Triptych2

by Karin Slaughter

  A MARTA bus squealed to a stop in front of him and John checked the number before getting on. This month had been a good one, so he waved his Trans Card in front of the reader, giving the driver a nod of recognition.

  "Getting cold," the driver said.

  "Sure is," John agreed, enjoying the simple banter until he realized he'd have to buy a winter jacket. God, how much would that cost?

  The bus jerked as it accelerated and John grabbed the back of a seat to steady himself as he walked down the aisle. The bus was packed, and he found a seat by an old black woman who was reading a Bible in her lap. Despite the weather, she was wearing a large pair of black sunglasses over her eyeglasses. She didn't look up when he sat down, but he knew she had read him out of the corner of her eye.

  There were scams to make money. There was always a scam, always an angle. Prison was full of men who thought they had discovered the perfect scheme. John knew that some of the guys at the Gorilla would steal receipts out of cars and change them into cash. The big chain stores were the best. All you had to do was walk in and find the same item number as what was printed on the receipt, then hand it to the girl behind the desk and get the cash. Easy money, they all said. Ray-Ray said it twice.

  He changed buses at the Lindbergh station, passing the closed car wash on the way. Figuring he was running what amounted to a fool's errand, he took the long route down Cheshire Bridge Road, knowing it would pass the liquor store where he had met Robin. That whole week, he had been thinking about her, wondering what she was up to.

  Somehow, he had imagined this kind of life for her, one that mirrored his own. Maybe she had been a little spoiled like Joyce, a daddy's girl. He wondered about her younger brother, friend to Stewie the kisser. What was he like? Did she call him up some days when she was having an especially bad time? Was he as upset to hear from her as Joyce was when John called? John couldn't imagine what it'd be like to have a sister who was a whore. He'd want to kill every freaking man who even looked at her.

  The bus passed the liquor store, and he could see three working girls standing under the cover of the awning. One of them was the loudmouth who had fought with Ray-Ray. None of them was Robin.

  John sat back in his seat, watching the fancy restaurants go by. The bus stopped at the corner where the movie theater was, and he stood so that the old black woman could get off. He read the marquee, not recognizing any of the movies. He had gone to a movie with his first paycheck, shocked when he got to the ticket counter and saw the prices. Ten bucks! He couldn't believe how much a movie cost. Even a matinee was expensive.

  The bus took a right at the intersection and the scenery changed, turning more residential. John stared out the window as the houses got bigger, the yards nicer. Morningside, Virginia Highland, Poncey-Highland. Through Little Five Points, past the new Barnes and Noble, Target, Best Buy. It didn't start to get bad again until they were well down Moreland Avenue. Liquor stores, corner groceries and auto parts stores lined the filthy street. Signs advertised cheap check cashing, low-cost insurance; one proudly proclaimed, "The only place in town selling clothing by the pound."

  Men with dirty T-shirts wrapped around their bare shoulders stood at the bus stop, slipping on their shirts at the last minute before they got on. The bus took on a new odor as construction workers started to file in. Mexicans, Asians, blacks. Pretty soon, John was the only white person on the bus.

  He got off the bus when the street turned almost pretty. This part of Moreland was bordered by Brownwood and Grant Park. Families had started to move in, reclaiming the in-town area for their own. They took care of their houses, kept their yards trimmed and demanded better treatment, nicer restaurants, safer streets, than the previous inhabitants had. John had learned a long time ago that the reason the middle class had it so good was because they expected things to be better. They wouldn't settle for less than they were worth. They'd just get into their shiny cars and go where they were appreciated. Poor people, on the other hand, were used to just taking what was given to them and being grateful for it.

  For the moment, the rain had cleared, the sun peeking out from behind dark clouds. John didn't want to go back up Moreland, so he got off the bus and walked into Brownwood Park, cutting through the woods. He had looked up this area in the street atlas he found in the library and was glad to see the roads were much as he expected. New construction was going up all around him, three-story mansions towering over 1950s ranch houses. How much did something like that cost, John wondered. "What kind of job did you need in order to be able to buy your own house, raise your kids, maybe drive a nice secondhand car? He couldn't fathom the amount of cash that would take.

  He took Taublib Street into East Atlanta Village, surprised to find a couple of nice restaurants and a coffee joint where he had expected abandoned buildings and auto-body repair shops. There were a couple of boutiques, a bakery and a pet store. He looked in the window where a fat orange cat was sunbathing on a bag of dog food. A cat would be nice, some kind of animal to keep him company. The cockroach Ms. Lam had found didn't really count. That would be a luxury for another day. John could barely afford to feed himself.

  At Metropolitan Avenue, he took a right, walked down a few blocks and found himself in front of the East Atlanta branch of the post office. John stared at the squat, institutional-looking building. The sign outside showed the same zip code as the credit report: 30316.

  The place was packed, cars filling the front and side lot, spilling onto the street even though there were signs warning against it. The driveway to the light blue Victorian house next to the post office was blocked by a large cargo van.

