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by Joseph Conrad


  I couldn't get aboard sooner. I saw you all aft and I came up the ladder, and could see directly you were mustering the crew. Naturally I called out my name. I thought you had it on your list, and would understand.

  You misapprehended.' He stopped short. The folly around him was confounded. He was right as ever, and as ever ready to forgive. The disdainful tones had ceased, and breathing heavily, he stood still, surrounded by all these white men. He held his head up in the glare of the lamp−−a head vigorously modelled into deep shadows and shining lights−−a head powerful and misshapen with a tormented and flattened face−−a face pathetic and brutal: the tragic, the mysterious, the repulsive mask of a nigger's soul. Mr. Baker, recovering his composure, looked at the paper close. Òh, yes; that's so. All right, Wait. Take your gear forward,' he said.

  Suddenly the nigger's eyes rolled wildly, became all whites. He put his hand to his side and coughed twice, a cough metallic, hollow, and tremendously loud; it resounded like two explosions in a vault; the dome of the sky rang to it, and the iron plates of the ship's bulwarks seemed to vibrate in unison; then he marched off forward with the others. The officers lingering by the cabin door could hear him say:`Won't some of you chaps lend a hand with my dunnage? I've got a chest and a bag.' The words, spoken sonorously, with an even intonation, were heard all over the ship, and the question was put in a manner that made refusal impossible.

  The short, quick shuffle of men carrying something heavy went away forward, but the tall figure of the nigger lingered by the main hatch in a knot of smaller shapes. Again he was heard asking:Ìs your cook a coloured gentleman?' Then a disappointed and disapproving Àh! h'm!' was his comment upon the information that the cook happened to be a mere white man. Yet, as they went all together towards the forecastle, he condescended to put his head through the galley door and boom out inside a magnificent `Good evening, doctor!' that made all the saucepans ring. In the dim light the cook dozed on the coal locker in front of the captain's supper. He jumped up as if he had been cut with a whip, and dashed wildly on deck to see the backs of several men going away laughing. Afterwards, when talking about that voyage, he used to say:−−`The poor fellow had scared me. I thought I had seen the devil.' The cook had been seven years in the ship with the same captain. He was a serious−minded man with a wife and three children, whose society he enjoyed on an average one month out of twelve. When on shore he took his family to church twice every Sunday. At sea he went to sleep every evening with his lamp turned full up, a pipe in his mouth, and an open Bible in his hand.

  Some one had always to go during the night to put out the light, take the book from his hand, and the pipe from between his teeth. `For'−−Belfast used to say, irritated and complaining−−`some night, you stupid cookie, you'll swallow your ould clay, and we will have no cook.−−Àh! sonny, I am ready for my Maker's call....wish you all were.' the other would answer with a benign serenity that was altogether imbecile and touching. Belfast outside the galley door danced with vexation. `You holy fool! I don't want you to die,' he howled, looking up with furious, quivering face and tender eyes. `What's the hurry? you blessed wooden−headed ould heretic, the divvle will have you soon enough. Think of Us....of Us....of Us!' And he would go away, stamping, spitting aside, disgusted and worried; while the other, stepping out, saucepan in hand, hot, begrimed, and placid, watched with a superior, cock−sure smile the back of his `queer little man'

  reeling in a rage. They were great friends.

  Mr. Baker, lounging over the after−hatch, sniffed the humid night in the company of the second mate.−−`Those West India niggers run fine and large−−some of them.... Ough!....Don't they? A fine, big man that, Mr. Creighton. Feel him on a rope. Hey? Ough! I will take him into my watch, I think.' The second mate, a fair gentlemanly young fellow, with a resolute face and a splended physique, observed quietly that it was just about what he expected. There could be felt in his tone some slight bitterness which Mr. Baker very kindly set himself to argue away. `Come, come, young man,' he said, grunting between the words. `Come!

  Don't be too greedy. You had that big Finn in your watch all the voyage. I will do what's fair. You may have those two young Scandinavians and I....Ough!....I get the nigger, and will take that.... Ough! that cheeky costermonger chap in a black frock−coat. I'll make him....Ough!....make him toe the mark, or my....

  Ough!....name isn't Baker. Ough! Ough! Ough!'

