When the argument goes on Courtney and all she has done for him I can not stay longer sitting by his side. From the window I watch the lights in stark contrast to the brightening of clouds that soon will leave at dawn space.
After his "Only until you settle everything" I feel the need to leave, he will still work with her, is accepting its conditions, of which I know to be involved. By now I am not surprised most of his behavior, his removal sudden and desperate need who want me to hurt.
"Tell me something," pleading with those green eyes that manage to get into the deepest part of my soul hurting me as his gaze is intense on mine.
"Why were you with her?" Chino looked up and I'm going to fix my tennis shoes, I move your feet in a nervous while waiting for his answer.
"I was in bed with her" like a punch in the stomach, a rush my hand runs against his face. My gesture and took no that could stop me. I carry a hand to her mouth as I observe his face that turns to me.
Something wet my hand and soon arise sobs. I can not cry in this pathetically in front of him. I start to run, but Zac stops me, one arm takes me to life and pulls me toward him.
My back is resting on his chest, his face creeps between my hair.
"I'm sorry, hurt you was the last thing I wanted," I whispers just, I can not move from there, from that embrace and his words, but I must. I take his arm and move slowly, without turning continuation toward the exit. I would hear his footsteps echoing down the hall, but just feel the silence and the emptiness that had managed to bridge, it has now been re-sucked.
Chapter
22
Medyson
"It is the moment when you think
things can not get any worse,
you realize that you're only
at the beginning of your battle ... "
The fresh air of the early morning can bring the mind to be more polished. I understand that he did not hurt me and I admire for what he does for his sister, but I can not, I can not sit still while someone tries to ruin my life. I look at the parking lot and like a fool I realize that they are walking.
"Can I at least take you home?" I turn, Zac had his hands in his pockets, his head down and shrugs. The hair moving just moved by the breeze.
"Y-Yes please," I can only say, I go to the car. It precedes to open my door, I look at it a moment, searching for what almost magnetic look.
"Do not look at me like this! I am disgusting enough alone, "he says, not realizing that despite being angry and disappointed I can not judge him. Therefore, I choose not to answer, and I am going to get into the car, I would like to explain how I feel, but are completely blocked. I think the euphoria I had when I met Eddy via Facebook, he seemed to listen to me like no other, as if he already knew my problems, but it was anything but a good person.
Behind those sweet gestures, the beautiful words lurked an animal. A being who did not have the slightest respect of "my" body. He was treated as an object that after being used, threw it away without any shame.
Yes, it took away a part of me that never shall recover more and my life will always be marked by that night, I'll never be able to forget it. Now I look at Zac, sitting next to me, I had never heard quell'emozioni with anyone, ever, but if he did hurt me? It would be capable of?
"Tell me, insult me, beat me if you please, as long as you stop this silence that's been bugging me," slams his hands against the steering wheel and brakes suddenly posteggiandosi the roadside.
"I do not know what to tell Zac ... well, I kiss me like that ... and. ..." takes her hands in his.
"Look!" He orders, with two fingers turns my face toward his. His eyes transcend every barrier I try to raise at this time.
"I was with her, because I could not think about you, I wanted to convince myself that it was just my illusion. It was not normal that you, your eyes and your voice would come into my head. I know it's not an excuse, but ... when I saw you and Noha ... I ... "he looks down at that moment of embarrassment and then continues," I was fucking jealous, in my head have passed a thousand scenarios and when I was in bed with Courtney, I thought of you Med, you were there to fill me the mind, to cover my thoughts, to fill that void that I feel every time you are not close, "he confesses, I get close to him, my eyes watching her, down to his mouth and then meet again with his gaze.
Zac takes my face with gentleness trapping him in the palm, with the other hand brings me my to his chest. I hear her heart beating, one after another that run like a marathon, and are racing for me. His breathing sprinkles my face, I can taste her that seems to call me and inebriate the senses, as a cure, yes, he is the care of my scars.
The close my eyes just before his touches my upper lip. He holds in his lips just tugging, his tongue tickles me and my reach it right away. The warmth of that kiss me isolated from the rest of the world, from pain and all the problems that this can entail. I just want to taste her and nothing else, I want to hear him that is able to extinguish the flames of my hell.
Our tongues seek, are followed by chills that cover my body. I pull away and look at him, my eyes want to memorize every detail of his face. Trace with the index finger its distinctive profile. From the temple, cheekbone, down to the jaw up to the chin. He lowers his head and kisses my fingertip.
"I will resolve everything, just give me a bit 'of time" begged and I want to trust, because I want as I never wanted anyone. Because with him I am no longer a victim, he makes me feel like a woman, he does not ask and does not judge what his eyes saw that night.
"Okay," I pose a chaste kiss on the forehead
"Do not I ever will suffer" promises in that kiss.
When takes me back home, the Noha machine is still there, looking at me just before going down, and pulls me back to him to snatch another kiss.
'Call me for anything, "warns me, I blush with embarrassment and go to the entrance as I observe his car away.
Into the house by not making any noise but I find Noha standing, leaning against the archway in the living room, with a cup of steaming coffee in his hands.