  The rain had started again, a light drizzle that darkened the sky. John walked down Metropolitan about fifty feet, then turned around and walked back. He watched people going in and out of the post office, wondering why the hell he had come here.

  After thirty minutes of pacing up and down the street, John realized that there was nothing stopping him from actually going inside the building. His local post office was gloomy and smelled of bacon grease for no apparent reason. He bought his money orders for rent and his state fine there because it was only a ten-minute walk from where he lived. There were a lot of immigrants in the neighborhood, and sometimes people would bring in chickens and other small animals to ship to God only knew where. Oftentimes, he'd hear a rooster crowing while he was waiting in line.

  The East Atlanta branch was well-lit, clean and just seemed to have a good vibe. Right across from the front door were rows of post office boxes, small ones at the top, large ones at the bottom. To his left was the office where two women were helping customers as quickly as they could. A line of people went out from the lobby all the way to the stamp vending machine by the front door. John pulled a blank envelope out of his back pocket and got in line, trying to act like he belonged. Inch by inch, the line moved forward, and he didn't look back at the mailboxes until he was up close to the glass doors leading into the office.

  Box eight-fifty was on the first row about eye level. The box next to it had an orange sticker pasted to it, the words too faded to read.

  "Have a good one," one of the ladies behind the desk called as a customer brushed past John on her way out. He stepped back quickly to get out of the woman's way, mumbling an apology as rain dripped from his hair. When he looked back up, he saw someone heading toward the boxes.

  John held his breath, clutching the envelope in his hand as a skinny black woman talking on her cell phone jabbed her key into the lock of box eight-fifty. She was laughing into the phone, saying something derogatory about a family member, when she jerked the key back out, saying, "Shit, girl, I just put my key in the wrong box."

  She pushed the key into the lock below eight-fifty, cradling the cell phone with her shoulder as she kept on talking.

  "Sir?" the woman behind John said.

  The line had moved, but John hadn't. He smiled, saying, "Sorry. Forgot my wallet," and stepped out of line.

  Wh
at a stupid waste of time. There was no way he could sit on this box all day, and the odds of whoever had taken his name just showing up when John happened to be there were ridiculously low. He'd have better luck buying a lottery ticket.

  He pushed open the door, tossing the blank envelope into the trash. The sky had opened up again, sending down a cold deluge. John shivered. A hundred dollars. A good winter coat would be at least a hundred dollars. Where would he get that kind of money? How long would it take to save up for a freaking coat?

  He hunched his shoulders as he stood at the bus stop, cursing himself and the rain. He would have to start looking for a new job. Maybe something inside, something that had regular hours and didn't depend on the weather. Something where they didn't mind if you had a record, and if that record said you were the kind of man who should be put down like a rabid dog to protect the rest of the world from the evil inside of you.

  John's job choices were limited to the dangerous ones. Half the guys in prison were there because they'd knocked over a convenience store or a mom-and-pop diner. Most of the guys on death row had gotten their start robbing the local Quickie Mart, ending their criminal careers by putting a bullet in some low-wage worker's head for the sixty bucks in the cash drawer. Before Ms. Lam had hooked him up at the Gorilla, John had almost been desperate enough to try the convenience stores. He knew now that he couldn't keep working at the car wash, not through the winter. He needed a way to find money, and fast.

  The bus was late, the driver irritated when he finally pulled up. John's mood matched everybody else's as he sloshed up the stairs and walked to the back, his thirty-dollar sneakers practically disintegrated from the rain. He fell into the empty seat at the back of the bus, half-wishing the lightning zig-zagging out of the sky would come through the window and hit him right in the head. He'd end up brain-damaged, a drooling vegetable taking up space in a hospital somewhere. He was beginning to see why so many guys ended up back in prison. He was thirty-five years old. He had never driven a car, never really dated, never really lived. What the hell was the point, John thought, staring glumly out the window as some guy struggled to close an umbrella and get into his car at the same time.

  John stood up as the bus pulled away, looking out the window, keeping his eyes on the man. How many years had passed? His brain wouldn't let him do the math, but he knew it was him. John was slack-jawed as he watched the man give up on the umbrella and toss it into the parking lot before slamming his car door shut.

  Yes. It was him. It was definitely him.

  Just as a million raindrops fell from the sky, there existed a million chances that John would go to the post office on the right day at the right time.

  A million to one, but he had done it.

  He had found the other John Shelley.

  CHAPTER TWELVE

  John couldn't remember being arrested—not because he was in shock at the time but because he had been semiconscious. Woody had come by that morning to check on him and hooked him up with some Valium. John had taken enough to tranquilize a horse.

  Apparently, the cops had come to his house with an arrest warrant. His father had led them up to John's room and they had found him passed out on his bed. John remembered coming to, his face on fire where his father had slapped him. The cops dragged him out of the house, handcuffs biting into the skin on his wrists. He passed out again on the lawn.

