While out scouting today, he’d come across the dog, abandoned miles from town. She was scrawny, flea ridden, and yet, Deke had been unable to walk away from the animal, knowing she’d die if left alone.
So he’d put her on his horse and rode into town with her in the crook of his arms. By the time they’d arrived back at the hotel, the puppy had imprinted her paws on Deke’s heart with her licks and whines and loving brown eyes.
Deke had spent the afternoon bathing and feeding her. His intentions were to find a family who needed a dog and leave her. But right now, the dog was at his heels, following him wherever he went. And already Deke doubted he could leave her behind.
If the hotel caught him with a dog in the room, there would probably be hell to pay, but for the moment he just didn’t care. The company only wanted food and water and an occasional belly rub. This Deke could provide.
The saloon doors swung open, and Ruby strolled out. God, she was stunning in that dress that showcased her feminine curves, and he wasn’t about to take a chance on someone taking advantage of the woman. He’d only briefly strolled through the saloon tonight, but he’d been right outside if she’d needed him.
She smiled and took him by the arm. “Good evening, Deke.”
“I think it’s closer to morning than evening.”
A laugh bubbled from her. “You’re right.” She glanced down at the dog that was following right behind him. “Who’s this?”
“She’s a stray I picked up out of town. I couldn’t let her starve.”
Halting, Ruby stopped and bent down to the dog, letting her smell her hand, and then the puppy pounced on Ruby almost knocking her over.
“Heel,” he told the dog, and she stopped. Her skin quivered with the need to jump and play, but she obediently sat. Deke reached down and patted the dog on the head. “Good dog.”
To Ruby, he said, “Sorry about that. We spent the afternoon learning to heel. She gets a little excited.”
“What are you going to do with a dog?” Ruby asked.
That was a good question, but he couldn’t let the animal suffer, and he really wanted to settle down in one place, surrounded by animals he’d care for. He’d had to bring this pup to town because he couldn’t stand seeing anyone suffer—man, woman, child, or animal. Everyone deserved a chance at life.
“I don’t know. I’d like to make certain she has a good home before I leave town.”
Ruby shook her head. “No, you won’t.”
“What do you mean?”
“Look at her. She’s following you. She thinks you’re her mama, and she’s so happy you’re here. I’ve seen you with horses and now with dogs. All that dog has to do is turn those big brown eyes on you. You’ll melt like hot butter in a frying pan, and the dog will have a great home by your side.”
Deke took a deep breath. It was true, and though he was resisting, the pup had already won a place in his heart. “We’ll see,” he said, thinking she could very well be right. He hadn’t had a dog since he was a boy. This felt good—the dog and him.
“Something happened today I need to talk to you about,” Ruby said, pulling him down to a bench right outside the door of the hotel.
The urge to put his arm around the back of the bench and pull her into his chest was strong, but they were outside in a hostile town, where the sheriff believed nothing existed between the two of them. It wouldn’t do for the law to think he had an attachment with Ruby.
“What?” he asked, detecting the note of concern in her voice.
A few minutes later when she’d told him about Hannah, he couldn’t believe she’d risked everything to help a girl in trouble, especially since this bounty was her father’s killer.
“You took a huge risk.”
She shrugged her shoulders like it was nothing. “I had to help her. They would have killed Hannah.”
“They may try to kill you and her if they find out you’re working together.”
“Let them try. I have a pistol on me at all times.”
“I hope so.” Another risk. The woman took more chances than a short-tail bull in fly time.
The puppy crawled up in his lap and settled in for a nap. Absent-mindedly, he rubbed the dog’s soft downy fur. “I haven’t been completely honest with you, either.”
She’d been gazing up at the stars, and suddenly, she whirled her head around to face him. “What do you mean?”
He licked his lips and sighed. “I was married, but I’m not anymore.”
She frowned at him like she didn’t quite understand. He really didn’t want to tell her the entire story, but he had a feeling she wasn’t going to let him off the hook.
“Oh. Did you just take off your wedding ring and your wife disappeared?”
“No,” he said quietly in the dark. He rubbed the puppy’s ears. “She died.”
Ruby gasped. “I’m sorry. I didn’t know.”
Sympathy radiated from her gaze, and he hated it. He didn’t want anyone feeling sorry that he was a widower. He didn’t deserve their commiseration or condolences or compassion.
“I know.”
“How long has it been since…”
“Eighteen months.” His son would have been walking by now. He bit his lip and tried his best to block the memories of holding that tiny infant in his arms. Pain seized his chest at the memory of him so perfect, so precious, so lifeless. Until that moment when he’d held his newborn son, he hadn’t realized how much he’d wanted children.
“How long were you married?” Ruby asked.
“Not even a year,” he said softly, remembering Laura’s beautiful face as she gazed at him during the wedding. Even though theirs had been a marriage of convenience, she’d been a loving person, a friend he’d cared deeply for.
Ruby stared at him, her blue eyes actually appearing sympathetic. “Tell me about her?”
