“Better check your phone,” he says despite hiding his face in my hair and feeling up my butt. “Our attention is in high demand.”
Looking at the message from Topanga, I frown at the wording. “I knew Lowell made handsome fellas, but he makes beautiful belles, too!”
My heart drops into my stomach. What the fuck is she saying? I show Conor the text. He leans over and kisses me softly.
“I knew you weren’t my sister. Now, let’s suck face more before we head back to Elko.”
I think to give him shit for blowing off something important, but I catch him smirking before his lips suck at my throat. Besides, what else could he say?
To prove how the right words are difficult to find, I text Topanga back with, “Thanks.” Then, I add a heart emoticon, thinking maybe that’ll make the word seem more meaningful.
Pulling up my mom’s picture on my phone, I admire her smiling face. I miss her so much, but she feels closer now. Needy Hobbs wasn’t wrong, and she didn’t lie. I am Lowell Sinema’s daughter!
My smile disappears, and I wiggle free of Conor. “Lowell must be pissed.”
“He’ll get over it.”
I glance at the nearby highway and remember how it felt to hold on to Conor and let him take charge.
“Maybe we should run off, just you and me,” I blurt out, afraid to return to Elko. “We’ll jump on the highway and keep going.”
Conor gives me a weird frown before shrugging. “I need my retainer.”
Frowning, I take a moment to realize he’s fucking with me. “I’m afraid of rejection.”
“Everyone is.”
“But I don’t think I can handle Lowell rejecting me.”
“Except he already did, and you felt bad. That just happened.”
“I know,” I mumble, feeling stupid and embarrassed again.
“Then, why would we run away?” Conor asks and cups my cheek. “I’m fine with us leaving Elko if that’s what you want, but there’s no reason to escape as if we’ve done something wrong.”
“Lowell doesn’t want me to be his daughter.”
“No, he doesn’t want a daughter, period. That’s not the same thing. He doesn’t know you enough for the problem to be about you.”
Recalling how he looked at me in Rooster’s side room, I feel myself wanting to avoid the problem.
“Topanga asked us to come to their house for dinner,” Conor says after checking his phone.
“But we’re supposed to eat a Bambi’s Bar & Grill and leave a big tip for Amity.”
Conor smiles at my whiny tone. “Then, we’ll stop by and get the food like we planned before going to Lowell’s house.”
“Or we can wait until tomorrow. I think if I had more time with you, I’d be stronger.”
“Monroe, I sense what you’re trying to do, but you can’t pull off the emotionally fragile persona.”
Rolling my eyes, I mumble, “I’m emotional.”
“Not really. You think about crying, but you never do. It’s not your nature. Running away from Elko is dumb, anyway. You have friends there and a place to live. Your car is there, and now your dad. Don’t let him weasel out of what you’re owed just because he can’t live up to your childlike fantasies.”
“You keep saying what I’m owed, but I don’t want anything.”
Conor cups my face with both hands and forces my gaze to hold his. “That’s not true. You want him to give you a safe place to live. You want to be financially secure. You want things with Clive dealt with. Even if Lowell doesn’t throw around the ball or take you to a daddy-daughter dance, he needs to give you the things he would give Dunning.”
“Not really. I’m an adult. He doesn’t owe me anything.”
“Maybe not in the world’s eyes, but things work differently in the Woodlands. He has a daughter that everyone knows about, so he must make things square with that daughter to appease the community’s expectations.”
“But what about your sister? You said she was a dirty little secret.”
“Yeah, but she has a safe life in her town under the protection of another club. If Aja were alone in the world and needing help, the Executioners would offer her a hand. Not because they care about her. But because she has my father’s blood running through her veins, and he helped found the club.”
When I just frown at him, Conor slides the helmet over my head. “I told you earlier how these men came from nothing and created something powerful. Think of them like royalty. Even though my father’s dead, his kids deserve the club’s protection. Your father isn’t dead, and the woman he knocked up was part of their community. You got screwed out of what you were owed. Now, let’s get back to Elko and start claiming your shit.”