  He grunted thrice−−ferociously. He had that trick of grunting so between his words and at the end of sentences. It was a fine, effective grunt that went well with his menacing utterance, with his heavy, The Nigger of the Narcissus

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  bull−necked frame, his jerky, rolling gait; with his big, seamed face, his steady eyes, and sardonic mouth. But its effect had been long discounted by the men. They liked him; Belfast, who was a favourite, and knew it−−mimicked him, not quite behind his back. Charley−−but with greater caution−−imitated his walk. Some of his sayings became established daily quotations in the forecastle. Popularity can go no farther! Besides, all hands were ready to admit that on a fitting occasion the mate could `jump down a fellow's throat in a reg'lar Western Ocean style.' Now he was giving his last orders. Òugh!.... You, Knowles! Call all hands at four. I want....Ough!.... to heave short before the tug comes. Look out for the Captain. I am going to lay down in my clothes....Ough!....Call me when you see the boat coming. Ough!Ough!.... The old man is sure to have something to say when he comes aboard' he remarked to Creighton. `Well, good−night....Ough! A long day before us to−morrow..... Ough!....Better turn in now. Ough! Ough!'

  Upon the dark deck a band of light flashed, then a door slammed, and Mr. Baker was gone into his neat cabin.

  Young Creighton stood leaning over the rail, and looked dreamily into the night of the East. And he saw in it a long country lane, a lane of waving leaves and dancing sunshine. He saw stirring boughs of old trees outspread, and framing in their arch the tender, the caressing blueness of an English sky. And through the arch a girl in a clear dress, smiling under a sunshade, seemed to be stepping out of the tender sky.

  At the other end of the ship the forecastle, with only one lamp burning now, was going to sleep in a dim emptiness traversed by loud breathings, by sudden short sighs. The double row of berths yawned black, like graves tenanted by uneasy corpses. Here and there a curtain of gaudy chintz, half drawn, marked the resting−place of a sybarite. A leg hung over the edge very white and lifeless. An arm stuck straight out with a dark palm turned up, and thick fingers half closed. Two light snores, that did not synchronise quarreled in funny dialogue. Singleton stripped again−−the old man suffered much from prickly heat−−stood cooling his back in the doorway, with his arms crossed on his bare and adorned chest. His head touched the beam of the deck above. The nigger, half undressed, was busy casting adrift the lashing of his box, and spreading his bedding in an upper berth. He moved about in his socks, tall and noiseless, with a pair of braces beating about his heels. Amongst the shadows of stanchions and bowsprit, Donkin munched a piece of hard ship's bread, sitting on the deck with upturned feet and restless eyes; he held the biscuit up before his mouth in the whole fist, and snapped his jaws at it with a raging face. Crumbs fell between his outspread legs. Then he got up.

  `Where's our water−cask?' he asked in a contained voice. Singleton, without a word, pointed with a big hand that held a short smouldering pipe. Donkin bent over the cask, drank out of The tin, splashing the water, turned round and noticed the nigger looking at him over the shoulder with calm loftiness. He moved up sideways.

  `There's a blooming supper for a man,' he whispered bitterly. `My dorg at 'ome wouldn't 'ave it. It's fit enouf for you an' me. 'Ere's a big ship's fo'c'sle.... Not a bloomin' scrap of meat in the kids I've looked in all the lockers.....

  The nigger stared like a man addressed unexpectedly in a foreign language. Donkin changed his tone:−−`Giv'us a bit of 'bac
cy, mate' he breathed out confidentially, Ì 'aven't 'ad a smoke or chew for the last month. I am rampin' mad for it. Come on, old man'!'

  `Don't be familiar,' said the nigger. Donkin started and sat down on a chest near by, out of sheer surprise. `We haven't kept pigs together.' continued James Wait in a deep undertone. `Here's your tobacco.' Then, after a pause, he asked:−−`What ship?'−−` Golden State,'muttered Donkin indistinctly, biting the tobacco. The nigger whistled low.−−`Ran?' he said curtly. Donkin nodded: one of his cheeks bulged out.−−Ìn course I ran,' he mumbled. `They booted the life hout of one Dago chap on the passage 'ere, then started on me. I cleared hout 'ere.'−−`Left your dunnage behind?'−−`Yes, dunnage and money,' answered Donkin, raising his voice a little; Ì got nothink. No clothes, no bed. A bandy−legged little Hirish chap 'ere 'as give me a blanket..... Think I'll go an' sleep in the fore topmast staysail to−night.'