Even talking about Laura was difficult. He really didn’t want to, but he felt that since he’d lied to Ruby, he owed her at least a token explanation. “We grew up as friends. Her brother was my best friend, and we would get together and play. We were together in school, right up until I rode off to hunt for the man who shot and killed her brother, my best friend.”
“Is he the reason you became a bounty hunter?”
“Yes. I probably would have died if your father hadn’t taken me in and taught me everything I know,” he said, rubbing the dog’s soft fur, hoping that was all the information she needed about his past.
“You were going to become a cattle rancher?”
“I was, but then… I don’t know. I like horses so much more,” he said. “Laura convinced me cattle were not really what I was good at.” He watched as Ruby swallowed and quickly looked away, before returning her gaze to him.
“Did you love her?”
A deep sigh escaped his lips. “I cared deeply for Laura, but I wasn’t in love with her. And she knew it.”
“So, why did you marry Laura if you didn’t love her?”
How could he explain without making Laura sound even weaker than she’d been? After all, she was dead. Why not just let her past die with her and not reflect on how frail she’d been emotionally and physically? “Not all women are like you, Ruby.”
“Thank God,” she said.
“You’re tough and independent, and you’ll always be able to take care of yourself. But not all women are capable of being strong like you.”
The two women were so different, and yet they were the same. If Laura had the strength of will like Ruby, they could have almost been sisters.
Ruby frowned at him. “I don’t know if you’re giving me a compliment or being disrespectful.”
“No, you’re who you are. Laura was who she was. But unlike you, she wasn’t strong. She lost everything and would have been forced into either prostitution or living on the streets. She had nothing. I couldn’t let that happen to my best friend’s sister. I saved her by marrying her.”
Ruby slowly rose. She gazed down at the pup
py in his lap and ran her fingers through the animal’s fur. “You’re like that, Deke. You have a natural instinct about you that saves animals and people. Just like this puppy.” She gazed directly into his eyes. “So what happened to her? How did she die?”
He swallowed the lump that formed in his throat, blinking back the tears he felt rising in his chest.
“I killed her.”
Chapter 8
For a moment, Ruby froze as Deke’s words poured over her like ice water, freezing her blood and making her doubt the words she’d just heard. “What?”
He sighed. “I think it’s time we went in.”
“Like hell. You just told me you killed your wife and you want to go to bed? Do you think I could sleep tonight after hearing that remark?”
He smiled, but it was more a tired grimace than a happy smile. “Laura was a tiny woman. Small in the hips. She wasn’t built to carry children.”
Deke petted the dog, and Ruby could tell he wanted nothing more than to pick her up and walk away. In fact, he probably would have if Ruby hadn’t been standing in front of him, blocking his escape.
“She died during childbirth.”
Ruby sighed with relief that she wasn’t going to have to drag Deke down to the sheriff’s office and turn him in for murder. “I’m sorry. I don’t understand why you feel responsible. What did you say to me about my sisters? Was Laura happy? Did she want the baby?”
How could a woman he married be unhappy about expecting Deke’s baby? Sure, Ruby wasn’t wild about having babies and children, but someday, she planned on having the children of the man she eventually fell in love with. Just not right away.
She watched as Deke closed his eyes.
“She was so excited. I hadn’t seen her that happy since before her brother was killed.”
“Then it wasn’t your fault. Women die in childbirth. You made her happy in her last days.”
For the longest time he sat, petting the puppy and staring off into space. She wondered if he was going to respond to her or if he would just sit there in the darkness.
A rumble of thunder sounded, and a flash of lightening heralded an approaching storm.
“We need to go in,” he finally said, not answering her comment. He stood and set the puppy on the ground. The dog stretched then gazed up at him and whined. “You go ahead,” he said to Ruby. “I need to go up the back door, so the owners don’t see her.”
Ruby reached out and laid her hand on Deke’s arm. “You didn’t kill her.”
He gazed at her, his emerald eyes brimming with pain. “Good night, Ruby.”
Turning, he walked around to the back of the hotel, leaving her on the porch alone.
Rain fell softly, and Deke stepped into the shadows at the back of the hotel. He knew it would do no good to go to his room. His mind was racing full of images of Laura, from the time they were children up to the day he’d found her in labor. He refused to think past that point. It was true; she’d been happier those eleven months they were married than she’d been in years. She’d anticipated the birth of the baby, never dreaming of anything going wrong.
Their family was past the tragedies of their youth, the death of her brother, and now they would live the rest of their lives watching their children grow. She’d told him this over and over and over…until the day he’d ridden away.
He reached into his pocket for the flask he carried with him for when the pain became excruciating, when he could no longer live with the agony of what had happened, of what he’d done.
Tipping the flask to his lips, he drank deeply and stared down at the dog that once again rested beside his feet. So young. So innocent. Only needing food and companionship and giving unconditional love in return, whether or not her human was a good person or evil, only loving the person who took care of her.
Above him, a door opened, and he watched in fascination as Ruby came running down the back stairs wearing a flowing white gown. For a moment, he thought something was wrong, but then she laughed a delightful sound as she ran out into the cold rain in her nightgown.
