by Ford, Mia
So, I move my lips of his and slowly take them down to his throat. He tosses his head back and exposes more of his throat to me, so I nip that lightly between my teeth to cause a little groan to come from him. The water runs over his skin making him taste even more delicious than I thought he would be. He’s gorgeous.
The lower I move down his body, the louder his groans get. I love the way that his thick muscular chest vibrates under the sheer weight of it. It causes even more pulsing between my thighs as I eventually collapse on the floor on my knees. Thank God Seth has more of a wet room than a small shower. That is a blessing in disguise.
“Oh wow.” He rubs his fingers over my wet hair. “Darcy, what are you doing to me?”
His cock springs to attention, he’s even harder than before, so with a gentleness I kiss his tip at the same moment my fingers travel up his thighs to tickle the underside of his balls. Why not go wild and see what he likes? I want to explore Seth’s body, to see what excites him, to learn everything he needs.
“Fuck.” He tugs on the strands of my hair as the hot bliss grabs him hard. “Oh, Darcy.”
I continue to kiss his tip, every so often darting out my tongue to lick him. I can already sense a saltiness to him which is sexy as fuck. He clearly enjoys me tasting him which only makes me want more as well. With my eyes fixed upon him so that I can see his intense expression, I part my lips wider, needing more of him inside of me, and I slip that delicious cock of his, all the way to the back of my throat. Even though he stretches my mouth because there is just so much of him, I love the sensation.
“Holy fuck.” He shudders violently, his thighs tense up as the pleasure gets to him. “Oh, Darcy.”
He says my name like a prayer. He keeps repeating it over and over again as his cock begins to taste that little bit saltier. It’s happening, I am driving him towards the edge, and I fucking love it. There is something as liberating about this as when he sends my head spinning. It fills me with bliss.
“Mmm,” I murmur as I take my free hand and I slowly slip it down my body to feel myself. My noises vibrate up the length of his cock which only gets me hornier and needier. It’s seconds later that I am brushing my own clit to make sure that I am joining in with pleasure here. I need a release as well. The more that he turns me on, the more I can’t control myself, the more powerful this overwhelming need for bliss becomes.
“Let me… let me do that,” Seth pants. “Your mouth feels fucking incredible, but I want to be inside you.”
“Oh God.” He really knows how to work me, how to derail me. I think that I want one thing to happen, but then he can transform me on seconds. I yank my mouth off of him and let him eagerly pull me to my feet.
“Spin around,” he commands with flames dancing behind his eyes. “Hold on to the wall. You will need support. Trust me, because I don’t know if I can hold myself back. You have no idea what you are doing to me.”
I do as he commands, thrilled to feel what he will do to me, and soon his fingers replace where mine were only moments before. He has hold of my clit, taking complete control of my body, and he is more than using that to his advantage. He is swirling and touching, brushing and grazing until I can’t handle it anymore. My knees are jelly, my legs wobbly, I need him buried deep inside of me before I lose my mind. I am on edge, falling apart, losing my mind, zipping too quickly and if he doesn’t satisfy me soon, I don’t know what will happen.
“S… Seth,” I whisper desperately. “Fuck me, please. I want you. I want you so bad, Seth. I need you.”
Luckily, because I’m thinking that this is something we both need, he slams his steel rod inside me. My hips smack against the cold tiled wall, my hands slip because everything is so soaking wet, but it feels incredible. Every thrust seems to slam so deeply within me, and of course the way that Seth’s fingers are exploring me, it isn’t long before I’m screaming down the tracks towards an incredible orgasm. I’m just so thankful that he is behind me, holding on to me like the strong man that he is, so I won’t fall.
This is what we needed to get back on track, as the pleasure floods and swirls through me, affecting every damn organ inside of my body, I know for sure that this is what I need to do. I have to go all in with me and Seth, give everything of myself to him, make this work.
“Fuck, I love you,” I yell out blissfully as the pleasure hits me hard. “I love you so much, Seth.”
He explodes at the same time as me, murmuring that he loves me as well and that he never wants to let me go, all the while reminding me that we have something here worth fighting for. Something so magical that it’s worth the sacrifice. It doesn’t even feel like a sacrifice when we’re together. It feels like what is meant to happen.
Chapter Twenty-Five
Seth
January 20th
“I am taking you all out for dinner!” the director declares as we finally finish filming for the day. “Because that is the best day of filming that we have done so far. Some of the hardest scenes as well.”
God, he isn’t wrong with that one. I can’t help but agree with how stressful this day has been. I have filmed sex scenes before, but they have always been in the same formulaic way with similar body positions needed and camera angles necessary to make it work, but this is different. So much more was needed from me, it has me totally emotionally drained. Winter has been great to work with as always, but it wasn’t simple.
“Dinner?” Winter slings her arm playfully around my shoulder. “Can you believe it? We must be the teacher’s pets today. After all that yelling, we have finally gotten it right. And today of all days.”