Grinning at his wink, I fall silent and let him take charge. Conor knows the rules, and he’s effortlessly confident. If he wants to run things, I’m happy to play his sidekick.
PART 3: CONGRATS, IT’S A GIRL!
CONOR
Topanga has a bug up her fine ass about Monroe joining her family for dinner. No doubt, she feels guilty about the slap. Topanga is normally the cool honey. Not one of those bitchy old ladies like my mom, but a warm person who welcomes new people. That’s how she charmed Bronco’s woman, Lana, and Anders’s hippie chick, Pixie. But then she ruined her nice-girl cred by slapping Lowell’s baby girl.
That surprise kid is now having second thoughts about getting to know the dad she’s been idealizing for a lifetime. Monroe isn’t wrong to feel hurt by Lowell’s reaction. Yet, running is the wrong move. Not that I don’t consider how fun it would be for Monroe and me to take off with just the clothes on our backs. We could stop when the mood struck us, drive whatever direction suited us, and return home when the road got boring. That kind of freedom feels tempting.
But running off with Monroe isn’t an option tonight. I need to get her life in order before we can pretend to be carefree.
Back in Elko, we stop at Bambi’s Bar & Grill. Amity takes our order, playing up the professional angle while her manager is looking. Once he’s out of sight, she leans in and whispers to Monroe. Based on their impressed expressions, they’re gossiping about my dick.
Once the food is safely tucked away in my Harley’s storage, I turn to Monroe and cup her smiling face. No matter what delicious thing her lips are doing, her dark eyes hold all kinds of angst. I’m surprised she hasn’t bitch-slapped me or thrown a drink in my face. She looks ready to go “Housewives of Elko” bitchy on the world.
“Topanga will come on strong,” I warn as Monroe fights a pout. “She feels guilty about hitting you.”
“Okay.”
“Dunning will act like a bitch because he’s a teenage boy who spends a lot of time with teenage girls. He forgets to hide his feelings and instead barfs them on people.”
“Okay.”
“And Lowell feels on the spot. Everyone in the community is gossiping about him. That’s going to make him a real asshole. Expect grumpy faces and too much grumbling, as if he can’t remember how to enunciate his words.”
Monroe’s hard gaze flinches at the mention of her father. That’s going to be the toughest part. I don’t think Monroe cares what Topanga or Dunning think. But Lowell is her soft spot. His approval matters, which is why I’m unsure her heart will get through tonight unscathed.
When my lips leave hers, I’m struck by how vulnerable she looks right this moment. In less than twenty-four hours, I’ve gone from a stranger to the person she trusts most.
“Fuck, you’re beautiful,” I say, lowering my guard. “It’s almost criminal to make a man feel this weak.”
Monroe gives me a half-grin before suddenly blushing. She’s as surprised by her reaction as I am. Monroe Hobbs isn’t a flighty girl impressed by compliments. But she senses what I do. We’re on our way to something great.
Prying ourselves apart, we drive to the Woodlands, where I pull into the driveway of Lowell’s two-story traditional-style house. Across the street, I spot my cousin—Sidonie
—and step-cousin—Desi—playing in their front yard with their Chihuahua mix. Despite being preteens, the girls have decided to dress up the animal as a princess. I don’t remember ever feeling safe enough to be that silly.
Next to me, Monroe stares up at Lowell’s white house with black shutters. Her smile is gone. I slide my hand around hers and grab the food bags.
“Tonight, I’m sleeping over.”
“I already knew that,” she grumbles, putting up her guard.
“But I thought you might have forgotten.”
Monroe shoots me a dark frown before finding me grinning at her. She realizes what I’m doing and exhales roughly.
“I’m nervous.”
“I know, but what happens today doesn’t even matter.”
“How do you figure?”
“Everyone’s hypersensitive right now. They’ll say and do whatever necessary to get through the rest of the day. Promises made today shouldn’t be trusted to be kept. Threats ought to be viewed the same way. The feelings tonight aren’t the feelings of next week. Long term is what you should be concerned about.”