  He woke up in the hospital, the familiar taste of charcoal in his mouth. Only, this time, when he tried to move his hand to wipe his face, something clattered against the bed rail. He looked down at his wrist, his eyes blurry, and saw that he was cuffed to the bed.

  A cop was sitting by the door reading a newspaper. He scowled at John. "You awake?"

  "Yeah." John fell back asleep.

  His mother was in the room when he next came around. God, she looked horrible. He wondered how long he had been asleep because Emily looked like twenty years had passed since he had climbed up the stairs to his room, turned Heart down low on the stereo and taken a handful of the little white pills his cousin had given him.

  "Baby," she said, rubbing his forearm. "Are you okay?"

  His tongue was lolled back in his mouth. His chest hurt like he had been slammed in the sternum with a sledgehammer. How had he managed to breathe all this time?

  "You're going to be okay," she said. "It's all a mistake."

  It wasn't though—at least as far as the police were concerned. The district attorney came in an hour or so later, Paul Finney standing behind the man, glaring at John like he was ready to jump onto the bed and throttle him right then and there. The cop must have picked up on this, too, because he was staying close to Mr. Finney, making sure nothing got out of hand.

  The DA made the introductions. "I'm Lyle Anders. This is Chief Harold Waller." The cop by Mr. Finney was holding a sheet of paper. He cleared his throat, looking down at it like he was reading from a script.

  John looked at his mother. She said, "It's all right, baby."

  "Jonathan Winston Shelley," Waller began. "I'm arresting you for the rape and murder of Mary Alice Finney."

  John's ears did that thing where he felt like he was underwater. Waller's lips were moving, he was definitely saying something, but John couldn't understand him.

  Lyle Anders finally reached over and snapped his fingers in front of John's face. "You understand what's happening, son?"

  "No," John said. "I didn't—"

  "Don't say anything," his mother shushed, putting her fingers to his lips. Emily Shelley, PTA sponsor, den mother, baker of brownies and master of Halloween disguises, straightened her back and addressed the three men in the room. "If that's all?"

  They loomed over his small mother, Paul Finney especially. He was a big man to begin with, but his rage made him larger.

  Anders said, "He needs to make a statement."

  "No," she said, this woman who was his mother. "Actually, he doesn't."

  "It'd be in his best interest."

  "My son has been through a horrible ordeal," Emily answered. "He needs rest."

  Anders tried to speak directly to John, and even when Emily blocked his way, he still made an attempt. "Son, you need to get on top of this and tell us what happened. I'm sure there's a reason you—"

  "He has nothing to say to you," Emily insisted, her voice firm. John had only heard her speak this way once, when Joyce was ten and she'd tried to walk on the railing to the top deck at the house.

  One by one, Emily looked them all in the eye. "Please leave."

  Paul Finney lunged for John, but the cop caught him. "You son of a bitch," Mr. Finney spat at John. "You'll fry for this!"

  Mr. Finney had been an all-state wrestler. Anders and Waller had their hands full trying to keep him off John. In the end, they had to physically pick him up and carry him out of the room. As the door closed, he screamed, "You'll pay for this, you fucker!"

  His mother's bottom lip was trembling as she turned back to John. He thought, oddly, that she had been upset by Mr. Finney's language.

  He asked, "Where's Dad?" Richard was the one who took care of things, cleaned up the messes. "Mom?" John asked. "Where is he?"

  Her throat worked, and she reached out, taking his hand. "Listen to me," she said, urgent. "They're going to come back any minute and take you to jail. We only have a few seconds."

  "Mom—"

  "Don't talk," she said, squeezing his hand. "Listen."

  He nodded.

  "Don't say anything to the police. Don't even tell them your name. Don't tell them where you were that night, don't tell them what you had for dinner."

  "Mom—"

  "Shush, Jonathan," she ordered, pressing her fingers to his lips. "Don't talk to anyone in jail. No one is your friend in there. They're all looking out for themselves and you should, too. Don't say anything on the phone because they tape the conversations. There are snitches everywhere."

  Snitches, John thought. Where had his mother heard that word? How did she know ab
out any of this? She wouldn't even watch Kojak because she thought it was too violent.

  "I want you to promise me, John," she insisted. "Promise me that you will not talk to anyone until your aunt Lydia shows up."

  Aunt Lydia. Barry's wife. She was a lawyer.

  "John?" she prompted. "Do you promise? Not a word? Don't even talk about the weather. Do you understand me? This is the most important thing I have ever told you to do and you must obey me. Do not talk to anyone. Do you hear me?"

  He started crying because she was. "Yes, Mama."

  The door opened and Waller was back. He glanced at the scene, mother and child, and John saw part of him soften. He sounded almost kind when he told Emily, "Mrs. Shelley, you're going to have to step outside now."

  Her hand tightened around John's. She looked down at him, tears spilling out of her eyes. For some reason, he had been expecting her to say that she loved him, but instead, she mouthed, "No one. "