“Tangie, Tangie, what’s wrong?” I heard Tay asking me from afar, but I couldn’t answer. I just kept my eyes on the jet until I blacked out. When I woke up, I was sitting on one of the airport’s golf carts.
“Are you okay, baby?” Tay asked as he handed me bottled water.
I had to look around to realize that I was still at the airport. I looked at Tay, then at Carl, who looked even more concerned than Tay did. “I’m fine. It’s just that—” I stopped myself.
This wasn’t the time to disclose what scared me, especially to a man who could possibly be gone within a month. None of my conquests ever lasted too long. We’d spend time, they’d spend money, and soon enough, it would be over. I wasn’t the type to let men get too close, and I wasn’t about to start.
“I just need to go to the bathroom. Do we have enough time?”
I got up but was still a little dizzy. Tay’von grabbed on to me so that I didn’t fall over, but I pulled away from him.
“I told you that I’m fine, didn’t I?” I snapped.
“No you’re not. Carl will go with you.”
I wasn’t into Tay being so sweet and helpful. He was trying to get too close, and me keeping him at bay was the only way to keep my head on straight and get to the money. Carl held on to me, and we walked to the bathroom so that I could get myself together.
When he thought that I was alone in the bathroom, Carl walked in, and I really was not in the mood for that.
“Hey, baby. Are you okay?” he said.
Baby? Oh, this dude is trippin’.
“Is there something that you need in here? If not, get out.”
“I just came in to make sure you were okay, that’s all.”
“Well, for the last fucking time, I’m fine!”
He got pissed off and started to walk out. “Well, I’m sorry for giving a fuck,” he said as the door closed behind him.
I tried to get myself together enough to get on the plane, but I was still shaky. I stuck my head out of the bathroom and told Carl to get Tony. A couple of minutes later, Tony walked into the bathroom, and I locked the door behind him.
“You have got to give me a little candy, Tony! Or I will not make this flight.”
“Girl, are you crazy? I can’t give you anything in here.”
“Come on, Tony. I won’t be able to get on that jet without it. We can go in a stall, and no one will know. Hell, you went through the airport with it, and you didn’t get caught, so please . . . It’s the only way.”
Tony must have felt really sorry for me, because he took my hand and walked me into one of the stalls. He gave me the little bag of cocaine, and I stuck my nose in it and took a long, deep breath. It hit me hard but good. I gave him back the bag and closed my eyes as I felt the drug rushing through my body.
“So are you ready to go now?” Tony asked me, looking all nervous and shit.
“As ready as I will ever be,” I said as I held on to his arm and we wiped my nose. I walked back to where Tay and Carl were waiting, with a big shit-eating grin on my face.
Once we were seated on the private jet, Tay leaned over and asked me why I had sent Carl back for Tony.
“I needed something sweet to sniff,” I answered.
“Starting the party early, I see.”
“You know me. It’s always a party when I’m around, but since we are now on the plane, can you please tell me where we are going?” I said as the effect of the drug I had sniffed hit me like a ton of bricks.
“Vegas, baby,” Tay said with a smile, and all I could think of to say was, “Sounds fun.”
I had done Vegas so many times with so many different rappers that it wasn’t a big deal to me.
By the time we landed in Vegas, my high was gone, and I was ready to get off the plane. Our reservations were for the best suite at the Palms Casino Resort Hotel. Once there, we put our things in the Dream Suite Penthouse C, and I freshened up so that we could all go down to the casino together. Once down there, I played so many different games that I lost count. I had never really been a gambler, but the free drinks that they gave you made you think that you could eventually win at something.
Tay’von had given me twenty-five thousand dollars to blow, and before long I was down to my last ten. I took it hard every time I lost a game, and I got angrier and angrier. Tay thought that it was so cute that I was a sore loser. He even found my temper tantrums funny.
“Aw, don’t get so upset, Tangie. You just have to find your game,” Tay said when I lost another thousand.
I realized that poker was not my game, so I moved to the blackjack table with Tay. Carl and Tony stood to the side and watched us play. Carl had been looking so down that even Tony had noticed. He walked over to Carl and had a conversation with him, which he thought I couldn’t hear.
“What’s wrong with you, nigga? You look like she’s losing your money or something.”
“I’m just sick of standing around while this bitch blows through Tay’s money,” Carl responded.
“Well, I don’t give a fuck, and you shouldn’t, either,” Tony said.
“I just don’t understand how Tay can be so blind. First, he buys her those cars, and now he brings her to Vegas and hands her a grip of money. I know that she’s fine and all, but he doesn’t even know her that well.”
“Carl, just stay out of Tay’s business. It’s always better that way. He’s a grown-ass man, and I am sure that he knows what he is doing. Just do what you are getting paid to do and stay out of it,” Tony said as he and Carl looked over at me. “But she is fine, though. I bet she’s turning Tay’s ass out every chance she gets.”
“Oh, trust me, she is. I mean, she has to be for him to be acting the way he is,” Carl answered while catching himself.
They stopped talking, and I downed one drink after the other while blowing most of my money away. By the time we made it back to the suite, I had only three thousand dollars and could hardly walk. Tay assured me that there would be more money to gamble with the next day.