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  He went on deck trailing behind his back a corner of the blanket. Singleton, without a glance, moved slightly aside to let him pass. The nigger put away his shore togs and sat in clean working clothes on his box, one arm stretched over his knees. After staring at Singleton for some time he asked without emphasis:−−`What kind of ship is this? Pretty fair? Eh?'

  Singleton didn't stir. A long while after he said, with unmoved face:−−`Ship!....Ships are all right. It is the men in them!'

  He went on smoking in the profound silence. The wisdom of half a century spent listening to the thunder of the waves had spoken unconsciously through his old lips. The cat purred on the windlass. Then James Wait had a fit of roaring, rattling cough, that shook him, tossed him like a hurricane, and flung him panting with staring eyes headlong on his sea−chest. Several men woke up. One said sleepily out of his bunk: `Struth!

  what a blamed row!'−−Ì have a cold on my chest,' gasped Wait.−−`Cold! you call it,' grumbled the man;

  `should think 'twas something more.....'−−Òh! you think so,' said the nigger upright and loftily scornful again. He climbed into his berth and began coughing persistently while he put his head out to glare all round the forecastle. There was no further protest. He fell back on the pillow, and could be heard there wheezing regularly like a man oppressed in his sleep.

  Singleton stood at the door with his face to the light and his back to the darkness. And alone in the dim emptiness of the sleeping forecastle he appeared bigger, colossal, very old; old as Father Time himself, who should have come there into this place as quiet as a sepulchre to contemplate with patient eyes the short victory of sleep, the consoler. Yet he was only a child of time, a lonely relic of a devoured and forgotten generation. He stood, still strong, as ever unthinking; a ready man with a vast empty past and with no future, with his childlike impulses and his man's passions already dead within his tattooed breast. The men who could understand his silence were gone−−those men who knew how to exist beyond the pale of life and within sight of eternity. They had been strong, as those are strong who know neither doubts nor hopes. They had been impatient and enduring, turbulent and devoted, unruly and faithful. Well−meaning people had tried to represent those men as whining over every mouthful of their food; as going about their work in fear of their lives. But in truth they had been men who knew toil, privation, violence, debauchery−−but knew not fear, and had no desire of spite in their hearts. Men hard to manage, but easy to inspire; voiceless men−−but men enough to scorn in their hearts the sentimental voices that bewailed the hardness of their fate. It was a fate unique and their own; the capacity to bear it appeared to them the privilege of the chosen! Their generation lived inarticulate and indispensable, without knowing the sweetness of affections or the refuge of a home−−and died free from the dark menace of a narrow grave. They were the everlasting children of the mysterious sea. Their successors are the grown−up children of a discontented earth. They are less naughty, but less innocent; less profane, but perhaps also less believing; and if they had learned how to speak they have also learned how to whine. But the others were strong and mute, they were effaced, bowed and enduring, like stone caryatides that hold up in the night the lighted halls of a resplendent and glorious edifice.

  They are gone now−−and it does not matter. The sea and the earth are unfaithful to their children: a truth, a faith, a generation of men goes−−and is forgotten, and it does not matter! Except, perhaps, to the few of those who believed the truth confessed the faith−−or loved the men.

  A breeze was coming. The ship that had been lying tide−rode swung to a heavier puff; and suddenly the slack of the chain cable between the windlass and the hawse−pipe clinked, slipped forward an inch, and rose gently off the deck with a startling suggestion as of unsuspected life that had been lurking stealthily in the iron. In the hawse−pipe The grinding links sent through the ship a sound like a low groan of a man sighing under a burden. The strain came on the windlass, the chain tautened like a string, vibrated−−and the handle of the screw−brake moved in slight jerks. Singleton stepped forward.

  Till then he had been standing meditative and unthinking, reposeful and hopeless, with a face grim and blank−−a sixty−year−old child of the mysterious sea. The thoughts of all his lifetime could have been The Nigger of the Narcissus

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  expressed in six words, but the stir of those things that were as much a part of his existence as his beating heart called up a gleam of alert understanding upon the sternness of his aged face. The flame of the lamp swayed, and the old man, with knitted and bushy eyebrows, stood over the brake, watchful and motionless in the wild saraband of dancing shadows. Then the ship, obedient to the call of her anchor, forged ahead slightly and eased the strain. The cable relieved, hung down, and after swaying imperceptibly to and fro dropped with a loud tap on the hard wood planks. Singleton seized the high lever, and, by a violent throw forward of his body, wrung out another half−turn from the brake. He recovered himself, breathed largely, and remained for awhile glaring down at the powerful and compact engine that squatted on the deck at his feet, like some quiet monster−−a creature amazing and tame.

