things I owned. I watched some coverage of the upcoming launch event. . . . The reporters, at least, weren’t sleeping any more than I was. I got surprised by an interview with my father, who popped up out of nowhere; I shut it off rather than hear him say my name.

  As the few hours passed, things compressed into flashes. Flash, and I was eating breakfast from a fancy tray while Marko updated me on what would happen today. Flash, and I was in an e-car with Marko, Mom, and Kiz, heading for the launch site.

  Flash, and I stood in the early morning light, surrounded by paparazzi, while my mother held me tight and whispered, “Love you, Zara. You’re gonna do great things.”

  Kiz got in on the hug. “Don’t screw it up.”

  I took pleasure in knowing that my old man wasn’t sharing this public family farewell. Like he did me, I wrote him out, now that I had the power.

  Time stopped moving so quickly then, as if my brain had decided to take it all in. In a few moments, I’d be leaving Earth. Leaving everything I’d ever known. Amid a flurry of photo ops and terse mini-interviews, I finally boarded the shuttle. I’m about to meet an alien. Not a metal ship. A living creature that traveled in space, taking me along for the ride. That scared the hell out of me, now that it was more than just some holo, some abstract concept.

  Valenzuela’s warning echoed in my head. Don’t go. Maybe this was a bad idea, worse than staying to face off with Deluca. My stomach knotted.

  Somehow I lifted a hand to wave to Mom and Kiz. Mom put her hand to her heart, and I did the same. Then I was inside the shuttle.

  Marko made sure I was strapped in and settled beside me. Across the aisle, a dark-haired girl that I vaguely recalled as Beatriz, the other new recruit, was breathing hard and blinking back tears while Zhang Chao-Xing—imposing and very stiff in the flesh—ignored her distress.

  “It’s okay,” I said to the other girl, but really to myself.

  The engines engaged and started to spin up, and the strangest thing happened: a wave surged inside me, almost new to me. Anticipation. This felt like running, all right, running away from my past and everything in it. Racing full speed toward the unknown.

  I was good at running.

  When the shuttle shot up, the roar blanked everything else as we left the Earth and flung ourselves out toward the stars.

  Interlude: Nadim

  Below, the planet spins. It is a beautiful world, lush in hues and energy, filled to bursting with life in fascinating shapes. I wish I could visit it, but skimming the thick atmosphere is as close as I dare. I am with the others, my year-mates, and we circle the globe in a weightless flock.

  We are all empty.

  It is a strange thing to feel the hollow spaces and the silence again. Peaceful, but sad. I miss Marko’s calm, whispering presence. I wonder what new humans will bring me. Chao-Xing taught me a chill kind of patience. Marko taught me to listen. Each of them teaches, each of them learns. This is the way.

  Elder Typhon hovers higher, hidden in starshadow, adrift on dark currents. His sails are furled as he waits. I can feel his eagerness to be done and traveling again, but I don’t know what drives him on. I feel no such need, at least at the moment; the song of stars whispers far, far away. I could stay caught in the glow of these human
s for ages and feel content. This is what drew us to them, this energy. Many forms of life exist in the vast, black ocean between suns, but few burn so brightly. Sing so clearly.

  My new crew is coming. I feel the hot pulse of the shuttles—poor, inert things, driven by machines and not life—bringing them up from their drowning-heavy ground to the cool surface where I drift. Fifty vessels, each bearing guests. As mine nears, it gives me golden, sweet joy to feel Marko on board, less to feel Chao-Xing, but she is familiar all the same.

  The other two are different, as different to each other as to me. One burns with a nervous, brittle brown chatter of fear; the other has a red edge of something else. Harder, but . . . sweeter too. Something I have never known.

  Something new.

  PART II

  CHAPTER SIX

  Breaking Through

  THE UPWARD RUSH felt like the purest freedom I’d ever known.

  Though I’d hated almost everything that led up to this moment, exaltation shot through my veins. I watched the Earth fall away, along with all constraints and restrictions. Whoever I’d been dirtside, this was a fresh start. This was a new me, this uniform, this slick haircut, this possibility.