“Tony, I need a little more candy,” I said as I took off my shoes and sat on the couch.
“Damn, girl, you’re going to put a third hole in your nose with all that shit you’re sniffing,” Tay’von answered as he rolled up his weed.
“The same hole that you’re putting in your chest with all the shit you’re smoking,” I said with a smile.
Tony brought over the coke, and I lined it out on the coffee table. The four lines disappeared into my nose; then I let out a sneeze.
“I hope that you’re not doing that much coke while I am out on tour,” Tay said with a disapproving look on his face.
“As hard as you’ve got Carl watching me, I can’t even wash my ass without him telling you. So I’m sure that you know the answer to that question.”
“Well, I am happy that you know that Carl is watching, because he’s my third eye,” Tay replied.
I looked over at Carl, and he seemed uneasy and stiff. Tony and Tay’von both laughed.
“Well, you better get a fourth one,” I said while laughing.
I didn’t think that Tay got what I was saying, but it looked like Tony did.
“Shit, with Carl, I don’t need a fourth eye. With him by my side, I know that I will always have all the info that I need,” Tay observed.
I didn’t want this conversation to get any deeper, so I turned to one of my tricks. “Is it hot in here, or is it just me?”
“Here. Smoke this. It will mellow you out,” Tay said as he handed me his blunt.
“Nah. I need to take this damn dress off. You all don’t mind, do you?”
Carl and Tony both looked at Tay’von.
“Go ahead, baby. These niggas are cool. I’m sure that they don’t mind.”
“Hell, no, we don’t mind,” Tony said with a smile.
“Yeah, okay. Just remember that all you can do is look,” Tay warned, yet in a joking tone.
I pulled off my dress, and I sat there in my thong, since
I didn’t have on a bra. I picked up the coke and handed it to Tay. He shook his head no, but I needed him to get really high for what I was about to do.
“Come on, Tay. You’re not going to let me party by myself, are you? Just do two lines and I’ll leave you alone.”
I sat in his lap and lined up the coke. I got up, held the hundred-dollar bill up to his nose, and he sniffed up the powder. Thirty minutes later he had matched my number of lines and was high as hell. He reached for the remote and flipped on the TV. He came to the adult movie channel and left it there. I could tell that he was starting to get turned on, so I leaned in and nibbled on his ears and neck.
“You better stop, or else we’re gonna end up putting on a freak show for these niggas,” Tay said with closed eyes, but I didn’t stop.
I licked his neck and moved my hand down to his chest. He kissed me, and I got on his lap again and wrapped my legs around him. He kissed me slowly before I pulled away and put my nipple up to his lips. He kissed around my nipple before licking it and making it hard.
“Damn, baby. I have missed you so much,” I said and let out a moan as he licked me hungrily. I felt his fingers run down my back, and then he squeezed my ass as if it were putty.
“Uh, you want us to leave, man?” Carl asked, looking like he wanted to leave, anyway.
“Nah, you’re cool. We’re just fucking around.” Tay may have thought that we were just fucking around, but I planned on fucking him in front of Carl. I just didn’t know when I would get the chance, but luckily for me, this trip came up fast.
I slide myself off Tay and got on my knees in front of him. I undid his belt and unzipped his pants. I pulled his dick out and jerked it off slowly. His body moved with my hand as I got his dick fully hard.
“Are you watching this shit, man? This chick is crazy,” Tony whispered as he hit Carl on the arm.
“Man, I ain’t trying to watch this. They should take this to the bedroom,” Carl said.
“Man, fuck that. I want to see what this bitch can do,” Tony said as he started to get into my little show.
Tay and I both heard them, but neither of us cared. Carl said nothing after that; he just stared, looking as if he was trying to control his anger. I put Tay’s dick in my mouth and enjoyed the taste and feel of it. I put all of it down my throat as he let out a loud grunt.
“Damn, Tangie. That shit is feeling good as hell.”
“Come on, Tay. I want to taste that cream, baby,” I said after removing his dick, which had been crammed into my mouth.
But before he could cum, he pulled my head up. I stood in front of him, and I put one of my feet up on the couch.
Tay’von didn’t even take my thong off. He just pushed it to the side and plunged into my pussy. He sucked on my clit and fingered my pussy at the same time. I pushed his head deeper into me until I came in his mouth. I pushed his head away after I was done, and pulled his pants off. I sat on his dick, facing Tony and Carl. At first, I fucked only the head of Tay’s dick. But then my cum ran down his dick, making it easier for me to slide all the way down on it. I fucked him nice and slow while Carl and Tony watched my every move. I looked into Carl’s eyes and smiled when I realized how mad he looked. Now he realized that all of this was for him. How could he have let himself fall into my trap? I silently asked myself.
I started to move my mouth, and then I silently mouthed words to Carl as I fucked Tay. “You want me, don’t you?”
Tony caught the whole exchange.
Carl saw me but acted like he didn’t, so I said it out loud.
“You want me, don’t you?”
“Yes, yes, baby, I want you,” Tay’von answered.
“I make you feel good, don’t I?”
