by A. L. Knorr
Medical staff rushed about, and equipment was clustered around the bed, including an ultrasound and a fetal monitor. Three more staff stood back against the wall, scrubbed and prepped and ready for a C-section if needed.
"Min 'anat?" she said in a dialect of Levantine Arabic. Who are you? Her voice quavered and concern swept over Amin like a heavy cloak.
Amin took a few steps forward, whipping the gray knit cap off his head. "My name is Amin," he said in halting Arabic, his face soft with compassion. "My Arabic is old," he apologized, "and a little different from yours."
"Did they send you?" Her arms closed protectively over her belly.
Amin was confused by this phrasing and thought perhaps he'd misunderstood her. His Arabic was pitifully rusty. "Nurse Irene came to get me because I speak a little Arabic," Amin replied, putting a hand out. "I'm a custodian here. What is your name?"
Her face softened, just a little, but she didn't answer. Amin watched her face tighten and transform into a mask of pain and she ducked her chin to her chest and groaned.
"Nurse," Amin said, feeling panic sneaking up on him. He'd never been good at seeing people in pain, especially women. "Help her."
"We're trying," answered one of the doctors. "That's why you're here. Can you convince her to let us get her out of her clothes? If we can at least get that far—"
Amin nodded. He relayed this to the woman. "Baby wants to come," he said gently in his rusty Arabic. "This is Irene," Amin put a hand on the nurse's shoulder. "She is a good nurse. She'd like to help you change."
To their relief, the woman nodded, still with her face down. She began to pant again.
"I'll be just outside," said Amin. On his way out the ER, Amin paused to tell the doctor, "She sounds Jordanian."
The doctor nodded. "Thanks, I'll make a note. That's helpful."
Amin ducked out of the room to allow them to undress the woman and get her into a proper hospital gown. He waited, twisting his hat into a wrinkled mess, until he was asked back in.
When he stepped into the room, the sound of a distant helicopter passing somewhere overhead made the woman cringe and her eyes dart to the window. She pinched her lips between her teeth as a keening sound rose in her throat. One of the ER nurses was drawing blood and put a hand on her shoulder to keep her still. All of the staff looked grave. Several IV lines had been inserted into the woman in Amin's short absence, and snaked up from the bed to various bags of liquid.
"It's all right. It's just a—" Amin had to think before remembering there was no Arabic word for helicopter. He said the English word with an Arabic accent, hilykubtr. He approached the bed, as close as he thought she'd allow.
Amin asked the woman again. "Would you please tell us your name?"
She rolled her eyes up at him, panting. For a moment he thought she wouldn't answer. "Tala," she said, finally.
"Her name is Tala," said Amin to the staff. He smiled encouragingly at the young woman.
"Thank you," said one of the nurses.
"Tala," Irene echoed, rubbing Tala's back. "That's a girl. We're going to take good care of you."
Emboldened by the success of getting her first name. Amin tried for more information. "What is you family name? Is there someone we can contact for you? The father, perhaps?"
"No father!" the woman snapped as her face and body tightened again with another contraction. She opened her eyes to glare at him. "There was no father! Never a father! No more questions!"
Amin looked up at Irene, bemused. "She says there was never a father, and she doesn't want me to ask her any more questions."
"Never a father," echoed Irene. "That’s a first.”
"One of the symptoms of eclampsia is confusion," offered one of the other ER nurses.
"Either that or my Arabic is worse than I thought." Amin swallowed hard, looking at the young woman and feeling helpless.
"Best leave," said Irene. "We can't have her any more upset than she already is."
As Amin took his leave, the sounds of the woman's cries followed him down the hall. Amin paced in the waiting room just the way thousands of expectant fathers had done for forty years before him. Five and a half hours passed before Irene emerged. Midnight had passed and the new year had begun. Amin had barely noticed. He got up from his chair as Irene came through the double doors, and his back protested with a creak.
