by D. W. Buffa
THE DARK BACKWARD
D.W. Buffa
Table of Contents
Title Page
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Chapter One
Chapter Two
Chapter Three
Chapter Four
Chapter Five
Chapter Six
Chapter Seven
Chapter Eight
Chapter Nine
Chapter Ten
Chapter Eleven
Chapter Twelve
Chapter Thirteen
Chapter Fourteen
Chapter Fifteen
Chapter Sixteen
Chapter Seventeen
Chapter Eighteen
Chapter Nineteen
Chapter Twenty
Chapter Twenty One
HILLARY
Copyright Notice
Also by D.W. Buffa
The Defense
The Prosecution
The Judgment
The Legacy
Star Witness
Breach of Trust
Trial By Fire
Rubicon
Evangeline
The Swindlers
The Last Man
Helen
Hillary
“But how is it
That this lives in thy mind? What seest thou else
In the dark backward and abysm of time?”
- Shakespeare, The Tempest, Act I, scene II
Chapter One
William Darnell thought he had seen every kind of human conflict, every type of human tragedy, seen them in all their immense variety: murder done from envy, murder done for revenge, murder done for money, murder done for love, murder done after careful planning, murder done in a moment’s rage. He had known, and defended, every kind of murderer: some of them intelligent, some of them stupid; some of them people who would almost surely kill again, some of them people who would never be able to forgive themselves for what they had done; all of them, despite their differences, driven by the same desire, known since Cain slew Abel: the need to kill because, in their twisted imaginations, it was the only way their own lives would be worth living. He had known them all, and if there was something he had missed, it was in all probability now too late. He was at the end of what might be the last case he would ever try.
The last case he would ever try. He laughed when he thought about it. From the first time he stood up in a court of law and announced that he was the attorney for the defense, he had known what a great many lawyers never learned: that the case, this case, the one he had right now, was the only case; that this trial, the one he had right now, was the most important thing he would ever do. Darnell had understood that, understood with all the certainty of instinct that the only way to begin a new case was to think that it might be the last case he would ever have. He had become one of the most successful lawyers in the country, a courtroom legend in San Francisco, but every case was still like the first case he had ever tried, the last case he might ever have. The only difference was that now it might actually be true.
No one was supposed to do what he did at his age. Trial work was too strenuous, too intense; there was too much pressure, too many demands. Some did it past fifty, a few past sixty; no one did it when he was in his seventies and Darnell was at least as old as that.
“I wouldn’t be this old,” he often reminded himself, “if I had ever stopped doing what I do. I would have died years ago, like most of the people I used to know.”
It kept him alive, he was sure of it: the trial, the story that got told, the story about what had happened and why it happened; the story that he had almost always been able to tell better than the other side. That was why he loved it: the plot, the characters, the way he could use them to create, like some work of fiction, a separate world, showing through the dialogue he had with the witnesses – the questions he asked and the answers he forced them to give – how the story he was telling, his version of events, was the only story a jury could reasonably believe. And the law, the rules that decided what was right and what was wrong, that was never as straightforward as it was commonly thought to be. Darnell could always find a question, a doubt, about whether the law everyone was bound to follow was quite adequate; whether there was not something missing, something that could not have been foreseen, something that would make what at first seemed like an act of violence, a crime, the only thing that in those particular circumstances could, and should, have been done. Whether in the given instance it had been human frailty or human strength, he would somehow find the human element, the element that every juror could understand, that had made the defendant do something that might on some narrow interpretation have broken the strict letter of the law, but that no sane person would call unjust.
That was the issue: the question of what drove people to do what they did – part of the mystery of human existence, if you will – that had for more than half a century had driven William Darnell. A courtroom was a stage, every trial a new and different play, each of them with its own beginning, middle, and end. He remembered that now as he watched the members of the jury file into the courtroom and take their places in the jury box. After all these years, after more trials than he could count, he still felt the same sensation he had in that first trial, a lifetime ago, when he had waited as a jury came back from its deliberations, ready to announce a verdict. Or, rather, the lack of sensation, the absence of any feeling at all; a strange detachment, as if none of it had any longer anything to do with him. He might as well have wandered in, a casual spectator without any connection to the trial. It was the knowledge that the decision had already been made, that whatever the verdict, the trial was over. He had done what he could and there was nothing more for it but to wait.
The twelve jurors, seven men and five women, people he had not known before the trial started and, unless he should run into them on the street sometime, would never meet again, sat quietly in their chairs. Some of them looked at the judge while he glanced at the verdict form, some of them looked down at their hands; none of them looked at the defendant, a young woman charged with the murder of her husband. Darnell had put her on the stand, the last witness in the trial, to admit that she had killed him, but only because it was the only way out, the only way to save herself from the physical and sexual abuse to which she had been subjected for years. Why had she not gone to the police, why had she not run away - the questions he had first asked her when she had begged him take her case, he had asked her under oath. When she replied that she had tried both those things and that they had only made matters worse, when she had fought back the tears as she described the unspeakable things that had been done to her, when the jury looked at her with more than idle sympathy, with something of the sense of the terror with which she had had to live, he thought she just might have a chance.