“Yeah, baby, you make me feel real fucking good,” Tay answered yet again, not realizing that I was talking to Carl.
I started to fuck him even faster, making him lose control.
“You love me, don’t you?”
No answer, but I continued to look directly into Carl’s eyes.
“I asked if you love me.”
As Tay’von came, his filter was gone. I had him open, and he couldn’t help himself. “Oh shit. I love you, baby. I love you.”
Again, I creamed on his dick and said my own “I love yous.” “I love you too, Tay. I love your dick, I love your kiss, and I love everything about you.” I got up and sat on his lap again, facing him, and kissed him passionately. “I really do love you, Tay’von.” I looked into his eyes, and I saw softness there, and for a second, I even saw true love.
“Yeah, I got much love for you too, Tangie.” He looked at me and smiled. I smiled too.
Later, he would tell me that in me, he saw a soft little doll-like woman who needed to be loved. He would also say that he saw a woman who thought that she was in love, but he made a decision at that moment to make me really love him. He needed me in more ways than I could ever understand, so my loving him was a plus.
“Damn, girl. You got me all fucked up. I’m really going to have to watch out for myself and make sure you’re just not running a good game on me,” Tay said after a moment.
“You don’t have to watch out, Tay. I am really trying to be all about you.” I turned around, lit a jay, and looked at Carl. “There is nobody who can change my mind about that. Plus, no one else could afford me,” I said in a joking tone, but Carl knew that I was talking to him. I was hoping he would remember the comment I had made about him making pennies and would put two and two together.
“You’ve got that right, ’cause you ran through my money like water tonight,” Tay’von said, sounding as if he really didn’t give a damn about the money I blew.
I could almost see steam coming off Carl’s head, while Tony just sat there as if he was watching One Life to Live. And to be honest, I liked Carl, but I hated his paycheck, and that was all I cared about at the moment.
Chapter 5
Even Though He Was Knee-Deep
In The Act Of Betrayal,
He Knew She Had A Heart Of Gold
I know that at this point people must think that I am one fucked-up individual. To some, sex is something that should be done in bed between two people. Some people may have to love or even like the people they sleep with. But at that time in my life, money, sex, love, and hate were all the same. I still have to ask myself at times if I’m really satisfied with just being Tay’von’s wife. The money is wonderful, but as far as having him as my man, well, it could have been any ballplayer, rapper, or actor, to tell you the truth. I loved and still do love Tay’von, but that love was built on the paychecks he received and spent on me.
After getting my hair done, I walk up to the counter so that I can pay. Tasha comes up to me and gives me a last-minute reminder.
“Just remember that the ride in the car is not the only ride Carl can give you.”
I share a smile with her as I think about all the rides I have gotten from Carl over the years.
“Okay Tasha. I’ll see you in a couple of days. This time let’s make the appointment at my house.”
During our trip in Vegas, we did it all. We shopped, gambled, did drugs, had sex, and ate at five-star restaurants. This was such a welcomed trip, since I had been missing Tay so much. I decided to lay off Carl until we got back home, giving him a chance to recuperate. I gave Tay’von all my attention since he would be with me for only two more days. I had been thinking about things, and I really did not want to be left behind this time. I was sure that Tay was having a lot of fun without me, but it was time for me to have my own fun.
While we lay in bed after another round of mind-blowing sex, I brought it up.
“Tay, how come you never ask me to go on the road with you?”
“I just never thought that you would want to go. Plus, that is the fastest way to fuck up a good relationship.”
I looked at him as if he was trying to run game on me. “Come on, honey, you can do much better than that. If you have another bitch or two who are o
n the road with you, then just say so.”
Tay’von sat up and picked up the jay that was on the nightstand. He lit it, then spoke. “What makes you think that I am fucking other people?”
He must have realized how dumb his question was, because he started to smile as soon as the words left his mouth.
“Come on, Mr. Too Fine. Who do you think you’re trying to fool? You have the number one song out right now, you’re sexy as hell, and you’re out on tour without your girlfriend. So don’t ask me why I think that you are sleeping with other women. I am not new to this game, Tay.”
By then, Tay was laughing so hard that he had started to choke on his blunt. He had always known that I was smart, but he had thought that I would be naive about his indiscretions.
“Look, all I am saying is that I don’t want to mess things up. But if you really want to come with me, then, hey, do you. But just know that it will not always be about partying and getting high. There will be times when you won’t see me or be around me. There will be a lot of girls and people around, period.”
He looked at me, hoping that his words would make me change my mind, but there was no way that I would back down and decline his invitation.
“I’m going, and I will even make a deal with you. You can do whatever it is that you have always done when I wasn’t there, and I will not get in your way.”
He looked at me as if he was trying to read my thoughts. He wondered if I was telling the truth or if I was just saying this so that he would really let me go with him.
“You mean to tell me that when I get up to go out, you’re not going to question me about where I am going?”
I got on top of him, kissed his neck, then started working my way down, way down.
“You can do whatever you want, Tay, but there are some things that you will want me to be there for, don’t you think?” I asked as I moved my head down to his dick.
By the time he came from my feel-good head, I had a yes as an answer to whatever question I asked. After a fast few days in Vegas, we headed home.
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