Was she meeting someone in the dark? He didn’t think so, but still what would send her flying out of the hotel in her nightclothes?
Frowning, he looked around to make sure no one else could see this fair-haired beauty that had suddenly appeared. She giggled and laughed and sounded like the young girl he’d first met so many years ago, before life had dealt them both terrible blows.
She twirled around in the rain in her nightdress, her hair free and flowing down her back, a fairy princess dancing in the rain. Rain pelted her, plastering the wet material to her figure, showing the outline of her curves. God, she was beautiful.
Thoughts of Laura disappeared. Here was a woman who was strong, who took life by the horns and rode that steer until she tamed it. Here was a woman who had a strong vibrant sexual nature, but who wanted a man who deserved her.
He should have taken her that day so many years ago and married her. Maybe then, Laura would be alive, and Ruby wouldn’t be risking it all, searching for bounties.
With a sigh, he watched her run her hands down her body as she raised her face to the sky. He should go in before she found him watching her, before she realized he could see the curve of her breasts, the smoky aura of her nipples, and the juncture between her thighs where her womanhood nestled. He should go in, before he did something really foolish like join her.
Standing, he motioned for the dog to go with him. The puppy whined and Ruby turned toward the sound.
Their eyes met across the field where she stood, while the rain spilled from the sky. In the darkness, she walked toward him, her steps sure and confident. His heart froze in his throat the closer she came, his shaft hardening at the sight of her beauty.
When she reached his side, her hand touched his cheek and pulled his head to hers, planting her lips over his. For a moment, he was shocked, but then he pulled her into him and melded her wet body to his. His lips slanted over hers, and he kissed her like a man who had lost everything and she’d rescued him. He kissed her like he’d never kissed Laura.
He released her lips, and she stared at him questioning. “You better go up.”
“What if I don’t want to?”
“Dawn is going to arrive soon. That cold front is coming in, and you’re soaking wet. You don’t want to catch your death of cold,” he said, his voice raspy. The urge to throw her on the ground and take her right there was uppermost in his mind, but that wasn’t possible.
She glanced at the sky, sighed and looked him in the eye. “I know you think you killed your wife, but sooner or later, we’re going to satisfy this thing, whatever it is between us.”
Her words had him groaning as he kissed her again. This time he took control, and he wasn’t gentle, but rather rough, as his mouth closed over hers. His lips possessed hers as his tongue swept through her mouth, needing to be as close to her as possible. There was this attraction, this need to join with Ruby, since the time he’d first met her. He’d wanted her all those years ago, but now he was a different man, and she was a different woman. Yet, still there was this need, this ache that demanded satisfaction.
She pushed back from him, separating them. They stared at each other. Her bosom rising and falling, and he could feel his heart pounding inside his own chest, his blood pumping life, making him feel more alive than he’d felt in the last eighteen months of hell.
“You’re right. I should go in.”
He smiled. “Did you get scared? Decide that maybe this thing between us shouldn’t be resolved?”
She licked her lips and grinned at him. “I didn’t say that. But outside the hotel in an outlaw town, right before dawn, is not exactly where I’d pictured our first time.”
“Just so you know. I swore never to marry again.” As soon as he said the words, he hated them. They sounded cowardly, yet they were true. He’d killed one woman; he wasn’t about to chance a second one.
“Who said anything about mar
riage?” she said, staring at him. “I’ve got bounties to hunt, and you, you’re ready to quit the business. Nothing was said about forever, just about the right moment at the right time.”
With that, she turned and walked up the stairs. He watched her go, wondering what he’d gotten himself into. Maybe admitting to wanting each other had not been a good thing. If she weren’t in such a precarious position, he would ride away. But he couldn’t leave her while she was working at the local saloon as a card dealer in a town where the only law that existed was vigilante law.
Late the next night, while Ruby was dealing cards, she glanced over and saw Deke sitting at the bar, his back to the wall, turned to where he could watch her and drink. Last night had answered so many of her questions about Deke.
Not only was the man a tough cowboy, who had ridden with her father, he also had a soft streak. He liked to heal horses, rescue puppies and women. Yes, he’d married, but it wasn’t a love match, but rather a woman needing a husband. And because they’d been friends, he’d volunteered.
She dealt another hand of cards and glanced at the scurvy lot of men sitting at her table. There was no doubt in her mind that most of them were probably just one step ahead of the law or a bounty hunter. Maybe after she caught Rivera she’d return to Hide Town and clean the village up without the sheriff’s help.
“Okay, gentlemen, who wants to open the bidding?”
“I’m in for a quarter,” the man to her left said.
“I’ll raise you a dime,” another man said.
A surly man who had stared at her all night growled. “I just remembered who you are. It took me a while, but you’re one of those bounty hunting women.”
Ruby sent the man a skeptical glance as the others at the table stared at her, their faces scowling. She threw her head back laughing. “What have you been drinking tonight? You need to share that loco juice with the rest of us. It’s given you fanciful ideas.” Her heart was pounding like a train with a full load of coal and an empty car. Somehow she had to convince everyone this man had no idea what he was talking about.
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