  Inside, though. Inside, I was the same old Zara. I didn’t know if that would ever change.

  I’d never flown on a plane, let alone a shuttle. For a small craft, this thing had a lot of thrust. We rocketed up, and a final boost pushed us, shuddering, past the atmosphere, and the revelation hit me hard, watching that shifting sky. The universe opened up like a darkly blooming flower to reveal a black sea full of Leviathan.

  My breath caught.

  Even at this distance, they still looked big, so they must be enormous up close. I’d seen the holo at orientation, of course, but nothing could do justice to the silvery, flickering sheen of them, contrasted against surrounding darkness. Their hulls gleamed with a sort of incandescent starlight, and I thought of the silver moonfish I’d once seen in an aquarium. I wondered how their skin felt to touch. Awe crept over me when I processed the fact that I was looking at a living creature with such magnificent lines. The nearest Leviathan was broadest across the center, with graceful curves from head to tail. The tail stretched out into a tapered point, and solar sails stretched out like fans, iridescent as butterfly wings.

  Holy shit. I’ll be living inside someone.

  That was a bizarre thought, kind of reminiscent of Jonah and the whale. That wilderness Bible camp had made sure I knew lots of pointless stories. I leaned forward, straining my harness for a better glimpse. The shuttle nosed close, and the creature . . . opened.

  Staring into the maw of our new reality, the other girl had a panic attack. Her big brown eyes went wide, her breath starting to shorten and grow harsh. I’d seen it before on the streets. Sometimes, if people had asthma, we had to find a med bot and get them on a breather. But she didn’t seem asthmatic. Just scared to death.

  “You’re Beatriz, right?” I’d met her during training week, but we hadn’t spent much time together. She didn’t answer. The shuttle lurched to a stop, and a strange, syrupy gravity drew us back down into our chairs. Chao-Xing ignored Beatriz’s distress. She was entirely occupied with her personal H2. Reading her own coverage, I guessed.

  “Hey!” I said sharply, leaning forward. “Ms. Zhang. Give her a hand or something.”

  “Excuse me?” she said without looking up.

  “You. Isn’t she kind of your responsibility?”

  “Not anymore. We’ve docked.”

  “Chao-Xing,” Marko said, in a patient, resigned tone, like he’d developed it over a thousand uses. “Come on. Give her a relaxer. She needs it.”

  The woman looked irritated as hell, but she dug around in a bag by her seat, broke open a medkit, and snapped a vial under Beatriz’s nose. The girl’s breathing evened out, and her eyelids fluttered, like she might pass out. “There,” Chao-Xing said. “Happy?”

  “Delighted,” Marko said in a voice that was anything but. Wow. These two . . . didn’t really get along.

  I didn’t wait for an invitation and unfastened my straps. Once Beatriz calmed a bit, Marko disengaged the doors, and we stepped out into what seemed like a kind of docking bay. But the floor felt strange and spongy beneath my feet. I bounced a little. The ship carried a faint smell that the others didn’t seem to notice, but it swirled around me like a smoky, caramelized sweetness. I drew it in deeply as I spun in a circle, trying to wrap my head around the fact that I was inside a living creature. Though I didn’t like anyone bossing me around, I waited for Marko, because he had the scoop on what our next move should be.

  “I’ll give them the tour,” he said to Chao-Xing.

  It didn’t seem like she intended to even leave the shuttle. “Make it quick. We’re expected soon.”

  Marko stepped out with a smile that wasn’t directed at either of us. “Nadim, these are your new partners, Beatriz Teixeira and Zara Cole.”

  I was trying to figure out how to greet a ship when I heard a sweet, low voice, somehow both in my head and outside of it, vocalized in subharmonics that vibrated pleasantly down my spine. “I’m so happy you’re here.”

  The classes had spelled out that the Leviathan would communicate with us directly by voice, but this felt like the ship was talking to me—and only to me. The sincerity rolled over me so hard, it made the top of my head tingle. For a few seconds, I stood speechless, and I felt squirmy, for no logical reason. I got my breathing under control and shifted, feeling the give beneath my feet.