His eyes are bloodshot, he holds the cup as if as if to break it.
"What the fuck are you doing? Me you explain that? "He shouts, as if he had a say.
"I was spying on or something?" I ask piccata, crossing his arms over his chest.
"You know that's the guy Courtney?" He says pleased with that and at the same time angry.
"That's not what he says ..." approach, leaving the cup on the coffee table, he takes me by the shoulders and pointing his eyes straight into mine.
"Do you realize how you are behaving with each other? You've slept with her a few hours ago and this should make you understand what kind of person he is, "raises his hands in the air and continues," after all that's happened ... I really do not understand you Med, believe me, I'm I am trying but I can not understand you, "snorts and backs.
"No one can understand it, much less hope someone can do it, because it would mean that he heard the same flames send his soul to ashes" my eyes are full of pain I feel at the memory of that night. The bell interrupted our discussion, I observe the Noha face that changes expression, and if you knew him so well, I would think almost see me before she, Cox.
I open the door without looking away from him who does not comment on the situation and lends itself to enjoy it as a spectator. In front of me there's just Courtney with her clothes on Monday for the Campus.
"What the heck do you want to Cox? I think you and I we said it all! 'Rest stops on the threshold without giving way to enter.
"Not really, as were most of the night out with my boyfriend" A laugh escapes taste the full knowledge of the "boy" that lingers in his mind so twisted.
I let her go because I think tonight and Zac have reported, after the storm, the real Medyson toward shore.
"Leave us alone," I order turning to Noha, popping look at Cox and walks away without replying heading upstairs
"Then, you hear what you want to complain about this time? Even Zac h
as been harassing you? "Teases me, trying to make me shoot. Underneath all the foundation and the mask that has been created, I no longer recognize my best friend, I wonder what would have them do to deserve that treat me well.
"I do not know what you mean 'surplus of a step and continuous," you know what it means to be harassing? "Another step to shorten the distance between us, his eyes begin to divert my gaze.
"You know what it's like to feel something in your body does not agree, he does not want and disgusted to the point of almost want to throw up? To hear you do evil, an evil that takes hold of your body making him almost die! You know? "Surplus again and this time back off, bangs the table behind her and deviates continuing to retreat.
"To hear someone gasp of pleasure for your pain, that does not stop and continues until riversarti her pleasure him, marchiandoti like an animal. You know what it's like Cox? DID YOU KNOW? "Cry and Noha emerges from the stairs. I see that her lips begin to tremble.
"He ... he just said you did a little 'difficult ..." I can not follow his speech. He? Of what he's talking about?
"I did not think ..." stutters visibly embarrassed, confused blabbering half-words that I can not settle in lucid manner. Noha he puts next to me after hearing the speech.
"Which are you talking Cox fuck him?" She asks, "COX SPEAKS!" Orders and almost lashes out against her. I had never seen so against him. Courtney sinks into the couch followed by incessant sobs that come out of his mouth. Lost I look around the unlikely event that flashes in the mind, that she knew everything from the beginning. But it can not be true ... is not making me a things.
Zac
I look at it again a couple of seconds before I leave. His face is relaxed and I'm happy to know I will be the cause. I will arrange all this, I have to talk to Courtney, I can not pretend to feel something for her when in reality my heart plummets at the thought of those blue eyes like the ocean, clear skin, soft and velvety scent of lavender.
A perfume that I hated, but on her has the opposite effect, he manages to stun me and make me forget about the rest of the world. I breathed in deeply, breathed his own breath, impadronirmene I wanted to have something of her inside me.
Shortly afterwards the studio, I see Ian's shirt hanging on the doorknob mo ' "Do not Disturb", which tells me that it's not just, but I can not do as usual, we have to go both to sign the contract.
Busso, one, two, five times. Eventually within.
"Ian I'm coming!" Scream, opening the door and covering my eyes, the last time I did it I had a vision of him was fucking the girl upside down all day.
I hear the roar of the shower and throw a sigh of relief, but then I realize that the shower also serves to me, I start to scream and hit the strongest door that I can.
"Man, there's a lady with me," does it with a gesture of the head to the inside of the shower.
"Idiot, we sign" growl and feel patience almost vanish for its lack in a matter so important as this. From its well-known expression that had just slipped my mind.
"Kerol Karolin ... ... Karen?" He says trying to attract the attention of the girl, who shortly after leaving the shower wrapped in "my" towel.
"Kimberly asshole!" She says in response, he scratches his head in a confused way, "I swear I was gonna say" amused laugh and I take my things holding back and go to take a shower.
I think back to Medyson and what he is thinking of me, but I would like to call it, I do not want to be too intrusive. What's going through is too bigger than her that I want to be sure you do not hurt her in any way.
After wearing a black jeans and a polo shirt, I put my black Converse tuned to the shirt and I go by Ian seems to have dressed for the beach.
"Do not you introduce yourself as well!" I point my hand what he wears. It looks strange to do, as if it was all right. Shooting off the only decent Jeans which owns and launch them to him followed by my shirt, the one I had at dinner. Its have too many skulls and crosses prints.