She’s so comfortable in herself. Happy back in her clothes and ready to enjoy time with the cast and crew. A real professional. I might have been in the business longer than her, but I can learn a lot here.
“I know.” I mock wiping sweat from my forehead. “Thank God this day is done.”
“Yeah, and we might not have long to go either. We have done a lot of the filming already, so it might not be long until we are totally done. Feels weird, doesn’t it? But that’s how it works with smaller budgets.”
God, it feels like this film has been my life for so long, even though it’s only been a few weeks, but it has utterly consumed me. More than anything else which has come before. It’s definitely a passion project of mine and I hope that shines through. It’s going to be challenging to say goodbye to it though.
“Wow, that really is something,” I declare. “Craziness. But it will be a relief too, I’m sure.”
“So, anyway we better get out to dinner now before the director changes his mind.”
As she skips off, I fire off a quick text to Darcy to see if she wants to come along to the dinner. Since we are making much more effort to spend more time together, this feels like a good way to start. But it doesn’t take long for me to get a negative reply. Darcy has some meetings involving her makeup line that she has to attend. Much as I am disappointed by that, I am also happy for her. She needs this. I really want Darcy to start having some real success with her business because I just know that will make her happy. I want that for her. I know it will make her life in LA much better which in turn, will make our relationship better. Not that it’s in a bad place, I really do feel like we are getting over our teething problems now and finding our feet.
Well, tonight I guess that it is just me and the guys from the movie. That might be for the best anyway because we are all going to want to be talking about it which might bore the shit out of Darcy. At least we have something positive to go with today, to celebrate. I didn’t know that was coming any time soon…
* * *
“Seth, where the hell are you?” Sierra calls down the other end of the phone, trying to be louder than the music in this bar. “I have been trying to call you all afternoon. I even went on to set.”
“Oh, sorry.” I plug my finger into my free ear to try and hear her better. “We wrapped up early today. It seems like we did such a good jo
b that the director wanted to take us out for dinner and that has turned to drinks…”
“Oh… good.” She sounds happy for me but surprised as well. “That’s good to know. I’m happy to hear it. I actually have some more good news that I need to discuss with you today. That’s why I have been calling so frantically. I have more offers for you, but they need really quick answers.”
“Oh really?” I want to fist pump with excitement. “That’s awesome news. Like what?”
“I will send you over some stuff and you can see it. Let me know what you think.”
“Fab, thank you. That’s great. I will give you answers as soon as I have them, but I have a feeling that it is going to be positive answers. This has been challenging but very rewarding.”
I see everyone smiling at me as if they can tell that this is good news, which only makes it that much more exciting. I don’t know if I want to think about my next project while I am in the middle of this one but at the same time it’s nice to know that I have more options. This isn’t going to be the end of me.
“Great, well I look forward to it, Sierra. Thank you so much for letting me know. I will let you know when I decide.” All of a sudden, I feel bad that I didn’t even think to invite my agent out with us. That isn’t good. I really shouldn’t get so wrapped up in myself. “You know, you should come down…”
“No, I have stuff going on. But thank you, Seth. I just need your answers to this, that’s all.”
I don’t know if she is pissed off or not, but she hangs up the phone quickly and leaves me alone for a while with this good news circling through my brain. It’s good to have options, to know that I haven’t totally fucked up my career by changing the direction of my movies but it’s also going to be very different. I will be saying goodbye to this family and trying to bond with another one. Hopefully, I will do it right.
“All good?” Winter asks me by offering me another drink. “Looked like it was a good call?”
“It was Sierra. She has told me that I have some scripts to look at for after this movie.”
“Uh, should I be offended?” she teases. “Because you are already thinking of moving on to another leading lady? I thought that I had such an impact on your life, but obviously not.”
“Oh, shut it you.” I bang my hip against hers. “You know that no one will ever be the same.”
She gives me a look and I can’t stop myself from beaming back at her. Yep, no one will ever be the same as it is with Winter because we have an actual bond here, a proper friendship.
“Me and you are always going to be in touch, anyway, aren’t we?” I ask her. “So, it won’t change.”
“True.” She nods happily. “So, anyway, to celebrate that, let’s drink some more. Blow off some steam before we get back on set and it’s back to the grind. You know what little down time we have.”
I roll my eyes and nod before glugging back the rest of my bottle. I am going to take full advantage of this…
* * *
“How come me and you are the only ones left?” I laugh at Winter. “When did everyone else bail?”
“I don’t know. They are all light weights. We are the only people that can handle their booze. We made it to last call.”
“Oh shit! So, the bar is kicking out?” Oh my God, how late are we? This was only supposed to be dinner, now I’m here late and not with Darcy like I want to be. I guess I got carried away. “Oh my God, we should go.”
“I know right.” Winter giggles girlishly. “We are bad today, aren’t we? So bad.”