"I thought you'd gone home," Irene said. Her face was pale and drawn, her shoulders stooped with exhaustion.
"I was hoping I could help again, after the birth."
"Thank you, Amin. That's very kind." Irene rubbed a hand over her brow. "We lost her."
Amin sat back down, his body suddenly feeling too heavy for his legs.
"Nothing could be done. Team's trying to track down her records to see if she'd been admitted anywhere else, or possibly had a OBGYN in the city."
"And the baby?"
"Underweight, but otherwise okay. She'll be in intensive care for a little while."
"She. A little girl."
Irene nodded and retrieved a wrinkled piece of paper from her chest pocket. "Tala asked for a piece of paper and a pen shortly after you left."
"How?"
Irene made a gesture with her hands, which would have been perfect for a game of charades. Anyone of any language would have understood what it meant. Palm flat for paper and fingers grasping an invisible writing utensil.
"What does it mean?" Irene handed him the paper.
Amin unfolded the page to reveal the elegant swirls of Arabic, written by an unsteady hand. "Tala wrote this right after I left?"
Irene nodded. "Last thing she ever 'said.'"
"She must have seen a health professional at some point. She knew the baby was a girl. It's a name." He read the name aloud to the nurse.
Chapter 1
"Petra Kara. What a treat," Noel said, standing up from behind his desk as I walked in. "I was so pleased when I saw you had booked an appointment." He straightened his suit jacket and bounced a little on his toes.
I smiled at my old therapist. "Nice to see you too, Mr. Pierce."
His office hadn't changed. Old wooden paneling covered in dusty paintings of ships and sunsets lined the walls, wherever there weren't bookshelves bursting with psychology titles. Tall warped windows with small, diamond-shaped panes blurred and rattled slightly at the rain beating down on them outside. The forest-green carpet was worn by years of feet scuffing across it, creating a lighter green path from the door, circling the space between the couches and chairs, around his desk, and out the door again. The smell of Old Spice cologne made me remember the young, scared kid I’d been when I first met Noel Pierce. He had been my assigned therapist throughout my years in foster care, and while I had resisted him at first, like most kids did, he had been patient with me. He'd come to earn my trust, and if I was really honest, I’d missed him since I'd become of legal age and left the system.
He waved a hand and circled his desk, gesturing for me to sit in one of the plush chairs. "Please, don't go back to all that. We've been through too much for you to call me Mr. Pierce."
He waited for me to sit, and then sat down facing me. He crossed one leg over the other and folded his hands in his lap.
"Sure. Noel," I said, settling into a chair I was very familiar with. This meeting did feel a little bit different from when I’d been a minor. Instead of being a government-funded patient and ward of the childcare system, I was coming to Noel as a legal adult and paying for this session with my own money. I sure hoped it was worth it.
The paper in my jeans pocket crinkled as I sat down. On it were the three bullet points I'd come to discuss today.
"You've been out of foster care for over a year now," Noel said. "You aren't obliged to come and see me any more." He peered over his wire-rimmed glasses at me.
"I know," I swallowed and cleared my throat. "But I need some help with something and you were the only person I could think to talk to." He was also the only person who was swor
n to patient confidentiality. Noel was forbidden to spill the secrets I was about to share with him.
"Well." He spread his hands out, looking pleased. "I'm flattered. What's going on?"
I knotted my fingers and put them on my lap, not quite sure how to begin.
Sensing my hesitation, Noel offered, "Why don't you catch me up on the last eighteen months. I understand you're working at the Maritime History Museum?"
I nodded. "I started working there just after Christmas 2015 while finishing up high school. I still work there, but I've finally graduated from just ticket sales to ticket sales and tour groups."
"Well," Noel nodded his approval. "This is wonderful. Well done, Petra."
"Thanks," I said, but I had to shove down the annoyance that threatened to rise whenever people patronized me. I didn’t bother mentioning that I had also started a dog-walking service. Exercising pets and working at the local museum was a far cry from where I wanted to be. "I had applied to Cambridge University—"
"I remember," Noel murmured.