Unconvinced, Monroe shakes her head, so I hug her to me. Her hair’s scent returns my thoughts to her apartment. My dick wakes up, behaving as stubbornly as Monroe.
“Think of the day you arrived in Elko and went to Rooster’s,” I murmur, still nuzzling her hair, which only makes my dick more insistent. “Everything was stressful, sped up, too loud, confusing. Then imagine what it was like a week later. How things settled down, you regained your bearings and adjusted to your new reality. Most days were like the second one, not the first. That’s how you need to view tonight. This overwhelming new part is only temporary.”
Giving me a look that says I’m getting lucky later, Monroe squeezes my hand. “I’m not so nervous anymore.”
“If you get upset about what happens in there,” I say, gesturing toward the house, “think of what you’d like me to do to you back at the apartment.”
“So, if my daddy upsets me, I should think of getting fucked?” she growls, trying to poke at me.
Refusing to be coaxed into a battle, I casually reply, “Yes, exactly.”
Monroe allows a smile. I’m starting to understand how she ticks. Against a stronger force, she’ll bend and find comfort. With someone weak or unpredictable, she remains on edge. Monroe isn’t a leader. I’ve seen her with the bunnies. She never takes charge, even with Amity, who isn’t a strong person. Though Monroe is a follower, she needs to be led by a confident, stable person, or she’ll rebel. That’s why she always calms down when her attempts to upset me don’t work. I’m unflappable. After all, whatever crazy, bitchy move Monroe tries, my mother already unleashed with more venom and pizzazz.
As we reach the front door, Topanga throws it open and offers a large smile as she waves us inside her house.
“Look at you,” she coos at the younger blonde. “Monroe is such a pretty name.”
“So is Topanga.”
“I’m named after a city.”
“I’m named after a dead actress.”
“Fun,” Topanga says, coming on really strong with her giant smile and shiny eyes. Then, she notices the white plastic bags hanging from my hand.
“What’s that?”
“We picked up dinner from Bambi’s.”
Topanga puts on her pout and softly whines, “But I’m ordering dinner for us all.”
“I hadn’t thought of that,” I lie.
Topanga cocks her right eyebrow, seeing through my bullshit. She can’t give me grief, though. Monroe—the daughter she never had and recently slapped—is standing awkwardly in the foyer of the overly white house.
“Are you thirsty?” Topanga asks Monroe as she guides us forward to the kitchen/family room combo.
“No, thank you.”
I’m unsurprised to find a sullen Lowell at the back, double doors, looking to escape. Monroe glances at him, likely sees on his face what I do, and then focuses back on Topanga.
“I’m sorry you thought I wanted to fuck Lowell,” she says, stirring up trouble as a distraction. “I mean, as a bunny, of course, I was supposed to fuck him, but I’m sorry you thought I was going to be an obsessive stalker about it.”
Topanga can’t tell if Monroe is screwing with her. The younger woman has a way of looking so fucking sincere when she’s really full of shit.
“No worries. It was all a misunderstanding,” Topanga says, gently patting Monroe’s once slapped face.
Monroe flashes a glance at me and then smiles at Topanga. “I don’t know how long we can stay.”
Catching her hint, I decide to move things along. “Why don’t we let Monroe and Lowell speak alone? Maybe outside while you and I gossip.”
“Why outside?” Topanga asks, immediately suspicious.
“It’ll be more difficult for you to accidentally spy,” I say, and Topanga gives me a wink.
Monroe tugs at my hand, letting me know she isn’t a fan of my plan. Then, she stands straighter. Maybe she accepts how she isn’t a kid, and hiding is a childish move.
Letting go of my hand, Monroe walks to the back doors where Lowell stares at his wife. I’d laugh at his pleading expression if he wasn’t freaking out over his relationship with my honey. His obvious awkwardness isn’t funny to her.
They walk outside, where I assume Lowell will make shit worse. I’m less certain how Monroe will react.
“We’re having a party,” Topanga says, smacking me in the ass with her dishtowel.
“There’s always a party in the Woodlands.”