I finish the rest of my drink and stagger to my feet, with Winter holding on to me to stop me from falling. We chat easily as we leave the bar, our friendship shining through, which makes me smile. I grin at Winter as the cool night air brushes passed us, trying to find the right words to tell her how much I appreciate her.
“Seth.” But it’s Winter who ends up talking first and the seriousness of her tone stuns me. She hasn’t been like that all night long which makes it super weird. “I like you; you know. You are awesome.”
Oh good, she’s feeling exactly the same way that I am. “I like you too, Winter.”
“Right, I thought as much.” She rests her hands on my shoulders. “Because we click well, don’t we? We have a good connection. And we are both in the industry so that’s always good…”
I try to answer her, I even part my lips wide, but before I can get anything out, she has crashed her mouth to mine in the most shocking thing ever. It’s so awkward, so confusing, and there is absolutely no chemistry there between us. The chemistry that we have as Cherry as Richard, isn’t anywhere to be seen.
“What the hell is going on here?” It takes me a couple of moments because of the shock and the fact that it feels like she might be playing a prank on me right now, but soon I move away from Winter. “What are you doing, Winter? I don’t understand, this… this doesn’t make any sense…”
“What are you talking about? I thought you just said that you like me too.”
“As a friend, yes!” I insist. “But not as anything else. I didn’t mean like this. I have a girlfriend. You know that, I have talked about Darcy in front of you, to you, you know that she exists.”
“You don’t talk about her much though.” Winter throws her hands in the air in frustration. “And she doesn’t understand you, does she? We talked about that, didn’t we? About how people not in the industry don’t understand, so it’s better to date within the movie business. And me and you… we have something.”
I’m blown away, I don’t know what to say to her, this is too much. I only thought that we had a friendship there, which is now completely stripped away. If I had even suspected for a second that there was more to Winter’s feelings than meets the eye, I would have been more careful. I wouldn’t have let that happen.
“I… I didn’t exactly say those things, Winter, I don’t know what to say to you. Me and Darcy have something good going and I don’t want to give up on her. On us. I didn’t know that you were feeling like this…”
“You aren’t happy,” Winter scoffs. “No way. You don’t look happy at all. I think that the relationship is draining you because you’re clinging on to something that can’t work. You probably aren’t making her happy either. How can you be when you’re both draining the life out of one another? You need to be apart; you need to grow alone; you need to be with someone who gets it. You should be with me.”
I don’t know what to say to that. I move away from her and turn on my heels to walk. I don’t want to be with Winter, that hasn’t ever been the case for me, I have only ever wanted to be her friend. But, there is something that doesn’t feel like it should with me and Darcy as well. I keep thinking to myself that it will get better… but isn’t it supposed to be better now? Shouldn’t this be the honeymoon period?
God, I’m so confused. I don’t know what the hell to think. All I know for sure is that my love for Darcy is all of me. It’s all I want and all I need… but is it enough?
Chapter Twenty-Six
Darcy
January 20th
Oh my God… what the hell is happening here? I absolutely cannot believe what I am looking at. This is just… crazy. I mean, I only got the stupid test because my online searches suggested that I should, just to put the idea out of my mind. I’m not supposed to have this result. I don’t even know what to do with it. Stupid sickness and no menstrual cycle. I am supposed to have some life threatening illness not this… not now.
But we knew that this could happen, that’s the problem. Me and Seth haven’t been using birth control for a while and that is for a reason. Because we moved to LA together, because we are in love, because we want a family… I didn’t think I would find myself in this position. Unable to find happiness in Hollywood even if everything that I have ever wanted is in front of me.… and with a positive pregnancy test.
“Fuck.” I shake my head hard as tears roll behind my eyes. I don’t quite let them out because I am
sick of feeling sad, but they are there all right. This is supposed to be a moment that is so happy, so full of love, shared with the man that I want to spend the rest of my life with, but it doesn’t feel that way. There is too much emptiness inside of me for that. Instead, this will just be an added complication to a life that already doesn’t quite feel right.
My brain races at the speed of light. I know that I need to act but I’m not sure how. Do I run? Escape all of this while I try to wrap my own head around it? Or do I lean against Seth and get him involved? Will he even want to be? I mean, this is an integral time for his career and since we haven’t been together for that long, despite how long we have known one another, it may be too quick for him. He might be the one to run.
“Shit.” All of a sudden, before I can decide anything, the door clicks open and I hear Seth bursting inside. He’s been out with the people that he works on the movie with. A night that he asked me to join him on but I made up a stupid excuse, because I wanted to take this test alone. I thought that I was simply over reacting to not feeling like myself and I didn’t want to scare him over nothing. I didn’t expect him to be back yet…
Although as I glance at the clock, I realize that it isn’t that early after all. It’s pretty late. Not the sort of time to be discussing a shock pregnancy, especially if he’s drunk. So, without giving myself even another second to worry about it, I stuff the little white stick in the bottom of the trash so he can’t see it. Much as it feels wrong to be hiding it from him, I quickly convince myself that this is for the best.