  “Uh . . . hi,” I mumbled. My cheeks felt hot. No. I did not blush. I hadn’t blushed since I was eight.

  Beatriz let out a squeak and grabbed my arm; Nadim’s greeting hadn’t made her feel any better, clearly. Marko led us through the docking bay and deeper into the Leviathan. Into Nadim, I corrected mentally. It always used to piss me off when people dismissed me, so I couldn’t deny this ship’s personhood, which sounded weird even in my head. We passed a kind of membrane that drifted over my skin—not unpleasant, just strange—but Beatriz was shivering by the time we stepped into a corridor that might have been a nerve pathway. The walls this deep shone an ivory pink, and on instinct, I reached out, then remembered how much I hated people touching me without permission.

  “Go ahead,” Nadim said. “It’s all right.”

  That startled me, but I put my hand on the wall. Carefully.

  Marko smiled. “Warmer than you expected?”

  Definitely. Warm and silky too. “It doesn’t hurt when I touch him?” I asked.

  Nadim answered, not Marko. “It feels nice.”

  Carefully I drew my hand away and followed Marko into what I recognized from the orientation classes as our common room. The furnishings were lush and human-made, and I wondered if all this human-added stuff felt uncomfortable for the ship, like a human wearing braces on his teeth.

  There was also a familiar data console—again, like the one I’d used in orientation week classes, with all its inputs. Marko recapped how to use it while I stared up at the curves and hollows of the ceiling; it reminded me first of a church, and then of the top of a human mouth. It was impossible not to feel a little overwhelmed by the collision of the familiar and the strange.

  “Zara? Are you listening?” Marko sounded just a touch impatient. I quickly pulled my attention back to him.

  “Sure,” I lied, and I could see he knew it.

  “For the first day, you’ll be free to relax a bit. Then Nadim will take you on a short trip. By which I mean, within the Sol system. After that, the second phase of your training begins. The console has all the information regarding your schedule and the goals you must achieve.”

  “Question,” I said. “What if we don’t? Achieve. Do you bring us back to Earth?” Not that I was intending to fail, but better to be prepared. Next to me, Beatriz still seemed blurry from the relaxers. I couldn’t tell if she was going to be able to handle this.

  Nadim answered me. “I’m certain you will do
fine,” he offered, “and I will be of assistance in any way I can. The projects you will be working on are of benefit to both of our species. If you fail, then I fail too.”

  He absolutely had a mind of his own, though I should ask about pronouns. Regardless, it sounded like he intended to be a partner. In a way, that was great because there were three of us here, not just two. But it also meant that if Nadim had his own goals, and his own agendas . . . then we could be at odds.

  That put me on edge, again. Because as soon as we left orbit, there would be nowhere left to run. My breath went in a sudden rush. Maybe space wasn’t freedom after all. What if it was a wasteland, and I was in a lifeboat that could turn on me at any time? Something clearly went wrong for Gregory Valenzuela. Maybe that was just his own latent problems that bubbled up, or maybe it was something more. Stay alert.

  Marko wasn’t paying attention to me; he was talking to Beatriz, who’d finally focused enough to ask some questions. I stood there frozen, heart pounding, wondering if I could make a break for the shuttle. Go home.

  Home to what? Derry sold you out. Deluca will be waiting.

  I closed my eyes, and I was surprised to hear Nadim say, very quietly, “Are you all right, Zara Cole?”

  I looked at Beatriz and Marko, who stood a short distance away; neither of them acted like they’d heard a thing. It was incredible that a ship could manage the equivalent of a whisper. It was in my head, but it sounded like someone standing a respectful distance away, speaking quietly.

  It was in my head. That should have felt weird, but . . . it didn’t. Sounds, after all, were just vibrations that got interpreted in the brain; he was just cutting out the step and tapping directly in. It didn’t feel strange at all.

  Which was strange, in itself.

  “I’m only speaking to you,” he said helpfully. “How may I help you feel more at home? The first day, I know, can be difficult.”

  I turned my back on the others and walked a little distance off, so they couldn’t overhear. I lowered my voice to a whisper. “Look, I don’t know—I thought this was a good idea, but now . . .”