“The one this week is to welcome Monroe to the community.”
“You’re kidding, right?”
“I never kid,” replies the woman notorious for kidding around.
“But you have to know that party will be a huge fucking train wreck, right?”
“You say that about all our parties.”
“Monroe is a walking, talking reminder of how the men in this community ejaculate inside women they’re not married to.”
Waving off my concerns, Topanga wipes her already clean white marble kitchen island. “I’m okay with it.”
“Because Monroe happened before you met him. What about the kids created afterward? Most of them are kept under wraps, and there are probably a few offspring the club doesn’t know about. Monroe won’t find a warm welcome from women who want to pretend the bunnies are waitresses.”
“You’re overanalyzing shit.”
“What about Aja?”
Topanga rolls her eyes. “Point taken.”
“You should cancel the party and let the idea of Monroe settle into the heads of the honeys. Then, down the road, you can have your big event without triggering a bunch of pissy old ladies.”
“Down the road, as in, when you make things official with Monroe?” she asks, giving me a devious grin.
“Maybe. We’ve spent less than twenty-four hours together. Before then, she was a sexy dream, and I was an irresistible hope.”
“Well, I knew right away when I met Lowell that he was the one. The first time he smiled at me, I felt electricity rush over my body and straight down to my toes. Before the smile, he’d only inspired heat around my vaginal region.”
“Good stuff,” I say, grabbing a chip from the bowl she places out. “So, the party is off?”
“No, but don’t pout. Bambi and your mom decided to throw the party, but I think Taryn is the one behind it. No way will she back down. She’s been on the warpath since that biker dumped her bitch ass.”
“Ooh, catfight,” I say, and we share a smile.
“That girl needs a dick to keep her busy.”
“Farts is interested,” I say, thinking of one of the second-generation patched members. “When Taryn gets desperate enough, she can hook up with him and have more shitty kids.”
“Devlin is terrible,” Topanga says. “He bit me the other day.”
“Bite him back. That’s what Barbie does.”
Topanga
grins. “Yes, but I’m not as good at taking a punch from Bambi as your mom is.”
“Learn to duck, then,” I say, glancing out the back door. “Is Lowell miserable about Monroe?”
“He’ll get over it.”
“Maybe. Though I’m not sure what Monroe needs is a father.”
“Oh, she only needs you, huh?”
“No, I think she needs to find her mother, create a safe home, get rid of the people hunting her. The basics. Lowell is a pipedream.”
“Don’t say that. We always wanted more kids, but my uterus wouldn’t cooperate.”
“Monroe isn’t a kid.”
“She isn’t much older than Dunning, and my boy is very much a kid. He nearly tore out his hair when his laptop wouldn’t start the other day. That’s not the behavior of a mature young man.”
“Uh-huh,” I mutter, walking to the window and studying Monroe facing off with Lowell. “I might storm out there dramatically. Prepare yourself.”
Shrugging, Topanga eats a chip. She’s already thinking of parties and likely shopping trips with her new stepdaughter. Oh, no doubt, Topanga wants to show off Lowell’s beautiful offspring. I guess I don’t blame her, but Monroe isn’t a baby. If Topanga can’t handle a small hellion like seven-year-old Devlin, she has little shot of wrangling a full-grown temperamental goddess like my honey.
MONROE
I walk out to Lowell’s extravagant backyard with the hot tub flowing like a waterfall into the pool and grass almost surreally green. I don’t resent him for living well. I’m also not particularly impressed by wealth. Except for the year at the shitty Georgia trailer park, I always lived somewhere decent. Most of my memories are from growing up in Uncle Clive’s large American Craftsman house. The McNamee family were Quakers way back in the day. This meant they didn’t believe in bling. Yet, somehow, all the crime was okay-dokey.
“Yesterday took me by surprise,” Lowell says when I watch the waterfall effect.
“No, I get it.”
“Conor said you were upset.”
“I was,” I say, glancing at him over my shoulder. “I kept thinking you would see me and just know. That’s why I kept staring. It was dumb, but I was sure you would sense who I was.”
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