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The presence of a female at my back and her hands about my waist echoed the question of, ‘what on Earth was I going to do with this woman?’ like the ringing of a gong heralding the start of something new.
She’d said that I owed her my life in exchange for taking hers and in a twisted way she was right. What was I going to do?
I stopped in the hills above a small sleepy seaside village. Shutting the bike off I dismounted and effectively escaped the touch of the woman that just wouldn’t go away.
My head was throbbing with the events of the past 72 hours. I still wasn’t quite sure if I wasn’t imagining all this somehow.
Pointing to the village I said, “Go! Here take money and this.” I said, as I shucked a small 9mm out of an ankle holster and handed it to her.
She took the items, but she was shaking her head no, “You’re not getting off the hook that easy.”
In exasperation I turned away from her for a moment before turning back to her. Feeling in the need to shout I instead said as controlled as I could, “Allow me explain. You dead. I mean they think you dead. That’s good! Go live life and be free! Stay with me and be dead quickly! They find us. I’m not safe to be with. You deserve much more. Yes, I…… I’m very sorry for what I did to you. I bad man and you should go now!”
I made to move past her to the bike, which she had just dismounted from. I tried to ignore her and my back was to her when I heard her say, “They already know I’m alive.”
I hesitated and then said, “No, I don’t think. I……”
“You’re not that well in control Victor. At least not as much as you like to think you are.”
I stopped at what I was doing to turn and look at the woman I had killed and yet still looked upon me with compassion, of all things.
“You didn’t choose to be infested did you. You don’t like it either do you. You try to hide the elements of what remains of you and only do enough to be let off the hook and not disciplined, but you can’t stay awake forever can you. You’re afraid of what will happen when your control slips and the manifesting dark entities that they split into your identity take hold aren’t you? I said it before and I’ll say it again Victor. I think you make a very good bodyguard.”
I didn’t know what to do and it was harder and harder to stand still as the urge to flee was pressed upon me increasingly by the others that shared my form. The very knowledge that they were afraid of this woman though made me resist to stay where I was all the harder.
She came closer and reaching her hands up she touched the sides of my heavily sweating face gently and said, “You want to be free don’t you.”
“Yes!!!” I gritted out with every fiber of my being even as my voice was threatened to be choked out by the dominion of others.
“Then you have to trust me. What is your full name?”
“Victor Allienko.” I managed to get out as I felt on the verge of passing out.
Oh no! I lost control!
As if through a window I saw the change in the moment take place that always terrified me. My voice changed and my body became controlled by others. Many others.
Helpless to stop it I watched my hands grip around the woman’s throat. I watched her hands come up to grip my wrists and the next moment my body was lifted and body slammed down against the ground in such a way and with a force as had never happened to me before.
What was happening? She was leaning over me pressing one hand against my chest with what felt like the weight of a boxcar train.
The entities were screaming and howling to the point that it was horrible to my own ears and yet all the while she was looking into my eyes in such a way as if she was seeing the real me. Speaking softly she said with a grace that carried over the din my taken over body was making, “I’m not without defense.”
Her demeanor changed and her focus was no longer on me and yet it was. “You were not wanted to start with and you are no longer welcome and I cast you out in the name of Yeshua.”
The growling increased and I felt on the verge of being ripped apart.
“Silence! Are you able to resist He who bears the Name above all other names?”
“No!!!” They answered in fright.
“Then be gone from here!” Desirée pressed.
“We have rights!” They answered.
“No you don’t and besides I claim him.”
“You have no claim!!!” They shrieked.
“Yes I do and you know well why it is that I do.”
“He’s not under the blood! He’s not saved!”
“Not yet, but still that gives you no claim.”
“He’s ours!!!” They whined.
“He’s his own and his choice yet remains. How about it Victor?”
Finding voice for the first time I said, “I’m yours!”
She shook her head no, grasping her hand I said, “I serve you! I speak the truth!”
Looking into my eyes she gazed for a moment before saying, “I am myself a servant. I am under the authority of my Master.”
“And I you!” I insisted.
She looked as if to protest, but stifled it.
“I serve you!” I repeated desperately. It had been a very long time since I had felt as free as I did now. There was not anything I wouldn’t do for this woman.
Her eyes sparked and softly she said as if she’d just read my thoughts, “If there’s nothing you wouldn’t do for me then you have to trust me when I say that simply serving me in this life isn’t enough to ensure a future free of the demons that you were just freed from.”
My eyes traced up to the faint scar on her forehead. She hadn’t healed that wound by herself. Even as I knew evil I knew there was the opposite of it as well.
The only problem was that I had been actively engaged against the right side for a long time. I had done unspeakable things in the pursuit of pleasing my masters and some things just couldn’t be forgiven.
She shook her head, but said nothing more than, “You’ll see.”
She straightened up and suddenly I came back to my full awareness of senses. We were in a lot of danger by being here still.
Coming to my feet I looked at her awkwardly for a moment at a loss as to what to do. What did I say?
Seeming to sense my inner confusion she asked, “East or West?”
Shaking my head I said, “Neither! Avoid roads.”
Smiling she said, “Then lead the way.”
Swallowing I looked toward the north before asking, “Where you want to go?”
“Oh I don’t have a specific destination in mind. Victor, I’m not overly concerned about attracting trouble, as troubles will come and go. There is no place safe for me upon this Earth. I know this and I’ve accepted it, as well as the life that my God has led me to undertake on behalf of His Kingdom.”
Entirely perplexed I gazed at her and asked the only thing that came to my mind, “Then what am I for if not but to protect?”
“The Spirit of God is my ultimate protection. No, you serve a different purpose. Being on the road like I am always can be very lonely and I have need of a companion. It certainly is a help though that you happen to be so talented as you are and all.”
Shaking my head I said, “I don’t understand.”
Taking my hand she said, “You will.” And then she stepped northward. From that day my life has never been the same again.
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