The judge handed the verdict form to the clerk who in turn returned it to the foreman of the jury, a balding bespectacled middle-age man.
“Has the jury reached a verdict?” asked the judge.
“We have, your Honor. We find the defendant not guilty.”
Darnell was not surprised, but neither would he have been surprised had it gone the other way. It had seemed to him a close case, one that in the end depended on what the jury thought of her, a woman who insisted that she was more a victim than the man she killed. They believed what she told them about the things her husband had done, but they would not have believed her if they had not felt sorry for her. If she had been just a shade less likeable, a bit less sympathetic, she would be on her way to a lifetime spent in prison instead of walking out of the courthouse free to do as she liked. If this was the last case William Darnell would ever try, it was perhaps entirely fitting, given h
ow often he had tried to search through the moral ambiguity of what people sometimes did, that he was not at all certain that, had he been a member of the jury, he would not have voted to convict.
“The judge would like to see you, Mr. Darnell.”
Darnell looked up from the counsel table where he was putting the last remaining papers in his brief case. He knew the clerk, a woman with sad eyes and a kind smile who worked in Judge Pierce’s courtroom on the floor above.
“Judge Pierce?” he asked, just to be sure. He could not imagine the reason. “Now?”
“Yes, if you have the time.”
They left the courtroom and started down the long hallway to the stairs. Darnell stopped in front of a bank of elevators.
“Do you mind if we take the elevator?” asked Darnell. “It has been a long trial.”
“You won another one,” said the clerk, staring straight ahead as the elevator doors closed in front of them.
“It was an interesting case.”
The clerk smiled to herself, the way a woman does in the presence of young children or old men for whom she has developed a certain fondness. She turned to him and nodded.
“The trial is always interesting, Mr. Darnell, when you’re the attorney for the defense.”
They had known each other for years, casual acquaintances in the courthouse where he often tried cases and she worked all the time. He touched her gently on the arm and gave her a knowing look.
“That is an extremely kind thing to say. Next case I have in Judge Pierce’s courtroom I’ll ask that you be on the jury.”
She had spent too much time in a courtroom not to have learned something about a lawyer’s give and take.
“You might be disappointed, Mr. Darnell; you always make things interesting, but sometimes your client deserves to go to prison.”
The elevator shuddered to a stop and the doors creaked open.
“Lucky for me you didn’t become a prosecutor. I’d never have a chance,” he laughed as she opened the door to the chambers of Judge Evelyn Pierce.
Somewhere the other side of sixty, though much younger than Darnell, Evelyn Pierce had slate gray hair which she almost always wore pinned back and steely blue eyes that were set a little too far apart. She had the broad shoulders and large hands of a sharecropper’s daughter, a woman who had worked in the fields until she finished high school and then, while other young women spent their summers swimming and dancing and falling in love, spent every one of hers working in a cannery to put herself through first four years of college and then three years of law school.
Darnell had liked her the first time he met her, almost thirty years ago, during a trial in which she had presided with an even hand and a sometimes caustic wit. His admiration had grown with the years. Some judges never changed, never became any better, and sometimes became much worse as they settled into what they considered a lifetime position; Evelyn Pierce seemed to get sharper, to know more about the law, and to become even more determined that everyone who appeared in front of her was treated fairly and given the best possible chance. It was a measure of the intensity, her involvement in everything that was going on, that she could usually control her courtroom without any obvious effort. A lifted eyebrow or a slight, sideways motion of her head was enough to signal her displeasure with something a lawyer had done and make him stop. On those rare occasions when it was not, she could explode in a way that was volcanic, overwhelming, a visitation from an angry god; but then, as quickly as it had come, it would vanish into a silence so complete, so profound, the poor unfortunate who had incurred her wrath would think for a moment that he must have been rendered deaf by her outburst as he watched her smile gently and gesture for him to continue, certain that he would not break the rules again.
She was on the telephone when Darnell walked in. She pointed to the chair in front of her desk. The windows in her chambers faced east toward the bay, seen in the distance through the tumble of office buildings that bordered the narrow city streets. Darnell had lived in San Francisco all his life but every day he seemed to see it in a way he had not seen it before, see it like he did now, from a different perspective, a different point of view. He was in love with the city and could never get enough of it. There was scarcely an evening when he did not stare out the living room window of his apartment in Pacific Heights, watching as the sun fell burning into the sea and the sky change a dozen different colors until there was nothing but the darkness left and the Golden Gate came alive with the moving lights of a thousand cars.