  `You....hold!' he growled at it masterfully, in the incult tangle of his white beard.

  Chapter 2

  Next morning, at daylight, the Narcissus went to sea.

  A slight haze blurred the horizon. Outside the harbour the measureless expanse of smooth water lay sparkling lay sparkling like a floor of jewels, and as empty as the sky. The short black tug gave a pluck to windward, in the usual way, then let go the rope, and hovered for a moment on the quarter with her engines stopped; while the slim, long hull of the ship moved ahead slowly under lower top−sails. The loose upper canvas blew out in the breeze with soft round contours, resembling small white clouds snared in the maze of ropes. Then the sheets were hauled home, the yards hoisted, and the ship became a high and lonely pyramid, gliding, all shining and white, through the sunlit mist. The tug turned short round and went away towards land.

  Twenty−six pairs of eyes watched her low broad stern crawling languidly over the beating water with fierce hurry. She resembled an enormous and aquatic blackbeetle, surprised by the light, overwhelmed by the sunshine, trying to escape with ineffectual effort into the distant gloom of the land. She left a lingering smudge of smoke on the sky, and two vanishing trails of foam on the water. On the place where she had stopped a round black patch of soot remained undulating on the swell−−an unclean mark of the creature's rest. The Narcissus left alone, heading south, seemed to stand resplendent and still upon the restless sea, under the moving sun. Flakes of foam swept past her sides; the water struck her with flashing blows; the land glided away, slowly fading; a few birds screamed on motionless wings over the swaying mastheads. But soon the land disappeared, the birds went away; and to the west the pointed sail of an Arab dhow running for Bombay, rose triangular and upright abov
e the sharp edge of the horizon, lingered, and vanished like an illusion. Then the ship's wake, long and straight, stretched itself out through a day of immense solitude. The setting sun, burning on the level of the water, flamed crimson below the blackness of heavy rain clouds. The sunset squall, coming up from behind, dissolved itself into the short deluge of a hissing shower. It left the ship glistening from trucks to waterline, and with darkened sails. She ran easily before a fair monsoon, with her decks cleared for the night; and, moving along with her, was heard the sustained and monotonous swishing of the waves, mingled with the low whispers of men mustered aft for the setting of watches; the short plaint of some block aloft; or, now and then, a loud sigh of wind.

  Mr. Baker, coming out of his cabin, called out the first name sharply before closing the door behind him. He was going to take charge of the deck. On the homeward trip according to an old custom of the sea, the chief officer takes the first night−watch−−from eight till midnight. So Mr. Baker, after he had heard the last `Yes, sir!' said moodily, `Relieve the wheel and look−out;' and climbed with heavy feet the poop ladder to windward. Soon after Mr. Creighton came down, whistling softly, and went into the cabin. On the doorstep the steward lounged, in slippers, meditative, and with his shirt−sleeves rolled up to the armpits. On the main deck the cook, locking up the galley doors, had an altercation with young Charley about a pair of socks. He could be heard saying impressively, in the darkness amidships: `You don't deserve a kindness. I've been drying them for you, and now you complain about the holes−−and you swear, too! Right in front of me! If I hadn't been a Christian−−which you ain't, you young ruffian−−I would give you a clout on the head.....Go The Nigger of the Narcissus

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  away!' Men in couples or threes stood pensive or moved silently along the bulwarks in the waist. The first busy day of a homeward passage was sinking into the dull peace of resumed routine. Aft, on the high poop, Mr. Baker walked shuffling, grunted to himself in the pauses of his thoughts. Forward, the look−out man, erect between the flukes of the two anchors, hummed an endless tune, keeping his eyes fixed dutifully ahead in a vacant stare. A multitude of stars coming out into the clear night peopled the emptiness of the sky. They glittered, as if alive above the sea; they surrounded the running ship on all sides; more intense than the eyes of a staring crowd, and as inscrutable as the souls of men.

 

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