"Will you joking?" Says holding in his hands the shirt as if it were contaminated almost
"Just for today, we have to sign for our future," I do leverage our dream that you are going to achieve. After a tug on the matter, we are finally headed machine to Sixthyfive Records.
Ian's face lost in the palace overlooking the coast is priceless. To cross the entrance, sign those papers is the one-way ticket for what we waited all my life. What I expect so much for my Daphne. We look at a moment, to think, he gives me a shove.
"128bpm?" Our way of saying "we rock"
"You bet." We enter, a secretary who was waiting for our arrival leads us directly to the office of Courtney's father, Richard.
He opened the door and they both drag us inside. The tension begins to increase. A thousand thoughts together bombard my head. Richard with making hospitality makes us sit. Ian is agitated, give him a pat on the shoulder, and mentions a crooked smile that I had never seen on his face, it's almost comical as he tries a normal and suitable position in the chair.
"Boy, wait for my lawyer with documents and we kick off this new partnership," communicates with more enthusiasm than I expected.
The door behind us shortly after opening, a stylish guy in a dark blue suit enters the room. It rests on the desk contracts, Richard takes them and after examining it puts one in front of me and the other in front of Ian.
"If you have something to ask you to consult with Mr. Snyps, sorry today are a bit 'distracted. He is my legal company, not the son of my best friend "The man after a polite smile turned to Richard, holds out his hand towards me to show up.
"Zac, Zac Kinney, please," I say, reciprocates the close.
"Eddy, Eddy Snyps, the pleasure is mine '
Chapter
23
Medyson
"The words hit, wound and remain there,
suspended in your memory ... to resurface
and not make you forget that suffering "
The voice of Noha it trembles, looks up at him, seems confused, then sobs cease unexpectedly. Bring hands to his face and calmly stops the few tears that had invaded her face.
It raises the couch and advancing towards us, I can no longer speak, to think, because it has all of the absurd.
"Cox, I've asked you a question!" Thunders Noha, on its face appears an unexpected grin.
"You know ...," plays with long necklace bearing on turquoise polo and continues with indifference, "I knew this day would come, she, the dear and sweet Medyson. Did you ever drooled admit Noha behind ... "
In a bad way he takes her by the arm and shook her as if to that person who is talking came out from his body.
"But you listen to you when you speak? You just mentioned a he ...» yanked decided manages to free himself from the grip of Noha.
"Do not touch me! Do you believe him of course, those who do not just believe it? Yes, yes, I know that is seen with a guy, because I was the one to give him the Medyson contact. I just wanted to help her escape from her imprisonment in this villa "she says theatrically looking around.
"But it certainly is not what happened told afterward. I know Eddy always, it is not capable of such a thing. Med has drunk as he did at parties then throw him to the kids and run immediately after the arms of Kylian to complain! "
Beginning to lose a few beats to hear the calm with which those words come out of his mouth.
"You wanted to help me? You wanted to HELP? "I cross Noha which is in the midst of both," he raped me Courtney, you realize that. That man raped me! "
She does not flinch this time, in fact leans toward me, his eyes are expressionless and almost did not recognize who the person in front of me. Just before he was sobbing on the couch and the next he is standing in front of me and seems to defy me.
"I do not believe you, I'm sorry, I just wanted to help, but you obviously like your usual wanted all the attention on you. You had to beg to get out, you had to listen to your monologues about how we were addressing the pain for the loss of Kylian ... you knew it, you
've always known and have never done anything! "
His eyes are bloodshot, his anger is palpable but not as much as my I hear it go up along the spine and be in the soul space occupying it entirely.
"Do not ... you name it ... more. He do not want and never wanted you! Do you tolerate because you were my friend! "I scream in my face that she never wanted to hear.
"You wanted that I let my place at his side, right? But you never knew what was between us was something different from any kind of love ... "Courtney bursts into laughter, I turn to Noha that wrong-footed as I was switching hands in his face for frustration.
"Look Medyson" with a hand gesture indicating my person from head to toe.
"You're not going to stop anything, but you know what? I pull out, take also Noha, but only if you think you can take Zac ... well 'know that this time we will not be able! She and your little story of the poor victim 'starts to leave but stopped.
"Just one question," My mildly he surprised even myself, "because little is crying if you do not believe what happened to me?" Raises a well-defined eyebrows and slanting his mouth in a grimace.
"Because it was fun to see your face shed a few shades of color, and you know something else?" He comes close to my ear, lowering his voice.
"If you're not far from Zac, his poor little sister will end up somewhere and we do not want this to happen real Med?" Dodges waiting for my reaction, but I stare at an indefinite point in front of me.
"As expected," he adds, and after a tap on the shoulder is towards the door slamming behind him.
I feel something inside me that is broken, slide to the ground and I can not breathe.
"Med, breathe, take deep breaths," his voice is so far away and yet she is here by my side, I feel his arms on my shoulders, but I look like I will not be here anymore. All that said, every word, thundering in my head hurts and wears down what little is left of me.
"I can not believe that I said those things, but who is this Eddy? Now you have to tell me! "Noha demands for answers while leading me to the couch for me to sit.
"I will not talk about it now, indeed, I want to be alone"
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