“Sorry,” said Evelyn Pierce as she hung up the telephone. She leaned back and bent her head to the side as if to study him closer. With a wry grin, she shook her head. “Everyone thought you would lose for sure this time.” Suddenly, she remembered something. “They used to say that when you don’t have the facts on your side argue the law; and when you don’t have the law, argue the facts.” The grin on her heavy, round face grew broader and deeper as she pondered the idiocy of trying to put in a formula what only the genius of a great trial lawyer could teach. “But from what I hear, you didn’t have either the facts or the law and so you did – what – told a story?”
“But that’s all a trial is,” protested Darnell with a subtle grin of his own. He folded his arms across his narrow chest and rocked back and forth in the wooden straight back chair as he took the question under further advisement. The grin slipped away, replaced by a look of bafflement, as if he could not understand why everyone seemed to have so much difficulty recognizing the simple truth of it. “That’s really all a trial is,” he repeated in a quiet voice, “a story.”
“And some tell stories better than others.” She was not going to let him get away with it. He might tell whatever story he liked at a trial, but this was just between the two of them and she had known him long enough to insist on the truth.
“It was a close case,” he admitted, meeting her candid gaze with his own. “Thirty, forty years ago, she would have been convicted.” He said this with a certainty that immediately yielded to a doubt. He bent forward and tapped two fingers on the edge of the judge’s desk. “But then, again - maybe not. For all our talk about equal rights and the rights of women, there was not so much toleration for violence back then, when I was just starting out. A man beats his wife, subjects her to this kind of degradation – gives her to friends of his – No, I think a jury would have said a man like that deserves to die.”
Evelyn Pierce narrowed her gaze. She had a question that went right to the heart of the matter.
“How many times did she shoot him?”
“Emptied the gun, I’m afraid; shot him six times.”
“Emptied the gun, all at point blank range?” Her eyes were full of knowing mischief. She knew exactly what had happened; everyone in the courthouse, everyone in San Francisco, had heard about it.
“Only the last two,” replied Darnell with some mischief of his own.
“While he was crawling away, from what I understand,” she drawled.
“Which proved, you see,” he said with the same earnest conviction with which he had made his point to the jury, “that not only was she scared to death of him, but that the only thing she knew about violence was what it felt like to be on the receiving end of it.”
“Or so the jury believed; or rather was led to believe by the way you told the story.”
Darnell looked at her without expression. Did she think he should apologize, or feel some kind of remorse for saving a woman from prison who, in the hands of some other lawyer, might have been found guilty? He knew Evelyn Pierce too well to believe that, but then why was she making such a point of what he had done and the way he had done it?
“Well, whether she should have been acquitted or not,” she went on, “I’m glad you won, William Darnell - very glad.”
“Thank you, your Honor – but why?”
“Because it was your last case, your last trial; I wouldn’t want you to end such a long and distinguished career on a bitte
r note of defeat. That’s not the sort of memory you should carry into a much deserved retirement.”
She paused, pondering something; or, rather, as was quite obvious to Darnell, pretending that she did. But why, what was she leading up to? Darnell could not guess.
“On the other hand,” she added suddenly, “it isn’t clear that winning a case you probably should have lost is the best memory to carry into retirement either, is it? By the way, what are you going to do, William Darnell, after you give up the practice of law?” She asked this with a strange, almost mocking laughter in her wide-set eyes. “How are you going to fill up all the hours you would otherwise be in court convincing juries to ignore the evidence of their senses and let another criminal go free?” With each word the sparkle in her eyes became brighter, more pronounced. She was toying with him, playing a game he did not understand, driving at something, something that she wanted, but would not yet tell him what it was.
“I’m not sure what I’ll do when I retire; perhaps I’ll write a book and tell the world how the system is broken, bankrupt, and needs to be replaced.”
She gave him a significant glance.
“Someone should, before it’s too damn late; but I don’t think you should do it,” she added quickly. “Not yet, anyway; not before you have at least one more trial.”
A smile flickered at the corners of her mouth. She looked at him with the shared nostalgia of an old friend.
“When was the last time you took a court-appointed case, William Darnell?”
“I never did. Perhaps I should have, but I always wanted to decide for myself if I was going to represent someone. Is that what you’re asking me to do? Is that why you wanted to see me, because there is some case you think I should take? It must be an unusual case, if you decided to ask me; you’ve never asked me before.”
“Officially, I can’t ask you now. The defendant doesn’t have any money -” She shook her head in amazement and then said in a way that made matters seem even more mysterious, “He may not even know what money is. The case has been assigned to the public defender’s office. They’re perfectly adequate; they do a reasonably good job in the normal case – but this case….This case requires someone who can see it for what it really is, someone who won’t feel bound by all the usual conventions in the way it gets tried; it needs someone who understands that it’s a case that probably should not be tried at all.”