I nodded. Of course he did. He was the one who had to listen to me cry on the phone after I'd been accepted into their Archaeology Undergrad program but couldn't go because there was no way I could afford it. Even with the scholarship I'd won and the savings that Beverly, my foster mom, had set aside for me before her death, I had still been dismally short of funds.
"I took the year off to work and save, and I'll be applying again in October," I explained. "For January 2018."
Noel frowned and rested his chin on a hand. "We have perfectly good schools here in Canada."
"I know. But—"
"You want the best," he finished.
"I've been dreaming of Cambridge since I was a little girl. Stephen Hawking, David Attenborough, Alan Turing." I named off the famous alumni on my fingers. "Prince Zeid Bin Ra'ad, the Jordanian Prince and UN High Commissioner for Human Rights went there." I raised my eyebrows for emphasis.
Noel was nodding. He already knew that my birth mother had been Jordanian. His expression said he didn't find the link very compelling.
"Not the least of which are Gertrude Caton-Thompson, Dorothy Garrod, and Winifred Lamb," I went on, my voice growing energized at the thought of following in the footsteps of these pioneering women of archaeology—my heroes and role models.
"Don't forget at least six known Soviet spies," Noel murmured over his fingers.
"Very funny.”
"But why, Petra?" Noel straightened. "Why is it so important to study at Cambridge? You could already be studying at any number of very good Canadian Universities as we speak. Your grades are top notch, at least from grade nine onwards. I'm certain if you applied for funding—"
"It has to be Cambridge. If there is one thing Beverly left me with," I said, my voice breaking over the name of my deceased foster mother and the only real parent I had ever known, "it's that I had to do whatever I chose to do to the best of my ability."
"I don't think she meant you had to go to the best school—" Noel injected.
"But I have the grades," I said, shifting forward in my seat. "I did get in. Money is the only problem, almost. I'm so close I can taste it!"
"All right, all right." Noel made patting motions on the air the way he did whenever I was getting too riled up. "Yes, okay. I understand. And congratulations on being accepted."
"Thank you," I said.
"So then, now what? What's your plan?"
"I have worked all during my gap year at the museum. I've been saving up and studying on my own—" And living in a drafty, tiny apartment on the seedy side of town, I added in my head. Where the pipes rattled in the winter like Jacob Marley with his chains, the windows leaked, and the smell of weed was ever present from my neighbors.
"How much do you need?"
"About 20,000," I said.
"Oh," Noel sounded pleasantly surprised. I knew what he was thinking, and I didn't have to probe his mind to do it. Beverly had left me close to ten grand. If I'd been working and saving for a year, then it wasn't an unachievable sum.
"Pounds," I added.
"Oh." This time the tone was disappointed.
"Per year," I finished, with a slight wince.
He closed his eyes. "Petra," he began. "By the time you count your undergrad, and your master’s, a PhD could be a ten-year commitment.”
"I've already got a year and half's worth saved up," I interjected, speaking quickly.
"Almost?" he said, his face going still.
"What?"
"You said money is the only problem, almost," he reminded me. Noel might be slow to pick up on things, but it was guaranteed that he would pick them up.
"Well, there's also the matter of wanting to go on an Old World dig," I added, a little weakly. I began to play with the frayed threads at the rip in my Salvation Army jeans.
“An Old World dig?”
“Cambridge doesn’t require dig experience, but I’m most interested in historical archaeology—archaeology with the aid of written documents. An Old World excavation on my resume would give me a huge boost.” Opportunities for international digs were out there, but most of them required payment for a place on the dig. I couldn’t afford that. Ideally, I would be able to find a dig on which I could volunteer.
"What's the problem?" Noel raised his eyebrows. “You’ve been a volunteer on excavations before.”
"I have, but they were through Mr. Hatley, at the museum."
Noel laughed. "You make it sound like you were bored to tears. What's wrong with Mr. Hatley? He's a perfectly sound connection."
"Mr. Hatley arranges New World pre-historic digs. He's not like... David," I said, slowly, dropping my chin and leveling him with a meaningful look.
I watched the understanding cross his face like dawn sunlight sweeping across a landscape. "I can't do that, Petra," he said, his expression regretful.
"But I don't know anyone else who knows anyone," I said, putting my hands together in prayer. "Just a phone call, that's all I'm asking."
Noel sighed and his eyes closed briefly. I could almost hear him counting to five. Noel's brother David was an archaeologist and he was on a huge excavation right now, one I would give almost anything to be a part of. It wasn't the first time I had asked.
Sensing his hesitation, I pushed harder. "I can accept it if he says no. All I'm asking for is an opportunity to talk with him." I took a breath and added, "Or meet him."
Noel shook his head. "I'm truly sorry, Petra, you know I would do anything for you that was within my power."
"This is within your power." I tried to keep the pleading tone from my voice and failed. Miserably.
Noel folded his hands with obvious patience. "Petra, do you know where David is working right now?"
"East of Baghdad," I said without so much as a breath between his question and my answer.
Noel froze and blinked as though surprised that I knew. "Yes," he said, "and do I have to remind you where that is?" He peered at me from over the tops of his wire-rimmed spectacles.
"Iraq," I said, nonplussed. “He’s helping to salvage a site damaged by the Gulf War.”
Noel's voice went breathy, as though the meaning should be clear. "Yes."
I let out a long breath, too. I did know exactly what he was saying. Iraq was one of the most war-torn and unstable countries to travel in right now. There was no way any team leader worth his salt would take a prospective student in the last year of her teens with him on an excavation, even if it was sanctioned by Iraqi antiquities. The thing was, I really didn't care about the danger. I cared about the history.
"Why don't you talk to Mr. Hatley at the museum again," Noel suggested. "He'll have some other Canadian connections you can tap in to." His voice sounded overly delighted at this idea.
I frowned. "I'm not interested in digging up arrowheads and lithics.”
“Lithics?”
“The stone tools used by Paleo-Indians.” I leaned forward earnestly. “I want a real excava
tion. Something ancient. Something Phoenician, or Egyptian, or Neo-Punic."
I looked at the clock on Noel's desk. Half my time was gone and I hadn't even gotten to the important stuff yet. One topic down, two to go. If he couldn't help me by connecting me to his brother, maybe he could help me with my other problems. I cleared my throat. "There's another issue that I wanted to talk to you about today. Two actually, but they're linked. I think."
Relieved, Noel retrieved a kerchief from his pocket and mopped his brow. "By all means. What's bothering you?"
My heart sped up but there was no backing down now. I was about to spill a secret I hadn't shared with anyone in my entire life, not even Beverly, and I had no idea how Noel was going to take it. My fingertips grew cool, even as my body temperature seemed to rise. I pulled at the collar of my t-shirt and took a breath.
"I can read minds."
"Sorry." Noel laughed. "I thought you said you could read minds." He coughed uncomfortably into a closed fist. "I must've misunderstood you. Could you repeat that please?"
"You didn't misunderstand.”
The air grew thick between us as we sat there looking at one another, me fighting the urge to dig at his thoughts. How was he reacting inside? Noel's face had become impassive. It was the kind of expression I'd seen on him before. He trusted me and knew that I wasn't a liar, yet he wasn't sure he could believe me. My heart sank. It wasn't the reaction I'd been hoping for.
"You've never encountered a mind-reader before?"
"Petra," he said, his face very still. "Telepathy is a pseudoscience. It has never been demonstrated to exist."
I frowned. "I know that. I have done my research. I was just hoping that maybe you had access to information that I don't. So, you don't know how I can get rid of it?" Great. I had spilled my secret for nothing. "Do you have any experience with telekinesis?" I added, taking another chance.
